i really thought July would get better... i was wrong...iv decied to put dude down hes in alot of pain.... im done for a bit i dont know when ill be drawing again

i hate to share my problems with the rest of the world but i wanted to infor you that i have been hurt very badly by one of two of the closest people to me and well my love for my Bro runs deep in me.... i really didnt want to give him up but i couldnt continue to try to live in the past if he has moved on and dosnt care anymore.... i dont think i will be drawing or makeing friends for a while... i just wish time would stop...... and please no hugs, i dont want to be touched right now.

Goodbye

its official as of today i am now 19 years of age and i have finaly figured out that i am an adult XD

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BaR info: paused
Pgs done: 1&2
pgs working on: 3&6
Pgs still in sketch: 4,5,7,8,9,10

Thanks all, Wish i had time to properly thank you with a picture just work and school, and be stressfull ^^ thank you all.

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BaR info: paused
Pgs done: 1&2
pgs working on: 3&6
Pgs still in sketch: 4,5,7,8,9,10

...XD guess who i saw again
No takers really well then ill just have to tell you. I saw Jeff Dunham again he came to my area again so i got tickets and couldnt stop laughing im glad i was lucky enough to share it with my Tiffers this time she loves him too

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BaR info: paused
Pgs done: 1&2
pgs working on: 3&6
Pgs still in sketch: 4,5,7,8,9,10

Ok people i would like to say sorry i told myslef that this week that i had off i would work on BaR but..... as you can see i didnt, im sorry im still skteching it, just dont want to ink it ^^; i really am sorry.... to make it up to you guys... i donno, im sorry. Iv been haveing other things on my mind like getting a job here, because i want to fly to San Deigo in june. Not to mention buy many expensive things like my Wii. Somehow it broke, i wont read the disks. T^T im sorry Nintendo i didnt mean to say you suck for makeing the Wii not strong enough to hold ResEv 5 i was just angry. please forgive me.

Not to mention it snowed all of my spring break away... i need a break form Idaho

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BaR info: Slow
Pgs done: 1&2
pgs working on: 3&6
Pgs still in sketch: 4,5,7,8,9,10

Dude have any fo you heard of Skype... its awsome, kinda like yahoo but better XD it has free voice chat thats awsome!! you all should check it out and add me its really efing awsome!!!!! do it DO IT NOW!!!!!

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Pgs done: 1&2
pgs working on: 3&6
Pgs still in sketch: 4,5,7,8,9,10

I am sorry to anounce to you what i am curently at a stand still with my art. A recent happening with two close friends and what is goin on in my fanily has kinda pushed me into a small depression, because of it i no longer have the want to draw or even be on the computer.
I am, slower then before, working on BaR and a free commission i gave away, but it is going very slow. The Family busness is, my family wants to get another dog. Now i have come to the grips of Milo's death, and i would love to have someone waiting for me when i get home because recently i'v been feeling alone. The only problem i have is, they want to get a lab, for hunting, which means it will be a girl. I dont know if i can take care of another girl dog without being hurt by the memorys of my dog Quiche, who died when i was still young.
Along with school, these things have stressed me out so much that i, from what i belive, have become sick, not sick like the flu more like i dont have any energy anymore. Lol im takeing naps again. So i will try my hardest to continue to draw when i have the will, but i dont know how long it will take for me to get back into my grove.
Thank you for understanding.

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Pgs done: 1&2
pgs working on: 3&6
Pgs still in sketch: 4,5,7,8,9,10

No this isnt a journal about how to get incontact with me to play on open canvas no im bord, i need a little boost in confedence about BaR so i figured that you guys can ask me anythin and will awnser is, i was thinking you guys could ask about my charicters, but if you want to ask something about me i will awnser that too. ^^ So ask away! im waiting...

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Ok peoples, this year im ganna try my hardest to make at least one book. Beyond a Reflection, its a story about Conner and a small curve ball that life throws him when he looks into a strange mirrior, and im offering a great offer. Since this is going to be my first Book and im so nice to all my watchers, who are so nice to me im offering a chance to be a camio in the comic.

If you want you or one of your charicter to be in the comic then speak up, i will alow one free Camio, which i think is fair, But if you must or want more than one charicter camio in my comic you can pay me .25 cents, i repeat 0.25$, a quarter, two dimes and a nickle, one forth a dollar, half of 50 cents.

i dont think i can be any clearer, this isnt some skeam to get your cash, what can i gain form 25 cents maybe a $1.50 max i want to thank your guys for the years of dealing with me. I WILL ACCEPT A CAMICO REQUEST FROM ANYONE

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... did i spell that right... =.=.... im not sure.. XD anyway, whats ganna be your new years resolution, im ganna make the Beyond a Reflection comic, and if i get some help i might even sell it ^^

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Yuutari, Galvin-wolf If you truly have moved on and truly dont care about me anymore and dont want to be my friend then why do you continue you to be nice to me please just leave me alone, youv hurt me enough i dont need to cry myslef to sleep anymore, quit reminding my that the holes in my heart will hurt for the rest of time.....

people that do care about me, will you please tell them that this journal it for them.... i cant anymore

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took from MarkWulfgar

1. Where did you begin 2008?
Brother in laws house, i had a class of champain... spelling?

2. What was your status by Valentines Day?
Alone and angry, like always

3. Were you in school anytime this year?
ya i graduated

4. Did you have to go to the hospital?
i dont think so... damn better work on that befor the year ends

5. Did you have any encounters with the police?
lol just one, driveing to fast for conditions

6. Where did you go on vacation?
no vacation for me

7. What did you purchase that was over $100?
... umm i dont remember my computer thats for sure

8. Did you know anybody who got married?
My sister ^^

9. Did you know anybody who passed away?
... i dont like to think of death so i dont remember

10. Did you move anywhere?
Nope still live in the same old house

11. What sporting events did you attend?
dont like sports

12. What concerts/shows did you go to?
i saw Pablo Fransisco

13. Describe your birthday.
Quiet and with a small group of friends.... ok i guess

14. What is the ONE thing you thought you would not do, but did, in 2008?
... umm nothing, im boring like that

15. What have been your favourite moments?
when i became friends with people that i now hold close to my heart

16. Any new additions to your family?
umm nope nothing i know of

17. What was your best month?
^^; i dont think i had a good month

18. Who has been your best drinking buddy?
umm havent gotten waisted yet... but i bet it would be someone i hold close

19. Made new friends?
a few.... i love them all with all my heart

20. Favorite Night out?
.... umm me, my sis and her husband when out to a real haunted out in October and before we could even get to the house we were chases off by a moaning ghost (true story)

21. Other than home, where did you spend most of your time?
with my sis

22. Have you lost any friends this year?
i dont wanna talk abou that

23. Change your hairstyle?
it went for long to short to long again. Thank you god =D

24. Have any car accidents?
breaks locked up and i totaled another car ^^ sadly i was ok

25. How old did you turn this year?
18 thank god

26. Do you have a New Years resolution?
make a book like my idol, i dont have to sell it yet, just make on

27. Do anything embarrassing?
i cant go a day without makeing myslef look like a dork

28. Buy anything from eBay?
i dont think so...

29. Get married or divorced?
i wanna but im giveing myslef 7years to get ready

30. Get hit on?
i was told i was, but i dont know if i was or not ^////^;;

31. Been snowboarding?
nope this was a ski year

32. Did you get sick this year?
just a little...

33. Are you happy to see 2008 go?
very, 08 would have to have been my saddes year

34. Been naughty or nice?
ill admit iv been naught behind closed doors

35. What are you looking forward to most in 2009?
to find friends that can really accsept me for who i am, and love me for that. Make a comic book, and hopefull see my biggest idol, and get to shake his hand, maybe hug him too, if i can pull myslef to do it ^^; im too shy

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Hey guys just informing you that i kinda need some who is really good, and i mean REALY good at translating Jap. to Eng. Its for a comic that i found on the net, i really like the art, and the story looks funny, so i kinda want to know what they are saying. If you cant but know someone that can let me know i cant pay your for you or your friends translation, BUT!! i can give you a free Commission to your likeing... sorry its the best i can offer... i cant get good paying job... *sighs*

All Commissions are 10$ and done to your likeing. please help me in my time of need, cuz id do it for you

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ok even though its been 10$ a long time now im really asking, i cant get a good paying job, and im running out of money can some of you help me for a little bit, while i look for a better job.... please

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Doing what and why you ask... cuz

My biggest idol Mr. Wulfgar needs some help hes asking all for a favor http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/.....3/#cid:4120322 please read it and think it over id help him but i dont have a job... nor do i want to get one *sigh* and if you dont know who Mr. Wulfgar is then please check his art out. Yes he dose do alot of Gay artwork, but i like it and im not gay, please help me by helping him.
thank you

... or, i just thought of this, if you dont want to help him or dont want his books, but still want to help then buy a commission from me there only 10USD and all the money will go to Mr. Wulfgar, if you dont belive me then ill send you a copy of the recipt saying that i sent him the money.
please and thank you agian

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Last night i had one of the biggest scares of my entire life, i really did think i was going to die. Last night i was helping my sister move a 200 gallon fish tank, im not jokeing it was 200 gallons, so when it was all done i stared to drive home, well were i live was found by the railroad so we have alot of trains running through town at 11:30 at night. So i see the train and stop my truck, put it in park and wait for it to pass. While sitting in my small blue one of a kind truck, jamming to my music, two cars a truck bigger then mine and a small car rive up next to me and get as close to the train as they can, as first i thought they were racers sence theres nothing to do in my town but race. i look over to the truck and it looks like his giveing the small car the "west side" sign thats when i started to get really nerviouse. Soon after the guy gets out of the truck and walks over to the car like hes going to pick a fight, but once he gets to the car he laphs and you can tell he was joking around, about this time another truck has pulled up behind me, blocking me in if things jump to worse. The guy laphs and begins to walk back to the car, i dont know what was said but as soon as his infront of my truck he turns around and begins takeing off his shirt and holds his arms out, once he dose this guy driving the small car gets out and points a gun at him, my heart stoped. it must have lasted 5 seconds, but it sure didnt feel like it. both of them laphed it off and got back in there cars, i felt alittle at ease knowing that nothing was going to happen untill i saw that the train still had not passed. To make the story short the train passed and i got home without looking down a gun... i really felt safe in my hometown not so much anymore, i never took the idea of a gang in Pocatello, ID seriously

Now im all for people haveing guns for protection and hunting, even just for sport but not if your going to shoot or aim it at people... im just glad to be home safe and sorry its do long.

I got the guns, you get the ammo...
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Hi im writeing this journal for two reasions. first cuz i wanted to say that this was writen at 3 am lol XD second because i kinda had a emotionaly hurtful dream about what happend to me recently and i wanted to use this journal as an a way of saying that..... i..... need.... emotional.....Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Edit at 10am
hey guys i wanted to tell you that i added the "Zzz" an hour later, i was typeing and while typeing i fell back asleep and woke up around 4:25 ish so then i added the trail off part and when back to bed XD for all who questiond if i fell asleep then how could i still type? XD

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Happy Halloween BITCHES!!! XD no picture though sorry

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ok im jumping the gun on the 1k hits but im like two away... right? idk i cant see when im writing a journal BUT id like to give a special thank you to  Fang-Wolf for my 100th fav it really means alot to me, and even though it took me two years to get 1k im still happy i got there, plus all i have to do is look at my dA account and see that i have 7k and i feel much better... oops wandered off subject, thanks you all, and goodbye to one, but hey i dont need a friend that treats me like shit and puts me down... damn i wandered off subject again.... <xD

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I had a friend tell me this yesterday... "stop feeling bad about yourself. you're a great guy. but you need to understand that yourself! I need you to realize you're a guy, just as good as me or as any other person in the world X3 we're equal"... its something i never thought about before.... i never thought that i was equal compared to anyone, i figured that i was at the bottom of the chian, not respected be anyone... i guess im wrong again, but i guess im glad i was wrong here.

I dont know why im telling you guys this, i guess im trying to tell you something about me.... i think you know im talking to you...

http://www.personalitypage.com/INFP.html read it to learn more about me

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http://milo13.deviantart.com/art/OM.....raws-100272567 see iv been drawing

Im sorry that i havent keep up to my promiss, but im not smart and clever like most comic artest (like dA's Hailnekoyasha and RDCarneiro) i am slowly working on the BBC.

Conner: *cough*lie*cough*

but like said above im not clever, so please if you think of somethin clever that you think Deoge and Ty should do/go through fill me in. DX its hard for me to think clever.... now i have to go find foods.

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Nevermind about me leaving, im ganna stay, just ... yeah teh i dont know, im bord a school right now, you think that i could come up with something to do NO im stupid remember?
Now i would draw the the drawback is that i dont have any drawing paper, so suck it!..... i should stop talking like that, cuz then my mind begins to wander... aw crap.....

wonder what i can to get seen.... draw better <xD lol, well somebody somewere cares

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iv been thinking of Leaving FA for some time now, from what i see, no one cares if i here or not, and thats really depressing, and knowing that i will never reach the level of friendship that i want with people, is also a downer..... i know no one will say anythin to this journal, so why post it, i dont know ijust need to get it out.... and who knows mabey things will change for the better who knows

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Lets go together

what im bord now that i dont have a job

Natural Hair Color:
[x] Brown - $100
[] Blonde - $50
[] Black - $15
[] Bald - $5
[] Other-$75

Eye Color:
[x] Brown - $1
[] Green - $75
[] Blue $50
[] Hazel $100
[] Other - $15

Height:
[] Over 7' - $200
[] 6'8" to 7' - $175
[] 6'0" to 6'7" - $150
[x] 5'5" to 5'11" - $75 - Kinda short by guy standards... at least in Texas.
[]4'9" to 5'4" - $45
[] Under 4'9 - $45

Age:
[] 31 to 40 - $100
[] 26 to 30 - $75
[] 21 to 25 - $50 - Twentysomethings!
[] 19 to 20 - $25
[x] 0 to 18 - $100

Birth Order:
[] Twins or more than twins - $300
[]First Born - $300
[] Only Child - $250
[x] second born - $150
[] Middle child-$100
[] Last Born - $100
[] third born - $100
[] fourth born - $100
[] fifth born - $100

Drink?
[] No - $400
[] Only Holidays - $250
[x] Sometimes - $215
[] YES - $200
[] Only weekends - $350
[] Every other day - $50
[] Once a day - $15
[] I live from the bottle - $Bankrupt$

Vision?
[x] perfect vision -$300
[] need or have glasses/contacts but dont wear them - $200
[] No correction $100
[] Glasses $50
[] contacts $25
[] Surgical correction - $1

Car(s) Color
[] Pink - $2,000
[] Maroon - $800
[] Gold - $700
[] Gray - $600
[x] Blue - $900
[] Obsdian - $800
[] White - $475
[] Black - $450
[] Red - $400
[] Green- $350
[] Silver $300
[] Purple- $250
[] Metallic - $200
[] Yellow - $100
[] Primer - $75
[] Tan- $20
[] Rusted - $15
[] No Car - $0
[] Other - $ 50

Favorite Color:.
[] Green-$750
[] Red - $600
[] Black - $100
[] Yellow -$475
[] Brown - $50
[] Purple - $225
[] White - $400
[] Orange - $300
[] Aqua - $350
[x] Blue - $300
[] Pink - $100

Shoe Size:
[] 13+ - $300
[]12.5 to 13 - $250
[x] 11 to 12 - $700
[] 7 to 10 - $500
[] Under 7- $550

Did you use a calculator to add it all up?
[] Yes - $0
[x]no- $1000
[] on some - $550


Total : $ 3842

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