Hey all, per the journal header, I’ll be attending Anthrocon in Pittsburgh again this year. Flying in a day earlier than usual—this time on Wednesday instead of the usual Thursday.

The new Anthrocon hotel system screwed me over, so I had to book a room off-site. No biggie, I ended up at the Kimpton Hotel Monaco Pittsburgh, which looks pretty damn nice. For reference, I stayed at the Marriott City Center in 2018, the Omni in 2019, then skipped '20 and '21 for obvious COVID reasons. In 2022 I was at the DoubleTree, where two disasters happened: first, a temporary crown popped off while I was eating breakfast and I thought I lost a tooth; then, as I was leaving Sunday, the elevators were slammed so I took the stairs… and proceeded to eat shit down a steep step, tumbling to the ground floor with all my luggage. Good times.

2023 and 2024 I stayed at the Wyndham Grand. In '23, storms forced me to reroute my flight through Atlanta instead of Minneapolis. In '24, some lunatic brought a sword and tried to stab someone on the fifth floor. Wild.

This year, I get in late July 2 and head back Sunday night on July 6.

To make it worse, I requested the Monday after off to recover… and then got slapped with a jury duty summons for that exact day. I pushed it back to August... fuck that noise.

If you’re going, maybe we’ll bump into each other. If not, catch ya another time!

I created MicrophoneUnderground when I was drunk and wanted to look at Furry Porn. Then overtime I kept it simple and called myself Antifreeze, but I was stuck with the old name for a long time. So since the feature is now active, I am finally Antifreeze.

So, yeah... if and when Twitter bombs, here is a list of Social Media Sites/Contacts I am at.

Mastodon: @Antifreeze@mastodon.social
HIVE: Antifreeze
Telegram: Antibunbun
Discord: @Antifreeze#2335
Tumblr (I don't post anything here really): antibunbun

So today is my 36th Birthday, and while I may be getting older I still feel young to a degree with kinks/fetishes.

Transformation (B) for me, in my own opinion, is the process of taking your current self (A) to your future self ©. Now B can be a short or long process, but B is infinite, but you will reach C. With Transformation though your going to run up into kinks, where in a sense you go, "That seems interesting, but I like only 25% of it."

Some of it is real, and some of it is fantasy-only kinks.

However in a sense what I cannot do, and will not do, is be content. Now going back to personal stuff, but I think as part of being Human is finding yourself, and discovering makes 'you'. When you create content, there is always a part of you that bleeds out into your work, even if it's not 100%. That's because you feel passionate for something. Then again I am not book smart, a lot of my learning has been from watching people/watching a process.

Then again I am a guy who has watched this fandom develop, growing in size.

At times I feel old, but then I still feel young because you see stuff like Inflation/Pooltoy TFs, or stuff that were very niche, start to really pick up and then you get the, "Oh, I can relate to this somewhat."

So keep any open mind, always.

Also don't feel compelled to give the fandom your life. I felt like writing more, but work came along and it pays me well. Spring is a busy, busy season, but I will get back to writing in some form when it dies down a bit.

Stay warm. Stay Healthy!

Ill keep this simple, not getting heavy into sad stuff.

I am not much of an easy going guy, like a lot of people, I come from a blue-collar family. Not a ton of wealth, had to do a paper route for 3 years for Disney World vacation, yada yada.

So with that lack of success, I always knew life would be challenging even more but I would be headstrong and fight. That would be at times doing stuff that people would say, "Don't do this!" but never really asking me why I was doing it.

As I am 34 now, its one of my trademarks. I have an ego that is stubborn, but wanting to prove something.

It goes into my writing.

From my perspective, people will go, "I love to Write TF!"... so does everybody if they, but what the readers want is, "I want someone to show me something that I never knew could be hot."

Transformation is a unpaved road, its old but its new in terms of content. There is stuff that is not created. It takes courage but also confidence to plow the road for people to safety drive on and not fear what they think could be hot.

I want to be the best. I want to be the beacon. Each story I put out there I know will not be 100% liked, but its still 100% of my heart. Its a story that I want to put out there and test myself, push myself closer. I am not satisfied ever with being complacent, I know I can do better, so I must.

But at the same time, I turn it off when it comes to expectations.

People always love the risk takers; either your going to see an awesome stunt or a gnarly crash. Be confident in what you want to put out, be bold.

Here is one my favorite videos of Motivation:

One of the things in my writing that I try to convey, is that I want the reader to be in 'that person's shoes' during a transformation. In doing so, I am revealing a bit about myself and also at times a lie/or exaggeration of what I like.

For example. I like the concept of Footplay, as I find some designs of certain species to be hot to me. Yet I don't find Human feet to be sexy. Even then, I would really only do Footplay stuff if it was very clean.

Also, I find myself unable to get away from Canon stuff that I find attractive because of Aesthetics.

First off, Inuyasha. Not the best Anime, but for me, was the Anime that got me hooked into Anime. I am a mixture of White/Mexican, and he was mixed as well, Human/Demon, so there was a connection. I found though his ears to be so fucking hot in a way. Just the shape of them, they seemed to be something you wanted to chew on because they looked thick. Plus with the canine shape, you wanted to lick the inside.

It's because of that where I have a thing for ears, and playing with them; taking my love of that and incorporating it into my stories.

Also another, My Little Ponies. I am not big into the universe per se, but I have seen some really great artwork where they are bipedal as I am not big onto being on all-fours unless it's for a sexual play thing. Also I find the shorter jaw and cutie marks to be a interesting concept for personality. Most of the problems with Horses for me are just purely "Farm Setting/Male Horse with Big Dick looking to Breed".

One of, and probably my favorite is Applejack. I admit I have a thing for Southern Girls/Country. I imagine her orchard in my mind is really a Apple Cider distillery. She along with other workers bring down the apple to harvest and store to ferment. Wears red/black checker flannel, dusty jeans, have freckles on her body with that stetson hat.

If you read this, I would like to say thank you as this is personal to to me in a way as I want to help you understand my thought process when I write and when I want to discuss fetishes/kinks in my stories.

But I also want you to search as well. Why is Transformation hot? Why do wearing a Gasmask and breathing with it seems hot? Why does being on the ground, and looking up at a Dominant arouse you? Ask yourself these questions with your own kinks and pick out why it's hot.

We all have stuff that gets us in our own ways.

Hey Folks!

I am trying to whip up a quality TF/TG Cow Story in time for Christmas. Also though I had another Journal I wanted to write up, which namely I know alot of people do, but if not then this could be something that gets you!

Namely: The Power of Music. As I always like to listen to music when I write (Movie Soundtracks/Game Soundtracks; Anything where the Vocals don't overpower the mood.)

Now I am 33, so I have had some time laps around the timescale.

Listening to music for certain species, be it writing, or RP, bring in a mood of what I what to convey to people. So in this case for this soundtrack, lets do one from the TOP GUN Soundtrack, "Mighty Wings" by Cheap Trick.



Top Gun, if you haven't seen the movie, is about a Hotshot Air Force pilot who goes to a special school to make him better. With the Air Force, you can immediately think of Dragons, Pegasus Ponies (Normal/MLP) or Birds.

Think about it, the ability to fly, with no safety net. There is no fear of death as they divebomb from above. They can look at the ground from hundreds of feet, then level out before they hit the ground and make a perfect landing.

With this music, you get this attitude of someone fearless, someone brave and doesn't think about heights/death, they just do it on pure instinct.

I encourage people find music, and let it guide you to create, put in that emotion to make a person not just another victim... but someone special.

Thanks for your time!
-Antifreeze

Lately I've seen a lot of people who don't know, or think too deep into transformation when they want to write/art/manipulate/audio/etc.

One of the most common things I do, and it's simplistic, is simplify it up.

Start by asking yourself this: What turns me on? What do I like to masturbate to alot?

Use that as your Fastball. I say this, because I will use a Baseball analogy; STICK TO WHAT YOU KNOW. When a Pitcher in baseball gets into trouble, or his other pitches fails, use your pitch that you know best.

For me: I love Dragons, Rabbits, Cows, Big Cats, Pandas.

So when I start a story, I go, "I want to make a Dragon story." that's it, don't get to in-depth. Then from that, develop the personality, what will the victim be pre- or post-transformed?

Once you have an idea of the species you want to do, and the pre and post, then you've got A, B, and C; with you just having to join them together. For me, I will say, "Island plot". So you have a Dragon/Island, with so much to talk about; beaches, rock formations, volcanos, caves, pirate treasure, etc.

Most importantly, DO IT FOR YOURSELVES. When I create content to push on here, this is about me and what I find arousing and what I "might" find arousing but know other people love. I blend that in and think of how I might be that person, and experience that transformation, and then put that in a story.

All forms of Art, the best, comes from passion and a desire to express what one is feeling. Don't be afraid to put out what makes you happy, and not what makes others happy, because they are looking to you to "lead the way".

Saw on Gryf's journal that we lost someone. While I never heard of this person before, it's still a loss to the community. May you be at peace, wherever your spirit is dude.

RIP to you  fiat

When I started back in 2002, I was pretty tame in consideration to the shit I post now with stories. Call it inexperience or fear, but I always held back when I roleplayed. Although I was 17 at the time, so this whole concept was new.

Then something happened, although I cannot place it.

During my days of High School, I worked at Culver's for money. When I turned 18 though, I began to work in the kitchen, and I was forced to fight or flight because customers needed to be served. It effected me online, because I started to become more confident. At the time I never wrote a tf story, just bad fanfics.

I was though roleplaying on CYOC, and slowly though I became more aroused by doing sexually themed TF's than tame ones. In exploring though, and by repetition, I felt like I could be doing more for a more severe and erotic experience. So I started to not only explore kinks such as footplay, or bdsm, but also in a way become more dominant.

I knew what I wanted, it was just finding a roleplay partner to help explore.

Eventually though I began to discover other peoples kinks, and what they liked, and didn't like. From that I began to say, "Hey lets try writing for FA." but I knew that not everyone was going to read my stories, nor like or comment.

I just wrote though, because I had this burning desire to just put what I felt like in a erotic story out there. And each time I do one know, I feel very proud and liberated that I am able to do so.

All I ask is that you explore who you are, and don't be afraid to express it. Because the more you open up, the less afraid you have to be.

Well I am officially 30, and I don't know how much longer I will be active in the fandom in a sense. I will be in it for a while, and pump out stories for those who want to read them. So don't expect me to retire anytime soon.

Its been a fun ride, as I have been in the fandom, but mostly been a roleplayer since 2002 on sites like CYOC and F-List. Its been a tremendous honor to push out these erotic novels the best I can, and describe a TF as well with plot.

Recently before the Rabbit story, I hit 1000 favs, which I am thankful because I have 0 pieces of art on a predominant artwork site.

So thank you to all the watchers and people who lerk on my stories.

Occasionally in my life, I've had the raw deal and forced to do stuff for myself just because others wouldn't/or just didn't want to help. So in a sense I had to develop a bit of self reliance.

Now if you have read my other journals, or haven't, I have stated I have really no close close friends. So on occasion I would in a sense have to find a way to survive and cure boredom.

Slowly I am coming out of my isolation in a way, but I have a long way to go but getting into RP has helped me get to know peoples darkest desires. So with that in mind, when I RP or write a story, I simply tell myself.

YOU ARE THE BEST FUCKING WRITER ON THIS SITE FOR TF

Now it's not entirely true, but I have this ego where I know I can turn it on at a moments notice. All of my passion, and effort to please my readers on my stories goes into each story with as much detail I can put in. When I am done with each story I see if people really like and how I can improve... grammar is always a big thing for sure.

Its just while I know there are others that are more like and adored, for me I will always tell myself in my head, that they are not bad... but I am better to psyche myself up and to force myself... and to prove myself that I am. If I cannot challenge myself to be the best, then what is the use of doing something.

That's how my life is, and how I have come this far, by never stop believing in myself as a person and by thinking that other people cannot do what I do best because I want it bad... I want it more than what anyone else puts out there because I know I can deliver something to people they have never seen before and inspire them.

You know as I am typing up this story, trying the best I can to appease to my readers who follow me or just stumble upon my stories just because they hit a keyword in search or browsed and took a chance on mine.

I just have to say thanks because while the same story can be said for plenty of people in the fandom, my story is no different.

There are times in my life where I am very depressed and think about my life and what have I done/failed to do/possibly never achieve... and I ask myself why do I continue writing transformation stories when I put so much effort while others lack the quality and time, but get more views/favs/comments.

In this more open socially world, it's easy to get caught up in having people think they like you vs. just admiring you for something they can fap too. Still though I know there are people who maybe in a way want to see more stories and that's just the driving factor.

You see I will say it off the bat that a part of my life, I just don't want to spend here anymore because of how people didn't want to be a part of my life and just didn't want to be associated with me because I just wasn't cool or didn't look the part.

One of the things that compounded too was that I was a only child, so I always wished I had a sibling but it never came to fruition which is just a part of life. There times in my life where because of the isolation, I have manic episodes followed by the occasional crash because I am wondering if I am just self harming myself.

Transformation scenes, really good ones stick with me and because I just cannot draw... I just have to write which has always been my downfall, I just don't understand grammar as I am more a hands on type of person. So just to see some people being able to put up with my stories and enjoy them means alot to me.... even if they never fave them.

If I should leave the fandom or other circumstances arise I'll leave the stories here for people to hopefully develop their own methods to follow and be inspired to write and do better than could ever do as a writter.

Its not much but it feels like at least a part of me meant something in this life.

Anywho, back to the story writing and thanks for reading.

- Antifreeze

Despite my struggles to properly write stories at times is that one of the aspects I have really excelled at in my time in the random since 2002, is the ability to get into the minds of my 'victims' in RP.

I always compare it to be a Freddy Kruger like entity for a person's deepest, darkest and erotic kinks.

There is something interesting, when you get into the mind of someone. They usually are afraid (when first starting in the fandom) to express what they like. Like for the first 3 years, they are like "Yeah, im straight, and im far from gay. I like vaginal sex, and kissing."

Given more time, they slowly go, "I am mostly Bi-Female Pref, interested in living two lives. One a normal person, but then a nightlife of running a dungeon filled with sexual clients with leather outfits."

So when you get through with them...
1. You see their reaction of their dream coming true.
2. You explore their most sexual thing possible at the time.
3. You sometimes find out new kinks of your own.

Random musings I know, but I felt like I had to share this in a way.

Thanks for reading.