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Posted 16 years agoApologies for the *complete* untruth of my last journal entry... Instead of getting more involved and producing more artwork... I vanished without a trace! ó.ò
I've moved to the middle of nowhere - Bedford, Eastern Cape... I don't even have television!
And I'm writing this from my cell phone! As such, this is my only internet connection... I only got it working on my phone a few days ago.
Why you ask? What insanity is this?
Well, I'm starting up a business with my mother. It could mean good money and benefits in the future, but for now I've been working hard - investing all my energy, and am poor as a churchmouse because no money has come in yet.
So I'll do my best to get things going again... I miss being involved here. Though understand I'm very busy, and have to do all this on a cell phone! @.@
I've moved to the middle of nowhere - Bedford, Eastern Cape... I don't even have television!
And I'm writing this from my cell phone! As such, this is my only internet connection... I only got it working on my phone a few days ago.
Why you ask? What insanity is this?
Well, I'm starting up a business with my mother. It could mean good money and benefits in the future, but for now I've been working hard - investing all my energy, and am poor as a churchmouse because no money has come in yet.
So I'll do my best to get things going again... I miss being involved here. Though understand I'm very busy, and have to do all this on a cell phone! @.@
Making furiends!
Posted 17 years ago*hasn't slept in +-36 hours... and there's no indication I'll sleep anytime soon* =)
I'm getting into the swing of turning my grubby old art into mildly tasty online submissions... It's getting addictive! 0.o
The end is in sight - It shouldn't be too much longer before I've edited and uploaded everything worth looking at.
Then things will get exciting: trades, requests, commissions - consistent work exploring my current skill level (whatever that is!) and closer to your tastes... Perhaps, we shall see. =3
And I've just got myself Yahoo Messenger installed! So feel free to contact me:
mitkins[at]ymail.com
I'm getting into the swing of turning my grubby old art into mildly tasty online submissions... It's getting addictive! 0.o
The end is in sight - It shouldn't be too much longer before I've edited and uploaded everything worth looking at.
Then things will get exciting: trades, requests, commissions - consistent work exploring my current skill level (whatever that is!) and closer to your tastes... Perhaps, we shall see. =3
And I've just got myself Yahoo Messenger installed! So feel free to contact me:
mitkins[at]ymail.com
Panic!
Posted 17 years ago*nuuuuuuu*
I hate this! My mother calls yesterday and tells me this girl she knows is on holiday in my area and would I please give her a call and have coffee with her or something like that.
o.o
Mom!
"This isn't a set up dear, she's just a nice girl on holiday with a couple of friends - we like each other and I told her you'd give her a call..."
*sigh*.... oh alright. ⌐.⌐
I do *not* like calling strangers, hell I don't even like calling people I know!
So I procrastinated all morning...
I finally managed to shut down enough of my defense mechanisms to make the call and now they've invited me to play poker with them tonight! O.o
Drat!
I can't even drink to make this easier (issa teetotaler)... They cannot *not* ask some personal questions and is there *anything* about me they will be able to relate to? Doubtful... (Oh dear, we've just invited a freak into our house! Quick, fetch the pet repellent!)
And even worse - I'll be expected to show an interest in them! Make conversation... crack jokes...
*sigh*
MOTHER!!!!! >.<
I hate this! My mother calls yesterday and tells me this girl she knows is on holiday in my area and would I please give her a call and have coffee with her or something like that.
o.o
Mom!
"This isn't a set up dear, she's just a nice girl on holiday with a couple of friends - we like each other and I told her you'd give her a call..."
*sigh*.... oh alright. ⌐.⌐
I do *not* like calling strangers, hell I don't even like calling people I know!
So I procrastinated all morning...
I finally managed to shut down enough of my defense mechanisms to make the call and now they've invited me to play poker with them tonight! O.o
Drat!
I can't even drink to make this easier (issa teetotaler)... They cannot *not* ask some personal questions and is there *anything* about me they will be able to relate to? Doubtful... (Oh dear, we've just invited a freak into our house! Quick, fetch the pet repellent!)
And even worse - I'll be expected to show an interest in them! Make conversation... crack jokes...
*sigh*
MOTHER!!!!! >.<
Thanks for being here!
Posted 17 years agoFirstly let me thank you all for your comments, faves, and for watching me! =3
If there's anything you wish to know regarding my technique or characters I'm very happy to share.
- For a while most of what I'll be posting here is going to be work I did years ago. I've been meaning to scan and touch this stuff up for ages, but I've had my priorities elsewhere. My art *and furry expression* took a back seat.
Now things have changed in my life and I have an opportunity to maintain an online presence - and connect again with what really makes me happy - *being a furr* ^-^
I hope to pick up my art production when I have time and hopefully sometime in the future I may be able to make a living with this skill of mine.
So I welcome any input you may have...
I trust you've all had a good x-mas...
... and that in the year to come we shall get to know each other, developing our skills and friendship together.
=D
If there's anything you wish to know regarding my technique or characters I'm very happy to share.
- For a while most of what I'll be posting here is going to be work I did years ago. I've been meaning to scan and touch this stuff up for ages, but I've had my priorities elsewhere. My art *and furry expression* took a back seat.
Now things have changed in my life and I have an opportunity to maintain an online presence - and connect again with what really makes me happy - *being a furr* ^-^
I hope to pick up my art production when I have time and hopefully sometime in the future I may be able to make a living with this skill of mine.
So I welcome any input you may have...
I trust you've all had a good x-mas...
... and that in the year to come we shall get to know each other, developing our skills and friendship together.
=D
Let me introduce myself.
Posted 17 years agoGreetings!
*looks a little shy*
This is all fairly new to me (this time round)... I've only had brief involvement with the fandom from time to time - being caught up with the dramas and limitations of a highly frustrating and demanding human world.
There is nothing I love more than to lose myself in my fursonas and the reality that generates and supports them... I do this at every opportunity, no matter what activity I engage in... If I have a thought to spare - it will be towards the 'home' in my heart.
In truth, nothing else matters to me - this life I live in human flesh and mind is but a passing show. One day it will be over and what will matter then?
That I've touched someplace... someplace beyond me and inside of me... something that if it were not there would render me empty and lifeless.
All I know is that this place, this feeling is everything to me... I can see evidence of it in almost everything, yet when it touches me I could not imagine anything more intimately personal.
So it does not matter what happens to me, death, tragedy or circumstance... I know a part of me is infinite and eternal - that precious place is who and what I *really* am... everything else about me is a myriad of demanding and convincing illusions brought about by the 'human condition' (where nothing is what it appears to be).
This 'condition' that I am afflicted by is an immense challenge - it muddies and distracts and superimposes itself upon what I consider to be the truth - the song that sings within my heart... It is so very hard to hear sometimes. When I am lost in the human world and it denies everything I truly am.
So I must say it is a pleasure to have discovered creatures in this reality that 'appear' to be existing under similar conditions.
The human aspect of me has lived out it's fairly short existence in Southern Africa. I've been a furr most of my life, - I still remember 'dreams' I had as an infant - of places humans had never been, and creatures strange to this 'waking' world that I felt close to. Fantastic otherworldly places that *made sense* and were familiar. By far more familiar than this crude, terrible, and often beautifull, human reality! (Though I must add - beautifull only because something of that 'otherworld', that 'true reality' was shining through - making one feel 'at home'!) In reaching my late teens my human family connected to the internet for the first time and I discovered that - OMG there are others! O.O A whole fandom!
Life as a furr in SA has not been easy - I don't know how it's been for the rest of you but being branded a freak and made an outcast has ceased being an issue for many years, and is now something I hold onto with pride. It reminds me where my heart is - I would rather this, alone, than belong to any group of humans... I've learn't my lesson: If you are not true to what's in your heart, you and everyone involved with you will suffer... inevitably.
Towards other furrs I am open, supportive, Bi yet detached and indifferent.
I do not mind sexual RP so long as it isn't aimed at me - I find it tedious. Emotional and intellectual intimacy are by far the more stimulating mediums of inter-personal communion.
Towards humans of both sexes I am reserved, silent yet critically observant, amused, and unsympathetic when for some reason they decide to develop attachments towards me! "What - you have feelings for me? How foolish! You thought I liked you? My my... that's what I get for being 'polite' and 'tolerant'... Let me be kind and clear up some of those delusions for you."
No, I am not evil (I'm almost 90% .. hm 80... 75% sure of that) - Is it my fault some humans have *used* me in acts of self-delusion and then get hurt realizing I have no real interest in them or the make-believe reality they chose to create around me?
Is it my fault that most humans are unprepared and astonished by the fact that there are many of us who may appear human, yet in our hearts; we are something else entirely...
*looks a little shy*
This is all fairly new to me (this time round)... I've only had brief involvement with the fandom from time to time - being caught up with the dramas and limitations of a highly frustrating and demanding human world.
There is nothing I love more than to lose myself in my fursonas and the reality that generates and supports them... I do this at every opportunity, no matter what activity I engage in... If I have a thought to spare - it will be towards the 'home' in my heart.
In truth, nothing else matters to me - this life I live in human flesh and mind is but a passing show. One day it will be over and what will matter then?
That I've touched someplace... someplace beyond me and inside of me... something that if it were not there would render me empty and lifeless.
All I know is that this place, this feeling is everything to me... I can see evidence of it in almost everything, yet when it touches me I could not imagine anything more intimately personal.
So it does not matter what happens to me, death, tragedy or circumstance... I know a part of me is infinite and eternal - that precious place is who and what I *really* am... everything else about me is a myriad of demanding and convincing illusions brought about by the 'human condition' (where nothing is what it appears to be).
This 'condition' that I am afflicted by is an immense challenge - it muddies and distracts and superimposes itself upon what I consider to be the truth - the song that sings within my heart... It is so very hard to hear sometimes. When I am lost in the human world and it denies everything I truly am.
So I must say it is a pleasure to have discovered creatures in this reality that 'appear' to be existing under similar conditions.
The human aspect of me has lived out it's fairly short existence in Southern Africa. I've been a furr most of my life, - I still remember 'dreams' I had as an infant - of places humans had never been, and creatures strange to this 'waking' world that I felt close to. Fantastic otherworldly places that *made sense* and were familiar. By far more familiar than this crude, terrible, and often beautifull, human reality! (Though I must add - beautifull only because something of that 'otherworld', that 'true reality' was shining through - making one feel 'at home'!) In reaching my late teens my human family connected to the internet for the first time and I discovered that - OMG there are others! O.O A whole fandom!
Life as a furr in SA has not been easy - I don't know how it's been for the rest of you but being branded a freak and made an outcast has ceased being an issue for many years, and is now something I hold onto with pride. It reminds me where my heart is - I would rather this, alone, than belong to any group of humans... I've learn't my lesson: If you are not true to what's in your heart, you and everyone involved with you will suffer... inevitably.
Towards other furrs I am open, supportive, Bi yet detached and indifferent.
I do not mind sexual RP so long as it isn't aimed at me - I find it tedious. Emotional and intellectual intimacy are by far the more stimulating mediums of inter-personal communion.
Towards humans of both sexes I am reserved, silent yet critically observant, amused, and unsympathetic when for some reason they decide to develop attachments towards me! "What - you have feelings for me? How foolish! You thought I liked you? My my... that's what I get for being 'polite' and 'tolerant'... Let me be kind and clear up some of those delusions for you."
No, I am not evil (I'm almost 90% .. hm 80... 75% sure of that) - Is it my fault some humans have *used* me in acts of self-delusion and then get hurt realizing I have no real interest in them or the make-believe reality they chose to create around me?
Is it my fault that most humans are unprepared and astonished by the fact that there are many of us who may appear human, yet in our hearts; we are something else entirely...
