hi im going to be vague on the information
police stated that i am allowed to stay on social media for explicitly income reasons. i most likely will still remake social medias, but im expressing nonetheless. i have to take drastic action to protect myself, but it also means losing my income, but if i dont do it the right ways i could get myself attacked again, or killed.
its a tough situation where i have to make a lot of tough calls.

oregon police stated that i must blacklist a specific person from interacting with me and commissioning my work for my safety, due to suspect of impersonation of a trans woman in oregon (using her legal name, address and images without her consent to pass off as her) & said person using impersonation to collect private details and blackmail on random individuals.
all of this is alleged. this is just what oregon police told me after doing 3 wellness checks on [legal name] at [legal residence], and says what [legal name] claimed. ive done my best to report it to police considering for the safety of the individual who alleges they are being impersonated.

despise needing to blacklist this person from future commissions, i am not supposed to publicly spread this impersonator's social media until legal guides me how to do so safely; due to the threats of violence towards me.
so please understand that i will be hesitant to accept commissions & will inquire clients on if they are commissioning on the behalf of "cl./ma.".

if you are found to be interacting with me, or commissioning my content on the behalf of "cl", the impersonator, i will have to publicly blacklist as well as report your public social medias to authorities for my safety. even if you are innocent or were manipulated into doing it, i cannot take any chances and will be forced against my consent to report it to police.

i spoke too soon. i trusted some people in a private friend group, someone did something without my consent and due to them doing that against my consent i do have to worry about my stalker threatening me or outright just having to move accounts again. before it happens

im actually genuinely tired. this is the 5th or 6th move. i actually want to die, not out of a need for death because i very much want to live, but because im just so exhausted that i dont think i could live safety without completely isolating myself from my income & my friends. being in forced solitude for my own safety is actually worse than death, i can understand isolating myself to recover from mental health, upon my own will or otherwise but doing it because a stalker wants me either dead or purposefully isolated genuinely feels entrapping

it was the same problem, too. someone sharing personal pictures or drawings without my permission, them being asked not to and being told "hey, you youve bene told to ask my permission in the first place so you did that fully knowing this could get me killed or assaulted, or worse. can you please apologize or help me fix this problem so im safe again?"
only gets me "fuck you" and "why should i be sorry when i did it because im trying to be a thoughtful friend, why cant you just accept a nice gesture?" and "i did something nice for you and you're so ungrateful! who cares if someones telling you theyll assault you?"

i dont even know if anyone else was doing this against my permission. i dont know if ill move accounts at all or just completely abandon social media entirely but if i stay here as i am, the threats to kill me will keep coming

today, has been a very sad, slow day for me. not to bum anyone out, or to try make people feel bad for me; but sometimes thats just how life is. i would keep this for personal journals but i think such a small little animal deserves to be read about, not just written and forgotten

our hamster passed away in our hands today. he was very old and we were anticipating this due to a tumor we had found a couple weeks back, but its still heartbreaking. he was a important little one and i want people to know that. he was a very strong baby who gave us a lot smiles or bites, and the ways hed beg us for snacks through his habitat would always get us to give him a little extra. every time he looked at us with annoyance as he knew he was getting fresh bedding but had to be woken up. i love you little friend.

he left this world surrounded by warmth, by the two people who loved him the most. who sat there for hours, holding, petting and whispering every little bit that makes him special to us, just to make sure he felt warmth and presence throughout the pain he faced until his very last breath. he is loved, and he is remembered, even for just one little tiny being who can do only so little.

he will be rested at his final resting place once the rain passes, but for now may he rest eternally wrapped in cotton & bedding, with my favorite handtowel; soft and unused, still with its tags saved just for him. may it be the blanket that keeps him warm and reminds him even as he as reunited with the earth, the sand that love will envelop you tight in death and not let you be forgotten.

hi! looking to ask some questions to anyone who may be following me, or see this on my profile!

are there good alternatives to paypal (that are available in canada)? the options i know currently are Ko-FI but im unsure if they're a good platform. in my experience they have been good around 2020 but its been too long for me to know if they've changed up their way of paying out money & fees.

i do have a paypal, of course its just that i would like avoiding using it & avoid remaking it. remaking a paypal account is a whole can of worms i hated doing already once before, considering changing emails doesn't really stop a stalker from harassing you on paypal of all places. because yes, some people are crazy enough to send you money and put in the paypal message "if you dont talk to me by sunday ill hurt you for blocking me" and admit theyre blackmailing you. im sure i still have the emails regarding that somewhere

this is in hopes of reopening adopts again, if not outright opening commissions! my previous adopts using SCPkid bases on old accounts sold very well so id like to do that again here... or even outright try custom designs again. (i plan on opening commissions either way, its more just a fact that opening them with my old paypal is very last resort)

thank you for commenting if you do and have a good day, please stay safe!

i think ill either be working on fixing my page to look less rushed or pause on art for a couple days to work on sculpting. i received more fursuit bases that need to be modified in the mail (before i even receive the faux fur)

how is everyone doing? if you're reading this, how are you? did you have a good meal; and if so what was it? have you had any tasty foods in general, that you'd like to share to the world? because i'd be happy to hear your answers.

for mutuals or anyone just wanting to chat (or unable to message me due to FA's settings for new users), my discord is the same as my original username (midorisphinx) ! i will be selective on who i add but if i dont recognize you just send me a note telling me your user & ill add you.

i want to comment on peoples art but a bunch of artists i enjoy (or are mutuals with) have their settings set so i cant comment unless my accounts older </3 wahhh
anyway i made this post to say happy halloween! not doing much today but im happy to enjoy myself :) about to work on art so we'll see what happens