Hey, Commissioners!
Posted 3 years agoJust to let you know, I'm still trying to get my house in order so I can finally have a place to draw. It's taking a lot longer than I thought it would. The reason is that my dad was housing a majority of my possessions in his storage shed that he rents every month. Only, a couple weeks ago he told me he is getting rid of the shed and if I want to keep any of my things - many of which are expensive computer parts or rare model kits, or models I've built but didn't have room for - I had to get it all and take it someplace else. So I've had to drop my house-cleaning and rearranging to suit my new ideal living conditions and go get the stuff from his shed.
It kinda sucks because I was hoping to get my house in order, then start transporting this stuff up here. But I've been forced to pull everything out and then find places for it all, so I still don't have room to set up the desk I got. My house is a mess and it's really been a drag trying to juggle getting that done and pulling stuff from that shed. Bleeeegggghhhhhh....!
Rest assured, I haven't forgotten any of you, I just have a lot on my plate right now. I'm sorry it's taking this long, too. But I'm not going to accept any more work till I clear my plate. I promise they'll get done!
It kinda sucks because I was hoping to get my house in order, then start transporting this stuff up here. But I've been forced to pull everything out and then find places for it all, so I still don't have room to set up the desk I got. My house is a mess and it's really been a drag trying to juggle getting that done and pulling stuff from that shed. Bleeeegggghhhhhh....!
Rest assured, I haven't forgotten any of you, I just have a lot on my plate right now. I'm sorry it's taking this long, too. But I'm not going to accept any more work till I clear my plate. I promise they'll get done!
Updates to commissions
Posted 3 years agoSo I know I have plenty of people waiting on commissions, and I apologize for going so long without an update, but I wanted everyone to know I'm still plugging away at them amidst trying to finish work for non-babyfur stuff. It's going pretty well, but I keep having to stop and adjust my wrist. It's really hard to draw for more than an hour or so before the pain becomes pretty awful to deal with and I have to stop for the day. I have come up with a solution, however. I was informed that drawing on an inclined plane of some kind would allow my wrist to rest naturally, and so I've decided to invest in an actual drawing desk. Up till now I've been having to hold my sketchpad in my hand in order to draw, and it's a royal pain, but if I had a desk meant for drawing, it would be perfect for getting my work done and not have to break as often. The one I'm eyeing is $138, and it's got holders for pens and pencils, drawers, and a pull-out section I can set my laptop on for pulling up references. Not a bad bargain at all, I must say! So I'm going to try and get that and hopefully get these commissions done. You all have waited a long time, and I think you for your patience.
In other news, I have a Twitter now! It's Vector_Scamp and I'll be putting any updates on there as well as thoughts I have about diapers and life in general. Hope to see you there!
In other news, I have a Twitter now! It's Vector_Scamp and I'll be putting any updates on there as well as thoughts I have about diapers and life in general. Hope to see you there!
Still working on things!
Posted 4 years agoI promise, I'm working on commissions. Thanksgiving's been rather difficult to deal with, though... I spent basically the whole week with my dad, and that's helped, but it's... hard to deal with losing someone so integral to the holidays so close to them. Mom always made a lot of the food for Thanksgiving. I am sure the wound will be reopened on Christmas, too. Ugh... it's so painful sometimes. She was so great... not perfect, but full of love.
In any case, I hate making excuses, but this is mainly why it's been taking so long to get even sketches done. Still, they *are* getting done, and I'll be giving all those who commissioned me updates soon.
In any case, I hate making excuses, but this is mainly why it's been taking so long to get even sketches done. Still, they *are* getting done, and I'll be giving all those who commissioned me updates soon.
My mother passed away
Posted 4 years agoI'm not doing that well, honestly. Probably that's an understatement. I've been trying to process my emotions and get through this, but it's going to be a tough next few days as I deal with the loss of my mom. She was one of the most loving, caring people I ever knew. She'd clear her bank account if it meant I had food on the table and a place to live. I owed her more than I could repay.
Her funeral is on Wednesday, and I'm taking off work and commissions till then. I just need some time right now to properly grieve.
Her funeral is on Wednesday, and I'm taking off work and commissions till then. I just need some time right now to properly grieve.
Delay on commissions
Posted 4 years agoI got a small problem right now. At work on Friday, I was cutting a piece of metal with an angle grinder. I wasn't wearing gloves like I should have been because it was just supposed to be a quick cut. However, I grabbed the angle grinder and felt a sharp pain in my thumb on my right hand. I thought it was just a prick from a bit of metal, but the pain didn't go away. I then realized over the weekend that it was a splinter of metal embedded in my thumb. This is my drawing hand, and I tried doing some sketches this weekend, but if was too painful. I'm going to the doctor tomorrow to get the splinter removed so I can work on drawings.
Made rent!!
Posted 4 years agoThank you SO MUCH to everyone who responded to my emergency commissions journal! I no longer have to worry about being homeless!
Emergency Commissions. Five slots.
Posted 4 years agoHey, I have been taking an art hiatus for the last few months to get caught up on some IRL projects. Times are tough at the moment, though. Had some unexpected bills crop up and I didn't get paid as much as I normally would. I've decided to open my commissions back up temporarily in order to help pay rent. I have five slots available, and these will be rush jobs so you'll have them as soon as I finish them!
Due to the nature of the emergency, I'm going to have to change my usual policy and ask for full price up front. In return, I'll work on these as quickly as possible and give frequent updates via notes.
First come, first served. If more people ask for slots and I feel I can take on the load, I'll accept more commissions.
1.) Sweet Dreams
2.) Chinook_Orca
3.) Cloud Jumper (anonymous picture)
4.) Lulshi - SKETCHED
5.) SlushyShy
6.) (Anonymous)
Due to the nature of the emergency, I'm going to have to change my usual policy and ask for full price up front. In return, I'll work on these as quickly as possible and give frequent updates via notes.
First come, first served. If more people ask for slots and I feel I can take on the load, I'll accept more commissions.
1.) Sweet Dreams
2.) Chinook_Orca
3.) Cloud Jumper (anonymous picture)
4.) Lulshi - SKETCHED
5.) SlushyShy
6.) (Anonymous)
Feeling sad and guilty for my last journal
Posted 4 years agoSo... I'm probably going to sound like a flip-flop, but I feel like a heel for what I said on January 7th. Probably lost a lot of followers over my depression and anger getting to me, too. And these days I have more control over that thanks to therapy.
See, I was really, *really* angry on the 7th due to certain events at the capitol, though that much is obvious. But my outburst was unacceptable, especially in this day and age. We should be coming together, not being at each other's throats, and in the past I've been able to put politics aside. That being the case, I'm ashamed of what I said to people in the journal and in the comments.
I've been wanting to make this journal for weeks now, but I felt like my apologies would fall on deaf ears. I was pretty mean and hateful... there's little reason to expect my apologies to be accepted. However, offering apologies should not be contingent on whether or not they'll be accepted by the offended party, should they?
So to anyone who felt hurt or hated by my words, I'm sorry. Regardless of your political alignment, you didn't deserve hatefulness from me, so please forgive me for what I said.
See, I was really, *really* angry on the 7th due to certain events at the capitol, though that much is obvious. But my outburst was unacceptable, especially in this day and age. We should be coming together, not being at each other's throats, and in the past I've been able to put politics aside. That being the case, I'm ashamed of what I said to people in the journal and in the comments.
I've been wanting to make this journal for weeks now, but I felt like my apologies would fall on deaf ears. I was pretty mean and hateful... there's little reason to expect my apologies to be accepted. However, offering apologies should not be contingent on whether or not they'll be accepted by the offended party, should they?
So to anyone who felt hurt or hated by my words, I'm sorry. Regardless of your political alignment, you didn't deserve hatefulness from me, so please forgive me for what I said.
If you still support Trump, please read this.
Posted 5 years agoYesterday will go down in history as a day of greatest shame for my nation.
A band of armed terrorists flying Confederate and Trump flags marched up the steps to the capitol building. They carried clubs, swords, guns, and handcuffs. Their intent was clear: they didn't win the election, and they couldn't find evidence to support their assertion that the election was rigged, so they resorted to violence and decide to stage a coup.
Anyone who studies world history and can see what's happened in places like Germany, Iran, Afghanistan, Cuba, and other countries where dictatorships overthrew democratic processes will see eerie and terrifying parallels to what's happening in America today. The processes were long and with too many details to list here, so I invite you to look them up yourself. Pick up a book on world history and read the chapters on how Hitler, Stalin, Hussein, and other dictators came to power. They didn't just arise from nowhere. They had help from their people and their military.
Now compare what those dictators did to what Trump has tried to do.
I love my country and everything it stands for: freedom, democracy, and the pursuit of happiness. And democracy is being threatened now by people who claim to be patriots.
I'm numb all over. I never would have thought I'd see police officers on capitol hill opening the gate for people who wanted to storm the capital. I never thought I'd see the police there taking selfies with the terrorists. I never thought I'd see senators running for their lives from people who wanted to do them harm.
But it happened.
And people who support Trump are complicit in that.
I am not yet beyond words, as you can see in this journal. But I believe I've been far too complacent and silent on my feelings. I wanted to be the kind of person who was above hating someone for their beliefs, because people are inherently good. I wanted to be a believer in freedom for all. But if what happened yesterday is what happens when you give people too much freedom, it makes me question all that.
I don't want to question the cause of liberty or freedom or democracy.
So what I want is for people who support Trump and his movement to look at themselves and ask themselves why they continue to support someone who is willing to throw Americans under the bus if they don't support him. Why they're willing to stand back and stand by someone who is friends with white supremacists and nazi sympathizers. Why they're so willing to sell out our country's ideals just because they like this one man who is so willing to burn the country to get another four years in office.
Is it really worth the cost of life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness?
Because I tell you, it is not.
You are not entitled to behave like animals and destroy this country just because you're a fan of a failed businessman. You're not entitled to your own facts. You're not entitled to act on conspiracy theories with no evidence.
And if you disagree, then I guess Hillary Clinton was right to call you deplorable. Because that's what you are, objectively. A deplorable human being who hates America and what she stands for.
You don't love America. America stands for liberty and justice for all. It stands for democracy. And Trump has proven over and over he's not interested in any of that, and he's perfectly willing to sic his fanatical followers on the capitol to overturn an election he lost in order to cling to what power he has remaining.
I know this is going to upset some of you. But you need to hear this from me. Anyone who knows me knows I'm not normally this kind of person. I only reserve this kind of hatred for certain people. People like Pol Pot, who instituted mass murder in order to kill off 1/4 of Cambodia's population. Joseph Stalin, who murdered all the doctors in his country because he was paranoid that smart people would plot to overthrow him. Fulgencio Batista of Cuba, who bombed a peaceful protest. And people like Trump, who let 300 million people die of Coronavirus and tried to throw a coup in order to maintain power.
I don't write stuff like this lightly. And I hope you consider that before flaming me. But if you still want to flame me, I can't stop you. And I feel sorry for you.
A band of armed terrorists flying Confederate and Trump flags marched up the steps to the capitol building. They carried clubs, swords, guns, and handcuffs. Their intent was clear: they didn't win the election, and they couldn't find evidence to support their assertion that the election was rigged, so they resorted to violence and decide to stage a coup.
Anyone who studies world history and can see what's happened in places like Germany, Iran, Afghanistan, Cuba, and other countries where dictatorships overthrew democratic processes will see eerie and terrifying parallels to what's happening in America today. The processes were long and with too many details to list here, so I invite you to look them up yourself. Pick up a book on world history and read the chapters on how Hitler, Stalin, Hussein, and other dictators came to power. They didn't just arise from nowhere. They had help from their people and their military.
Now compare what those dictators did to what Trump has tried to do.
I love my country and everything it stands for: freedom, democracy, and the pursuit of happiness. And democracy is being threatened now by people who claim to be patriots.
I'm numb all over. I never would have thought I'd see police officers on capitol hill opening the gate for people who wanted to storm the capital. I never thought I'd see the police there taking selfies with the terrorists. I never thought I'd see senators running for their lives from people who wanted to do them harm.
But it happened.
And people who support Trump are complicit in that.
I am not yet beyond words, as you can see in this journal. But I believe I've been far too complacent and silent on my feelings. I wanted to be the kind of person who was above hating someone for their beliefs, because people are inherently good. I wanted to be a believer in freedom for all. But if what happened yesterday is what happens when you give people too much freedom, it makes me question all that.
I don't want to question the cause of liberty or freedom or democracy.
So what I want is for people who support Trump and his movement to look at themselves and ask themselves why they continue to support someone who is willing to throw Americans under the bus if they don't support him. Why they're willing to stand back and stand by someone who is friends with white supremacists and nazi sympathizers. Why they're so willing to sell out our country's ideals just because they like this one man who is so willing to burn the country to get another four years in office.
Is it really worth the cost of life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness?
Because I tell you, it is not.
You are not entitled to behave like animals and destroy this country just because you're a fan of a failed businessman. You're not entitled to your own facts. You're not entitled to act on conspiracy theories with no evidence.
And if you disagree, then I guess Hillary Clinton was right to call you deplorable. Because that's what you are, objectively. A deplorable human being who hates America and what she stands for.
You don't love America. America stands for liberty and justice for all. It stands for democracy. And Trump has proven over and over he's not interested in any of that, and he's perfectly willing to sic his fanatical followers on the capitol to overturn an election he lost in order to cling to what power he has remaining.
I know this is going to upset some of you. But you need to hear this from me. Anyone who knows me knows I'm not normally this kind of person. I only reserve this kind of hatred for certain people. People like Pol Pot, who instituted mass murder in order to kill off 1/4 of Cambodia's population. Joseph Stalin, who murdered all the doctors in his country because he was paranoid that smart people would plot to overthrow him. Fulgencio Batista of Cuba, who bombed a peaceful protest. And people like Trump, who let 300 million people die of Coronavirus and tried to throw a coup in order to maintain power.
I don't write stuff like this lightly. And I hope you consider that before flaming me. But if you still want to flame me, I can't stop you. And I feel sorry for you.
Feeling like shit these days (vent journal)
Posted 5 years agoAs happened the last time I moved back with my parents, it was less than a year before they started really affecting me mentally. I'm not doing good in the slightest. My entire life is just floating from day to day, most of the time being able to have a good day, but then days like this happen and I feel like everything is going to shit with nothing I do mattering in the slightest.
It doesn't take much going wrong to trigger this feeling. Today it was realizing that when I used software to transfer the old number and contacts to my new phone it never worked. And of *fucking course* my old phone is now damaged beyond repair because I wanted to rob it for parts, and like a dumbass I didn't think to check that it had worked, I just trusted in the software. I know people who will say, "Well, that's why you gotta check." NO SHIT... I am allowed to lapse occasionally, aren't I?
And my parents are the worst at this, because even though I'm an electronics technician with more know-how and ingenuity in my finger than both of them combined, they still think I'm some fuckup who couldn't tie his shoes without their help, and every single fucking mistake I make just reinforces their notions about me that I'm better off never getting a job or moving out on my own. That I'm better off just staying with them for-fucking-ever and taking care of them till the day they die.
Is it any wonder I feel like killing myself sometimes?
Not that I will, because I am determined to prove these fuckers wrong. They think I can't make it on my own? I'll die poor and on the street before I admit defeat in that regard.
But right now, I'm struggling emotionally. It's mainly why I can't seem to draw and stick to building models. Models are something that is entirely my own (mainly because nobody is interested in commissioning me to build them, but I'm okay with that). I can make a starship model and have complete ownership of it and the process I used to make it. So sitting down at the workbench really helps. However, it doesn't help enough because my parents continue to want to interact with me even when it's clear I don't want to be bothered, and it's not like I can lock myself in here because my work area is in a storm shelter with no door (puzzle that one out for me) and the other end of the basement has my dad's office in it. Worse still is that whenever I mention that I'm going to move out, they - my mother especially - act like I'm crazy, because how can they support me if I'm so far away?
God dammit, I'm a fucking adult!
I really need to be out of this fucking house. My mood swings are intolerable and make it hard to interact with anyone. People who are my friends turn into people who I don't want to see or talk to, and that's not good. Plus I can't just shift my sleeping schedule around in order to limit interaction with my parents because businesses, like the ones I want to be hired by, don't operate at night.
Please tell me someone out there understands my situation. I feel fucking lonely because it seems like either nobody understands, or nobody cares. It's probably not true, but I really need to hear that it isn't.
It doesn't take much going wrong to trigger this feeling. Today it was realizing that when I used software to transfer the old number and contacts to my new phone it never worked. And of *fucking course* my old phone is now damaged beyond repair because I wanted to rob it for parts, and like a dumbass I didn't think to check that it had worked, I just trusted in the software. I know people who will say, "Well, that's why you gotta check." NO SHIT... I am allowed to lapse occasionally, aren't I?
And my parents are the worst at this, because even though I'm an electronics technician with more know-how and ingenuity in my finger than both of them combined, they still think I'm some fuckup who couldn't tie his shoes without their help, and every single fucking mistake I make just reinforces their notions about me that I'm better off never getting a job or moving out on my own. That I'm better off just staying with them for-fucking-ever and taking care of them till the day they die.
Is it any wonder I feel like killing myself sometimes?
Not that I will, because I am determined to prove these fuckers wrong. They think I can't make it on my own? I'll die poor and on the street before I admit defeat in that regard.
But right now, I'm struggling emotionally. It's mainly why I can't seem to draw and stick to building models. Models are something that is entirely my own (mainly because nobody is interested in commissioning me to build them, but I'm okay with that). I can make a starship model and have complete ownership of it and the process I used to make it. So sitting down at the workbench really helps. However, it doesn't help enough because my parents continue to want to interact with me even when it's clear I don't want to be bothered, and it's not like I can lock myself in here because my work area is in a storm shelter with no door (puzzle that one out for me) and the other end of the basement has my dad's office in it. Worse still is that whenever I mention that I'm going to move out, they - my mother especially - act like I'm crazy, because how can they support me if I'm so far away?
God dammit, I'm a fucking adult!
I really need to be out of this fucking house. My mood swings are intolerable and make it hard to interact with anyone. People who are my friends turn into people who I don't want to see or talk to, and that's not good. Plus I can't just shift my sleeping schedule around in order to limit interaction with my parents because businesses, like the ones I want to be hired by, don't operate at night.
Please tell me someone out there understands my situation. I feel fucking lonely because it seems like either nobody understands, or nobody cares. It's probably not true, but I really need to hear that it isn't.
Probably going to dial back on drawing for a bit
Posted 5 years agoOkay, so I needed to write this journal in order to make you all aware of what's going to happen in the coming months.
First, gotta make sure you know that I'm not quitting. Some people might assume that, and if you don't, then awesome! But I needed to make sure you were aware of the fact that I'm going to be dialing back on my drawing after I get my current lineup finished. I have about two dozen pictures I'm drawing for various people, and these will be finished, but after that's done I'm going to focus on another passion of mine, which is model-making. I've been really into that since I was a little kid, and now I'm really hitting my stride as a modelmaker. I've built models that people have said looked like the real thing, like the following:
https://i.imgur.com/4g7XTZ6.jpg
https://i.imgur.com/BLhU8uI.jpg?1
https://i.imgur.com/p9zUAjI.jpg
https://i.imgur.com/c5K12rz.jpg
Now, I'm not simply focusing on modeling. I'm going to be starting a web-series about it on YouTube! I'll be going over my processes for making them, as well as doing things like drawing concept art for ones that are original creations. My show will also include a semi-regular series called "Junkyard Rescue" where I take old models I'd started but never finished and complete them. It's something I've been wanting to start for a long time, and I think the time is right for that. Plus I'll be opening up a Patreon page so that people who like my show can contribute, and hopefully that will allow me to eventually support myself independent of a regular job in a couple of years.
Does that mean drawing will take a back seat? Probably, at first. After all, models are much more intensive than drawings to finish and require more time to invest in making them, and figuring out the schedule for shooting and editing will take a while. However, after that's all nulled out and I've settled into a routine for it, I think I'll start drawing again. Probably not commissioned works, though. Commissions are the number one thing that burn me out and make drawing unenjoyable for me. Don't get me wrong, I appreciate the opportunity to draw for you all, and it makes me feel absolutely wonderful to know you want my work so badly that you'd be willing to pay me money to make it happen! But the steam does run out after a while and I end up just dreading drawing if I keep drawing for others instead of myself. So after the current lineup is complete, commissions will be closed indefinitely. Not permanently, but definitely for the foreseeable future. I just don't want to burn out completely and end up losing all drive to pick up a pencil like I've done in the past.
Bottom line though is that modeling is my favorite passion. I never have taken a break from it to recuperate like I do with drawing, and I find that it really gets my creative juices flowing in a way drawing simply doesn't do.
I really hope you guys understand... it's not my wish to make you all lose faith in me or get upset in any way. I'm just wanting to ensure that I don't ever lose my drive to draw diapers and ABDL-themed art, and this will be best in the long run for ensuring I never stop completely.
First, gotta make sure you know that I'm not quitting. Some people might assume that, and if you don't, then awesome! But I needed to make sure you were aware of the fact that I'm going to be dialing back on my drawing after I get my current lineup finished. I have about two dozen pictures I'm drawing for various people, and these will be finished, but after that's done I'm going to focus on another passion of mine, which is model-making. I've been really into that since I was a little kid, and now I'm really hitting my stride as a modelmaker. I've built models that people have said looked like the real thing, like the following:
https://i.imgur.com/4g7XTZ6.jpg
https://i.imgur.com/BLhU8uI.jpg?1
https://i.imgur.com/p9zUAjI.jpg
https://i.imgur.com/c5K12rz.jpg
Now, I'm not simply focusing on modeling. I'm going to be starting a web-series about it on YouTube! I'll be going over my processes for making them, as well as doing things like drawing concept art for ones that are original creations. My show will also include a semi-regular series called "Junkyard Rescue" where I take old models I'd started but never finished and complete them. It's something I've been wanting to start for a long time, and I think the time is right for that. Plus I'll be opening up a Patreon page so that people who like my show can contribute, and hopefully that will allow me to eventually support myself independent of a regular job in a couple of years.
Does that mean drawing will take a back seat? Probably, at first. After all, models are much more intensive than drawings to finish and require more time to invest in making them, and figuring out the schedule for shooting and editing will take a while. However, after that's all nulled out and I've settled into a routine for it, I think I'll start drawing again. Probably not commissioned works, though. Commissions are the number one thing that burn me out and make drawing unenjoyable for me. Don't get me wrong, I appreciate the opportunity to draw for you all, and it makes me feel absolutely wonderful to know you want my work so badly that you'd be willing to pay me money to make it happen! But the steam does run out after a while and I end up just dreading drawing if I keep drawing for others instead of myself. So after the current lineup is complete, commissions will be closed indefinitely. Not permanently, but definitely for the foreseeable future. I just don't want to burn out completely and end up losing all drive to pick up a pencil like I've done in the past.
Bottom line though is that modeling is my favorite passion. I never have taken a break from it to recuperate like I do with drawing, and I find that it really gets my creative juices flowing in a way drawing simply doesn't do.
I really hope you guys understand... it's not my wish to make you all lose faith in me or get upset in any way. I'm just wanting to ensure that I don't ever lose my drive to draw diapers and ABDL-themed art, and this will be best in the long run for ensuring I never stop completely.
Commissions are still available!
Posted 5 years agoJust wanted to let everyone know, I still have slots available if anyone is thinking about commissioning me!
Slight change in how I price drawings.
Posted 5 years agoI think based on some of the drawings I've done for others, I'm going to add another tier to my pricing. Currently, for those who don't know it, this is how I price commissions:
Traditional:
$38 - base, $15 - additional character, $20 - background
Digital:
$55 - base, $20 - additional character, $25 - background
The problem is, some characters that I draw traditionally take significantly longer to draw than others, and these are chiefly characters who are mostly dark or black. The reason is that, since I'm using graphite, I have to grind it into the page to make a dark color, whereas a light color takes very little graphite, and in some cases none because I can use the graphite still on my blending tools to add tone. Also, I do suffer from Carpal Tunnel Syndrome. I did get a treatment for it last year in November, but it's about worn out now and making dark or black characters with a pencil accelerates it.
So from now on, I'm adding a surcharge to account for this. Characters which are dark or black will have a $10 charge over the base charge whenever I draw traditionally, to cover the additional time and effort it takes to bring the tone of graphite to anything close to or equivalent to black.
Traditional:
$38 - base, $15 - additional character, $20 - background
Digital:
$55 - base, $20 - additional character, $25 - background
The problem is, some characters that I draw traditionally take significantly longer to draw than others, and these are chiefly characters who are mostly dark or black. The reason is that, since I'm using graphite, I have to grind it into the page to make a dark color, whereas a light color takes very little graphite, and in some cases none because I can use the graphite still on my blending tools to add tone. Also, I do suffer from Carpal Tunnel Syndrome. I did get a treatment for it last year in November, but it's about worn out now and making dark or black characters with a pencil accelerates it.
So from now on, I'm adding a surcharge to account for this. Characters which are dark or black will have a $10 charge over the base charge whenever I draw traditionally, to cover the additional time and effort it takes to bring the tone of graphite to anything close to or equivalent to black.
Please help my friend!
Posted 5 years agoMy friend Bitey has had some major problems suddenly happen, and she desperately needs your help:
https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9609285/
EDIT: Hey guys, thanks for helping my friend! She's back on her feet and no longer needs your generous support. Again, thank you so much for your generosity!
https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9609285/
EDIT: Hey guys, thanks for helping my friend! She's back on her feet and no longer needs your generous support. Again, thank you so much for your generosity!
A bit about myself
Posted 5 years agoHey there!
So the last journal I made was rather dark and depressing... it's an uncommon temperature for a typical post from me, so apologies if it offended or wasn't what you've come to expect. So to help balance things out, here's a happier journal telling you a little about myself!
I'm currently a 32-year-old male who is... hmm... well, I'm not exactly sure what orientation I am, though I've found out some things that helped me nail it down. I believe I'm assexual, but I've come across a term that fits me pretty well: "autochorisexual". It means someone who isn't really turned on by people, just pictures and stories and stuff. I do have a preference toward ladies, but I'm open to both, so if I had to pick a more normal-sounding orientation I guess you might say I'm bisexual. Again: still trying to figure this stuff out, heh!
I'm also atheist, though I do lean slightly toward agnosticism, as I acknowledge that there may be some things out there that may or may not exist. It's impossible to say, since there are limits of human understanding. I didn't arrive at this position lightly. I was a devout Christian, and it took a lot to convince me otherwise, but I kept my mind open to possibilities and kept myself honest, and in the end decided that the evidence was pointing in another direction besides God. I hope this isn't too disappointing, and if you do believe in God, don't let me discourage you. In fact, be faithful if it helps you to have a good, fulfilled life! What matters is finding something that helps you deal with adversity. For me, God just doesn't help with that, and never really did in a lasting way.
I don't have much formal training as an artist. I did take a drawing class when I was 15 or so, and in community college I took Foundations of Painting I and II as well as Art History. My primary pursuit in life though is machines and mechanical things. I got in college at first to take machining courses. I ended up getting my full certifications in Machine Tool Technology before I decided I wanted to pursue Mechanical Engineering. I went through many years of work, but ultimately I ended up not finishing out my degree and switched to Electronics Technology at a local school. As it turned out, I was much more suited to that.
I'm an electronics technician, meaning I've studied for and been awarded a certification to practice the dark arts- er, work on and build electronic circuitry and devices! I've worked mainly in aircraft, doing everything from tying up wires to the airframe of a 787-E to servicing autopilot computers from the 1960's. But I've also worked on an assembly line building gaming computers, and I once worked on a farm!
I'm an open book, for the most part. Anyone is free to ask me anything, and I'll never turn you away. I love to talk, especially about things I share an interest in!
Finally, I'm a HUGE, HUGE, HUGE sci-fi fan. Like, a true fanatic, and anyone who knows me can and will tell you. My favorite franchise is Star Wars, but I also like plenty of other sci-fi, from dumb 50's golden age films to multi-million dollar big budget films! And I especially love the technology in them, even if (and sometimes especially if) it's not particularly realistic. My favorite spacecraft is the Millennium Falcon, and I'm currently building a big model of it with sections you can pull off and see the inside of with all the details you'd expect to see inside a spacecraft.
Whew, hope that wasn't too awfully self-indulgent!
So the last journal I made was rather dark and depressing... it's an uncommon temperature for a typical post from me, so apologies if it offended or wasn't what you've come to expect. So to help balance things out, here's a happier journal telling you a little about myself!
I'm currently a 32-year-old male who is... hmm... well, I'm not exactly sure what orientation I am, though I've found out some things that helped me nail it down. I believe I'm assexual, but I've come across a term that fits me pretty well: "autochorisexual". It means someone who isn't really turned on by people, just pictures and stories and stuff. I do have a preference toward ladies, but I'm open to both, so if I had to pick a more normal-sounding orientation I guess you might say I'm bisexual. Again: still trying to figure this stuff out, heh!
I'm also atheist, though I do lean slightly toward agnosticism, as I acknowledge that there may be some things out there that may or may not exist. It's impossible to say, since there are limits of human understanding. I didn't arrive at this position lightly. I was a devout Christian, and it took a lot to convince me otherwise, but I kept my mind open to possibilities and kept myself honest, and in the end decided that the evidence was pointing in another direction besides God. I hope this isn't too disappointing, and if you do believe in God, don't let me discourage you. In fact, be faithful if it helps you to have a good, fulfilled life! What matters is finding something that helps you deal with adversity. For me, God just doesn't help with that, and never really did in a lasting way.
I don't have much formal training as an artist. I did take a drawing class when I was 15 or so, and in community college I took Foundations of Painting I and II as well as Art History. My primary pursuit in life though is machines and mechanical things. I got in college at first to take machining courses. I ended up getting my full certifications in Machine Tool Technology before I decided I wanted to pursue Mechanical Engineering. I went through many years of work, but ultimately I ended up not finishing out my degree and switched to Electronics Technology at a local school. As it turned out, I was much more suited to that.
I'm an electronics technician, meaning I've studied for and been awarded a certification to practice the dark arts- er, work on and build electronic circuitry and devices! I've worked mainly in aircraft, doing everything from tying up wires to the airframe of a 787-E to servicing autopilot computers from the 1960's. But I've also worked on an assembly line building gaming computers, and I once worked on a farm!
I'm an open book, for the most part. Anyone is free to ask me anything, and I'll never turn you away. I love to talk, especially about things I share an interest in!
Finally, I'm a HUGE, HUGE, HUGE sci-fi fan. Like, a true fanatic, and anyone who knows me can and will tell you. My favorite franchise is Star Wars, but I also like plenty of other sci-fi, from dumb 50's golden age films to multi-million dollar big budget films! And I especially love the technology in them, even if (and sometimes especially if) it's not particularly realistic. My favorite spacecraft is the Millennium Falcon, and I'm currently building a big model of it with sections you can pull off and see the inside of with all the details you'd expect to see inside a spacecraft.
Whew, hope that wasn't too awfully self-indulgent!
Police brutality, qualified immunity, and Black Lives Mat...
Posted 5 years agoThere's probably not a soul in the country that isn't aware of the protests and such going on, and it's been weighing heavily on my mind and my conscience.
Part of the reason it has is that I used to be fairly conservative. I would invariably side with the police and any reports I'd heard of police brutality I would chalk up to the criminal resisting arrest and bringing whatever punishment they got upon themselves. I figured that police had a sense of honor and dignity about them that was above question, because police that I knew were good men who were in a tough situation.
However, in the last five or six years, I have gradually shifted more and more away from that mentality.
I no longer believe that police are all good, honorable people. I can't. I've seen too much evidence to the contrary. I had begun to suspect that things were bad when I began actually paying attention to incidents that happened. I think the death of Freddie Gray was my turning point. This man was taken alive by police and arrived in the station in a coma, and then later he died of his injuries. How could this happen in the care of good, honorable men? Then came a story about a man shot by police in Georgia who was walking past a window in his home. They had gotten the wrong house and instead of taking the man and subduing him, they shot him unprovoked. I kept hearing more and more stories like this from across the nation, and the more I heard stories of senseless deaths the more I realized that a serious, systemic problem existed in our nation's police force.
The latest victim of police brutality, George Floyd, was complying with police and being held in a choke hold. He pleaded and begged for life, and the more he did, the harder the cop choked him until he died in the officer's arms. And the other three officers just stood by and watched it happen, because police don't have accountability. Laws on the books under the Qualified Immunity doctrine dictate that police cannot be held personally accountable for crimes they commit unless they are found to have violated a "clearly established law". But what this means is that plaintiffs have to establish that there is a previous case that had sufficiently similar facts, a task that's nearly impossible to do in a way that satisfies a judge or defense attorney. Then in Pearson vs. Callahan (2009), it was established that it was permissible to grant qualified immunity without it being established whether the victim's constitutional rights were violated. In addition, the Supreme Court ruled in 1986 that it must be evident to any reasonable officer that the person's rights had been violated, and this has resulted in a situation where in order for a plaintiff to overcome qualified immunity, they must convince all officers, including the least informed, least knowledgeable officer, that the officer in question is guilty. Thus, you can see how easy it would be for an officer to escape punishment for wrongdoing.
This brings me to BLM. I used to believe that it was a racist movement. I no longer believe it is. The thing is, I'm starting to understand how necessary it is because while it's true that all races get harmed by police, we must protect the most vulnerable members of society. It's our obligation as moral people to uphold justice for people. If you only look at total deaths, then whites appear to be the most affected by police shootings, however if you look at the number of deaths per million people, it's clear that blacks are targeted more often because they have a much smaller number than whites, and yet are shot more than twice as often. Now, I also want to say that even if you dismiss this, another huge problem exists that is the root cause of the oppressive nature of police. This is the authoritarian principles they are taught. Training videos for police inform them that they are above question and have authority over citizens, and that anyone could be out to shoot them. Most of the time, that's not the case, and even if it was, their responsibility is to find nonviolent means to end threats. Soldiers are fully capable of doing this. A grunt in Afghanistan who is following a terrorist to gun him down always waits till he's in the clear. And if a situation is getting out of hand in an unruly mob of foreigners, they calm the people down in any way they can. This is in stark contrast to police officers who have been seen for what they are in the last week: brutal bullies who will stoop to any low to establish their authority, including pushing a 75-year-old man to the concrete so hard that he starts to bleed from his ears, or putting a man's hands on his baton just to give him an excuse to beat him with his fists, or by running over a group of peaceful protesters in his car and driving away like a coward.
Something desperately needs to change, and it warms my heart that police are finally being taken to task for their brutality. It's about f**king time.
Part of the reason it has is that I used to be fairly conservative. I would invariably side with the police and any reports I'd heard of police brutality I would chalk up to the criminal resisting arrest and bringing whatever punishment they got upon themselves. I figured that police had a sense of honor and dignity about them that was above question, because police that I knew were good men who were in a tough situation.
However, in the last five or six years, I have gradually shifted more and more away from that mentality.
I no longer believe that police are all good, honorable people. I can't. I've seen too much evidence to the contrary. I had begun to suspect that things were bad when I began actually paying attention to incidents that happened. I think the death of Freddie Gray was my turning point. This man was taken alive by police and arrived in the station in a coma, and then later he died of his injuries. How could this happen in the care of good, honorable men? Then came a story about a man shot by police in Georgia who was walking past a window in his home. They had gotten the wrong house and instead of taking the man and subduing him, they shot him unprovoked. I kept hearing more and more stories like this from across the nation, and the more I heard stories of senseless deaths the more I realized that a serious, systemic problem existed in our nation's police force.
The latest victim of police brutality, George Floyd, was complying with police and being held in a choke hold. He pleaded and begged for life, and the more he did, the harder the cop choked him until he died in the officer's arms. And the other three officers just stood by and watched it happen, because police don't have accountability. Laws on the books under the Qualified Immunity doctrine dictate that police cannot be held personally accountable for crimes they commit unless they are found to have violated a "clearly established law". But what this means is that plaintiffs have to establish that there is a previous case that had sufficiently similar facts, a task that's nearly impossible to do in a way that satisfies a judge or defense attorney. Then in Pearson vs. Callahan (2009), it was established that it was permissible to grant qualified immunity without it being established whether the victim's constitutional rights were violated. In addition, the Supreme Court ruled in 1986 that it must be evident to any reasonable officer that the person's rights had been violated, and this has resulted in a situation where in order for a plaintiff to overcome qualified immunity, they must convince all officers, including the least informed, least knowledgeable officer, that the officer in question is guilty. Thus, you can see how easy it would be for an officer to escape punishment for wrongdoing.
This brings me to BLM. I used to believe that it was a racist movement. I no longer believe it is. The thing is, I'm starting to understand how necessary it is because while it's true that all races get harmed by police, we must protect the most vulnerable members of society. It's our obligation as moral people to uphold justice for people. If you only look at total deaths, then whites appear to be the most affected by police shootings, however if you look at the number of deaths per million people, it's clear that blacks are targeted more often because they have a much smaller number than whites, and yet are shot more than twice as often. Now, I also want to say that even if you dismiss this, another huge problem exists that is the root cause of the oppressive nature of police. This is the authoritarian principles they are taught. Training videos for police inform them that they are above question and have authority over citizens, and that anyone could be out to shoot them. Most of the time, that's not the case, and even if it was, their responsibility is to find nonviolent means to end threats. Soldiers are fully capable of doing this. A grunt in Afghanistan who is following a terrorist to gun him down always waits till he's in the clear. And if a situation is getting out of hand in an unruly mob of foreigners, they calm the people down in any way they can. This is in stark contrast to police officers who have been seen for what they are in the last week: brutal bullies who will stoop to any low to establish their authority, including pushing a 75-year-old man to the concrete so hard that he starts to bleed from his ears, or putting a man's hands on his baton just to give him an excuse to beat him with his fists, or by running over a group of peaceful protesters in his car and driving away like a coward.
Something desperately needs to change, and it warms my heart that police are finally being taken to task for their brutality. It's about f**king time.
Weight loss!
Posted 5 years agoI am so happy right now! I've been working hard to get my weight under control for the last several months. I started back in July, when I realized that moving out of my house had already caused me to drop a significant amount of weight. Plus I'd gone to the doctor and he diagnosed me with Type 2 diabetes. Luckily it's completely controllable with diet and medication in the form of pills, so it's no big deal. Last year, when I weighed myself at the doctor's office during a non-related health examination, I found out that I was sitting at around 285 pounds, and probably was more like 290 because I hadn't eaten breakfast yet.
But currently, I'm at 208 pounds! Almost 80 pounds dropped!!
I'm going to keep going, but I'm just so thrilled to look at myself and see the progress in the form of a slimmer stomach and loose skin that'll probably go away after a while (I'm wearing a compression garment to get it to shrink faster), plus I set myself a goal months ago that when I reach 199 pounds, I'll have a pizza party to celebrate! Might have to celebrate by myself with Covid-19 keeping me and my friends from socializing, but it'll be the first fresh pizza I've had since I started dieting. I'm excited for that! I can almost smell that caramelized cheese and hot pepperoni... *drool*
BTW, I've only been dieting so far. No exercise apart from a week where I tried walking a half hour every day and didn't really notice any significant increase in weight loss. But diet alone seems to be working really well. And it's not any special diet. I'm just counting calories and watching my carb intake (current goal is less than 1360 calories and 120 grams of carbohydrates per day). I also have Saturday and Sunday off my diet where I can eat anything I want. I'm not eating pizza because that's for Future Millennium, but I can have hamburgers, cake, pasta, etc. on those days. I don't drink soda or eat candy except in limited quantities even on those days though, because I found that they can make me plateau. Bottom line though? I'm doing so well on that front that I just wanted to share it with you and let you know how happy I was about it!
And if you are struggling with your own weight loss, I feel you... this isn't the first time I've tried this. Heck, I almost got where I am now once and ended up relapsing and gaining it all back. Talk about discouraging... But I have a handle on it now, and you will too if you just keep at it and don't ever give up. It's a war, and you can't surrender to the enemy. So take up arms and fight your weight like I'm doing! Best of luck to you!
But currently, I'm at 208 pounds! Almost 80 pounds dropped!!
I'm going to keep going, but I'm just so thrilled to look at myself and see the progress in the form of a slimmer stomach and loose skin that'll probably go away after a while (I'm wearing a compression garment to get it to shrink faster), plus I set myself a goal months ago that when I reach 199 pounds, I'll have a pizza party to celebrate! Might have to celebrate by myself with Covid-19 keeping me and my friends from socializing, but it'll be the first fresh pizza I've had since I started dieting. I'm excited for that! I can almost smell that caramelized cheese and hot pepperoni... *drool*
BTW, I've only been dieting so far. No exercise apart from a week where I tried walking a half hour every day and didn't really notice any significant increase in weight loss. But diet alone seems to be working really well. And it's not any special diet. I'm just counting calories and watching my carb intake (current goal is less than 1360 calories and 120 grams of carbohydrates per day). I also have Saturday and Sunday off my diet where I can eat anything I want. I'm not eating pizza because that's for Future Millennium, but I can have hamburgers, cake, pasta, etc. on those days. I don't drink soda or eat candy except in limited quantities even on those days though, because I found that they can make me plateau. Bottom line though? I'm doing so well on that front that I just wanted to share it with you and let you know how happy I was about it!
And if you are struggling with your own weight loss, I feel you... this isn't the first time I've tried this. Heck, I almost got where I am now once and ended up relapsing and gaining it all back. Talk about discouraging... But I have a handle on it now, and you will too if you just keep at it and don't ever give up. It's a war, and you can't surrender to the enemy. So take up arms and fight your weight like I'm doing! Best of luck to you!
Autism Awareness Month
Posted 5 years agoHey guys, just wanted to drop a note here saying that since it's Autism Awareness Month, make sure you keep those who have this disability in your thoughts and donate if you're able to any reputable charity! Also, be SURE you don't donate to Autism Speaks and make sure anyone you know who donates knows not to contribute to them either!!
Please stop by my friend's page
Posted 5 years agoOnce again, my friend
Biteybaby has commissions opened! It would be super cool of you to stop by her page and give her some business. She has great prices and greater art! Hopefully you'll also let her know who sent you. ;)
Biteybaby has commissions opened! It would be super cool of you to stop by her page and give her some business. She has great prices and greater art! Hopefully you'll also let her know who sent you. ;)Raffle winner!
Posted 5 years agoCommissions open, and special deal!
Posted 5 years agoJust a reminder that commissions are open! If you want to reserve a spot, don't hesitate to do so!
And another bit of news. I've decided to offer a special raffle! One commission, flat rate of $25! To enter, simply comment with "I'm in!" below. Drawing will be held tomorrow evening at 2PM Central Time.
And another bit of news. I've decided to offer a special raffle! One commission, flat rate of $25! To enter, simply comment with "I'm in!" below. Drawing will be held tomorrow evening at 2PM Central Time.
Commissions are back up, baby!!
Posted 5 years agoAlrighty, guys! I'm done practicing. In fact, a couple of the practice pieces turned out so well I'm going to post them! But now's the time for the announcement you've all been waiting for:
Commissions are back open!!
I'll be taking DIGITAL commissions now. That means you'll have the option to commission me to draw in color for the first time! The same rules apply as with my traditional: no open scat, no porn, no adult-on-child, etc. Other than that, feel free to commission me to draw you something! Remember, I also draw furries, not just pone, so if you have a character on two legs you want drawn, I'm super okay with that.
I'm going to set the prices for digital art as follows:
Single character: $55
Additional characters: $20
Accessories: $15
Background: $20
Prices for traditional art remain the same:
Single character: $38
Additional characters: $15
Accessories: $10
Background: $15
I look forward to hearing from you and drawing whatever your heart desires!
Commissions are back open!!
I'll be taking DIGITAL commissions now. That means you'll have the option to commission me to draw in color for the first time! The same rules apply as with my traditional: no open scat, no porn, no adult-on-child, etc. Other than that, feel free to commission me to draw you something! Remember, I also draw furries, not just pone, so if you have a character on two legs you want drawn, I'm super okay with that.
I'm going to set the prices for digital art as follows:
Single character: $55
Additional characters: $20
Accessories: $15
Background: $20
Prices for traditional art remain the same:
Single character: $38
Additional characters: $15
Accessories: $10
Background: $15
I look forward to hearing from you and drawing whatever your heart desires!
Only a few hours left!!
Posted 6 years agoHey guys, I still have one slot left, and it's open to anyone who wants it! But you have to hurry. I'll be closing the doors at midnight tonight, Central Time! You can have me draw anything you want as long as it fits my criteria laid out in my commissions info!
Limited time COLOR commission opening!
Posted 6 years agoOkay, so I've been learning quite a bit about colored art and digital drawing. And I'm also really trying to help a friend, BiteyBaby, who is going through some rough times and needs some help. My lineart is really going particularly well, so what I would like to do is offer two commission slots for colored artwork. I'll being doing lining, and Bitey will handle the coloring.
Either note me or reply below if you want to commission a drawing. Price will be $60 for a slot, $15 for each additional character.
This opening for commissions will last for one week, so get it while it's hot! Commissions close again on the 21st at midnight!
Hope to draw something awesome for you! :D
EDIT: Slot one has just been filled!
Either note me or reply below if you want to commission a drawing. Price will be $60 for a slot, $15 for each additional character.
This opening for commissions will last for one week, so get it while it's hot! Commissions close again on the 21st at midnight!
Hope to draw something awesome for you! :D
EDIT: Slot one has just been filled!
A quick announcement - digital art!
Posted 6 years agoSo I got a used tablet on eBay a while ago that I have basically kept on the chair in my bedroom for the last month or so, and I've decided, "You know what? I should learn to use this thing!" This wouldn't be the first tablet I've owned. I had a Wacom Bamboo that was pretty good up till the cable kicked the bucket, and the cable was integral to the unit, so I wasn't able to just replace it. Basically, I damaged it when I shut it in a door once accidentally and clipped some wires inside it, and so I had to basically throw the whole thing away. The new tablet is an Intuos, and the cable on this one is attached to the tablet via a Micro USB, and so that problem won't happen again. But what this means is, I've never really had much practice with tablets before, and as anyone who has used a tablet can attest to, they take some time to get the hang of, especially the inexpensive variety which has no integrated screen. This being the case, I'm going to be taking a break from posting art here until I can get the hang of this new tablet.
I can hear you going "Awwww..." from here, guys...
Don't worry! I'm not going away forever! And that's the good news: I'm going to start uploading digital art soon! YES, that means COLOR art! Woohoo! I mean, I have posted colored art before, but it's mostly just been edits of other people's work. The new stuff will be made wholecloth from scratch, and carry over my style! That is, I'll be making art that's similar to the stuff I've released before, but in digital, colorized form.
The other thing I'm announcing, which relates to this development, is that I'm going to try and start animating with OpenToonz! I want to do some animations that I've had in my head for a while now. I know, I know... I made the announcement that I was going to start animating a while back. Things... kind of took a wrong turn for me on that development. I hadn't realized how hard it would be to animate without first learning digital drawing and painting. So the animation software languished, never to be used. In fact, I actually got a new computer since making that announcement. Yeesh... But now that I'm trying to learn digital art in earnest, I'm going to try my hand at animation for realsies! Hopefully I can get in enough practice with this before I get a new job so I can put in the time that it will take to truly learn how to draw digitally.
I'm probably not going to be posting any practice sketches in the mean time, because I want to give you guys stuff you'll enjoy looking at, and line practice can look rather boring. But I promise, I'll be putting stuff up here soon. Till then, I hope your new years eve goes well, and I'll see you on the other side!
I can hear you going "Awwww..." from here, guys...
Don't worry! I'm not going away forever! And that's the good news: I'm going to start uploading digital art soon! YES, that means COLOR art! Woohoo! I mean, I have posted colored art before, but it's mostly just been edits of other people's work. The new stuff will be made wholecloth from scratch, and carry over my style! That is, I'll be making art that's similar to the stuff I've released before, but in digital, colorized form.
The other thing I'm announcing, which relates to this development, is that I'm going to try and start animating with OpenToonz! I want to do some animations that I've had in my head for a while now. I know, I know... I made the announcement that I was going to start animating a while back. Things... kind of took a wrong turn for me on that development. I hadn't realized how hard it would be to animate without first learning digital drawing and painting. So the animation software languished, never to be used. In fact, I actually got a new computer since making that announcement. Yeesh... But now that I'm trying to learn digital art in earnest, I'm going to try my hand at animation for realsies! Hopefully I can get in enough practice with this before I get a new job so I can put in the time that it will take to truly learn how to draw digitally.
I'm probably not going to be posting any practice sketches in the mean time, because I want to give you guys stuff you'll enjoy looking at, and line practice can look rather boring. But I promise, I'll be putting stuff up here soon. Till then, I hope your new years eve goes well, and I'll see you on the other side!
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