I thought I was done for this time. Seriously, I spent the last week without sleeping at all. When I did manage to fall asleep, I had nightmares. Vivid ones too. I died in them, or at least in most of the nightmares. It's amazing how much your mind can play tricks on you.

Anyway, through some kind of miracle, I managed to get enough for rent. I already paid for it, and surprise surprise, I have a roof over my head! Again! And like I said before, I believe December is gonna be a smoother month for me. After the rest of this stupid year, I deserve one. I think. Here's hoping I don't lose my mind by the time Christmas arrives.

So, uh... thanks to everyone that helped me. I do feel terrible about reaching out, I dunno. Something about my anxiety getting the better of me, and making me think that I'm exploring others, even if the reason why I'm reaching out is "hey so I would like to not sleep in concrete". It's something I gotta work on, I guess?

For the time being, I'm fine. Well, my bank account right now only has around the minimum for spending on necessities, since the brunt of my cash was for rent, but my mother is getting paid next week, so that should alleviate things a little.

Still, I'll keep my ko-fi open, and if anyone wants to send some cash to help with those necessities ( at https://ko-fi.com/navar ), I would appreciate it. Of course, this is only if you can. I'll be fine if not, it'd just help. Don't feel pressured to do it or anything.

In any case, uh... this is what I wanted to say, I guess? Thanking everyone. Really, I cannot stress enough how much of a shitshow this country is. One day, I'll move out, go to Canada and live with my boyfriend. Until then, I'll do my best to work, survive, and study.

Thanks.

I'm scared. I'm horrified. My heart feels like it's gonna explode from how fast it's beating. Six days. I only have six days to get... 576 dollars. I'm so scared. Terrified, even.

Losing my home. I'm so scared I'll lose my home. Please, please. Anyone. If anyone reads this, please help me. I don't wanna lose my home. I don't. Maybe I deserve this, maybe I did something bad and God or the universe or whatever is punishing me.

But I still feel like I have to cry for help here. I woke up crying today. I haven't even bought my medication (I have hypothiroidism) because of the fear of spending too much.

Just. Just please. Anyone that reads this. Help me. Help me.

I'm so tired... I don't know how I haven't bought a rope yet, but I didn't. I don't know. Just help me.

https://ko-fi.com/navar

Sometimes I really think I'm cursed or something. If not then how come every fucking month I have to scream into the void, hoping someone helps me?

Well, there's good news and bad news. The good news is that I believe December will, finally, be a smoother month for me.

The bad news is that it's not December yet. And with only nine days left until rent, here I go. Again.

I'm so tired. Sometimes my depression gets the best of me. I'm not even sure how I'm still alive.

https://ko-fi.com/navar

The goal is there. If I don't get this amount in nine days, well. I'm sure sleeping on the street isn't as bad as it sounds.

Ten people donating $50 already helps immensely.

Look... if you can't donate, share. Share wherever you can. This is the last time. I just need to survive the rest of the month. I hope so.

Otherwise... I don't know. If, nine days from now, you guys don't see any update, you can probably assume the worse.

Hey all. Just wanted to point out that I still have comms open! For the next twenty days, you can get a discounted price on any story! And I'm really looking into writing different stuff. Stuff I'm not used to, like...

I dunno. Vore, maybe? Macro, micro. This kinda stuff. I wanna get the opportunity to write it. So... yeah, talking about comms again. Discord is Navar_8326, so send me a friend request there if you wanna grab a story!

I've reached over a hundred favorites recently. On new stories that I posted, which is... honestly, it's always surprising. I've always wondered if my content is good enough, something I'm sure that every writer wonders at one point. But, from the looks of it, my work is good?

Heh. Well, I wanted to thank each and everyone of you. Thanks for all the favorites, and as you know, there's still commissions open this month! Really, I would love to write for more people. Do new things. You know. That kinda stuff.

Anyway, just wanted to say this. Thanks!

You know, I've always been interested in making a ych story for this account. Never done one before, and honestly I don't think my page is popular enough to get that big of a traction, but like... if I were to make one, would anyone be interested? And by that, I mean my watchers. I dunno, I think it'd be fun to consider! Let me know your thoughts.

...I'm also half-tempted to make a Discord server for tf freaks (like me), so fuck it, another question: would that be cool?