Sorry I haven't been active for probably a year. Last con I went to was texas Furry fiesta 2017. That con I never thought I would feel the highs the lows but mostly highs. I had a very long conversation with ino one day. I had to do a bit of soul searching in my heart. I met 2 furs who i think i shouldn't name because they didn't really give me a chance at a friendship. When I ran into telephone just as my human self at tff she saw me and immediately came over to me hug me and gave me a telephone kiss. Thats where in my heart i found well maybe things are going to be better maybe things might not seem dark after all. Then I got to talking to Keu again. And just things clicked. I found a best friend in keu. I found out I don't never alot of people to like me I just need a maybe a few. I don't need popularity just my best friends being there for me. Life is crazy. But I think that shadow from 2016 is gone. And now I am living a life I was destined to live. I just got to keep my head up and keep going.

This year has probably been the most stressful and depressing year to date. its been so bad I've thought of ending it all. I felt alone hopeless not worth a damn in this world. things are looking up. though depression has taken so much out of me I've decided to skip MFF this year. I just felt its not right to go if I'm not right. I do wish my friends have a good time there. But things have to be better for me before i can do anything con wise. Hopefully my next con will be at Texas furry fiesta 2017 since i have a room already. Honestly if it wasn't for kuro I wouldn't be here anymore that guy has pulled me out given me a sense of hope. I've been there for him as he's been her for me. I just need to keep grinding become better and be happier.

I live by this phrase
Even after the darkest of nights. Morning always comes.

This year is a self discovery year for me So most of my con plans will be limited to one or two cons.
In march i'm going to the zootopia Movie premier in kansas city in suit. KCfurs is holding a private showing there and fursuits will be allowed. after that I plan on just hanging out with friends more often. I'm actually going to skip Gateway furmeet and make Midwest furfest 2016 my only fur con. I hope to get my own room at the main hotel. I already have friends who would consider staying with me. I want to try to get in sync with people enjoy the con for what it is.. not expecting to much..

I know that ruined my con last year I excpected WAY too much didn't enjoy it for what it was.. Next year will be alot different. I made some really great friends there..

After the zootopia showing I'm sending mobi back to get some better looking legs on him..

I plan on buying a PS4 in the summer time so if anyone wants to hit me up on there let me know :)


Right now taking it easy enjoying life for what it is.. making a better future :)

MFF 2015 was a roller coaster ride for me alot of highs and some lows.
When I first entered the con floor. I don't know what went through my mind. All I know it was completely blank. Like my whole entire thinking process was non existent. I found a couple of friends really quickly but I didn't run into them until later. There was so much going on and I had no idea what to do. What made it feel worse was I didn't necessarily had a group to hang out with. When I tried to meet some people I felt pushed away. I've come to realized some times people aren't everything what they seem to be online. Saturday was a bit better I got to hang out with Leila Spaniel, albi , roxy and Allie. But one thing that I couldn't get over no matter how hard I tried to get my mind off of it. Was finding out a person that I didn't particularly wanted to be around after what was said at a local anime con was in the same room as me. That scared me mostly because honestly I don't know if this person has been going around causing problems trying to make my life hell. But I realized this person was scared of the same thing about me. honestly I felt really down. We were scared of each other all this time and we didn't even realize it. After talking to ino and trying my best to hold back the tears. I felt even more lost like I just wanted to stay in the room and cry myself to sleep. Trust me I never want to be an enemy and I was very hard on myself because I was being feared. It was very difficult to gain back my courage to go back to the con floor in mobi the next day. I honestly felt my con experience was horrible. I called my mom on saturday night and the one thing she told me just struck me so deep. Saying "You have a big heart.But sometimes you have to show pride for yourself for people to realize you have that big of a heart." When i looked at the face of mobi I felt something in me wanting to give it another go. And I did and I had such a wonderful experience everyone loved Mobi. My mind was clear and I was going around hugging people and enjoying the con for what it is.

I basically expected way to much and got upset. But I'll be at mff next year but looking at it in a different light. And being a better performer and person

Where are you staying?
Main Hotel The hyatt

What day are you getting there?
Friday

Who will you be rooming with?
 LuckyRingtail and his friend

Who will you hang out with during the convention?
Shoot.. who ever wants to hang out with me I'm game :)

How can I find you?
Look for a guy with a light blue/ blue hat with KC on it. Thats most likely me. If not look for a blue/light blue huskybutt :)

Are there any panels you might be attending?
Just going to panels as a I go or who wants to take me to one :P

Are you attending any stage or public performances?
Dance Comp, and the RAVE!!!!

Will you be suiting?
Oh yeah like I said look for that husky butt :P

Which suit(s) are you bringing?
MOBI!!!!

Do you draw?
Nope
Unless I draw smiles on peoples faces when they see me :P

Are you taking commissions or trades?
Sorry don't do commissions

How old are you?
25

How tall are you?
5'9"

Can I talk to you?
Sure just don't expect a quick response just slow on conversations

Can I touch you?
if you don't stink or have a drink in your hand that would hurt mobi I don't see why not :)

Can I visit your room?
I don't think my roommates would be a fan of that

Can I buy you drinks?
Sure only at a certain time :)

Can I give you stuff?
Freebies are great but I always feel guilty about it

Can I hug or snuggle with you?
Hugs and snuggles is the best :D

What’s your goal for the con this year?
First year con so I'm throwing caution to the wind and enjoying myself :)

Are you nice?
I like to play it cool and be positive about life :)

How long are you going?
We are staying till monday so YAY

If I see you, how should I get your attention?
Say hi in suit you might have to help me notice you :)

Where will you be most of the time du!ring the days?
Suiting TONS AND TONS OF SUITING WITH FRIENDS :)

What/where will you be eating?
Shoot what ever is available :)

Can I come with you for food/fun etc?
Sure if the group I go with will like that :)

Can I take your picture?
Who wouldn't want to take a picture of the adorable husky butt :)

On october 23 I officially got mobi home. Only one day before my actual birthday :) . But the fun started on KCFur Howl 2015. I got to go with Cresent and omg it was so much fun Mobi was really well received at the trick or treating event in downtown lawerence kansas. And I got to cuddle with Albi who still to this day gives the best cuddles. And yes mobi is ticklish. But I don't mind it one bit it. :) I love being happy and laughing so it ain't no big deal.

 -LittleKittyRaver- did such an fantastic job on mobi. everything is fantastic just running around being cute and adorable. When I see a picture its hard to realize its me in that suit. Mobi is home and I'm so happy how he turned out :)

a certain husky will be making a debut just in time for my b-day, fursuit friday and halloween next week.. Pictures will be shown on the 24th :D

Mobi is fully paid for and will be coming home as soon as he is completed. Gah I've never imagine I would get a fursuit of Mobi. So much time and money but it will be worth it in the end. has done such a great job on him. She is just one person though making these fantastic suits. When I decided on who to make mobi She showed a lot of excitement to make mobi I knew there was something special about her though. Something deep down I felt that she was going to be just as great like Phoenixwolf, svc and others. And she proved to me just that. I've never felt so excited to have my husky butt home soon.

When I have mobi home I'm going to do an unboxing cam and video on tiny chat,skype on xbox one and be recorded by a local friend near by

But yeah he's nearly done and oh yeah I'm going to MFF and I'm staying at the main hotel on friday to monday so keep a look out for him :)

The head is done and now the feet are mostly finished. Next is the hands then the big digi body. the maker already has my dtd since july. But boy I'm so excited to see him done. I'm already planning on doing a upboxing party in october. but where though :)

I successfully got a second job at Arrowhead stadium now.. I'm looking for a room and a ride. But man I can't believe this could happen. First mobi gets made now the best party during the holiday in Chi town could happen :D

So if anyone know of someone got space and or a ride from kansas city to Chicago that would be awesome :D

I honestly was keeping calm but after seeing the latest picture of his head omg.. My heart skipped a few beats. My boy is coming to life omg... My maker is doing such a fantastic job on him. This weekend I'm doing my dtd with pups and firetyger. But now I'm so excited. want him home so baddly now lol...

So the tail is done. And now the head is getting furred. Honestly I can't believe how many positive responses I've seen  -LittleKittyRaver- fb page :) I knew her making mobi would be special and that he will get alot of attention but the attention he's gotten just on the head alone has really got me excited :). I do want to look my better than I am right now. I think next week he gets his fur on his noggin and I might actually show off that head when he is completely done. but no promises :P.

This Fursuit progress Toki has been making has really kept me going. Work has been easier and I'm more focused. And heck even with a issue in drive thru. The owner took me aside and told me just relax. I was angry at myself. But well my owner actually wants to keep me around because my bad days are so rare. And I've always wanted to impress the corporation and owners about my work ethic. Alot of good things have overcome the bad and I'm very happy about where I'm at in life and I want to keep driving forward :).

Oh and for you future fursuit owners. Definately Check out  LKRmascots She is so awesome. and she will be one of the best upcoming fursuit makers. She deserves to be up there with the PhoenixWolf, Sunny Valley Creations, autumns fallings, and Skypro Fursuits :)

A certain Blue White star husky is being made by  LKRMascots
I am really excited about this guy coming to life. Its almost hard not to think about him knowing he is actually coming. I know is really excited to work on him. I'm hoping to have him home sometime in the fall of 2015 :). I hope to also go to MWFF 2015 to debut him there :).

I'm undecided if i want to post progress pictures of him publicly or let this whole guy be a surprise :)

I'll decide soon when she starts working on him :)

This week I finally gave in a bought something with my mobi fund. But it will be money well spent.

2014 came and went. I had great time with friends at events, fun surprises. and some tough tests. At the end of the year I had to do alot of soul searching. I found myself going down a path I would find myself with no friends even the ones I cherish the most would be gone.
The work I'm putting on myself is. Changing how I socialize, How to learn to not be a pain. I want to really mobi to be portrayed as a great character. If I don't change myself now. Mobi won't be very well received. I'm getting out more trying to make new friends. getting my own Room in gateway furmeet and will try anyways possible to go to Midwest furfest. I'm going to jump start my christmas shopping next year so i can focus on MWFF 2015 since it is during christmas shopping.

I am going to welcome 2015 and challenge myself to be better. Be more outgoing. Socialize, My friend showed me the world isn't scary. And now I'm taking all the advice they've given me. And use it.

Also 2015 Mobi will be made you can count on that :)

Happy new years

Merry Christmas ya filthy animals :)

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