Okies... I'm currently a bit burned out when it comes to full illustration commissions and so I'm thinking about doing some more simple/themed ones for a while.
Since October is coming up, I was thinking about offering some spooky themed commissions.
Maybe a tamer and shorter version of Goretober or a little Spooktober.... A list with prompts and you guys can pick which one you'd like to have....

So far it's just a thought but if you'd be interested in it, I could come up with something.

Let me know what you think about it. ^^

I'm currently updating my commission types and prices and to see how long it takes to finish a certain type, I'm going through them by drawing some new samples.

Now it's time for my artistic freedom portraits, so I'm offering a few slots.
These will be the last ones, going for the old price of

30€ per slot

- Payment via paypal or bank transfer
- Any species is possible.

Here are some samples:
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/45304574/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/40760395/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/40757910/

Slots:
1.  ProudLioness - DONE
2.  Norua - DONE
3.  Tygon - DONE
4.  Rishary - DONE
5.  sukiedog - DONE

Feel free to ask if you have any questions

Time for some new commissions! :D

Prices can be found here: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/46569619/
Additional info: https://www.furaffinity.net/commissions/mirri/

Since I still have some other things to work on, I'll just take three for now, maybe a fourth, depending on complexity.

Slots available:
1.  Athalean - DONE
2.  Scow2 - DONE
3.  Lengus - DONE

The Art Fight is over and I'm back to my regular schedule.

The past month was so much busier than I expected and I didn't draw as much as I wanted.
At work, we're still terribly understaffed and it's starting to affect my mental stability. I'm pretty annoyed because I've been doing quite well over the past months. Now I had my first little breakdown and anxiety is starting to creep in when I'm trying to fall asleep.... ><

On the positive side, I'm pretty busy preparing the final details for our LARP event next month.
Wrote a lot of info about the characters, the story and other things, bought all the stuff for my costume and made some decorative elements and items for the plot.
After a very long pause, I finally got the chance to play some DnD and Cthulhu again, which also helps me to forget the real life stress for a while.

So that's a quick summary of what's been going on.

For those who are interested in getting a commission slot, I'm updating my to-do list today, so I should be able to put up a journal for new ones tomorrow.

I just finished my last regular commission today, just in time for the Art Fight.
Just like last year, I'm taking a break from commissions during this month because it really helped my mental health to have this artistic vacation before the busy time of the year begins.
You can find me here:
https://artfight.net/~Mirri


I'll be working on some Patreon related commissions/rewards but outside of that I'll take new ones on August 1st.
There'll be two more exceptions:

1.Since I won't be at Eurofurence this year, I'd love to offer some badge commissions in advance, simply because I miss drawing those! I'll post a notice with all the information soon.

2. I'm still offering one fullbody illustration with hard shading for the Naturama project!
For more information, please have a look at this link:
http://naturama-projekt.org/en/naturama.php

Thanks for all your messages.

Taken slots:
1.  Aarron

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For those of you who are interested in supporting a good cause, please have a look at the Naturama project!
http://naturama-projekt.org/en/naturama.php

Me and a lot of other artists are offering commissions there to support various animal related charities!

Just wanted to let you know that I might take a step back this week.
I'm still working on commissions but I'm currently not as fast as I'd like to be.

After just feeling sad yesterday, I slipped into full anxiety today. Yay!
Took me about two hours to find the courage to go outside to buy groceries.
My head's full of negative thoughts, making me feel bad when I try to do things for myself and undermining my fragile self-esteem.
I start feeling like a disappointment and a burden to everyone again.
I know it's the depression speaking but that knowledge doesn't make the thoughts and emotions go away.... and that's frustrating!
I want to feel better! I want to be happy!

So just in case, I'll try to focus a bit more on keeping those thoughts in check this week. I really don't want to risk falling into another depressive episode after just getting out of the last one!

I'm still around, I'm still working on stuff but I may take a while longer to answer notes and things like that.

Sad Mirr is pretty sad today, so I'm offering some rough sketches to distract myself from the things in my head.

I don't know how many I'll do but if you want, feel free to post a character reference.

Still three more weeks to go until my next vacation, so I have some time for a few additional commissions.

My current prices can be found here:
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/46569619/

Further information and TOS are over here:
https://www.furaffinity.net/commissions/mirri/

Depending on complexity, I'm taking three or four commissions.

Slot 1:  Sekinar
Slot 2:  Garuo
Slot 3:  mizuki-akemi
Slot 4:  scow2

And as always: Feel free to ask if you have any further questions ^_^

I'll be sitting at home for the next week because of a bronchitis (....wohoo.... ._.), so I'm offering three artistic freedom commissions.
I'd also be interested in doing an art trade or two.

Commission Info

Samples for both, portrait and full body versions, can be found here:
https://www.furaffinity.net/gallery.....tistic-Freedom

It's 30€ for a portrait/bust and 60€ for a full-body picture.

Here you can find more information about both commission types: https://www.furaffinity.net/commissions/mirri/

Slots:
1.  Lengus - DONE
2.  KivuliTLK - DONE
3.  Garuo - DONE

Trade Info

Not much to say about that. ^^;
Artists who are willing to draw humanoid characters are preferred but I'm also up for furry stuff.

Feel free to ask if you have any questions!

Haven't asked for a while, so maybe it's a good time to do it again.

I'd love to get some art of my humanoid characters and so I'm looking for artists that enjoy drawing grumpy, old men. ^^;
I've been looking for artists to commission but those who are open don't really like drawing humans and those who do aren't taking commissions at the moment. Maybe I'm just not very good when it comes to being on the other side of a commission ^^;
Art Trades are also perfectly fine!

For those who might be interested, some of my characters can be found here:
https://www.furaffinity.net/gallery.....3054/Pen-Paper
https://www.furaffinity.net/gallery.....ster-Hunter-AU

So maybe you've got some recommendations for me. I'm always looking out for cool artists anyways ;)

Thanks in advance!

I really had fun with the last two artistic freedom commissions, so I'm offering two more slots.

Samples for both, portrait and full-body versions, can be found here:
https://www.furaffinity.net/gallery.....tistic-Freedom

It's 30€ for a portrait/bust and 60€ for a full-body picture.

Here you can find more information about both commission types: https://www.furaffinity.net/commissions/mirri/

Slots:
1.  Lilbabe411
2.  Adelyn - done

TLDR: What happened since October and my plans for the coming months. AKA: "Mirri's head messed up everyting - part 69420"

I put writing this journal off for quite some time but here I go!

Those who've been following me for a while now, probably noticed that there was another break in my online activities, especially when it comes to keeping contacts activ. It's not the first time and after almost 40 years, I should know myself well enough to know that it won't be the last time.
My mental health has always been a problem for me and though I really learned to deal with my issues a lot better than when I started therapies, 14 years ago. It may sound cheesy but the furry fandom and especially furry conventions helped me to gain courage. I'd say that at least 80% of my contacts over the years have been nothing but positive and I really treasure those kind people that still put up with me.

To get back on topic, last autumn I started to notice symptoms of a more serious depression and so I started taking my medication again. It helped and got me through the pandemic-Christmas time in retail. Here in Germany, bookstores were excluded from most lockdown measures, which was good for our company but not the best thing for my mental health, especially since several employees left and were not replaced.
Thanks to my medication, I managed to keep the harmful voices out of my head but it also numbed any other emotions. It's hard to describe but it kinda felt like some weird, passive depression. I had no energy, no creativity and I lacked any interest in doing anything. I went to work and at home I spent my time sleeping or reading.... in bed.
I didn't have much social interactions outisde my job and even those few interactions decreased. It all felt way to exhausting.

By the end of the year, I realised that my desire to be alone had turned into social anxiety and that was a sign for me that I had to do something. So with the start of the new year, I reduced my medication and started to slowly start facing my problems that had been building up over the months. =/
I'm still not done, facing some of those unopened mails and I kinda hate myself for it because I know that I'm preventing myself from making progress. I think about them several times, every day....
Now that my creativity is slowly returning, I'd love to do more commission work again but I want to get those old requests out of the way first. It's not a long list, in fact it's laughably short, but I still feel like the worst person on earth just because I'm too afraid.

Anyways... enough whining!
I basically just wanted to let you know that I am working on solving my problems and I really hope to get it done rather sooner than later. Trust me, I really WANT to!

For this year, I didn't plan any conventions, since I don't really trust the current situation and cancelling events is always a stressful matter. So the only event I'm going to attend this year, is our LARP in September. *cough* We still have room for plenty of NPC and some players ;)
I really hope to see you guys at NFC and/or EF (maaaaybeeee Confuzzled too) next year.

So.... I guess that's it for now. There are some more positive things I'm working on but I'll talk about those when they're done.

If you read through all of this, please let me offer you a plate of purple cookies!
Thanks for reading about my mental desasters once again. Always the same but still kinda different :P

Hey there!

Since October I've been rather quiet (again) and I'm going to write a journal about all the stuff that's been going on around the end of this week.
I'm currently working hard to kick myself in the fluffy butt to get things going again, so I'd like to offer two artistic freedom commissions to ease myself into the more regular commissions.

Samples for both, portrait and full-body versions, can be found here:
https://www.furaffinity.net/gallery.....tistic-Freedom

It's 30€ for a portrait/bust and 60€ for a full-body picture.

Here you can find more information about both commission types: https://www.furaffinity.net/commissions/mirri/

Slots:
1.  kier_ish - done
2.  Scow2 - done

Feel free to ask if you have any more questions.

Hiyas guys!

Just a quick update.
At the beginning of this month, I started taking aantidepressants again, because the voices in my head got way to loud. It's been three weeks since then and I'm finally feeling some changes. The voices aren't as loud anymore and I feel a lot calmer.
It also helped to step away from social media and the internet in general for a while because I tend to compare my art to better artists in an unhealthy way.
So my mental health seems to get better now. Finally.
Only downside to the medication is the fact that it also affects my creativity. I feel less creative and coming up with ideas is way harder than before. I know this symptom from a few years back and I know tht it should get better but right now it's an uncomfortable feeling =/ Currently I'm kinda forcing myself to draw until it gets better. But compared to suicidal thoughts, I guess it's an okayish price to pay. :P

Quick art info:
I'm going to offer my annual advent calendar commissions again. I will post the template and all information around the end of the week because I'd like to start working on them early this year. ;)

Thanks for your support!

Hey guys!

Sorry for being inactive for a while but I had some health issues that knocked me out.
I dragged myself through the work days for the past two weeks and didn't have any energy left for other things but still I barely slept through the nights.
On Friday my body decided that enough was enough and shut down. Spent the weekend in bed, trying to get some sleep, feeling sick and dizzy... all the fun stuff.
Went to the doctor yesterday who told me to stay home for the week and get some rest.
I'm slowly recovering but this week will probably still be rather unproductive, since I'd really like to get back on my feet first.

So, my vacation is coming to an end and as I mentioned before, I'm taking some new commissions!

My prices can be found here: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/39993901/

and this time I'm offering one slot for a complex commission and two to three slots for simple commissions (depending on complexity)
Complex commissions are for example full illustrations or reference sheets that need more than just a single pose.
Simple commissions are for example artistic freedom, icons, simple character drawings.

Just let me know what you're looking for and I'll find a slot for you ;)

Complex commission:
1.  commanderjimbob

Simple commission:
1.  Lilbabe411 - DONE
2.  Artoochu2014 - DONE
3.  ZatyBluemane - DONE

Feel free to ask if you have any further questions!

Just a quick update for those who are interested ;)

Starting this weekend, I'm taking a little break. Got two weeks off from work and I'm planning to use this time to recharge my mental batteries.
The time was planned to be spent on our annual larp but since it's less fun to dress up as a werewolf-satyr while wearing a mask, we had to cancel it again. =/ Better luck next year.

Anyways, the last batch of commissions I took is on a good way, so I'll be taking new commissions after my vacation.
So if you're interested, next date for new commissions will be Sunday September 19th.

I'll post a journal and everything but I know that some people like to know things early! ;)

The slots have been filled! Thank you for your interest! <3

Thanks for your replies, I picked one trade partner for now!

I'm too tired for a creative title ;)

Since I'm probably going to have a rather boring weekend ahead of me (besides going to work), I was wondering if somebody would be up for an art trade?

I'm willing to draw any species, up to two characters, sfw/nsfw.

I'd love to get art of my new tiefling character Thamir (https://sta.sh/0nvp5lve0ff) or one of my other rp characters
https://www.furaffinity.net/gallery.....ster-Hunter-AU

but for those who prefer animals, I'd love some art of Karoon. (werwolf/wolf/lion)

(nsfw) https://www.furaffinity.net/view/28349355/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/15450004/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/15768189/

Sadly I won't have enough time for more than one trade at this moment but if there's more than one offer, I may pick another one if time allows it. ;)
I'll keep this journal open until I come back from work tomorrow, so it's not on a first-come-first-served basis.

Hi guys!

This year has been rough and I had to be very selfish to get by.
Staying at home during the lockdowns was a blessing for my mental health but after a year, they decided that bookstores are essential and the lockdowns no longer affected me. Don't get me wrong, I'm very grateful to still have my day job, but my mental health wasn't very happy about it. Social isolation felt good and I got used to it. My anxiety attacks became more frequent again, I felt overwhelmed by life and as if that wasn't enough, I simply couldn't draw anymore. Combine these things and you get a vicious circle that felt impossible to break out of. I tried to apply all the things I learned during my therapy but I wasn't able to get very far.

Somewhere around April, I came close to another suicide attempt and was living with constant suicidal thoughts. I know why I get those thoughts and I know that the reason is something that my mind makes up but knowing that doesn't change how true and right it feels...
I gave myself time until May to get the suicidal thoughts under control or I'd go back to the clinic to get professional help, which was something I wanted to avoid at all cost! It took a lot of energy and time but the suicidal thoughts became less frequent and by the end of May, they were mostly gone.

In June I still wasn't very stable and had a few minor breakdowns but I finally got to a point where drawing became a thing again. Until then I had to force myself to draw and it always felt like I was trying to draw fine lines with a thick crayon, all forced and stiff.
July was pure self-care. I knew that I wanted to return to doing commissions and being more present again in August, so I simply tried to enjoy the Art Fight and find some joy in drawing again. Half of that month I was sick but at least I had fun drawing again!

Now it's August and I feel like I should be able to deal with the online world and getting into commissions again.
I'm going to open for commissions again soon but for now I'll have to be careful. I still don't fully trust myself and so I'll limit the amount of commission slots, but more on that when it's time for the new ones.

Thank you very much for those who still support me even though I feel that I'm unable to return the kindness you give! <3

The very short version:
Due to health and real life problems I'm not planning to take any new commissions before June; The commissions I already started will be finished! (See this list for more info: https://trello.com/b/NmDeQOGr/mirris-schedule)

The slightly longer version:
The title already tells a lot. I'm going to take a break because of some things that are going on in my real life and because of my current health. I'm still struggling with that depressive episode that started in January and the frequency of suicidal thoughts and the urge to harm myself grows, so it's time for me to do more than just try to pull myself together.

Besides working on commissions I haven't drawn anything for a rather long time and this creative inability increases the pressure I put onto myself. I really want to draw, so I'm trying to take out some of the pressure by taking a break.

I still have some older things to upload here but I hope to be able to share some new art with you soon.
Thanks for reading! <3

Starting this week, the bookstore I work in is allowed to open again, which is a good thing. I've been at home since the middle of December and getting back into working among other people is going to be a huge change for me.
My head doesn't like changes and it's going to take me a while to adjust.

An important thing that's also going to change now, is the time I have for commissions.
Last month I figured out a schedule for me which worked pretty well and I spent 4 to 5 hours each workday on commissions. This isn't going to work anymore, so my commission days are going to depend on my schedule at work again.

Each weeks commission days will be shown in the upper part of my profile, as well as a link to the current status of the commissions I'm working on.

I really got used to the full time drawing thing but now that time's over and I'll have to split my times again.... let's see how long it takes until the next lockdown... ><

Hi there!

I wanted to jump right into my commissions today but after a weekend of pain, I just returned from the dentist, who extracted my wisdom tooth. x_X
The anesthetic is wearing off now and I'll probably need the rest of the day to recover.

So here's a quick update for the commissions: I added all of them to my schedule, so consider them all confirmed.
https://trello.com/b/NmDeQOGr/mirris-schedule

They should all be there but please let me know if I somehow missed you!