My lovely boyfriend  meowmix6 had an extra bluesky invite so decided to try it out. Feel free to follow me at kestrelcreations.bsky.social

Just as a reminder, I have a patreon that you can take a look at here and a tumblr where you can read the comic here

Gonna be at Midwest FurFest. If you see me or wanna see me, just say howdy.

I'm thinking about trying to stream again, but I'm not sure if my current setup will allow it. If I do, does anyone have thoughts on what you'd like to see? Let me know!

Porny stuff?
SFW stuff?
Monster stuff?
Animal mashup territory?
Unnamed extra options I haven't thought of?

Not sure how many of ya'll read these, but just wanted to give a heads up that I'm two weeks out from top surgery. I'm sore and exhausted, but I'm also 14 pounds lighter (how messed up is that, my tits combined were an extra 14-15 lbs that I was lugging around).

The actual surgery was much longer than I anticipated and I feel sorry for my spouse who had to basically sit for nearly 18 hours in the waiting room. I guess I had a lot of tissue to go through (14 lbs of it!) and a lot of undermining and shoring up to do.

My nipples still look awful right now, but that's normal. They're slowly getting into the neon pink stage which is pretty fun! Unfortunately, they are getting into the stage where they're starting to hurt as well, since all the nerves are reconnecting (thankfully).

Would anyone be interested in hearing about the actual process I went through for it? I've been thinking of writing it up, but if nobody is interested, I wouldn't wanna bore folks.

All in all, though, it's good to be back home, it's good to finally look in the mirror and see myself properly. Shockingly, I actually think I'm not that terrible looking anymore. Still chubby, still got kind of weird features, but not terrible. That's the biggest plus here in my mind. I don't feel so ugly any more.

So I've got the chance to get top surgery in the next couple of months. My insurance might cover *some* of it, but not enough (sadly). So I'm posting my Gofundme here, in the hopes that maybe it could be even spread around a little bit more.

I'm also happy to take commissions in exchange for donations. Just let me know how much you're willing to donate and I'll see what I can do in terms of art.

https://www.gofundme.com/f/kayden-t.....cp+share-sheet

Thanks so much!

I was so confused when I got on FA this afternoon, because I had literally just finished seeing Detective Pikachu this morning, and now all of my journals are talking about shinies!

I went ahead and enabled on my page for shits and giggles.

Finished off the paperwork today, so me and Spouse can move into the apartment finally. It's a very nice little place, but dang, it's been a hell of a time.

We ended up getting a message from our landlord. She was all "Hey, you guys have been awesome tenants! Also, I'm selling the building and you've got 60 days to find new housing."

So that's cool.

I'm not gonna lie, it's a little scary. Finding housing for three and two cats isn't always easy. I'm sure we'll figure it out but gods damn. It's just one extra thing, you know?

I'm old now.

I had a blast last time! If anybody else is going, lemme know. I love meeting folks!

Sooo, as I was driving, my muffler decided to give up. It's going to cost $305 or so to replace (that figure also includes the work to do it, so that's cool).

But hey, commissions are open. I'm doing a special! Whatever commission you get from me, knock off $10-$15 from the total price, depending on the piece.

I'm not super hurting right now, but any other "surprise" money needs could be pretty bad and my family isn't in a *great* place financially. Enough to balance currently and we have a little savings, but I'd rather not dip into that if at all possible.

You can find my commission pricing here

So, I'm fat. Like seriously, I'm overweight, big ol' chunky boy with a love of sweets and carbs. I'm pretty okay with my body too. Maybe it's not the greatest, it's never going to be the favorite of everyone, but plenty of people seem to find me pretty okay to look at.

My problem? I hurt. Every single day, almost constantly, *something* is hurting in or on my body and that is not the most sustainable sort of life, my friends. So yeah, I'm okay with my body, I don't care that I'm fat, but something's got to change in my lifestyle so that I can maybe feel a little bit better.

Part of it is natural health issues. I've always been a pretty sickly kid, I've had asthma since birth, I have a host of other health issues that aren't because of my weight. They just *exist*. Part of it is also that I'm older. I just turned 33 in December and maybe that's not super old, but it's old enough that my body is starting to be all "haha, fuck you."

And part of it is simple bad lifestyle choices. I've been trying to make better ones for the past couple of years. I've cut out soda entirely from my diet (and let me tell you, that was fucking hard), I've been trying to moderate my portion sizes when I eat. Small things, sure, but attainable things.

Today, I started exercising again. When I was a teenager, I used to do yoga every single day for over an hour. It was amazing, I was flexible and it gave me so much energy throughout the day. I ended up stopping due to time constraints and the exhaustion that comes with clinical depression. Every so often, I'd try starting again, but then I'd get sick, have to stop a few days and just not get back into it. I was too tired, I was this, I was that. Lots of excuses. And they were excuses, because exercising is hard and I didn't want to feel so tired or ache.

But man...something's really got to change for me. I need to work on myself. I've already started working on some of the worse health issues (got to love actually having some insurance) so now I need to work on the things I can do myself. I might fail sometimes. I might start and stop and whine and give up only to start again. But, y'know, trying to change a lifestyle isn't easy and it isn't linear. Small choices, small changes. They do add up after a while! I've also been cutting caffeine out of my diet, slowly but surely. That one is definitely harder, but...it's not as hard as it was to cut soda. Maybe because I'd already cut soda out of my diet it was easier to ease back.

I need to learn to be gentle with myself. Sure, I need to motivate myself and keep making those small changes, but I need to not tear myself apart when I do fall back or relapse. Some might think being cruel would be extra motivation, but it really isn't. All it does is make me more likely to not actually make those changes! I think to myself, I'm so stupid and ugly and fat anyway, why bother trying to change. Why bother trying to be healthy? I'm too old, I'm too fat, I'm too ill, I'm too whatever. So why bother. But man, that's no good.

So hey, if you're trying to make some changes too, be gentle with yourself. Yes, you'll make mistakes and maybe not do what you feel like is your best, but that's okay. You'll do better on another day. Just try to keep going!

MFF was a blast, especially for my very first convention. Met some truly awesome people and saw some very cool costumes. Also began to work on the bits of my future fursuit.

I’m gonna be at MFF this weekend with my lovely boyfriend  meowmix6 so if you see me, feel free to say hi!

If you wanna follow/chat/etc. my tumblr is Minimoofin

Going to be at Midwest Fur Fest this year, along with my boyfriend  meowmix6. If any of ya'll are interested in meeting me (not sure who would!) I'll be around!

I've decided to do a few requests for funsies. The requests will be digital, flat colored and with up to two characters. Minimal to no backgrounds. If you're interested, comment here and let me know!

1.  Luke_Delfino (Finished)
2.  CanasRenvall (Finished)
3.  tamurross (Finished)
4.  altallo (Finished)
5.  redfurryfire (Finished)

If anybody is interested in seeing a speedpaint of the most recent piece I did, go ahead and check it out here:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tAhbqO5keOA

I've been considering starting up a youtube channel dedicate to speed painting. Now, it would only go up to pg-13 content, but is that something any of you guys would be interested in? If so, let me know in the comments and I'll post a link once I get everything set up.

Hello people! This is the new account of  LokiLover and hopefully I shall be uploading a lot more often.

Feel free to say "howdy", I promise I don't bite.