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Important Changes to my Patreon
Posted 3 years agoI've made some changes to my Patreon, and have some plans for going forward both here & there. Primarily to make time for YCHs at long last. I've made the post public, so instead of repeating myself, those of you following me here can read it too! ^w^
–> Patreon: Important Update & Changes <–
Also, if you're interested in staying abreast of what main things I'm drawing, I've seperated the queue on my Carrd to cover stuff I'm working on at the moment, or plan to very shortly.
–> Patreon: Important Update & Changes <–
Also, if you're interested in staying abreast of what main things I'm drawing, I've seperated the queue on my Carrd to cover stuff I'm working on at the moment, or plan to very shortly.
Oooo, New FA UI
Posted 3 years agoOmg, I love the new look, I was browsing as the update happened, and BOOM, it's subtle, but I like it. <3
Increased resolution is cool too, a big a-thankyu!
But above all else, I GOTTA MAKE A NEW BANNER SOON. Not now, got a bunch to draw already, but soon. ^w^
Can't just give me 1850x300 to work with and not make my mind jump to what I could put up there (clean-ish to stay within the rules, of course, hehe)
Increased resolution is cool too, a big a-thankyu!
But above all else, I GOTTA MAKE A NEW BANNER SOON. Not now, got a bunch to draw already, but soon. ^w^
Can't just give me 1850x300 to work with and not make my mind jump to what I could put up there (clean-ish to stay within the rules, of course, hehe)
Closing my Twitter, I prefer FA :3
Posted 3 years agoI'm almost done getting a little up-to-date on things, and safe to say the cons of Twitter continue to outweigh the artsy pros.
Posted a 10-tweet thread there, I'll be leaving it up for a few days and then closing that account. I don't want to repeat myself too much, so feel free to read it if you already follow me there. Account 'tis deleted. ^w^
This whole time I was telling myself I should stay there so I didn't miss out on some Twitter-only artists, but the irony is due to how Twitter works I've ended up missing most anything people post that I wanted to see on that site. I more often see reposts of Twitter art on e621 long before ever seeing it on Twitter; The only reason I made an account on Twitter is simply not happening. I might as well not follow anyone on there for what good it does.
Speaking of e621, I have an account there, but in an irony of ironies, the detailed tagging system I like so much is the one reason I haven't gotten around to posting more of my stuff there, I haven't had the time.
On a different & lighter note, and something I made a Patreon post in more detail about, I'm feeling much better lately; Thanks in part to a new prescriprion and finally playing Deltarune Ch. 1 & 2; I didn't quite understand the cliffhangers, but overall the game as-is charmed me.
I haven't drawn since Oct 15th, so I need to do some warm-up when I have time, may or may not stream that (getting back on a bike is always anxious), but either way, I'll be back drawing stuff soon, my cravings are brewing, expect some doodles.
When I feel confortable enough to say "I'm back," I'll be posting the September Fifi Patreon pic-turned-animation publicly here, till then! <3
This whole time I was telling myself I should stay there so I didn't miss out on some Twitter-only artists, but the irony is due to how Twitter works I've ended up missing most anything people post that I wanted to see on that site. I more often see reposts of Twitter art on e621 long before ever seeing it on Twitter; The only reason I made an account on Twitter is simply not happening. I might as well not follow anyone on there for what good it does.
Speaking of e621, I have an account there, but in an irony of ironies, the detailed tagging system I like so much is the one reason I haven't gotten around to posting more of my stuff there, I haven't had the time.
On a different & lighter note, and something I made a Patreon post in more detail about, I'm feeling much better lately; Thanks in part to a new prescriprion and finally playing Deltarune Ch. 1 & 2; I didn't quite understand the cliffhangers, but overall the game as-is charmed me.
I haven't drawn since Oct 15th, so I need to do some warm-up when I have time, may or may not stream that (getting back on a bike is always anxious), but either way, I'll be back drawing stuff soon, my cravings are brewing, expect some doodles.
When I feel confortable enough to say "I'm back," I'll be posting the September Fifi Patreon pic-turned-animation publicly here, till then! <3
Update part 3
Posted 3 years agoOne more pre-back update:
I'm in the US, so tomorrow and the rest of this week's gonna be pretty heavy for people like me who aren't into conservative monsters.
I'm non-binary (the real me, not my fursona), so I'm equally stressed, tired, and submerged with mailing/phone list spam I didn't even know I was on. I already voted-by-mail last month, and if any of you following me live in the US, vote while you still can. Remember: If your vote didn't matter, you wouldn't be bombarded with messages and ads and attack ads from every aged stalagmite inhabiting the various senior care homes that the three braches of goverment here are (only the shit they say and do effects all of our lives.) All this kind of ad pumping is very expensive, and these clueless over-powered cretins wouldn't be parting with chunks of their money if it wasn't essential. (Fuck FNAF/Scott btw, he donates to some of the worst conservative fucks out there with the money he makes on furs and such buying his "games." It's insidiously clever and I hope he, along with all the big-wig conservatives he donates to have very painful, prolonged deaths.)
Also, speaking of prolonging, fuck NNN. If I weren't already stressed out by IRL stuff, I'm also angered by this ridiculous annual lewdart-commenting farce that's nothing more than a physically harmful insult to actual denial/postponing fetishes. Years ago some idiot decided to take something fun and kinky like the concept of delaying orgasms and turn it into an annoying month-long macho shame-fest. I will have no part of that, and will block anyone if they try to seriously condone it on my pages. Same goes if you support conservatives, moreso.
I almost have half-a-mind to channel this collective anger into some new art. But first, I gotta get through the depressing slog that is these midterm elections, emotionally deal with however the results go when I see the counting (hopefully sometime this week), and then finally read & respond to actual messages sent from some of you. I've been too anxious to give it all a look, but I do very much appreciate that some have reached out to me, the fact that any of you care that much to do so already means plenty to me, thank you.
So, I'll get through the next week, I've been resting, trying new prescriptions for my handful of maladies that are working out better, doing a few random things since I can't seem to not be busy when I do get up, like manually isolating a few Fifi voice clips with mixed results, and maxing out Teba in Age of Calamity as I previously mentioned. Also, watching MST3k episodes and listening to a lot of Monkees songs (Words > I Won't Be The Same Without Her > I'll Be Back Up On My Feet, kinda sum up a lot of recent emotions.)
Anyway, here's hoping conservative facism dosen't take over completely over here, piss off if you support it (conservative furries have to be one of the most oxymoronic things to possibly exist, but unfortunately they do, which always strikes me as odd since they're actively trying to stop themselves from having the option to exist, but I digress). I'm gonna zone out into my job and get through this week as best I can, the urge to draw some very relieved faces and chonky butts is slowly brewing, I need to let it bubble to the surface until I have no other choice but to doodle, I'll see you all soon. Take care of yourselves. <3
I'm in the US, so tomorrow and the rest of this week's gonna be pretty heavy for people like me who aren't into conservative monsters.
I'm non-binary (the real me, not my fursona), so I'm equally stressed, tired, and submerged with mailing/phone list spam I didn't even know I was on. I already voted-by-mail last month, and if any of you following me live in the US, vote while you still can. Remember: If your vote didn't matter, you wouldn't be bombarded with messages and ads and attack ads from every aged stalagmite inhabiting the various senior care homes that the three braches of goverment here are (only the shit they say and do effects all of our lives.) All this kind of ad pumping is very expensive, and these clueless over-powered cretins wouldn't be parting with chunks of their money if it wasn't essential. (Fuck FNAF/Scott btw, he donates to some of the worst conservative fucks out there with the money he makes on furs and such buying his "games." It's insidiously clever and I hope he, along with all the big-wig conservatives he donates to have very painful, prolonged deaths.)
Also, speaking of prolonging, fuck NNN. If I weren't already stressed out by IRL stuff, I'm also angered by this ridiculous annual lewdart-commenting farce that's nothing more than a physically harmful insult to actual denial/postponing fetishes. Years ago some idiot decided to take something fun and kinky like the concept of delaying orgasms and turn it into an annoying month-long macho shame-fest. I will have no part of that, and will block anyone if they try to seriously condone it on my pages. Same goes if you support conservatives, moreso.
I almost have half-a-mind to channel this collective anger into some new art. But first, I gotta get through the depressing slog that is these midterm elections, emotionally deal with however the results go when I see the counting (hopefully sometime this week), and then finally read & respond to actual messages sent from some of you. I've been too anxious to give it all a look, but I do very much appreciate that some have reached out to me, the fact that any of you care that much to do so already means plenty to me, thank you.
So, I'll get through the next week, I've been resting, trying new prescriptions for my handful of maladies that are working out better, doing a few random things since I can't seem to not be busy when I do get up, like manually isolating a few Fifi voice clips with mixed results, and maxing out Teba in Age of Calamity as I previously mentioned. Also, watching MST3k episodes and listening to a lot of Monkees songs (Words > I Won't Be The Same Without Her > I'll Be Back Up On My Feet, kinda sum up a lot of recent emotions.)
Anyway, here's hoping conservative facism dosen't take over completely over here, piss off if you support it (conservative furries have to be one of the most oxymoronic things to possibly exist, but unfortunately they do, which always strikes me as odd since they're actively trying to stop themselves from having the option to exist, but I digress). I'm gonna zone out into my job and get through this week as best I can, the urge to draw some very relieved faces and chonky butts is slowly brewing, I need to let it bubble to the surface until I have no other choice but to doodle, I'll see you all soon. Take care of yourselves. <3
Update part two
Posted 3 years agoI wasn’t planning on writing anything today, but I had some time after work so I tried loading up Bayo 3 to play a bit, and I had to get the following out of my head or never get any sleep...
Pros
Hale’s performance as Bayonetta is great, lighter but still very much true to the character. (Please have her re-dub 1 & 2, please.)
The textures are nice.
Bayo in jeans.
Cons
Opening the game with Bayo getting crushed, cracked & exploding into crystal chunks while screaming, after forcing you to pointlessly move her limping self towards death made me more depressed than I already am. Even without all the soul-crushing IRL revelations tarnishing the series, that opening was horrible to experience.
The subsequent prologue wasn’t paced well & the brief moments of gameplay felt numb.
None of the character re-designs appeal to me.
Maybe it’s not the Bayo series I enjoy, maybe it’s just the old memories of the joyful experience I had playing Bayo 2 I’ve been clinging to for so many years. Either way, I can never recapture that experience, and I can’t trust this new 3rd game with how it opened, nor revisit 1 & 2 as long as they contain the original scummy VA that can go rot.
With how expensive food items are getting, I regret the purchase of the game. I’m just gonna have to cut the series from my life from this point forward, it’s exhausting to think about, and I get that feeling from real life enough, I don’t need more of it from a game.
On a lighter note, and different game, I played Teba enough to max him and his bow out in Age of Calamity, along with Zelda’s bow, they basically became unstoppable, ended up running out of new things to do in that game, but playing that on and off was helping for a while.
Anyway, I've gotta continue gradually riding out this depression, for however long it continues to plague me. I suppose the first hint anyone here will have of my being back is when I start reading my FA mail and favoriting pics again, the numbers in the menubar just keep growing. I'm sorry.
TIll then, it's time to sleep, drift into a dream of curvy anthros unloading; The only pleasant thing left to fall asleep to.
Pros
Hale’s performance as Bayonetta is great, lighter but still very much true to the character. (Please have her re-dub 1 & 2, please.)
The textures are nice.
Bayo in jeans.
Cons
Opening the game with Bayo getting crushed, cracked & exploding into crystal chunks while screaming, after forcing you to pointlessly move her limping self towards death made me more depressed than I already am. Even without all the soul-crushing IRL revelations tarnishing the series, that opening was horrible to experience.
The subsequent prologue wasn’t paced well & the brief moments of gameplay felt numb.
None of the character re-designs appeal to me.
Maybe it’s not the Bayo series I enjoy, maybe it’s just the old memories of the joyful experience I had playing Bayo 2 I’ve been clinging to for so many years. Either way, I can never recapture that experience, and I can’t trust this new 3rd game with how it opened, nor revisit 1 & 2 as long as they contain the original scummy VA that can go rot.
With how expensive food items are getting, I regret the purchase of the game. I’m just gonna have to cut the series from my life from this point forward, it’s exhausting to think about, and I get that feeling from real life enough, I don’t need more of it from a game.
On a lighter note, and different game, I played Teba enough to max him and his bow out in Age of Calamity, along with Zelda’s bow, they basically became unstoppable, ended up running out of new things to do in that game, but playing that on and off was helping for a while.
Anyway, I've gotta continue gradually riding out this depression, for however long it continues to plague me. I suppose the first hint anyone here will have of my being back is when I start reading my FA mail and favoriting pics again, the numbers in the menubar just keep growing. I'm sorry.
TIll then, it's time to sleep, drift into a dream of curvy anthros unloading; The only pleasant thing left to fall asleep to.
Update (with edit*)
Posted 3 years agoHi, I’m not back yet, but I wanted to write an update, it’s been a while:
I had a meltdown after finding out the VA for Bayonetta 1 & 2 is very transphobic, amongst other horrible reveals. My enjoyment of Bayo 2 was quite integral to my whole Mitsy persona, and after that week, I fell apart and haven’t felt like myself, or drawn, since; Like finding out I had a tumor or something of the like, just crushed.
I’ve been dealing with some heavy depression since, losing the years of excitement I had for Bayo 3 at first, now replaced with a sort of numb apprehension, just started a chain of dominoes on all the other shit I’ve been depressed about, debts, world issues, the impending potential loss of democracy in the country I’m stuck in due to tons of senile assholes. I've been trying to keep busy and do my IRL job but some mornings early on I just couldn't get up.
I’ve resigned myself long ago to humanity not having much more than a couple decades left to go, but I can’t deal with being reminded of how awful this species is every day of my life.
I can’t deal with the constant doom anymore, I’ve been using Adblock more severely to help recover, deleting pretty much any incessant activity sections, like Twitter’s “What’s happening” sidebar, and any YouTube comment section. I’ve deleted app versions of various sites from my phone since you can’t Adblock those, which has had the side-effect of removing any notification/alert pop-ups I once received. I’ll have to go through my backlog of mail someday soon.
I wake every day feeling tired and deeply hateful of humanity’s squandering of itself; Something I ridiculously kept at bay with excitement for things like Bayo 3 & BOTW 2, etc.
As of typing this, I think I’d be perfectly fine with the new VA redubbing Bayo 1 & 2 to match 3, I can’t listen to the original now without feeling sick. I’ve deleted the first two from my Switch, threw my Bayo 2 amiibo into a junk drawer. I can’t stand the sight of the series right now, something I never thought I’d feel. I can’t do anything about the real world or this, but the least I can is to delete this shit from my peripheral vision.
I haven’t bought Bayo 3 yet, I don’t know when/if I might, in the same way I don’t know when/if the feeling to draw will return to me.* I wish the new VA Hale much luck with the role, I look forward to hearing her beyond the previous Direct trailers someday, when/if I’m ready to play it.
*= I had a think since typing that, maybe if the two are linked (my feeling to draw and Bayo games) playing Bayo 3 would be good for me, and okay now that the lead VA is a decent person. I've bought it, I'll let it sit for today, but I'll poke at it when I'm ready.
On one hand I crave socialization, but on the other I am completely human-adverse due to years of dealing with almost-entirely assholes, so I suppose without Fursonas I wouldn’t be communicating openly with anyone whatsoever. You can’t trust people. No human is trustworthy.
I’m gonna continue trying to figure out myself this month, I’m feeling alright enough to type this but as you can probably tell, I’m not whole yet, I haven’t used a single emote or text sound effect or innuendo in this whole thing and only now am I noticing that absence. I feel like a empty shell at the moment, but I miss quite a few of you so I wanted to put up some kind of update, especially since I’m missing out on today.
Have a happy Halloween, it’s a lovely day of the year, I hope you all have a good one. I’ll see you down the road a ways, take care.
I had a meltdown after finding out the VA for Bayonetta 1 & 2 is very transphobic, amongst other horrible reveals. My enjoyment of Bayo 2 was quite integral to my whole Mitsy persona, and after that week, I fell apart and haven’t felt like myself, or drawn, since; Like finding out I had a tumor or something of the like, just crushed.
I’ve been dealing with some heavy depression since, losing the years of excitement I had for Bayo 3 at first, now replaced with a sort of numb apprehension, just started a chain of dominoes on all the other shit I’ve been depressed about, debts, world issues, the impending potential loss of democracy in the country I’m stuck in due to tons of senile assholes. I've been trying to keep busy and do my IRL job but some mornings early on I just couldn't get up.
I’ve resigned myself long ago to humanity not having much more than a couple decades left to go, but I can’t deal with being reminded of how awful this species is every day of my life.
I can’t deal with the constant doom anymore, I’ve been using Adblock more severely to help recover, deleting pretty much any incessant activity sections, like Twitter’s “What’s happening” sidebar, and any YouTube comment section. I’ve deleted app versions of various sites from my phone since you can’t Adblock those, which has had the side-effect of removing any notification/alert pop-ups I once received. I’ll have to go through my backlog of mail someday soon.
I wake every day feeling tired and deeply hateful of humanity’s squandering of itself; Something I ridiculously kept at bay with excitement for things like Bayo 3 & BOTW 2, etc.
As of typing this, I think I’d be perfectly fine with the new VA redubbing Bayo 1 & 2 to match 3, I can’t listen to the original now without feeling sick. I’ve deleted the first two from my Switch, threw my Bayo 2 amiibo into a junk drawer. I can’t stand the sight of the series right now, something I never thought I’d feel. I can’t do anything about the real world or this, but the least I can is to delete this shit from my peripheral vision.
*= I had a think since typing that, maybe if the two are linked (my feeling to draw and Bayo games) playing Bayo 3 would be good for me, and okay now that the lead VA is a decent person. I've bought it, I'll let it sit for today, but I'll poke at it when I'm ready.
On one hand I crave socialization, but on the other I am completely human-adverse due to years of dealing with almost-entirely assholes, so I suppose without Fursonas I wouldn’t be communicating openly with anyone whatsoever. You can’t trust people. No human is trustworthy.
I’m gonna continue trying to figure out myself this month, I’m feeling alright enough to type this but as you can probably tell, I’m not whole yet, I haven’t used a single emote or text sound effect or innuendo in this whole thing and only now am I noticing that absence. I feel like a empty shell at the moment, but I miss quite a few of you so I wanted to put up some kind of update, especially since I’m missing out on today.
Have a happy Halloween, it’s a lovely day of the year, I hope you all have a good one. I’ll see you down the road a ways, take care.
Pausing Patreon Billing for November.
Posted 3 years agoI am not in a good frame of mind, I've been forcing myself up to do IRL obligations, I don’t know how long I’ll take to bounce back for art, so I’m pausing Patreon billing for November. I'm pretty certain I won't be able to complete my queue this month, so it's only fair.
Also, I wanted to include some Umbran witchiness in the Oct Poll "Witchy Mitsy" pic when it's turn is up, but that's not possible now. I might have to do something more classic-trope-y instead, either way, I'll see you when my brain lets me feel happiness again. Take care.
Also, I wanted to include some Umbran witchiness in the Oct Poll "Witchy Mitsy" pic when it's turn is up, but that's not possible now. I might have to do something more classic-trope-y instead, either way, I'll see you when my brain lets me feel happiness again. Take care.
No Subject
Posted 3 years agoSomething that excitement for partly helped me get thru the last 5+ years has been tainted.
I'll be back to comtinue my queue when I can, but to put it mildly: I'm in no frame of mind to draw or socialize at the moment.
My apologies.
I'll be back to comtinue my queue when I can, but to put it mildly: I'm in no frame of mind to draw or socialize at the moment.
My apologies.
Patreon Fifi pic-turned-animation is done
Posted 3 years agoSeptember 2022 Fifi pic-turned-animation for my Patreon is done! ^w^
https://www.patreon.com/posts/73063333
I'll post it publicly in November, but if you wanna see it early, there's the link. :3
https://www.patreon.com/posts/73063333
I'll post it publicly in November, but if you wanna see it early, there's the link. :3
Commission Queue on my Carrd
Posted 3 years agoSince I'm on both FA & Twitter, I've decided to make my Carrd even more of a nexus between the two pages, my August Commission Queue is now up on there, and I've reorganized the layout a bit. :3
Check it out! mitsymarcella.carrd.co
Check it out! mitsymarcella.carrd.co
Happy Hyperscat Day! (pic update!)
Posted 3 years agoHappy Hyperscat Day! 🍩
All flat colours are done on the big pic, I've begun character shading, and experimenting with a look for farts/belches.
Tons to do, and every bit of it fun! :3
I'll continue working on it over this coming week's streams. <3
Have a lovely, belly-bloated, mud-filled August 1st. Let the drawn, rendered, and written chocolate logs flow! ^3^
All flat colours are done on the big pic, I've begun character shading, and experimenting with a look for farts/belches.
Tons to do, and every bit of it fun! :3
I'll continue working on it over this coming week's streams. <3
Have a lovely, belly-bloated, mud-filled August 1st. Let the drawn, rendered, and written chocolate logs flow! ^3^
Hyperscat Day pic update :3
Posted 3 years agoThis is one biiig pic, I'm almost done with the majority of the lineart, but that leaves the color, shading, and some effects left to do.
SO, I'm aiming to do a couple extra-long streams Tomorrow & Sunday, with two half-hour breaks each.
I don't intend to rush it, but I wanna get as much done as I can before the big day on August 1st.
If I don't complete it in time, I'll make another journal stating I'll continue work on it through next week.
This pic is completely for-fun, and those of you watching me on stream over this month know just how big this pic is, 21 characters, 9 of which are esteemed guests (whose permission for each I was delighted to receive upon asking!), lots of mud and liquids; So I'm gonna finish it, this ain't getting released till it's finished.
It's such a fun piece to draw! ^w^
See ya in the stream chat. <3
SO, I'm aiming to do a couple extra-long streams Tomorrow & Sunday, with two half-hour breaks each.
I don't intend to rush it, but I wanna get as much done as I can before the big day on August 1st.
If I don't complete it in time, I'll make another journal stating I'll continue work on it through next week.
This pic is completely for-fun, and those of you watching me on stream over this month know just how big this pic is, 21 characters, 9 of which are esteemed guests (whose permission for each I was delighted to receive upon asking!), lots of mud and liquids; So I'm gonna finish it, this ain't getting released till it's finished.
It's such a fun piece to draw! ^w^
See ya in the stream chat. <3
A Serious Disclaimer
Posted 3 years agoI’m not gonna TL;DR, since the following is already as short as I could go with this serious topic. I've tried to word it as concisely as I can.
If you follow my art and wish to continue following me, I’d suggest you read the following:
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The number of followers/watchers I have on my pages has increased somewhat. To some this might be a cause for celebration, but in my case it has simply meant the ratio for some deeply disturbed people that can’t separate fantasy from reality to join in amongst the rest.
Recently one of you took it too far in a private conversation and disturbed me to an extent I can’t simply bounce back from without making my stance as crystal clear as I can, to each of you.
I am a Furry, and as such I acknowledge my interests, both safe and erotic, are driven primarily by fantastical concepts that simply can’t exist in real life. There’s no way around it.
I won’t get into detail on my guesses of the psychology behind why I, my brain, has formed this way. But, in summary, I can assume a lifetime of abuse from my fellow humans leading to permanent trust issues with no one I can depend on, and finding solace in fantastical “funny animal cartoons,” with a retrospectively unsettling amount of fart jokes, likely had an effect in my case.
I digress though. Being a Furry involves an intrinsic personal understanding of what is real, what is fantasy, and what is achievable in either. Which, considering the physics-breaking variety of what we enjoy, IRL is extremely limited and expensive; Fursuiting, meetups, etc., are not as wide an option as they might seem, and there are also those like me that prefer socializing behind the total veneer of a fursona, one that can better represent me, my personality and interests, better than I talking in person could ever do. (Though I miss tangible hugs.)
So what is one to do? Simple: Art.
Drawn, Written, Rendered, Sculpted, Sewn, Composed, but simply Art.
Art is cheap, accessible, and completely, utterly, limitless. Only your own abilities stand in the way, which thankfully can only improve if you regularly keep practicing your chosen craft, which isn’t that hard if it’s something you deeply enjoy. (Occasional art blocks notwithstanding.)
Above all else, the part I want to emphasize is the limitless part.
I don’t support every fetish, I don’t have to like ones people I respect are into, or accept people that happen to like the same ones I’m into. HOWEVER, what I do support is people exploring their’s brain’s wonky wiring through the intrinsically harmless method of total personal expression that IS artwork.
Do I condone everything that’s made? NO.
Am I glad some people into truly dark, inexcusable things, are fulfilling their interests through the totally solo mode of pen tablet & masturbation? Yes, it’s better than any other way.
We have a long, bloody, human history up to the current day showcasing the horrible results of trying to pretend abhorrent thoughts can be brushed off as something you “bottle up,” and the people forced to do that are usually the ones that end up going on killing sprees. Yes, that’s a bit of a generalization, but it’s overall true. Our emotions and desires are a part of us, and need an outlet.
So, if you are exploring yourself through artwork, extreme kinks or safe, great: It's the only complete and safe outlet there is. If it’s something I don’t like, I’m gonna say so and/or just not interact with you. Simple.
The problem I have is when some of you attempt to take the impossible, extreme shit into the real world, that is a point of no return that makes me truly disgusted to be a Furry.
I think our use of the word "anthropomorphic" is somewhat backwards, we’re not making animal characters with human characteristics, we’re doing the exact opposite! We're making Human characters with varying amounts of animal characteristics. From the most minimal double-eared human catgirl to a feral Mrs. Brisby, everything we’re making is a human character at the core, and an exploration of ourselves.
Do I think I am or actually want to be a duck? No. Does my ducksona represent me as a person/fleshy brain lump better than my body? Fuck Yes!
It’s all fantasy, it’s fulfilling and gives me life, but it’s not for IRL.
Do any of you actually think I want to see people shitting 10 times their body mass, or being constantly pregnant? FUCK NO. Shitting and pregnancy are horrible, disgusting, and in the latter, painful parts of real life. My fetishization of both are so removed from reality as to be physically impossible. I might as well say I’m drawing characters excreting giant globs of fudge ice cream or birthing a string of large beads for all the minuscule relation it has to IRL.
Seriously, I thought these distinctions were OBVIOUS.
Furry conventions are as far as any of this should go IRL, and most are purported to be well run. But there’s a few people over time that have gone way too fucking far. Which is all any of the “normal public” sees or comments on, the few of you out there causing real harm to real animals and people, and making it harder for the rest of us to goddamn exist! And yet here a few of you are, lurking in the online shadows, being oh so nice and chatty, biding your time, and suddenly springing zoo photos on others like myself out of the fucking blue. Whatever about me convinced you I'd be at all receptive to such evil acts, I wish to put an end to that right now.
One of my long-held thoughts on Furrydom was that Furries could be responsible pet owners, because we understand there’s a clear distinction between human, animal, and fictional anthropomorphic characters. Anthropomorphic characters being the only one of those three we’re actually attracted too. Some of you have proved me to be Far Too Naive.
And there’s no excuse. No excuse for any of it. You have pencils, tablets, Blender, clay, music, text, commissionable artists, virtual avatars, voice changers, so much shit to realise your most extreme physically impossible interests in a safe, harmless, and sometimes beautiful ways if you really know how to paint, and yet some of you still CHOOSE to meddle with actual goddamn animals. You fucking sicken me. You are the evil antithesis of everything being a Furry is about.
I don’t want to see any more of you zoo fucks or other IRL atrocity fetishizers around my spaces, period. This is not some bullshit religious confessional where you can confess to murder or rape and have an equally guilty priest cover for you; These acts of IRL abuse are fucking abominable and I will not stand for it.
There’s no goddamn excuse, if you're wired for that inexcusable terror, buy a fucking tablet or commission one of those artists that proclaim to “draw everything.” Keep your fucking diseased hands off any living thing that isn't yourself.
And if you have gone past the point of no return, abused the animal in your home, fucking kill yourself (in Minecraft).
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If you made it this far reading, thanks for taking the time.
That ending is a bit dark, but that’s what three days of wrestling with this shocking unwanted revelation has done to me; It's a fair statement as far as I'm concerned.
Anyway, I’ve got impossible fantasy shit to draw in the near future... Metaphorically, metaphysically, and literally.
Art > IRL
~Mitsy
If you follow my art and wish to continue following me, I’d suggest you read the following:
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The number of followers/watchers I have on my pages has increased somewhat. To some this might be a cause for celebration, but in my case it has simply meant the ratio for some deeply disturbed people that can’t separate fantasy from reality to join in amongst the rest.
Recently one of you took it too far in a private conversation and disturbed me to an extent I can’t simply bounce back from without making my stance as crystal clear as I can, to each of you.
I am a Furry, and as such I acknowledge my interests, both safe and erotic, are driven primarily by fantastical concepts that simply can’t exist in real life. There’s no way around it.
I won’t get into detail on my guesses of the psychology behind why I, my brain, has formed this way. But, in summary, I can assume a lifetime of abuse from my fellow humans leading to permanent trust issues with no one I can depend on, and finding solace in fantastical “funny animal cartoons,” with a retrospectively unsettling amount of fart jokes, likely had an effect in my case.
I digress though. Being a Furry involves an intrinsic personal understanding of what is real, what is fantasy, and what is achievable in either. Which, considering the physics-breaking variety of what we enjoy, IRL is extremely limited and expensive; Fursuiting, meetups, etc., are not as wide an option as they might seem, and there are also those like me that prefer socializing behind the total veneer of a fursona, one that can better represent me, my personality and interests, better than I talking in person could ever do. (Though I miss tangible hugs.)
So what is one to do? Simple: Art.
Drawn, Written, Rendered, Sculpted, Sewn, Composed, but simply Art.
Art is cheap, accessible, and completely, utterly, limitless. Only your own abilities stand in the way, which thankfully can only improve if you regularly keep practicing your chosen craft, which isn’t that hard if it’s something you deeply enjoy. (Occasional art blocks notwithstanding.)
Above all else, the part I want to emphasize is the limitless part.
I don’t support every fetish, I don’t have to like ones people I respect are into, or accept people that happen to like the same ones I’m into. HOWEVER, what I do support is people exploring their’s brain’s wonky wiring through the intrinsically harmless method of total personal expression that IS artwork.
Do I condone everything that’s made? NO.
Am I glad some people into truly dark, inexcusable things, are fulfilling their interests through the totally solo mode of pen tablet & masturbation? Yes, it’s better than any other way.
We have a long, bloody, human history up to the current day showcasing the horrible results of trying to pretend abhorrent thoughts can be brushed off as something you “bottle up,” and the people forced to do that are usually the ones that end up going on killing sprees. Yes, that’s a bit of a generalization, but it’s overall true. Our emotions and desires are a part of us, and need an outlet.
So, if you are exploring yourself through artwork, extreme kinks or safe, great: It's the only complete and safe outlet there is. If it’s something I don’t like, I’m gonna say so and/or just not interact with you. Simple.
The problem I have is when some of you attempt to take the impossible, extreme shit into the real world, that is a point of no return that makes me truly disgusted to be a Furry.
I think our use of the word "anthropomorphic" is somewhat backwards, we’re not making animal characters with human characteristics, we’re doing the exact opposite! We're making Human characters with varying amounts of animal characteristics. From the most minimal double-eared human catgirl to a feral Mrs. Brisby, everything we’re making is a human character at the core, and an exploration of ourselves.
Do I think I am or actually want to be a duck? No. Does my ducksona represent me as a person/fleshy brain lump better than my body? Fuck Yes!
It’s all fantasy, it’s fulfilling and gives me life, but it’s not for IRL.
Do any of you actually think I want to see people shitting 10 times their body mass, or being constantly pregnant? FUCK NO. Shitting and pregnancy are horrible, disgusting, and in the latter, painful parts of real life. My fetishization of both are so removed from reality as to be physically impossible. I might as well say I’m drawing characters excreting giant globs of fudge ice cream or birthing a string of large beads for all the minuscule relation it has to IRL.
Seriously, I thought these distinctions were OBVIOUS.
Furry conventions are as far as any of this should go IRL, and most are purported to be well run. But there’s a few people over time that have gone way too fucking far. Which is all any of the “normal public” sees or comments on, the few of you out there causing real harm to real animals and people, and making it harder for the rest of us to goddamn exist! And yet here a few of you are, lurking in the online shadows, being oh so nice and chatty, biding your time, and suddenly springing zoo photos on others like myself out of the fucking blue. Whatever about me convinced you I'd be at all receptive to such evil acts, I wish to put an end to that right now.
One of my long-held thoughts on Furrydom was that Furries could be responsible pet owners, because we understand there’s a clear distinction between human, animal, and fictional anthropomorphic characters. Anthropomorphic characters being the only one of those three we’re actually attracted too. Some of you have proved me to be Far Too Naive.
And there’s no excuse. No excuse for any of it. You have pencils, tablets, Blender, clay, music, text, commissionable artists, virtual avatars, voice changers, so much shit to realise your most extreme physically impossible interests in a safe, harmless, and sometimes beautiful ways if you really know how to paint, and yet some of you still CHOOSE to meddle with actual goddamn animals. You fucking sicken me. You are the evil antithesis of everything being a Furry is about.
I don’t want to see any more of you zoo fucks or other IRL atrocity fetishizers around my spaces, period. This is not some bullshit religious confessional where you can confess to murder or rape and have an equally guilty priest cover for you; These acts of IRL abuse are fucking abominable and I will not stand for it.
There’s no goddamn excuse, if you're wired for that inexcusable terror, buy a fucking tablet or commission one of those artists that proclaim to “draw everything.” Keep your fucking diseased hands off any living thing that isn't yourself.
And if you have gone past the point of no return, abused the animal in your home, fucking kill yourself (in Minecraft).
—
If you made it this far reading, thanks for taking the time.
That ending is a bit dark, but that’s what three days of wrestling with this shocking unwanted revelation has done to me; It's a fair statement as far as I'm concerned.
Anyway, I’ve got impossible fantasy shit to draw in the near future... Metaphorically, metaphysically, and literally.
Art > IRL
~Mitsy
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