sorry, I can't stream. I just don't have a good enough internet connection to do so.

sorry

it won't be very long. just a little motivation to keep myself going until I give up

http://www.livestream.com/milofox08

depending on whether or not my roommate comes home.

so maybe 7pm PST?!

I currently have a total of 6 commissions!

I don't think I'll be able to do that many before my rent is due, but that's OK. I can still work on it. Not like I'm going to give up a commission after I reach my goal

So thank you guys for that

And thank you for challenging me, some of these are hard as hell!

So my roommate has come up short on his end of the rent.... again, and this time, I really don't have enough to cover him. I don't even have enough to cover my own end. So as humiliating as this is; because honestly, I'm not exactly known (and I'd be surprised if anyone even notices this journal); I might have an idea to take commissions or something. Anything honestly. I'm not even close to deserving to take commissions, but I've already sold a bunch of stuff, and that's just not enough.

Seriously. $5, even $3 for a sketch could help me.

It's totally ok if this doesn't work out. Like I said I'm not even a good enough artist to take commissions, but I've come such a long way from homelessness, to this beautiful tiny little room, and I just don't want to take a step back.

If anyone has any other possible ideas I'd love to hear them.

would anyone be ok if I streamed stuff other than art? I'm so pissed off at drawing lately, I don't think I want to pick up a pen any time soon. I'd like to still hang out though, so I could stream games or something, or mic I dunno.

hopefully down the line, I can get a camera and some software, and stream some photo/video editing

thank you all for coming

I might be streaming around then

For streaming.

It's not yet set in stone but I'll try to stream most nights at around 6 -8 pm Pacific Standard Time.

It might be a good idea to get into this habit.

I dunno, I might. the other night was fun and it encouraged me to draw, o I might do it again tonight.

it might be nsfw though. I don't know!

Of things to draw. Whatever you can think of. I need to expand and get out of my comfort zone, so it's best if I learn new stuff.

it's not really anything. I'll just draw for a bit, listen to a little music, and hang out

http://www.livestream.com/itsmilotime

I stopped myself from deleting my entire gallery again. as hard as that is. having huge fucking doubts again about my investment in drawing. but I'm just going to assume it'll pass.

so whatever. god damn it I'm frustrated

Like you're drawing one night, and you're thinking, wow this is good. I like this I should post this.

Then the next morning, you're like "shit I don't think my drawing was as good as I thought it was last night, I'm pretty sure it actually looks terrible, and I showed it to people fuck there's no taking that back"

I've never had a hangover or even been drunk, but I imagine that's the same feeling of shame and regret you feel the next morning

ever since I've moved to SF, I've cut off contact with pretty much everyone, and now I'm just remembering how much I missed the chat rooms and stuff. I guess I'm hoping somewhere, these things are still alive, and not everyone has gone their own way

how is everyone doing.

I should stream sometime soon. for practicing art stuff. I don't know what do you want from me!

so yea, I went to the con, briefly, with a group of people. it wasn't a big deal. I was more or less dropping in on my day off of work.

I arrived there at around 6pm. I met my friend and a group of people, and hung out a bit. I went up to his room, and basically there was another group of dudes already in there. I think one of them was popufur. I remember his face... I also remember seeing him licking a dudes nipples when I walked in.

I wasn't that surprised. I was like "WOOOO-oooh nevermind, I should've expected this.

actually, let me rewind. BEFORE I got up to the room, literally the first ten minutes of my experience at this con, a fursuiter came up behind me and rubbed up against me... it was one of those moments where it was a horrible experience, but at the same time WOW, what soft fur...

I think I just realized the power fursuits have. you can sexually harass people, but it's ok, because they're thrown off by the soft fur.

next to the Castro (gay district)

but I'm actually going to be in the mission (sketchy crackheads district)

also I was thinking if I had the time, I'd start streaming again. I dunno if anyone would come, but I definitely need to start drawing again

Sorry, I just want attention, so tell me happy birthday you jerks. god.

I forgot to take into consideration, that parks have automatic sprinkler systems. oh yea, I was set up like a boss, then bam, everything of mine is soaking wet. I quickly take my bags and run across the street, and another homeless guy takes the blanket I forgot to grab, and runs off.

jesus. fucking. christ.

well at least everything in my bags are dry enough.

I need something to do. IF YOU WANT TO GET TO KNOW ME

Male side:
[x] You love hoodies.
[x] You love jeans.
[] Dogs are better than cats.
[] It's hilarious when people get hurt.
[x] You've played with/against boys on a team.
[ ] Shopping is torture.
[ ] Sad movies suck.
[ ] You own an X-Box.
[ ] Played with Hotwheels cars as a kid.
[ ] At some point in time you wanted to be a firefighter.
[ ] You used to be obsessed with Power Rangers.
[ ] You watch sports on TV. (Hockey, Cricket, and Olympics)
[ ] Gory movies are cool.
[ ] You go to your dad for advice.
[ ] You own, like, a trillion baseball caps.
[ ] You like going to football games. (Not really to watch though, just hang out with people)
[ ] You used to/do collect baseball cards.
[ ] Baggy pants are cool to wear.
[x] It's kind of weird to have sleepovers with a bunch of people.
[ ] Green, black, red, blue, or silver are one of your favorite colors. (All the above)
[x] You love to go crazy and not care what people think.
[ ] Sports are fun.
[ ] Talk with food in your mouth.
[ ] Wear boxers.
Male Points Total = 5


Female side:
[ ] You wear lip gloss.
[ ] You love to shop
[ ] You wear eyeliner.
[x] You have some of the same shirts in different colors.
[ ] You wear the color pink.
[ ] Go to your mom for advice.
[x] You consider cheerleading a sport.
[x] You hate wearing the color black.
[x] You like hanging out at the mall.
[ ] You like getting manicures and/or pedicures.
[ ] You like wearing jewelry.
[ ] Skirts are a big part of your wardrobe.
[ ] Shopping is one of your favorite hobbies.
[x] You don't like the movie Star Wars.
[x] You are/were in cheerleading, gymnastics or dance.
[ ] It takes you around 1 hour to shower, get dressed, and put on make-up and accessories.
[ ] You smile a lot more than you should.
[ ] You have more than 10 pairs of shoes.
[x] You care about what you look like.
[ ] You like wearing dresses when you can.
[x] You like wearing body spray/perfume/cologne.
[ ] You wear girl underwear.
[x] Used to play with dolls as little kid.
[] Like putting make-up on someone else for the joy of it.
[x] Like taking pictures of yourself with your cell phone/camera when you're bored.
Female Total Points = 10





whatever, shut up...

I'm out of a home tomorrow, so... yea, there's that.

I was excited to see this center earlier, but I was told they only support those with an income. so I guess that's out of the option, and I... have no idea's, aha

does anybody know anything about the san francisco area? like youth centers, or anything?

fuck me... but whatever, I just hope this is a one-album thing for them. I do love the sound at 3:40 though