I have since moved accounts to  AstralPeach so if you want to follow me and my art these days, your best bet is contacting me there and commissioning or sending notes and questions there!

I check back on this once in awhile just incase others still message me on this account!


I do YCHs on that account now, commissions, ect. So you all should totally check it out~! I'm still active and alive, just one a different account~!

I thank you all for the good memories on here, but this account for the most part is "dead" in the ways of art uploads and ect~!


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I have since moved accounts to  astralPeach so if you want to follow em and my art these days, your best bet is contacting em there and commissioning ro sending notes and questions there!


I check back on this once every few weeks just incase others still message me on this account!

I thank you all for the good memories on her, but this account for the most part is"dead" in the ways of art uploads and ect~!

And in shameless self advertisement, I have 2 YCHs up on that account and cheap commissions! check them out! Love you all , hugs and kissies if you want them~!

 astralpeach


I'll keep this up for a bit, but thats my new and active account. Here I'll still post some YCHs and such, but you could probably find similar things there!

They suck sooooooo hard. >: U

I just can't find any music that inspires me atm, and so I'm just kind of sitting, staring at my screen.

In other news, I got a wig and some hats at the Cancer Center in baton rouge.
The people there are really nice.
My counselor has purple hair like I did before almost all of mine fell out.
She is super nice.


Idk what to talk about anymore. I think I should make a new price list soon. but idk.
Trying to get in contact with some people is hard.
Especially when you want to do their art, and do it right. : <

I'm a terrible artist, blah blah, angst inserted here.

Health still in turmoil, but chemo is going okay.
Working on a few owed things that got put in limbo when my health went to hell.
Not a permanent return, but yeah, I'm here yo.

And I honestly enjoyed it.
None were full blown lined and colored, but most were refined and colored sketches.
I forgot how much I liked drawing humans and humanoid characters as well as furries.
It really relaxed me to not have the obligation and stress I usually give myself with commissions.
To just be able to doodle and go with it.
I may do that more often, just to give myself a break when I need one, or to relax.
I mean, I love drawing furries, but considering I personally don't do art of my own much, or have many full blown furry characters that can be used for art and RPs, besides adoptable sI've never gotten to use, I have no connection other than my art commissions to the furry community.
And sometimes that stinks.
And I don't always want to yiff or do a sex/mature filled RP, I could do some action scenes, some cuddling, some plot,anything.

But since I haven't found that yet, it's hard for me to really blend into the community sometimes other than through my art for others.

To those I owe commissions too, please do not be upset with me doing this for me, myself, and I. And if you are, and want a refund that badly, note me. when I get paid in another week, I'll refund you.

-end minirant/happy/confused journal posting-

My loves, I have Hodgkin's Lymphoma, stage 3B.
I start Chemo on Monday.


Soooo, in order to save myself from the breakdown of seeing my hair fall out, I'm cutting it all off, not to the point of baldness yet, I want to see how bad it is from a crop cut, but if it does start to come out in excess, I'll just be shaving it off and rocking a wig till I go into remission.

I am hoping the odds remain ever in my favor with this and I go into remission, on time, in 6th months. I'd rather not be in the small percent of those who don't make it.

I just got my port for my IV in today, I have to get my bone marrow biopsy done, and another PET scan to compare to the first one they did before my Neck Biopsy in which they pulled out three heavily enlarged lymph nodes for a frozen section testing, which is how we got the base diagnosis and staging at this point. The staging might be given a different point and type with the further testing, but for now, with X-rays, CT scans, and PET scans, they are assuming that far along.


In other news, I'mma start drawing a bit more often again. as you all probably know, chemo, all the medications they give you on the side, and cancer of any kind is kind of hindering to someone who normally stands all day. so I took a leave form school till I'm better, and amy eventually take a leave from work, arts my thing that keeps me happy and busy when I'm on my meds during the days and restless nights like tonight. You would not believe how sore my port area is form surgery today. I can barely move my left arm without a twing of pain. I look like igor with how I have to walk, sucks baaaaaaaa@@E$#@#$#@$@s. <3


Anyways, yeah. Love you all.

So as some of you may or may not know, I just had surgery two days ago, I am finally out of recovery and at home, waiting on my biopsy results.

I had surgery/biopsy due to these rapidly growing lumps in my throat, some of which ar epainful, some of whicha re not. After Bactrim and a Z-pack did not help my cause, I went to the doctor's.

I has then found out my trachea and vessels were being pushed over to the left and weighed down by the angry lumps and swollen lymph nodes in my throat after a Chest X-ray, CT scan, and blood work. Yet we still do not know if it is an infection, lymphoma, or both, which can all be very likely due to family history.

The surgery alone was very dangerous due to the location and spreading of the lumps into my back and chest, with the removal of three and risk of shoulder muscle damage that would have been permanent, I managed to avoid all risk so far and am alive and well, so I am grateful.


Because of recovery needed though, I have decided to take a month off from school and just do sit down work at my job. Which will also give me a little more time with art for now, which would be a nice reprieve from what has become my normal schedule of school and work all day and no relaxation for me.


I'm hoping the biopsy results come back as nothing more than a severe case of cat scratch fever or some silly infection that can be taken care of with some heavy antibiotics. If not, well, I'm still grateful to be here and love you all lots!

ON HIATUS FOR A WHILE


till I get my shit in life together, hopefully.

Here is why, much to my dismay.


It all started two thursdays ago, when I began having a pain in the side of my hip, nothing major, just an occasional ache on my right hip.

I figure, whatever, it's probably just because I stand 15-18 hours of my day and my body isn't adjusted yet.

I ignore it.

Around that saturday, it became a nuisance to walk and my skin began to itch like crazy but I resisted and took it as perhaps being allergic to something in my new detergent and took some benadryl and stopped using said detergent.

It was now tuesday of the next week, and I successfully carved holes and gashes into my skin from scratching in my sleep. I figure I may have gotten on my blankets from contact with the clothing, neosporin and hydrogen peroxide my injuries and keep moving. My right leg also began to hurt a little more than the left in general, but I ignore it still.

It's friday, I've missed a crap ton of hours at school, due to these "allergic" reactions, restlessness and pain. So much so, I have learned I will fail the mod, but I choose to still attend, do my practicals, and keep my chin up, as well as keep my morning eventful by rushing back up the stairs, my pained leg giving out, sliding down these rocky/textured cement stairs on my right side, failing to grab at the railing to catch myself, and leave a lovely large injury on my leg.

Once more, my dumb self decides, ignore it, neosporin and hydrogen peroxide, as well as a good thorough rinse is enough, and I head on to school, in much pain, limping, and bandaged quite a bit beneath my uniform and many layers. The itching has gotten worse.

Now while up and out of the apartment, I begin to scratch and carve at my skin, nothing is blissful enough, nothing relieves the itch long, I feel as though bugs are crawling on me and under my skin, and I actually break out and scream in distress at some point as I am scratching myself raw through my clothing, bloody and bruised from raking my trimmed and useless flat manicured nails, against my worn skin.

Finally that night after much attempting to tolerate it through work, I go after work, to an after hours clinic and rather shit condition. Finally, the doctor sees me despite no health insurance, and looks at me in horror as I strip my layers that hid all my injuries. "You should have tons of boils and abscesses by now!" And I am thoroughly confused by this,. because thats something you get for like, staph/MRSI, which I find out I am a carrier of, and a very resistant one at that, not a boil, bump, or abscess to be found, but my own self inflicted injuries littered my body, with a secondary infection spreading throughout my system like wildfire, I am given Vistaril, Bactrim, Diclofenac Sodium, Bactroban, and three other prescriptions for all my injuries and the two infections in my body.

I am currently happily drugged from feeling pain or itching, but I honestly admit, the moment the drugs begin to wear down, I itch and have to resist scratching despite my urges which makes me irritable and miserable in between dose times. All my small injuries and infections seem to have gone down, however my internal and large leg injury on my right leg, as well as still remaining and fresh seeming bruises on my right hip have yet to recede or recess at all and my entire body still aches and begs for mercy from this. I have never had an infection this bad, not even with my P.E> tubes, I have never heard of this, considering i thought I was just fine till I realize the signs had slapped me in the face for two weeks, and I am a very very bad patient.

For I have been given a doctor's order to not do any standing work or prolonged standing or movement, and I admit, I have all my injuries medicated and covered and wear a face mask so my infection can not spread, and yet I still go to school and work and do clients and and check people out, for they have no mercy and did not nor do not care about the notes form the doctor and have become enraged with me for being sick and missing time over it as it is.

But, I am still working on commissions as well my loves, and personal art, and all sorts of other projects. But really with school I think I may need to sit another mod out anyways if this does not clear up in the next week or so. like my doctor said it should, that or I have to get more medicine and get admitted for further inspection or some stuff like that he said. I'm trying loves and this isn't an excuse to take more time and overly long periods to do your art you all have paid for or are waiting to be done to pay for, but I want you all to know, it's crazy right now and I'm trying, but school, repeat mods, and apartment bills, don't pay themselves, and my art doesn't cover any of it either.



I love you all and will work on things as I can. But my Vistaril and Diclofenac Sodium I think are kicking in and I am rather tired, so I am going to sleep now, good night loves.

Is sunday, possibly Saturday evening, for art/commissions~! Just letting you all have an update of when you should hear form me or see things uploaded. <3

I'm not dead, and I haven't forgotten commissions, I just work full time and go to school full time so 18 hours of my day I am up and running about with little to no rest.

I am still working on things and it's just gonna be a little slow. But it will be done.
Sorry for the inconvenience, but art doesn't pay enough to pay bills, so work is a must.

Power, I had to go in there and bitch on my lunch break, for them to do anything, and found out they ignored our calls and messages that their program demands we leave if we call the front office, and weren't ever planning to fix it, my power is back, my laptop is charge,d and i'm going to try and finish what I was suppose to do saturday night, now, and just forget sleep, because I can see I'm not going to get nay if I want to get caught up.

I am not too happy right now. =o=

I have so much less to do now, travel time to work, home, and school is less, and still close to my grandparents.
Broke my big right toe in the process, but I am moved in and all comfortable and in a peaceful environment now, its great.

Gonna be trying to do commissions more. I have a reasonable job at a drug store whom's name I'll not mention due to the context of my Digital art and respect for the company name, and they give me such wonderful and manageable hours, it's great. And it's fun, I'm so happy. I have a stable schedule so now i know when I can artsy, it is great.

(And too think I was that depressed yesterday and the day before, finally, a completely good day, for the first time in forever. it's perfect.)