add me on there

my username is mixnmatch

been wanting to draw in my sketchbook but have nooooo idea what.

if i like it enough i might scan it in and color digitally. its an experiment i wanna try.


leave a ref and theme.

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/13199801

go check it out

Well apart from the fact that I'm not on my computer nearly as much as i used to be lol

The damn thing has decided to get stuck in a loop of a Windows update.. In which it. Updates restarts undoes the update and restarts again..

Yeaa haven't had a chance to actually sit down and try to figure out what's wrong. Buut that's why I'm not online really. Been using my phone a lot lol.

I am completely moved in now and the house is good. And so far it's been amazing.
I mean I've moved out before but the situation was completely different. This is more fun and my roomies are the best <3

Hope everything is going good for folks :3

daaaamn what a crazy weekend lol


finally living in my new place though im still unpacking and have more shit to go get

my god i have so much shit where the fuck did it come from? x_x;


still busy working on bits of the house that need painting and stuff lol but otherwise everyones workin hard on making this place look badass.

really i couldnt ask for better roomies its just so cool how we click. <3

haha this year has just been crazy so far. I can't believe its already almost march!

so many good things happening.


just wanna say to folks i wont be online so much for the next couple weeks. gotta work on downsizing all of my stupid crap so i can moooooove.


so excited, our house is gunna be like one big family X3


if ya need to reach me either you have my # or just bug me on twitter. Mixnmatch7



its also tmi tuesday so if you have any burning questions nows a good time to ask XP

so this is what happens when i listen to the Frozen sound track and cant sleep..
lyrics trigger things haha but thats the beauty of music it suppose it has a way of getting to you,representing how you feel in life, you can relate to the stories that are told.

its also tmi tuesday so deal with it bitches -ill probably deleted this journal later anyways i just need to get it out of my head-
apart from this weekend being just so amazing i came to a few realizations sunday night after the super bowl -fuck yea go hawks-

ive had a lot of things happen to me in the past-but i mean who hasn't?-, plenty of things that have set up barriers and slowly had me drifting away from people or keeping my distance from people i had recently met. i took influence from a few people i knew and this just kind of turned me into a total fucking bitch.at one point i literally would just hide everything, i am the tough/strong person i dont cry and i dont feel. i bury it down and forget

it became hard for me to open up to people,even the people i was already close to.i had always been told in past relationships when i opened my mouth to stop whining because so in so has it worse and their life is so much harder. and thats part of the reason i find it so hard to talk about anything im feeling is because i dont want to feel like im just whining. but for me talking about it..that just it helps so much just saying somehting its crazy. and man the end of last year was a hard one, i wound up breaking and i think that is where is slowly started hitting in my head i dont really have to hide that.

and saturday people i knew but was not really close to, i told them bits and pieces of the darkest part of my life and they knew how i felt and were accepting of it and hugs all around and i cam out of that with connections with people so so strong.
and being able to tell all these things to my parnters was amazing. and despite what i had been thinking they had been accepting and at one point were saying they were proud. And it is just so amazing to me, and sunday night going home after the game i realized..there is no depression anymore. i mean i try to not to hold onto the past but somehow its always been haunting me but no..it doesnt anymore.just talking about that and knowing that i wasnt alone in an experiance like that. made it go away and truely have now moved on with the past. i am not chained down anymore. ive been dealing with depression since i was young and this is the first time that even when something bad happens i just bounce right back right away. And the people who are currently in my life, my family are the cause for that. and family to me isn't just blood.
i still need to get over those last walls however of things that had been deeply ingrained into my head but im working on it,trying to not let it drag me back down.

the people who set me on this path..never would i have though where last year would take me. it was rough and bad but god i am so glad i started going to BPN, i've met so many amazing people where i can just be myself, sure i'm a derp or whatever but they don't care. and i've met two of the most amazing men in my life because of it. and some of the things we said Saturday i want that, as i had said i don't need the paper but just being together is enough for me. they've shown me so much even if it may not seem like it, they've put trust in me and told me things and just wow some things i used to be SO against i don't mind i like it. i want to try other things as well. i want nothing more then to be supportive and there for them. i really wish i could find the perfect words for how i feel but i just don't know.

the ice is finally breaking for me, its been cracking all of 2013 but now its breaking, and i can write the next chapter in my life knowing that i'm not a pathetic loser who just bitches and moans all the time. i am going into 2014 knowing i have friends and i don't have to hide any part of me regardless, and that the past is truly in the past and can no longer hurt me.

http://www.mixcloud.com/mixinmatch/.....-friday-night/

i love hearin what you people think

i know im ready for a fresh start lol

gunna make 2014 hella bamf.


hope all of yours is awesome as well, and remember to be safe if your out drinking

and i still can't believe that its only like 3 days until its over


I can say its definitly had it's ups and its down

ive lost people and ive gained people

but ive also had amazing moments go on thats just like holy fuck did this really happen?
the end of the year, the last few months in particular has been rough and admittedly ive been going through a lot of depression because of it. but you know i have this group of friends and they are just amazing and have been whats kept me going dont know what id do without em.

and ive been lucky to have two very special guys enter my life and to get close with them. i love them so much and man its been a journey that i'm glad i took
on christmas day i think i recieved the very best present ever, and one that just completely wiped away all of the negative i had been dealing with or had dealt with. im still smiling, it feels good and im so happy. and fucking legit i could just go on and on and be disgustingly mushy and yaaa sure y'all dont wanna hear that lol
and asked me to join in their relationship and make it a polygamous one, said yes right off the beat <3



anyways i hope everyones xmas was good, mine had its ups and downs, if you follow me on twitter you had somewhat a taste of what was going on.
part of my xmas eve was spent at the kirkland p.d. to pick up my dad on bail ._.; though the story ive heard he technically shouldn't have been in there.
iunno, if he misses his court date im gunna kick his ass

last sunday i drove out to montana to get some ahamazing people( and ) and kidnap them for xmas and holy shit im glad i did so many fun times and i cant wait for em to come back out again and hopefully for sure positively be permanent.

but this week has definitly been a highlight for me

here's to hoping everyones new years is awesome

2014 is year of the horse and man oh man am i gunna fuckin rock it, gunna move-finally-, gunna go to all the cons-or as many as i can manage- and im getting my first full suit starting next month.

okaaay well i had one apparently since February lol


anyways same name there as here Mixnmatch

kinda sorta meebe

sooo ive kinda always wanted to get into making mixs and stuff, it always looked like so much fun and it is plus music -flails-

i learned a little from someone a few months back but then i let myself get distracted by other friggin things

but now i wanna like put my nose to the ground and actually work on it.

ANYWAAYS

i kinda threw this together, ive never really made a mix before but id love to hear what you guys have to say.

https://soundcloud.com/mixinmatch/i.....hat-i-am-doing

awaiting and paid:




 Ryunwoofie -pin up
 glitterpills -two character






on wait list unpaid:

 wolfy-nail - 2 character iron artist
 silverrwolfe -waiting to hear back
 skulldog - one character