This is my final semester before i graduate, and since i'm not graduating out of my department, i don't exactly have all the same luxuries a department animator would have before graduation. Namely, i'm not going to be required to do a senior capstone project. However, i also realize that NOT having one would make finding a job more difficult, so i know i need to make something decent to have in my portfolio.

I know a lot of the furry community has artists, so i figured it was worth a shot in the dark to see what i could get from here. What i'm really looking for is character designs to base my models off of. I can draw perfectly well, but i also work a lot and the spring semester will be starting soon, so i will take help where i can get it.

Characters are going to be human, and the general idea for the animation will be a cinematic fight scene. So if anyone is interested in creating something they can see in 3-d, i'd appreciate the time saved as much as you'd appreciate the satisfaction of seeing your creation animated (for free might i add). For anyone who assists in any way to helping me create any part of my project, you will be referenced in the credits appropriately. Keep in mind, this is a one-man production, so it will be only me creating everything (more-or-less), with a finished product hopefully being done by graduation. I don't see it being that long, in fact, if i manage to make a 5-minute video out of it i'll be amazed with myself (since it takes weeks to make a 30-second video). But i digress,

If ANY artist would like to help, i'd greatly appreciate it. I'm not getting paid for this, and likewise don't have money or anything to offer, but i feel people would pay hundreds if not thousands to see their characters animated in 3D (i mean looking at the price-tag of a H0rs3 commission gives me a heart attack), so i feel this is still mutually beneficial. I will have to remind anyone interested, however, that if you do agree to help me that i expect you to know how to create a standardized reference sheet (meaning profile, side, and top views are all proportionate in measurements, which is required to make a good model), and also understand that you're submitting a design, not a storyline ect. Other than that, make a character you feel would make a badass combatant, and i'll likely make them come to life. Separate weapons designs will also be appreciated if you feel you can design a badass, creative weapon.

The programs i use are Autodesk Maya, Adobe photoshop, Aftereffects, Premier, and Audition. If you feel you are interested, please contact me first before going out of your way to make something. Likewise, if you already have a character or design you've previously created that you'd like to see modeled, you can shoot me a link and i can check it out to see if i like it and if it's detailed enough to create an accurate model. I realize my profile is defunct, so if you wish to see what type of animation work i have created in the past and recently, just message me and i'll happily show you.

I appreciate anyone who's interested. If you have a friend who may be interested but doesn't use this site, let me know and they can contact me through email. I hope to start modeling at the start of the semester (mid-January), and have finished rigs by the beginning of February. Anyone who helps will be updated on progress along the way if they desire. Just remember, character designs are to be 100% human (no cat ears, tails, ect.), the animation will be PG-PG13 (not sexual), and designs will need to be in a standardized reference sheet, so contact me before you make anything (i'd hate for anyone to waste time). Also, please spread this if you can, as any type of help counts, even if it's just getting the word out.

Thank you for your time, and i appreciate anything that helps. :)

i NEVER post to this site, so who in the hell is just reporting my content? it's not like it's a big deal or anything, but really? that's pathetic to report an otherwise inactive account. smfh.

seriously, if i had a dollar for every artist that blocked me for no reason especially after i give their work so much love.

this site is full of douchebags. i'm seriously only here for like one person or two at this point..... and porn. other than that, this site disgusts me. :\

Have you ever been so paranoid that perhaps someone is going through great lengths to try and stalk you when really they just spent the whole day watching the AFC and NFC championships and playing Knights and Dragons on his tablet?

also have you also been so paranoid you've deleted a whole conversation history on facebook with someone just because you thought that person's boyfriend was so concerned that they'd hack in to that persons account just to read what you two said?

LOL. me neither. :)

Those who follow me already know good and well how inactive i am on this site. i NEVER post anything, though i do follow artists i consider friends. So if you actually know me or care about me at all, you'd know that when i post a journal it either means i'm really mad or really upset/emotional, and of all people, my RL friends and family can't know.

I just feel really emotional lately, especially now more than ever.

Ok, maybe i'll just be straight forward and come out with it. So, there's this girl i've had a crush on for well over 2 years (Not giving out names, but she DOES use Furaffinity). i've had feelings for her since before me and my ex Maria broke up, and for those who know me that was a WHILE ago. She's been my friend for several years now and i've also managed to be there for her as often as i can especially when she really needed it. sadly, we live nowhere close to one another, so despite ALL of that we haven't actually met in person.

Regardless, for the past year or so we've rarely talked due to complications occurring in both our lives. However, recently we've started talking pretty regularly again, and after i thought i was over these feelings they just surfaced again. Not only do i get uncontrollable butterflies every so often when talking to her, but i also get mixed messages from her... quite often. The important detail i've left out until this point though is that she has a boyfriend and YES i've confessed my feelings to her, several times throughout my life, both while i was taken and during the short period i was single. What gets me is, i have these feelings and i can't do anything about them.

To add to it all, though she says she likes me and cares about me, i never feel it. i'm never truly convinced that my feelings are returned because throughout all my confessions i was never given the chance i've always dreamed of. so i'm just wondering WHY do i feel this way... and more so, why would someone tell me they love me if they never once given me a chance?

And after being teased and swooned into the very same feelings that are causing me to not left her go, i still have no chance of being with her. And it just hurts.....

YES, i have a girlfriend of my own, but i just have this constant sinking feeling that i probably shouldn't, and perhaps that's because i've had feelings for this girl since before i even met my girlfriend. Why must i be teased and feel this way for a girl i can't have? and more importantly, why do i feel this way when i already have someone who cares for me? It's not fair!

Maybe she will see this, and she most probably will, and hopefully she'll know it's about her. i don't want her to feel bad or sorry for me but... i can't stand it. I love her and would give anything to just have one chance with her, and it really hurts to have to feel this way, especially when i'm already with someone i've supposed to love unconditionally.

It just hurts, and i have no clue what i should do anymore.

So who exactly uses it? i want to know. i need a real show of hands here.

it's stupid. why do people even create an account on there? moreover HOW? i mean, i see almost all of FA has an account and they post most of their stuff on their rather than here. IDK why either. and on top of that, you can't view anything without an account. WHY? -_-; it's just fucking artwork and animations. what harm is it doing if i don't feel like making an account.

I actually tried to make one too, but can't. it's damn near impossible because no matter what password you try to create it won't accept it, saying it's "not safe enough" or "based on a dictionary word." well NO SHIT nigga. how else will i remember it if i don't use actual word and number combinations? hell, it even told me that i used a "dictionary word" after entering "asdfghjklzxcvbnm" ..... i shit you not. and that's besides the point, WHO THE FUCK is going to want to hijack an inkbunny account? it's not a fucking bank account or some shit, and i've seen less strict rules on banking sites. like really? wtf?

so i gave up making one. why not just post on FA people? everytime i see a link to Inkbunny i want to gouge your eyes out!

Now that i have your attention, i think i should make mention of something

it seems to me that a lot of people, and i mean A LOT of people, find me to be mean, rude, stupid, insensitive, or just a plain asshole. Here is what i have to say to those claims.

1) I'm blunt, not mean. there's a difference. If you grew up with an emotional vagina, chances are you won't like me nor what i say. i try to be as sweet as possible, but for one i'm honest, so i don't tell lies, and two, the truth usually hurts. If you can't grow a pair and face reality, don't complain to me saying "oh you're so mean and hurtful." chances are i'm not, just being honest.
2)saying i'm stupid is purely imaginative. There's a reason i could get accepted into any college in my state, so to say i'm stupid is purely comical to me. if you have your degree already, then you can talk, but for everyone else please don't waste your time because you cause me to laugh on the other end of the screen
3) I'm not insensitive. the real world sucks, get used to it. I try my best to be a loving caring person, but i can't baby ANYONE. The best i can do is comfort you when you're hurt, and if you need someone to talk to, i'm here. But i won't treat you like a child. I'm going to expect you to gather together your own strength and overcome your own problems.
4)you ever see the movie Hancock? You remember how much Will Smith's character hated when people called him an asshole? well yeah, i'm the same way. you see the reason being is because we know we're good people at heart. we do everything we can to help other people. we might not be perfect, and sometimes we fuck up, but for someone to call good people an asshole over it is very insulting. i'll punch you like Hancock punched that french kid if you call me an asshole. got it?

so basically, stop getting on my case. i try my best, and i love all of you. just please don't think i WANT to hurt you. i don't.

and no, my gf isn't pregnant.

... that the blue pill is actually a form of Rohypnol, and i was going to rape you????

no seriously

ok... soo. this is something i've kept secret for over 3 years, and have maybe only told a handful of people in my life. Since i made it public on another site and i'm loved for it (i will not reveal what site), i decided maybe i should reveal it here, as it's not that populated with RL friends or many people at all for that matter. lol

i think maybe two people know this on my FA, maybe only one... but still, here it goes...

what if i told everyone here that i was a cross dresser, and that i like to wear girl clothes and makeup and paint my nails? >///>; and that THAT is the reason i named my OC Princess and why he wears dresses and looks very girlish.

honestly i thought it would stand out more, but who pays attention to me? >.>;

thought i'd let that out. i'm a part-time girl and i love it. deal with it. :)

that's my journal for the month. lol

Don't get me wrong, i check FA daily to see if i have any messages, but i don't really contribute much since i rarely do artwork that isn't for school and i spend a lot of my time either busy or trying to enjoy myself (because i rarely get the chance too.)

I was wondering if i should start uploading my modeling pictures. to be completely honest, most of it is inappropriate, but for the appropriate stuff i was wondering if people would like that. apparently i'm an attention whore. :p

I don't know... i'm just bored and feel bad that i don't submit much on here. i feel the FA trend is dying slowly just like DA did, and myspace.

So talk to me and tell me what you think. :p

So, just so everyone knows, not that i figure anyone cares, i'm now technically homeless.

after 5 months of not paying his portion of the electric bill, one of my roommates has accumulated up to just under $200 in debt of the electric company, under a bill that isn't even under HIS NAME! my struggling and pretty much broke roommate has the bill in his name, and since this asshole's debt is so high now and no matter how often we threaten him he never pays it, the electric company turned out the power. on top of turning it off, it'll cost another $40 in reconnect fees to have them back on, and even then i pray to the good Lord that if i see that asshole again i'll have the strength not to murder his sorry ass.

i feel terrible, i don't have a place to call home because i can't stay at my apartment, and back home i no longer have a bedroom. i'd have to share a bed with my sister, and it's uncomfortable enough knowing i have NO privacy back home.

i really just wanted to spend the summer in a place of my own..... going home is a real problem because i have little internet and no privacy. no room for anything i wish to do, and my family is far from friendly with my close friends and people i choose to care about..... being as though i'm no longer in a relationship with maria, despite 3 years and 4 months of commitment, it'll be even harder on me knowing eventually everyone will find out and start judging my new GF poorly like they used to do Maria.... i can't stand that shit.

also, moving back home drives me another 90 minutes further from my girlfriend, who's already 3 hours away as is. since i'll no longer have my own place, i'll never get to spend time with her over the summer now..... and i miss her. i miss maria..... i miss my closest friends, who seem to just ignore me.

no power means no place to live, so inevitably, i'll be forced home soon...... FUCK THIS SHIT! >.<

I apparently ate shit at the skatepark and had a pretty bad concussion. I chipped a tooth... i actually think two teeth, and i also managed to bust my chin open pretty bad.

i can't remember shit. not what i was doing or how i fell or anything up until an hour later when i was in the hospital with my cousin and her BF. i was completely conscious and from what my cousin said when she found me 20 minutes after i fell i was walking around. i don't remember anything. i could have been laying on the ground for all my memory serves me.

CAT scan says nothing's wrong with me, and that the memory loss is just due to the concussion. I had to get 3 stitches in my chin and i still have my whole mouth fucked up. thank GOD i didn't fall and bite down on my tongue. >_< still, i can't really eat until they fix my teeth. i simply hurts cuz the roots are exposed so even so much as passing my tongue over it hurts it, though it has numbed a bit.

i really wish i could remember what the hell i was trying to do. for all i know it could have been anything.

I'll wait and see who remembers what today is. i love you if you do. :)

in case you didn't know, or haven't tuned into adult swim tonight, Adult Swim decided to bring back old school toonami and all of it's classic shows.

it's probably some form of april fools joke, as if toonami is really back, but it's really nostalgic seeing old DBZ, Tenshi Muyo, Outlaw Star, Gundam, ect. I'll probably be pissed come next saturday, but hell. i guess it's cool seeing it one last time. :p

If i have offended any person who is reading this, regardless of when it is you might be reading this, please bring it to my attention that i have done so.

i would like to know what it is i have done or said that has offended you, in the off case that i don't remember or have forgotten. i would like feedback from everyone who reads this. this is because i'd like the knowledge in case i'm inclined to do so again.

have a good day.

maybe i'm exaggerating, or perhaps it's just that i care too much about things i shouldn't care for to begin with.....

i feel lied to..... but perhaps i only feel that way because i was abandoned.

now, maybe it's just me, or maybe this is something others experience.... i don't know why, but for some reason i take role-playing to heart, as if it really means something even if not much. now i know almost every furry who rp's pretty much does it for fun not meaning a bit of it, but i guess i' stupid because i kinda do mean it and i kinda do create bonds that way.

i just need to get it out, the fact is.... why do i have to meet another fur so sweet and interesting and fun to talk to, and why does she have to leave before i get her REAL name or her FA or anything?... i'd like to hope that maybe she liked me as well but... ugh. it's so hard to think about. i HATE that every person i like leaves me.

The fursona was Kara, and her age was 23.... assuming she has a FA like most furs do, i hope to find her again.

i probably sound like a creeper.....

maybe i'm just a hopeless romantic..... *sighs*

whats wrong with me?

Not a damn one person ever looks at or comments on my artwork anymore.

man, you guys suck. i comment on a lot of your stuff all the time.

#FeelingUnloved

A lot of people have being ignoring me, or just plan upsetting me and making me depressed.

it's very rare i find a depression cure. i thought i'd pass it on. it really cheers you up. :)

https://youtu.be/__JVXlWFa3o

i just wish that the people who got me that way to begin with would realize who they are. >.>

the fact that you're reading this means it also applies to you.

We all heard of the SOPA/PIPA/ACTA bills and laws that were trying to be passed. we all know how much everyone hates and despises their existence.... but are ANY OF US "ACTUALLY" DOING ANYTHING ABOUT IT?

i want everyone to watch this

https://youtu.be/-tD1yaE0GfQ

EVERYONE is affected by this, and the bill hasn't even been passed.

DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT! this isn't a conspiracy theory or the works of a mad-man. THIS IS REALLY HAPPENING! the events are real, and aside from this video, there is media everywhere reporting of the horrors that are becoming because of us and our country.

every time you go see a movie, every time you buy a cd, every time you watch a PPV event, ect. YOU'RE SUPPORTING THE COMPANIES THAT CONTINUE TO SUPPORT THIS LAW IN CONGRESS! of course you're supporting the artist and creators, but the corporations are making the larger profits.

SIGN THE PETITION, SPREAD THE WORD, DO SOMETHING TO STOP THIS!

I doubt anyone cared or even realized i was missing, but i was visiting my baby the past 2 weeks. sorry if anyone was needing me for anything or was trying to contact me.

I'm starting to miss her immensely now.... i wish she could have came back with me.

so my christmas was pretty much nothing. i got nothing, but i did get to be with my lover..... aside from that, how was everyone? anyone wanna share their holidays? :P

So, i just met this girl today who happened to be a furry, and DIDN'T know what Furaffinity was. (yeah, i know. kind weird right? O.o)

anyway, her account is here.  princessangel

make her feel welcome. she is brand new. i hope you guys can make her feel happy here. :)

... Yet do any of you understand that a lot of it is brought on yourself?

I mean seriously guys... i'm not saying ANYONE on my friends list plays this, but being on the site for over 3 years, i heard about this game, but never looked at it because it seems..... well, DUMB! and you know what? it stands to judgement, but it brings it upon itself, and being as though the affinity accepts it, it might as well accept the stereotype.... because you're only standing by it this way.

http://furoticon.com/index.php?a=175

if you haven't seen how it works, it's best you don't. it's really self-degrading if you ask me.

this is obviously what you get when you get a bunch of low-lives to make a card game. :\

Then i took an arrow in the knee.

https://youtu.be/0yv4BFfWoro

FUS
RO
DAAAHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!

And to all who watch this, your welcome. i'm glad this entertained you. (because i know it has.) XD

https://youtu.be/1zkugyGWBiw

i need to settle this issue before it starts tearing at me emotionally.... i know that very few of you know me extensively personally, however that shouldn't matter.... i just want everyone's input. good or bad..... because eventually, this will end up hurting me if i don't figure out something soon.

so.... me and my lover Maria are nearing close to our 3rd year anniversary come this January. 3 years is a long time for any relationship, especially considering our's has been a long distance relationship the whole time. to be honest, i'm really excited about the end of semester in general. school is looking average to say best and to be honest, and if i get straight D's and C's i'll be a lot happier than failing any one given class. Secondly, come semester end i plan on visiting Maria again, despite the fact i have nowhere near the amount of money to go visit, i miss her dearly so i'll be happy to go without eating a few weeks if it means seeing her.

I digress..... with our 3rd year coming, it's growing more obvious.... so... think what you want, i want everyone's opinion on the matter regardless of how hurtful it may be.

.... i develop crushes on girls i tend to like as i meet them throughout life. this is second nature to me, since it's been like that since i was still in elementary school.if i grow to like someone i start to form a scenario in my head of "what if" we were together. i've had dozens of boyish crushes growing up until now, and typically (with almost 100% accuracy) it just turns out to be just that, a crush. because nothing ever happens, they never like me back, or they were taken by someone else. so being rejected my whole life i learned to understand that a crush is usually temporary, and that i shouldn't make a big deal over them. sometimes i don't, but for bigger ones i will....... but eventually, nearly 3 years ago, i found the one crush that actually developed into something more. possibly the happiest moment of my life, and a week in which a guy who's broken bones and laughed in the pain was left to cry out of happiness. I LOVE HER! and she still to this day makes me happy.

.... regardless, my life went about as it always had. even weeks after finding my lover, and until now, i still develop these crushes over people i tend to like. most of which are disposable due to my history of rejection, and now due to the fact i now have someone to make me happy. however, the bigger ones tend to linger longer than normal in the back of my mind (or heart for this matter). i've had several over the past 3 years, just as i did before i was taken, and even weeks after being with Maria, i still would get them. i simply threw them in the back of my mind as quickly as they arrived.... because like always, it's a crush, nothing more... but as our relationship progresses, it seems to me (and others) that apparently these emotions for others are subject to perhaps a bad relationship, which can't be true because i still developed these emotions even when my relationship was only weeks old. now people try to tell me it's that i don't love Maria as much as i used to, which can't be true either because i love her more than i did then, i'm simply more acquainted now that our passion isn't new, much like married couples would behave.

.... so... i want to know why i develop these, because apparently i'm not supposed to....

but it's not like i knew i "wasn't" supposed to.... i mean it's not like i justified my passion and love based on my crushes. i based it on my relationship with Maria. and it's also not like these crushes evoke thoughts of cheating on Maria, or leaving her, because they don't. they never have, and the one time it did i left Maria only to be dumped the next week (point being, I LEARNED MY LESSON!)..... and i think since then Maria learned that i do develop crushes, and always have...... but i don't act upon them, nor do i want to. i love Maria... it's almost as if the emotions i develop for others are unconditional. i can't prevent then, yet i do nothing to provoke them.

but... despite not acting upon them, my crushes still affect me emotionally. especially the larger ones (for example the one i have for a friend of mine now)..... they make me feel jealous, because they either have a bf to be with (while my gf lives miles away.) or actually just depress me because, to be honest, i like it better when they're my friend, not someone else's girlfriend.... it's almost like a friendship war if i had to describe i briefly..... but there's where my problem lies.

i may have a crush on her.... but if i have no intentions of ever leaving Maria for her.... and if i'm only a friend to her.... why does her relationship status affect me? why do i get jealous when she's kissing some guy she JUST met, why do i get depressed when i can see her for a few weeks, why love hanging out more than with any other friend?......

i can't interpret my own emotions.... but i really want to.... i don't know if these are normal, or maybe subjective of a bad relationship, because i love Maria.... i don't know one thing in our relationship that could trigger those feelings....... but i really need feedback guys.

what do you think?.... why might i feel this way? should i even feel this way?... is it wrong?.... am i a cheater simply because i develop crushes to begin with?.... anything helps, positive or negative.....

thanks guys~

Something about the way she's crying hints to me that maybe she didn't want to go. XD

https://youtu.be/JCUCjGwcQA8

........ or maybe she just has an awkward way of expressing herself.