This weekend showed me how unfairly blessed I am to have the best friends anyone could ever ask for. If it was not for them my gauntlet of human emotions might have caused an implosion of unparalleled scale. They managed the impossible and turned my panic to calm, fear to confidence and my pain to joy. They were there when I needed to vent, to cry, and most of all they were there to bitch slap me when I needed it.

You know who you are.

<3

When Marty and Doc are in 1955 looking for the sports almanac, there are 4 DeLoreans in Hill Valley on that date.

1) The first DeLorean is the one Marty took back from 1985 in Part I and is under a tarp near the clock tower.

2) The second DeLorean is the one Old Biff took back from 2015 and is parked outside the Tannen home on the street.

3) The third DeLorean is the one taken back by Marty and Doc from the alternate 1985 and is hidden behind a billboard.

4) The forth DeLorean is the one hidden in a cave by Doc from 1885 in Part III.

Wibbly wobbly timey wimey.

Meh... is it bad that a simple understanding of thermodynamics prevents me from enjoying the werewolf transformations?

I used to pray to “God” to make me straight. I prayed every night, for this “God” to just make me “normal”. I soon began to realize that these efforts were pointless. After multiple restless nights I had decided that if such a being existed, he would not impose such persecution upon anyone, let alone me. I struggled with these feelings for years and even attended Sunday brainwashing sessions on a regular basis. I witnessed the masses of these people ignoring the very teachings they were supposedly following. Then I realized that these people I was surrounding myself with and attempting to emulate were nothing more than an assembly of ignorant, hateful, hypocritical, militant assholes whom had chosen to abandon reason and logic in order to blindly worship the most malicious work of fiction ever created.

Now, I thank my mother (not God) for raising me to be a “free thinker” and allowing me to make my own choices, as opposed to indoctrinating me with her own religious beliefs, even though she is a devout Catholic and does not agree with my viewpoints, she respects me for choosing them on my own. Allowing me to attend a multitude of churches and reading many different holy books in order to find my own way. I thank her every day for allowing me the freedom to do so, I respect her for not forcing me to submit to those obnoxious, hypocritical bible thumpers, and never allowing me to give up my pursuit of knowledge. Thus allowing me to keep my intelligence and sanity.

Why not. *jumps on bandwagon*

post the symbol, let me know what you think about me :3

SINGLE OR NOT put this as your journal & see what you get

♥ = I want a relationship with you

C: = I'm falling for you

:3 = I miss you

;] = i really like you

:* = I want to kiss you

:< = I hate you

: X = I like you

O: = I like you but im in a relationship

:/ = I like you but your in a relationship

:] = You're cute

</3 = I regret leaving you

:b = We should get to know each other

;^) = We should hang out

<3 = I love you.. \o/

<:^ = i want to know you

@FT@=*stalk*

eue= You're hot

<:3 = You're a great friend

^_^ = We're friends

^.^ = We're best friends

>;3 = I want you on top

>:3 = I want on top

People are up in arms about Google's new privacy policy, YES I have actually read it and I do understand the concern, but at the same time.. I don't. Most users of Google are all using the services anyways!

Google was already tracking you. You're not paranoid, The company is just being a bit more open about it now. The entire point of the unification is exactly what people have been asking for from company's like Facebook and Google for years.

Do you or I really care if Lattitude, Gmail and YouTube all share information with each other?. Well, yes I do but it's part of the cost of being online. Plus Google provides tools to allow us to somewhat control the type of information is publicly available.

So unless we spend a good chunk of time browsing the web like its 1995, Accept it and move on. I certainly don't plan on giving up my shared calendars, Gmail or Google documents, Do you?.

Everything in life has this wonderful way of working itself out. Lets call it life's auto-correct feature.

I have said "everything will work out, even if its not the way you intended it to" and have been told I am a moron for saying it. To be honest I really do think that regardless of the situation or how things end up happening you need to keep reminding yourself that what happened HAPPENED and can not be changed, your choices are what brought it to where your are, leaving 5 minutes late put on on the train that broke down, etc, Is that your fault? not at all. its just what happened. Life just happens. Mistakes are made and we either learn to accept that, or we don't and continue to dwell on them causing us to be in pain. This is where the "auto-correct" fits in. You could also call it the universal cock slap, the wake up to get your shit together and keep going to where your going. Its when you keep doweling on the past or worrying about a mistake, situation, whatever when you realize "Fuck that's dumb, not important, not worth worrying about, etc." Then you are back on your way again, with a greater understanding of how to not be a little bitch and accept things as they are. If I was meant to get home at a decent time tonight my car would not have broken down, but It would not have broken down if I had not drove, If I had not drove I would not have seen my friend, etc etc etc, you can go back to the stone age with causality, just don't let it bother you. In the end the people who matter are there for you, in the end the ones who love you still love you, in the end you got home safely.

That is all that matters.

<<I'm Drunk, this makes sense to me so whatever>>

Sitting here spending time with my parents and realizing how blessed I truly am to have such a wonderful group of friends and parents who love me, (even though my parents are crazy).

I tend to not like the phrase "remember the reason for the season" since Christmas has been hijacked by Christians and Catholics etc. but all Pegan/religious B.S. aside, I look at the holidays as time to be grateful that you have good friends and family in your life and remembering that you are loved.

So without further adu.

Happy Christmahanaquanzika / Festivus

ALL | ABOUT | ME
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- Name: Metro
- Single or taken: Single
- Sex: Male
- Birthday: May 22
- Sign: Tauremini
- Hair color: Light Brown
- Eye color: Hazel
- Height: 5'9
- Are you straight/bisexual/gay?: Gay
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S P E C I F I C S
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- What kind of shampoo do you use?: Nioxin
- What are you listening to right now?: Family Guy
- Who is the last person that called you?: Preston
- How many buddies are online right now?: a few
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F A V O R I T E S
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- Animal: Wolf
- Color: Blue
- Drink: Sweet Tea
- Element: Water
- Food: Mediterranean
- Game: Puzzles
- Movie: Return to OZ
- Song: Honestly anything with a good beat.
- Subjects in school: Science, CIS
- T.V: Doctor Who
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H A V E | Y O U | E V E R
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- Given anyone a bath? Yes... baby sister, NO PEDO!
- Smoked?: Never
- Bungee jumped?: Nope
- Made yourself throw up?: Yes.
- Skinny dipped?: Multiple times.
- Ever been in love?: Yup yup
- Made yourself cry to get out of trouble?: Negative
- Pictured your crush naked?: <.<
- Actually seen your crush naked?: Do cellphone pictures count? >.>
- Cried when someone died?: Oddly No.
- Lied: Everyone Lies.
- Fallen for your best friend?: Yes.
- Used someone?: Yes, not one of my finer moments.
- Done something you regret?: Sadly yes, but life is full of regrets.
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C U R R E N T
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- Clothes: Jeans, and Helix shirt.
- Desktop picture: Chell sitting in the rain (backgrounds cycle automatically)
- CD in player: What in the world would I need a plastic disk for?
- DVD in player: See Above.

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L A S T | P E R S O N
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- You touched: Street
- Hugged: Co-Worker Laurin
- You kissed: Stormdrain fox.
- You imed: Tailly
- Talk to online: Holden
- You sexed it up with: Myself.
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A R E | Y O U
___________________________________________________________________________

- Understanding?: I try to be.
- Open-minded?: I think I am.
- Arrogant?: sometimes.
- Insecure?: sometimes.
- Random?: I can be.
- Hungry?: when there is good food around.
- Smart?: *grin*
- Moody?: Yea....
- Organized?: Borderline OCD
- Shy?: Sometimes
- Difficult?: stuck in my ways.
- Bored easily?: sometimes.
- Entertained easily?: not often.
- Obsessed?: nope.
- Lazy?: eh.
- Angry?: with reasons.
- Happy?: not as much as I should be.
- Hyper?: Nope.
- Trusting?: sometimes to a fault.
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R A N D O M
___________________________________________________________________________

- In the morning I: crack my ankles repeatedly.
- Love is: always just out of reach.
- I dream about: Things.
- What do you notice first in the sex you're into: eyes.
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D O | Y O U | E V E R
___________________________________________________________________________

- Sit on the internet all night waiting for that someone special to IM you?: I have in the past.
- Wish you were a member of the opposite sex?: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH No.
- Wish you were younger?: eh. I think I am good.
- Cry because someone said something to you?: Yea..
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N U M B E R
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- Of times I have had my heart broken?: Twice
- Of Cd's I own: NO PLASTIC DISKS!!!
- Of scars on my body: 13
- Of bones I've broken: Fractured one, never broken.

After feeling kind of down on myself for a few days for not being where I thought I should be in life, I have realized all is not as it seems. After seeing co-workers buying houses, cars, nice clothing etc, I now realize I am better off than they are.

They have thousands and thousands of dollars in debt, including school loans, car loans, credit debt, and home loans on worthless homes. In comparison, I realized I am pretty well off. I don’t have a car payment (own my car), no upside down mortgage (fairly reasonable rent) no outrageous school debt (Junior college with scholarships). My debt to income ratio puts me in the positive overall, as opposed to digging myself out for 30-50 years. Granted I do plan on obtaining a new car and a home at some point in time, but seeing my co-workers bitch about money in the way they do and worry about every little thing makes me realize that it’s best to wait until I’m financially prepared, rather than jump at the first chance.

It may be a grim way to look at this, but If I were to drop dead right now, my entire debt could be wiped out by selling my 13 year old car for a few hundred bucks. The more I think about the overall situation, the better I feel.

In other words I may not live in a mansion or drive a brand new sports car, but I live well within my means, and would say for the most part I am pretty stable. And that is an amazing feeling.

Stolen from  kody

FAKE FRIENDS: identify themselves when they call.
REAL FRIENDS: don't have to.

FAKE FRIENDS: open a conversation with a full news bulletin on their life.
REAL FRIENDS: says, "What's new with you?"

FAKE FRIENDS: think the problems you whine about are recent.
REAL FRIENDS: say, "You've been whining about the same thing for 14 years. Get off your duff and do something about it."

FAKE FRIENDS: have never seen you cry.
REAL FRIENDS: have shoulders soggy from your tears.

FAKE FRIENDS: don't know your parents' first names.
REAL FRIENDS: have their phone numbers in their address book.

FAKE FRIENDS: hate it when you call after they have gone to bed.
REAL FRIENDS: ask you why you took so long to call.

FAKE FRIENDS: seek to talk with you about your problems.
REAL FRIENDS: seek to help you with your problems.

FAKE FRIENDS: act like a guest when visiting.
REAL FRIENDS: open your refrigerator and help themselves.

FAKE FRIENDS: think the friendship is over when you have an argument.
REAL FRIENDS: know that it's not a friendship until after you've had a fight.

FAKE FRIENDS: expect you to always be there for them.
REAL FRIENDS: expect to always be there for you!

FAKE FRIENDS: will tell you what you want to hear.
REAL FRIENDS: will always tell the truth.

FAKE FRIENDS: will be there for you all through school.
REAL FRIENDS: will be there till the day you die.

FAKE FRIENDS: brings a bottle of wine to your party.
REAL FRIENDS: comes early to help you cook and stays late to help you clean.

FAKE FRIENDS: wonders about your romantic history.
REAL FRIENDS: could blackmail you with it.

FAKE FRIENDS: is someone you enjoy hanging out with.
REAL FRIENDS: is someone you need.

FAKE FRIENDS: Never ask for food.
REAL FRIENDS: are the reason you have no food.

FAKE FRIENDS: Call your parents Mr/Mrs
REAL FRIENDS: Call your parents DAD/MOM

FAKE FRIENDS: bail you out of jail and tell you what you did was wrong.
REAL FRIENDS: Would sit next to you saying "Damn ... we fucked up ... but that shit was fun!"

FAKE FRIENDS: Borrow your stuff for a few days then give it back.
REAL FRIENDS: keep your shit so long they forget its yours.

FAKE FRIENDS: know a few things about you.
REAL FRIENDS: Could write a book about you with direct quotes from you.

FAKE FRIENDS: Will leave you behind if that is what the crowd is doing.
REAL FRIENDS: Will kick the whole crowds ass that left you.

FAKE FRIENDS: Would knock on your front door.
REAL FRIENDS: Walk right in and say "I'M HOME!"

FAKE FRIENDS: Are for awhile.
REAL FRIENDS: Are for life.

FAKE FRIENDS: Will take your drink away when they think you've had enough.
REAL FRIENDS: Will look at you stumbling all over the place and say "Bitch drink the rest of that. You know we don't waste."

FAKE FRIENDS: Will talk shit to the person who talks shit about you.
REAL FRIENDS: Will knock them the fuck out

FAKE FRIENDS: Will Just Read This
REAL FRIENDS: Will Re-post This

You may have heard me speak the quote "It's easier to ask for forgiveness than it is to get permission" But have you ever wondered where it originated or why I use it?

Way back when I was a wee pup still in CIS 101 at JJC we did a case study of the Harvard Mark 1, which was programed by Rear Admiral Grace Murray Hopper. Just look at the name of that computer Harvard Mark 1 it’s got to be old, like really really old, try 1944 OLD!

So wait... if it’s from the 40’s your telling me not only did this chick program this thing but she was a SHE?!?! That’s crazy talk, Woman can’t program computers! Not only did she program, she developed the first computer compiler and was one of the lead developers for the programing language COBOL. When told she should leave the work to the men, she would often just complete the work and when confronted say "It's easier to ask for forgiveness than it is to get permission"

Even today we use some of the terms she originated - like "debugging." When fixing the Mark II, she removed a dead moth from the system. When asked what the holdup was she replied with I’m "debugging" the system.

This amazing person fought in WWII, programed one of the first supercomputers, created a programming language and was instrumental in creating a set of standards for all computers and components.

This woman this amazing woman has balls of steel and they are bigger than yours.

Long unrelated events led me to find out I can get the HTC Inspire (AT&T) from Costco for 0.01¢ waived activation fee, car charger case and headset... But I had planned on switching to Verizon in a few months and had been heavily considering the HTC Thunderbolt (not currently available at Costco). After some quick goggling I discovered they are both essentially the same phone with very minor differences. One of which is the front facing camera. (Not sure it’s a real selling point) But all and all it looks to be a better deal for me to stay with AT&T, get the shiny new phone over spending 259.00 plus tax to switch to Verizon... from what I can tell the service will end up costing me just about the same regardless, and the internet is full of one is better than the other and vice versa. I have two days to make up my mind if I want the AT&T deal after which the phone goes up to 99.99..

Soooo…

Thoughts?

 holden & I were at the Chicago autoshow talking about various things and heard the song Tom's Diner and was reminded of how important that song is to all of us and yet most don't realize why.

How many of you listen to music exclusively on an iDevice of some sort? Well you owe that to Susan Vega. Why do you ask? Well simply put this dude Karlheinz Brandenburg who is an audio engineer heard Susan Vega on the radio singing Tom's Diner and though to himself OH SHIT! That voice is so clean, so crisp, surly it would be nearly impossible to compress it............ After a few weeks or so he ends up creating the first MP3 which was.. Tom's Diner by Susan Vega.

So in short we owe much of our current music listening, purchasing and distribution to a not all that well know folk singer singing about stepping into a diner for a cup of coffee.

From Wikipedia:

Suzanne Vega's song "Tom's Diner" was used as the reference track in an early trial of the MP3 compression system, earning her the distinction of being the Mother of the MP3. It was chosen because her a cappella vocal with relatively little reverberation was used as the model for Karlheinz Brandenburg's compression algorithm.[7] Brandenburg heard “Tom's Diner” on a radio playing the song. He was excited and at first convinced it would be “nearly impossible to compress this warm a cappella voice.”

 metro You should be be a Horse Walrus
 holden LOL
 holden I'd rather be a Horse Narwhal
 holden Horwhal
 metro .... Thats a unicorn ya fag.
 holden oh god it is
 metro next yourgonna want a robotic limb and rainbow hair.
 holden I'd do it if i get the music as the soundtrack to my life
 metro Call you Erasure T. Horwhal
 holden ok fine you're right a horse narwhal is a unicorn.

What was just going to be an extended weekend trip to celebrate  nekomon 's birthday turned into a week long vacation.

Thanks everyone for making it a great one, I could stay longer but should leave on a good note and not overstay my welcome.

You guys are amazing as always.

<3

if you say "baby don't hurt me" I might laugh and cry at the same time, but what does one do when they are the one who did the hurting? They hurt the one they loved and no matter what they do just cant fix it. how does one come back from that? how are you supposed to stop the jealousy when the one who was yours moves on and you cant?

Yea I am talking about myself. Part of me wants to just be happy for him, and the other part wants to just throw myself at his feet. A good friend told me that sometimes you simply don't get a second chance, and I fear this is one of those times. That sucks but such is life.

Regardless Love is knowing when to let go even if you don't want to. Love is still being there if you are needed. Love is not getting upset at someone else happiness. Love is hard.

You know what? you are right up there with Fox and not knowing your audience, you killed Farscape back in the day just to replace it with "tremors the series" What the fuck were you thinking?? Now you kill Caprica and pull the last 5 episodes just to twist the knife and show how much you hate your viewers. The people you are targeting with your programing do not sit in front of the TV at a designated time to watch a show live, they download it from iTunes or watch it on Hulu, get off your fucking high horse A.K.A Nilson rating system and GET WITH THE FUCKING PROGRAM!

FUCK YOU FOX, FUCK YOU SYFY and fuck you all!

In case you cant tell I AM PISSED OFF!

Where are you staying?
The main hotel, Executive wing.

What day are you getting there?
I live here. =0p

How long are you going?
See above.

Who will you be with?
Rooming with Truegrave, Nekomon, Hakawne & possibly Calamity

What is your gender?
*looks down* Yea I have a penis.

How old are you?
I am gay dead...

How tall are you?
5'10 I think.

What suits will you have?
Metro, just an average wolf with some cybernetic shit on my arm.

Can I touch you?
Maybe if you ask first and don't smell like ass.

Can I talk to you?
Sure! But I can assure you I am rather boring.

Can I take pictures with you?
Don't see why not.

Are you nice?
That is a matter of opinion. but I would like to think yes.

Can I stalk you?
only if you are in the stalker union.

Can I buy you lots of drinks?
YES! AND KEEP THEM COMING!

Can I hug or snuggle you?
If I know you yes, if I don't... then most likely not.

Do you do trades?
I can trade you banter for booze.

Do you have an artist table?
Nope.

Do you like parties?
*grin* do you really need to ask?

What should I not do around you?
...

If I see you, how should I get your attention?
Say hello Metro and extend a paw, however If I have my staff badge on and am running at you, I advise you to get out of the way or I may run you over. =0p

Still no luck on the job front, In the last 30 days I have had 7 interviews and 2 short temp jobs. The Walgreen's position is supposedly still there, they just don't have a start date. (sometime in November) I had yet another interview today in which I bombed... So I sent out my resume to another few companies. I remain hopefully optimistic.

I asked my old boss if I could come back to work for him, but he is currently fully staffed. However I think I may have convinced him that he needs another set of paws to keep things running at a decent pace. *crosses fingers* He said he would think about it and get back to me by the end of the week.

As a stop gap I also placed an ad on Craigslist for in home computer repair, I advertised that I will do any job for less than Geek Squad, here is hoping for a few hits on that.

*shrug*

I just have to keep reminding myself that things always have a way of working themselves out.

Rules:
1. You can ONLY answer Yes or No .


Kissed any one of your Facebook friends? ---Yes
Been arrested? ---Yes
Kissed someone you didn't like? ---Yes
Slept in until 5 PM? --- Yes
Fallen asleep at work/school? ---Yes
Ran a red light? ---Yes
Been suspended from school? ---Yes
Experienced love at first sight? --- Yes
Totaled your car in an accident? --- No
Been fired from a job? --- Yes
Fired somebody? ---Yes
Sang karaoke? ---No
Pointed a gun at someone? --- No
Done something you told yourself you wouldn't? ---Yes
Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? ---Yes
Caught a snowflake on your tongue? --- Yes
Kissed in the rain? ---No
Had a close brush with death (your own)? --- Yes
Seen someone die? ---Yes
Played spin-the-bottle? ---Yes
Sang in the shower? ---Yes
Smoked a cigar? --- No
Sat on a rooftop? --- Yes
Taken pictures of yourself naked? ---Yes
Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes? ---Yes
Skipped school? --- Yes
Eaten a bug? --- Yes
Sleepwalked? ---Yes
Walked a moonlit beach? ---No
Ridden a motorcycle? --- Yes
Dumped someone? --- Yes
Forgotten your anniversary? ---No
Lied to avoid a ticket? ---No
Ridden on a helicopter? ---No
Shaved your head? ---No
Blacked out from drinking? ---No
Played a prank on someone? ---Yes
Hit a home run? ---Yes
Felt like killing someone? ---Yes
Cross-dressed? --- Yes......... (Dont Ask)
Been falling-down drunk? ---Yes
Made your girlfriend/boyfriend cry? ---Yes ;_;
Eaten snake? --- No
Marched/Protested? --- No
Had Mexican jumping beans for pets? --- Yes
Puked on amusement ride? --- No (refuse to ride those things)
Seriously & intentionally boycotted something? --- HELL YES!
Been in a band? ---No
Knitted? --- No
Been on TV? --- Yes
Shot a gun? ---No
Skinny-dipped? ---No
Caused someone to need stitches? ---Yes
Ridden a surfboard? ---No
Drank straight from a liquor bottle? ---Yes
Had surgery? --- Yes
Streaked? --- No
Taken by ambulance to hospital? ---No
Passed out when not drinking? --- Yes
Peed on a bush? --- Yes
Donated Blood? ---No
Grabbed electric fence? ---No
Eaten alligator meat? --- No
Eaten cheesecake? ---Yes
Eaten kids' Halloween candy? ---Yes
Killed an animal when not hunting? --- Yes (Sorry little furry guy) *splat*
Peed your pants in public? --- Yes
Written graffiti? --- No
Still love someone you shouldn't? --- Yes
Think about the future? ---Yes
Been in handcuffs? ---Yes
Believe in love? ---Yes
Sleep on a certain side of the bed? ---Yes

...

Today is a bittersweet day for me as Micro Electronics decided to terminate my employment with them. The long and short of it is I was a whistle blower regarding the legality of there scheduling practices and then they found a technicality to fire me with. 3 days ago it was trying to let me go for violating the non compete agreement, which I proved to be wrong, then a day later it was vulgarity towards other employee and then the same day, it was... get this... An OSHA Violation that ended my employment.

Lesson learned?

Yup, even when its right shut your fucking muzz.

On one paw I am happy to be out of that living hell, on the other the lack of having steady employment has me a bit worried, I have applied for unemployment and moved some money into my checking from my savings, as well as having my 3rd interview with a promising company on Thursday and being offered a job at an electronics repair shop in Vernon hills, I am hopeful things will go well. I have also sent out my resume to a few friends I have in H.R. and some others that have requested it, but there is always that looming fear in the back of my head telling me "you fucked up" "Your going to fail" etc etc etc.

*sigh* I just need to relax and enjoy a few days off till i sort it all out.

On a more pleasant note  ryou will be here Wed so that will cheer me up, at least until he has to go back home. =0/

Many of you know via Twitter that I threw my back out and Ravid had to take me to Urgent Care. He found me on the floor in the fetal position just outside my room crying in pain. I had called him several times from my phone which I had on me since I was getting ready for work. we eventually got me in an upright position and off to the Doc, bottom line is I have/had a lumbosacral sprain, which basically means OMFG OW! there are no spurs or growths on my spine which was a surprise since for years I have been told that I had a deformed vertebra, not the case, but I am apparently loosing the curvature of my spine and the bones are degenerating. *shrug*

Long story short, was ordered lots of rest and some not so helpful muscle relaxers. ended up calling for better pain pills a few days later, all in all I am able to walk normally now and woke up yesterday & today without any pain. going to try stretches the doc recommended tomorrow.

That's about it I guess, Oh I did drag my ass out today for an interview at a production company, keeping my fingers crossed for that.

Till next time.