This guy's generously doing raffles :O

https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/11093165

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Merry Crisis to all and to all a good day after Christmas. :)

Things have been very rocky and rough, needlessly confusing and overwhelming. Distractions are nice, having something that has genuine passion behind it is a major aid to my mental health as of late and I wanna share that. With MUSIC! Other than the Rainbow song reference title, there's a new "group" that's majorly responsible for me being even a tiny bit stable.

YAELOKRE. A project by Keath who has made a fictional world and band ala Gorillaz, the fictional group going by the name The Lark. Has a lot of folk song vibes and storybook imagery. Keath is an absolute wild creature who's done so much work primarily by themself. They sing all four of the characters of the group with a range I can only describe as legendary.

Harpy Hare, one of the most popular songs, complete with light animation.

Hartebeest, which is my personal favorite, a lot more foreboding and quiet.

And lastly, And the Hound. Very potent, intense story.

TikTok got this group very popular out of nowhere and the hype is dying down on the platform afaik with a new wave of people bashing Yaelokre and spreading false info. Please just put your love into this group. This is the definition of a project of pure passion.

I just feel like I've done nothing but regress in all ways over time. Everything just feels like I'm getting worse and worse in every aspect. It's hard to write a single paragraph; two years ago I banged out a story every week. It's hard to engage with friends, people I've known for years, even if nothing bad had happened. I used to do DnD 4 times a week with people I barely knew, now I'm puking over stress doing it with people I've known half a year. I used to be able to aim in games and get consistent headshots, but now I'm lucky if I can hit a target more than short range.

I thought I've grown a lot. I thought I've been progressing and actually making progress. I just feel so... discouraged. And this isn't an out of nowhere feeling, this is something that's happened all year long. More typos, more misspeaking, more misunderstandings, more just... consistent failures. And this on top of a year of bullshit being thrown at me like it's a 20 to 1 dodgeball game, it's been disorientating to feel everything deteriorating around me like a falling building.

But hey. It's November 11th, 11/11. Lets make a wish to improve, even just a little. Even just decreasing a negative is still a positive. Maybe someday I'll be better. Maybe we can make it through this bitch of a year with a halfhearted smile at least.

https://bsky.app/profile/monicavix.bsky.social

I made a Bluesky awhile ago and never advertised it.

It's just cringe as hell in a positive way. I'll just repost a lot of porn, sometimes share stories I've done in the past.

For others who don't care, slowly working on stories. OBVIOUS WORLD EVENTS have fucked my flow, as well as a lot of personal things this year. Apologies for no new smut.

Hey there and thank you for everyone who's joined me on this journey here. Thank you for feeding my ego and loving my stories. And I'm sorry that creating content for you guys to enjoy has been slow as of the last handful of months, just has been a general bleh year for me.

But hey, upsides! Looking at a new kind of story that I could put out. Bunny Bites. Short, 2k word long stories that I can just pump out when a vibe is right and I don't have the energy for larger projects.

Thank you all for being so patient and supporting my journey a content creator.

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I faved it, but don't wish to make my favorites public due to extreme kink in them that SHOULD be on my other accounts, but I am too lazy to swap when I find good art.

It bears repeating. This game needs to be saved in one way or another. I met my first partner in this game, made some of my first friends on here, got into the furry community at large because of some of these people encouraging me to take the step into the public space. Even if I find PvP games frustrating now, I still love this game more than words can ever express. I love its meaning, its passion, the way the community is an amalgamation of so many people with tons of ideas on it.

If Valve won't do anything, support the modders. Support TF2 Classic, Open Fortress, Team Fortress Obscura. If TF2 is to become abandonware, give your attention to the people who still want this game to be remembered for how special it is. Team Fortress 2 itself may die, but it lives on in its community's heart.

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Raffle I am entering :)

New year's coming around! Woo! I'm going to try to be more active on here again, especially after such an extended break of doing nothing last year. Or this year, since it's not over yet, I guess? Here's what you can expect going into 2024 with your favorite whore (me).

- Commissions coming next year, trying to finalize a TOS and comm sheet for now.
- Hopefully more stories, making this a "full time" "job" for myself.
- Learning new skills, such as drawing (maybe) and showing progress here.
- Raffles, YCHs, and the jazz with my weird funky furry writing.

This is a lot! Just gotta play the year by ear to figure things out here. Thank you all for being patient and for getting me so close to 200 watchers before this lazy year was over. It means a lot more than words can say.

Laika Aged Through Blood. Dear god. This game fucking slaps in so many ways and it doesn't have any reason to go as hard as it does in terms of how high quality it is. The emotional elements of it are easily the most intense I've seen in a game period so far, actively making me cry at multiple points.

A metroidvania on a motorbike? That's wacky. Add a nuanced and emotionally driven story on top of that? That's a shit storm waiting to happen, right? FUCK NO. This game balances the obsurdity of reloading guns by doing flips with the emotional core of a mother/daughter relationship and generational trauma. And on top of all that, too, a soundtrack that's potent and integrated into the lore of the story with cassettes you can choose to listen to like the Fallout radio?

Please play this game. This is one of the most artistic and creative projects and it performs WONDERS. Laika, coyote mom badass extraordinaire, needs a fucking HUG.

I don't really exist much anywhere atm, but might as well drop my Bsky link so you can potentially get some deranged rabbit ramblings from me.

https://bsky.app/profile/monicavix.bsky.social

Making progress on things is hard. Haven't really written anything in months and just wanted to check in publicly with people about this sort of stuff. Honestly just really not sure what to do when it comes to making anything online anymore. Weirdness with a lot of things has stifled my desire to create more and more and games keep coming out, which means I get extra excuse to be lazy. I've had ideas and I still need to catch up with things I owe to people, so... ech.

I also don't really know what I want to keep doing here as I try to exist on this platform. I have a wide variety of things I enjoy and they can alienate others and put a target on my back for controversy if I try to branch out into anything more "personal," like attempting NSFW voice acting under this name or anything like that. I'm scared of connecting real world things to this, especially as I think more about making other online personas and doing more than just make furry stuff. I'm just an anxious mess and the more time goes on the worse it gets, even while medicated.

Complaining and borderline existential social terror aside, I am really grateful to all my friends who I've kept in touch with through all of this on my personal server. Social things are hard and I'm an anxious horny mess and I appreciate everyone sticking around, even if it's just a small group I chat to semi-consistently. The patience they've had with my insanity is something I can't thank enough. I really just want to get out of this rut and make them happier, make more friends, do more things, just... improve.

I honestly find it ironic that I was talking about opening commissions roughly three months ago and I haven't written anything in roughly three months.

Just a basic update to sort of explain where I'm at with a lot of things here and why I've just stopped writing and uploading stuff as of late.

Firstly, I tried to get a job! I got one for a minute, but it was too overbearing, so I quit. I wanted to try to get a "normal person" job before even considering seriously taking commissions and, since that went tits up day one with mental breakdowns, I guess the best I can do now is writing porn for nerds (affectionately) who like my stuff. I want to have some form of income and, well, that might be the best way. I could always get more from a real world job, but at the same time, I know how to write smut. And it's better going 80 WPM for this than 20 WPM and constant typos behind a work computer.

Next, it's about schedule and a bit of burn out. When I was writing more full time for furry stuff, I tried to do one story for each account in order, from my normal (where you're at), to my messy, and to my violent one. I think trying to force myself into the cycle and loop was starting to get to me, where ideas that sprouted from my mind dirt had to be put on the backburner for weeks at a time and, during that time, I made more uninspired stories.

My life has just been pretty tense for awhile when it comes to anything in reality. Trying to get better bit by bit, but improving is really slow. Just been playing a lot of games recently and watching a little bit of anime. I'll at least get some stories edited and posted soonish. Thanks for listening to me rant.

It is I, the April Fool. You have been fooled.

Taking a bit of a break from doing writing stuff for awhile. Just wanna get some things figured out.

Would you guys be interested in written commissions from me? If so, what sort of prices would you prefer to see? I'm thinking of having it at a rate of 10$ per 1k words, or 1$ per every 100 words. I need to have SOME way to make and maintain money, so why not do something like this? Of course, need to get a terms and conditions list, content barring, as well as a price sheet for all that, so maybe don't expect it within March if it ever comes.

Trans rights are human rights. Simple as.

I've been considering trying to do commissions for writing and I'm not really sure how I'd go about it. Would any one recommend any sort of prices for it? I think my quality could be around like... 1$ per 100 words, perhaps. And any/all commission requests would come to this account and not my others.

I'm using Portable Apps to do all my writing stuff in Office Libre. Every other week it has an update and it is just so overwhelmingly DESTRUCTIVE to the actual files to the point where I can't get my files opened for hours upon hours upon hours. The current download? It's been going on for FOUR FUCKING HOURS.