anyway, I've had family over for a while and graduated highschool. I'm taking a two week break before I even think about collage again. Oh, and I might have gotten a gf but I'm not sure. aaaand I might be able to start writing cause I been able to talk to more ppl about my issues and am feeling a bit better.

well, I've finally hit that point, the one where you realize you can't go any farther down. I can't do anything anymore without going into a depressive, lonely mess. even school assignments turn into me writing some scrap of poetry talking about me needing someone else in my life. I just want the hurt to end one way or the other. I just need someone to love and hold close. I really just want to hear those two words again that I havn't heard in what seems like forever: "I care"

Okies, now I know I am really late on a whole bunch of stuff, mostly stories. the major reason for this is because I been in a really crappy mood lately. been sad and depressed cause I'm really lonely. I just went through my senior prom and the only dances I got were a few people that were taking pity on me because I was sitting in a corner fighting back tears the whole time (kinda like I am now) anyway, I got the frikken suicide hotline on speed dial just in case I need it. But, yeah, I'm really gonna try my hardest to get out of all this because I made several commitments to all you people out in internet land that I'd get some stories done, but they are gonna be really late so I apologize for that. (and I'm not going to a shrink cause all they did was put me on meds the last three times)

Blatantly stolen from  kingrondo
PM me answers plz
Would you:
1. Give me your number?
2. Let me hug you anytime I wanted to?
3. Let me kiss you?
4. Watch a movie with me...even a really sappy one?
5. Let me take you out to dinner?
6. Drive me somewhere/anywhere?
7. Take a shower with me?
8. Have a fling with me?
9. Listen to me if I called you crying even if you were out with all of your friends?
10. Buy me a drink if i didn't have money?
11. Take me home for the night?
12. Let me sleep in your bed?
13. Sing karaoke w/ me?
14. Sit in the doctors office with me because I didn't want to go alone?
15. Re-post this for me to answer your questions?
16. Come pick me up at 3am because my car ran out of gas in the middle of nowhere?
17. Do you think i'm cute or hot?
18. Do you like my style?
19. Do you think I'm funny?
20. Cry if I died?
21. Dance with me?
22. Sing happy birthday to me?
23. Take advantage of me if I was drunk?
24. Strip for me?

Yeah, so I'm putting up a story that I originally wrote for my ex and me. Her name has been changed and I'm not giving it out. She just made it impossible to get ahold of her for character consent. anyway, I'm still pretty sad about the breakup because I honestly thought we could have been mates (moving 1500 miles away from someone you love can be rough) And btw, if she happens to find and read this, I still love you...

I needs someone to talk to. I just think it would be cool if every now and then, I had some random person message me over Yahoo messenger. I'm a pretty good conversationalist and can talk about just about anything. and, hell, if your just one of those horny pplz that like to do... things over IM, most of the time, I'm up to that as well, I mean, I've written 2 yiff stories already and I'm working on another right now. Oh, it's also how I prefer to get requests for short stories, (they don't HAVE to be yiffy btw). And really, I'll write for anyone. I'm still free and I need practice. And if I got a bunch of requests in really quick, I'd prolly devote more time to it and everyone would get their stories faster, just a very obvious hint =^.^=

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Hello all you happy people. First, I would like to give explanations to the people that I have request orders from. two biggest things: assorted personal and school issues, aaand I bought a Wii tuesday 'nuff said.