I hope you all had algonna have, are having or had a awesome newyear party. I sure had... and I'm tired and broken. YAWN! Sleepy... =w=

Last year, 25 Dec, I began with this account of Furaffinity. I never dreamed to get 10.000 views and 300 watches within a year. How fast was that! bloody hell!

It's quite a milestone for sure. But I couldn't do it without you. I'm glad to make more and more art in the future.

Thanks for all the watches, views and favorites. Every piece is so much appreciated.

Have a great Winter holiday and stay safe, warm, cozy, and poofy during the coldest days while near a Fire and a big poofy pillow and mug of your fav drink.

And I played it for 12 hours already... pfff I need a rest from that ^^;

I already got more then 50% of the story done, wub wub!

Also sidenote: Almost 10.000 views... bloody hell~

So the page views are closing in to the grand number of 10.000. I can't believe almost 9000 people visited my profile.

Not to mention the amount of watchers that follows me. Almost 300.

I never thought I became so well found within a year. Just thank you all~

Maybe I will make something special~

Thanks for the birthday wishes.

Kinda in a art block, that's why it's taking long to complete the commission. That plus my daily life and work is exhausting... but fun.

Almost my birthday. On 10 November I'm turning 24. Damn I know I'm still young but I feel old...

Birthdays isn't really that exciting for me anymore. I'm kinda casual about it. Sometime I go bowling and stuff and dinner but meh.

Any shouts is appreciated but you don't have to do anything. Have a great day.

Also ALMOST SMASH ULT COMING OUT!!! YAY!

First of all I want to thank all new watchers. Every watch is appreciated ^w^

But lately my sleep schedule is bonkers... 3-4am and I nap after my work. Feel so tired most of the time sjeez. I need to make it straight... No not me, I keep being out of the closet.

Commissions are full.

Read my profile info for more info.

Probably gonna swap to the commission feature this site has.

So my soulmate  BlubberYoshi369 is in serious money troubles. I want to do commissions to support him.

This is gonna be hard, I work on my best on improvisation. I'm a really picky drawer. But I do my best.

You may can comment if you want a commission but I need some setup time. I let you guys know when I'm ready to accept with a standard fixed prices and slots.

I don't want to lose him... not now...

So I started to take medication against my anxiety and depression. Before the panic attack, I did had both already but the anxiety was minimal.

I use Celexa, a anti depression medication, which will be tuff to go trough for a few weeks. But I hope it will take effect fast enough. I also hope it will help to be more active on a day and start to make more art for you peeps.

I do feel woozy though...

I managed to change my internet NAT type finally. Now I can game online on my switch at home + my internet finally got fixed. Before the upload speed was terrible for a month, which didn't let me upload stuff... or not that easy...

My mental health got improved a lot but don't expect me to upload that much. Rest is up the essence for me.

Nothing more to say...

except for that I don't post drawings until I feel good enough... =~=

Going a lot better, but I really suffer from a burn out. Still need a few days at my parents. Just keeping up to date.

But I don't have anything terrible going on with my body. It's all in the mind.

So as you know last week I had a anxiety attack. I did recover a lot but still got some minor symptoms. However I'm afraid to tell that I might have catched a phobia. Cardiophobia (morbid fear) is a fear of your own heart. So that... sucks...

Now now, I'm just jumping up to conclusions. Maybe after I recovered 100% there is no sign anymore... I hope so.

So last Tuesday I got a anxiety attack from noticing that my heart skipped a beat when I got too excited. Stress, difficult breathing, pressure on my chest with some aches and my throat ached like a mother effer.

I spend a hour in the hospital for a quick check up to comfort myself and my heart and pressure seemed fine. Still have these after effects but a lot less. I'm a few days at my parents to calm my body down.

It's the first time I had this extreme feeling that went on for hours, it wasn't fun. You know that feeling when you go in a rollercoaster down the ramp? Yeh like that but all the time for hours long with a lot of stress in your head.

I do feel a lot better but I have to recoup from this...

Today I saw someone dressed like Jack sparrow.

...The world can be cool sometimes~

Nah just kidding it's much more cooler over here. Now I need some inspiration for the weekend to finally start drawing.

I do need to pick up the phase again and I have my Dungeon master hobby to attend to... which means preparing for the session every week for Tuesday which surprisingly takes a lot of stress and decent thinking time. It is really fun though, it is~

You watched the Nintendo direct? If not you should. I really want to type stuff about it but I'm beware that spoilers isn't really fun you know... actually it's difficult to avoid as youtube titles and thumbnails is full of spoilers so tread carefully. But man I can't wait what they have more in store~

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It's so hot, my drawings get all sticky and my hands are being arms spasweaty... Not to mention when I am drawing on the computer.

Literally need to put a wet towel on my pc to help it cool off. Talking about making your own water cooling.

It's just my room though it's about 28 Celsius (32 next Tuesday) But my room is a like a boiling vat. I have no windows sooooo... Door it is but it doesn't help much.

So that's why I'm so slow about my art lately. I'm just outside most of the time or under the shower most of the time I'm inside.

Beautiful rain! I never was so happy to have so much rain~

Thank science it is cooling off~

So I remembered the PS1 version of Doom. The music in this version is... so good! It's atmospheric, scary and pulls your neck hairs straight up.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gT8--F5EDpo

Memories of the finest quality as this music made me shiver and really scared me when I walk into a pitch black dark room when suddenly Pinky bites your ass. These feelings still haunt me and I loved it~

It was my first ever Doom game I played so with the scary music combined of the unknown, it was a experience of a life time, especially when I played in the pitch black darkness with only the light of my tv~

Last Tuesday I played as dungeon master for the first time. I was hella nervous but I for the first time I prepared a ton of stuff. I even made a map on a checkered paper and not the small kind. I mean the huge office paper that you can put on a whiteboard.

I was quite the experience to feel so mighty. I however went easy on my first ever players. Not for them but for myself to see if I didn't made it too hard. Better too easy then too hard for the first time but it was perfect.

I never did this kind of social contact before. After the session I felt different. You know that feeling when you get a burst of adrenaline? I had that feeling for a few days straight in my belly, chest and throat. It was really uncomfortable actually and I couldn't sleep. exercise seemed not having a effect. Luckily it slowly dissipated so I feel much more calmer in my body. It's at least better then feel exhausted all the time.

Yo sorry that I'm not that active right now.

I'm studying and training. In what exactly? Good question.

DUNGEON MASTER!

Yes being a player for some months I decided to make it one of my hobbies. I have varies books including dungeon master guide, Small and huge Big papers with a square pattern to make maps, and a a lot of others things etc. The only obstacle is to survive my first session of DM and I can tell you, I'm really nervous!!!

Wish me luck ^w^

Hot weather makes me so slow. Also my room is 1000 degrees hot so making art inside my room is almost impossible to endure.

I literally need to soak face and chest with water to get any satisfaction from my fan.

So yeh expect me not making that much art this season... unless it cools down time to time with rain hopefully.

The weather went from ice cold to blazing hot within a short month over here.

It's so steaming hot, I need to avoid drinking too much water or I blow up by the steaming water inside me.

There's no Blimp Yoshi beanbag or huge plush that exist. I love to own one so I can sit on it all relax and comfy.

Maybe not only a blimp Yoshi, maybe many others like for example... a inflated Milvus beanbag. You never know~ ^w^



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