Hey guys!

I got a job working at a craft store. This is a big step for me, because I've never been able to hold a job for very long...but I want to have this one for a year or two! Hopefully! Maybe even longer!

I am super happy to be working at a store that has a theme similar to my interests. I get to look at drawing and painting supplies all day! ^_^

Anyway this won't change me doing art here, but I wanted to share my little victory with you guys.

<3

Recently  Fallen-Star-Art's account has been suspended. It is suspended for a week.

The cause was a misunderstanding of the upload policy. Please make sure you read the upload policy before commissioning others and accepting commissions. Fallen-Star-Art didn't know, and was unaware, which led in their account suspension. They are unable to check submissions, notes, and comments. They are also unable to upload submissions, get references for current commissions and pieces, or anything that involves having an account of FA until their suspension is lifted.

Please be patient with Emile! They are trying their best, and only did a commission that was asked of them. The picture was innocent enough in my opinion, but I can't argue with upload policy.

Until their account's suspension is lifted, any comments, questions, or what not regarding his account can be directed towards me and I will message him directly about it immediately.

Thanks for understanding!

Hey guys! Here is the order of how I am doing my artwork, because I have a lot to do! This is for both you and I to keep track!

I will delete names once I finished the art!

Here is the order I am going to do my trades as of right now:

1. DirtyPadderCat - shown me a sketch

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Here is the order for my Commission Queue

1. NovaLapis - 4 page comic (3/4)

2. Secret Santa

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Here is my special waiting list

SnowtheBear

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I'll probably alternate between commissions and trades in streams.


Expecting art from:
babyike | ApplePup

Hey guys, are you interested in being apart of a big, detailed picture?

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/22856059/

Let us know! the prices have been lowered as to finish filling the slots so we can get started.

Yes hello! <3

I really need some money! Please do not comment saying you don't have money. Only serious comments only!


I AM NOT TAKING ANY PACIFIER ICON COMMISSIONS.
Anything but that, please. I am taking a break from those. Other animated icons are fine!
4 frames of animation at 500x500 headshot or shoulder up is about ~$20

Flat fullbody will be ~$35, headshots ~$15, above waist/belly ~$25

Add $10 for cell shading, add $20 for soft shading.

Backgrounds will be included. Detailed backgrounds included in purchases of $50 and up, or can be purchased for an extra $10.

Props/accessories included, as I include them apart of character design!

If you want a comic page they're ~$40 flat!

If you want to know any other prices let me know. I might take more than 1 so don't be afraid to shoot me an idea.

Thanks!

I finally got my happy pills so I am back on the fast track to cool AND DONT yoU WORRY I am almost done coloring that big ych...well, I still need to do the background and final touches so please be patient! Estimated week or two.

I don't have much else to say other than hi sup

sorry for short journal i wanted to boop that old one away~

anyway I kind of need some money so if you want a special custom commission I might take one, holla at me if interested woop woop

Hey guys, I have some updates.

I haven't finished the big daycare ych picture, and for that I'm sorry. Thanks for being so patient with me, It'll be worth it I promise.

I have been struggling a lot lately. Health issues have risen when I had a small panic a few weeks ago and now I am out of my medication. For those that are unaware, I have severe depressive disorder, and I take a high dose of anti-depressants. Unfortunately due to money problems I was unable to schedule an appointment early enough to refill my medication, so now I am without my antidepressants for 2 weeks.

I am sure I can make it through, but I know a lot of people would be angry at me if they knew. I know my doctor is going to be very mad at me, so I am nervous for my appointment. My mother would throw a fit and worry her ass off. I'm glad I don't live with her anymore, because she gives me anxiety for breathing. I know that I can do it, but she wouldn't help me feel like I could. My boyfriend does help, and I live with him now, so that will be nice to have his support.

The worst part is the withdrawal from my medication. I take the highest dose of Zoloft, which is an extremely addictive medication to the body. Since I don't have anymore my body has been going through severe withdrawal. I get sad at everything, crying at anything even slightly emotionally reactive. I have been getting frustrated more easily, and I have been giving up quicker than ever before. I have no motivation to do anything unless someone tells me to, or helps me. I really just feel like sleeping and, well, not much else. The withdrawal effects are the worst, because I can't control them...so I have to just wait until my body can balance itself out again and produce enough chemicals to make me a bit more happy...

I am super moody and I just feel like I am always lonely but I never want to talk. I feel like I am losing my friends because I haven't spoken to anybody in days. I didn't even tell my own family happy valentine's day yesterday, let alone you guys. Which, by the way, I hope it was nice for you. I cried about 3 times for really stupid reasons that basically made me feel like shit, like I ruined the day for my boyfriend and I, but whatever.

I am past the point of feeling bad for myself and wanting to die, I have learned depression is something that will never truly go away and I have learned to live with it. My medication was simply a barrier between it and I, and now I have to cope with being face to face with the shadow following me. I just want you all to know that I care about you a lot and that I will be okay, and to not worry about me. I will always be okay.

I consider most people on here a friend, some being even closer. I want my friends to know that even if I haven't talked to them a lot, or at all, it doesn't mean anything has changed. I sort of...pause time on social interactions. You can leave on a good note and come back 4 years later and I will accept you with open arms. So just know that even if I am quiet or unresponsive, don't give up on me.

So, thanks for being so patient with me and my artwork. I forget that I have freedom to do other artwork to take a break from the large ych but I always feel guilty when I do. I'm probably going to sleep now because I am having a hard time keeping my eyes open, I had to get up early this morning.


tldr; I am out of antidepressants and having withdrawal symptoms, be patient with me as art (and social interaction) will be slow



Thanks for reading, sorry for any depressive things, but I will be okay. It's normal to have withdrawal symptoms, I just wish I could control them a bit more. I like feeling happy, not sad.
So yeah
I hope everyone is doing okay, thanks for being patient, sorry sorry sorry... </3

hi

Look at this it is so teenie weenie ;w; like for a widdle plushie .. they were made for premature babies, but ooohh they are so smol and <3

okay resume

Hey there guys, I think it's safe to say the bulk of the hardest part is over... LINING! I am terrible at effective lining, because I take a long time and I'm a total perfectionist. I tried really hard to be easy on myself on this big piece though.

This update is tiny but super important as I am reaching for a goal to finish the piece before Valentine's Day. This isn't a promise however because things do come up.

I am super excited and I hope you are too!

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Hello hello! As you may have noticed, the YCH sketch is just about ready to be worked on...I just need to choose one last thing...the winner of the raffle!

I am going to use a random number generator! I know you may not trust me but I promise that it's truly random, I will post a screenshot.

Here we go...

http://sta.sh/0131hp62295q

Well, congratulations to number 31...which is...

 yookey!

Wow, I didn't think this would happen. Yookey actually inspired me to make the picture in the first place! I am so so glad you actually got this spot, and thank you to all who entered! I am happy that I got as many entries as I did, it makes me happy you all like my art enough to enter for a chance to win it ;w; So thanks for entering! And Yookey, note me with any info you want me to know! <3

Congratulations Yookey and I look forward to including you in my group picture!

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Recently a video has popped up that I have saw on youtube where one of my ex's talked about me...he has talked about me before (no he doesn't mention names) but I figured it wouldn't go on for long, since, yknow, he is an ex and all...they get over it... (he was the one that broke up with meee?)but anyway he has made my life so difficult that I basically broke tonight so here i will just copy paste this huge mass of text so anyone can read my stress, which i posted on my facebook:

Rant warning. Drama warning. I apologize for inappropriate behavior. But I want to vent.
I HAVE GONE INSANE.
I am not mentioning any names, so you cannot call me out on any of this. I have my rights, just as HE has HIS.
I am boiling up inside. I am in a relationship right now, and I am SUPER happy! I think he is going to be around for quite a long long time...but there were times that you may remember, I didn't have such a steady and loving relationship such as this...oh wait, did I?
Heads up: this is about an ex, not my current boyfriend.
I've never had a problem with an ex, I hold EVERY RELATIONSHIP I have had VERY dearly, and the fact that we are no longer doesn't mean that my whole 'love' wasn't real or anything, I observe it and reflect and learn from it like everyone should. However, I have an ex that has given me no explanation for the break up at the time, and then proceeded to talk badly about me (both publicly and behind my back). I have not said anything to anyone other than THEM, yet they refuse to speak to me about anything. Sometimes I come across things that I know are about me, and I try to not look at them, but it's not fair--just because I am not looking doesn't mean others aren't... and it's just driven me to the point of hatred. I have never purely hated someone before, but the thought of this particular ex has now left me with a sour taste in my mouth ...not for our relationship, not for the break up, but for the way I was practically thrown away and then had to listen to their sob stories on social media.
I am shaking as I write this. It has taken me over 2 years to come clean with this. I moved away from home. I lost all my friends TWICE. I struggle emotionally and I'm sorry emotions are my main weakness, but they're my main strength as well.
Basically, the break up wasn't that bad. The aftermath was. I still have nightmares and wake up crying. I still regret things. I still wish that I knew why.
And then you see an ex flat out call me a bitch, call me an idiot, and among other things...basically make me wonder what I did to this boy to make him HATE me so much???!
Let me tell you! Since he is so keen on telling everyone about me.
I was this boy's first everything, other than a petty relationship he had with a girl for 1 week. I can still recall all his secrets, all his fears, and everything in between. I taught him how to do most of the things he does with romantic relationships, unless he has turned gay, which wouldn't be surprising with his emo attitude (oops, was that mean?) <-- let me point out these are the FIRST THINGS I have ever said about him and he has said DOZENS about me publicly!!!! I bought him food and gifts, took him on dates, drove him everywhere, paid for almost everything since he was in high school with no job, and wrote him love letters every day before I graduated. I promised to be sweet to him and open and trust but it wasn't what he planned.
I remember opening my TEXT MESSAGES one day to reveal (on my way back home from a long family trip my I add) that he had broken up with me in a 3 sentence long message. Charming how 13 months can go down the toilet so easily...or, to my doorstep, so to say.
So here I am, a bag full of stuff that I refuse to burn, because I know it'll make him more mad if I still have it. That's how upset I am.
I know that now how powerful LOVE can really be. It can push you to PUSH THOSE that you could have blossomed with AWAY.
And, to you, if you ever see this...You have officially done it, congratulations. You have ruined a chunk of my life. You have made me feel so much regret for meeting you that, even me, the one who has meaning and experience behind everything I have done, want to forget it. The relationship was fine, don't get me wrong, but the fact that you have expressed things publicly about me has stirred me. You made 1 video/post too many. You made no effort what-so-ever to fix anything. You dragged me along in a relationship you knew was going to end, expressed through your obvious lust and obsessed for heart break. So, congratulations, you!!! I can finally say I hate someone, and wish to erase their memory from my mind. You have done nothing for me in the past 3 years but bring me tears, blood, and vomit. So excuse my language, but a big
FUCK YOU
goes out just for you, that one special ex of mine that has chosen to never believe in me like I once believe in them. RIP any respect I ever had for you. I hope you're happy where you are now. I am.
If you want to know who, message me, and ladies I will tell you who to steer clear from, curtesy of the once happy and composed me.
I'll be happy to tell you anything.

thanks
-mochi