Just making a journal because the previous one was fuking up my account page.

So in the meantime, if you press F5 you may see a brand new Yo-Landi Vi$$er icon.

Yeah, it's a meme. move along, nothing really interesting here.

1. We all know what we call you, what about the folks at home? What's your name?
Sam, samuel, I'm really not comfortable when people call me by any other surname. Only my father used to call me "Bilou" (pronounce beeloo)

2. How tall are you?
something about 1m75. I'm not sure.

3. Natural hair color?
Dark Brown

4. What about eye color?
Dark brown too. I really like that combination. It makes my face really dark.

5. What orientation are you?
Gaaaaaaaaaaaaay.

6. Are you single, taken, or undecided?
Single for now. it will come in time.

7. What do you do in your spare time?
Internet (a lot), video games, drawing, going out with my friends...

8. What's your job?
currently looking for one. right now I'm just an art student *cough*No future*cough*

9. What's one thing you like about yourself?
My bread ! I have to thank my father for this.

10. Alright, now what about something you dislike about yourself?
Not paying enough attention into people's problem. I just can't tell when a friend has problems or not and it makes me feel like an egocentric brat, besides the fact that one of my friends is not going well.

11. What's some things your friends noticed about you when they first met you?
My beard. it's the way people remember me.

12. Of what faith/religion are you(if any at all?)
Nihilist. I don't think there is a higher conscientiousness and that we are here for a particular reason. That means that we are the one that make our life worth something.

13. Do you drink?
when I'm out with friends, yeah.

14. Do you smoke?
Only marijuana.

15. What are your fears?
Seeing someone I care about loose conscientiousness. Happened two times, and still shaking when I remember it.

16. What are your dreams/goals?
Having my own comic book store. if there is one thing I do before I die, it's this.

17. Ever had any crushes/ex's in the past/present?
Let's see, before my sexuality developped I went out with two girls, these relation were something completely stupid with no feelings, I don't even know why I did that.
Right now, I have a crush on an old friend that became even stronger when I discovered his sexuality, though this is a little complicated for the moment.

18. Who's your best bud?
I have three of them
The first one is an old childhood friend that I know from kindergarten. It was a fucking shock when I discovered that he was becoming a father. Last week was even more shocking when I saw his little Noah, 2 months old.
The two others are my college buds there are the closest people I have right now. I seriously don't know what I would be without them.

19. Alright, you got the cravin' for munchies, what'cha reachin' for?
setp 1 : look in the fridge
step 2 : see that it's empty
step 3 : look in the cupboard
step 4 : see that it's empty
step 5 : repeat step 1

20. Favorite drink?
Milk is life my friend, milk is life.

21. Favorite color?
in no particular order : purple, red, orange

22. If you had any super power, what would it be?
either being able to read people's mind and manipulate it at will
OR being in every humans mind and accumulate experience and knowledge.

23. Favorite movie?
Hard question. Really, really hard. I think I'll go with Fight Club because it's a really good one but I know there are a lot more I can't recall for now.

24. Least favorite food?
good luck making me eat chards or liquorice.

25. Quick! You have only one meal left before you die!!! What is it?
pork with pineapple made by my father. I can eat it endlessly.

26. What do you drive/wish you drove?
Nothing for now. Man I really need to get my license some day.

27. Most disliked bug?
Wasps. they put pain in my childhood memories...literally.

28. Most hated pet peeves?
I can't stand the sound of someone chewing. if I hear you chewing with your mouth open I will automatically wish you were dead. (okay, not that much but seriously, I hate that sound)

29. Dislike in life?
That habit we have of putting everything in boxes and clichés. I hate myself when I realise how much I do that.

30. Most annoying?
Being so unsure about my future.

31. Most disliked TV show?
Anything that is not news. And not those public news where you hear 300 death in Africa then a stupid article about "Mr average man" that serves breakfast to his old neighbour.
I'm talking about news channel, that will say the same thing for hours until something new arrives because when I hear about something new, I can just turn off the TV and think about what has been brought to me.
Everything else is making me feel like my brain is melting out of my ears. I hate the current state of television.

I turned 20 the same day the national assembly of my country voted for opening the marriage for same-sex couples.
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FUCK YEAH ARFHSGRZJHQRFG
YES YES YES YES YES !!!!
YEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEESSSSSS !!!!!!

I've been thinking a lot lately.
Actually I've been thinking about stuffs all the freaking time but especially lately. And for once I want to write this down.
I know I can express myself freely here because this is a place where people actually try to understand each other instead of camping on it's position.

Recently, I've had a lot on my mind because of politic. You may, or may not know that France is actually debating about opening the marriage to homosexuals.

Being gay myself, I feel directly concerned about something political for the very first time in my life. but the reason this has been bugging me is because of all the people who are against it.
There have been HUNDREDS THOUSANDS people going on STRIKES against MY RIGHTS. I mean, they are not even concerned and will NEVER BE IN ANY WAY. Every time I hear one of them speaking on TV I just want to throw up. for them, I can't raise a child properly or have the right to marry the person I love because I am not "natural." (come on !)

I don't know what are the worst feeling in here. discovering that your country is now openly expressing it's homophobia or seeing people simply hating you in your own town for being different.
or maybe it's the fact that I already knew all of this and pretended that it was not real. But there is a latent homophobia in my country, and I knew it since I started developing my sexuality.

Alright, that was for what was on my mind lately. I'm not gonna take all the political arguments (the actual ones) and tear them one by one, it has been done a thousand times.


Now let's turn toward my future. I found myself a dream that I am ready to pursue to the end : having my own comic book shop. I hear people saying that it is crazy, that developing your own market in France is a huge work, that comics are going down (lol) and that I won't make it.

But this is what I want, this is the first real decision I took in my life, I'm not going to let anyone put me down because I'll do it or die trying. I don't care if I'll have a hard time all my life. I know that my professional life is going to be hard no matter what I choose so I'd rather have a dream to keep me going.


But, there is a doubt that is planting into my head because of my current studies. I'm studying arts in a school that teaches me both theoretical and practical of art...and I suck at it.
let's be honest, this is annoying, I don't understand half the shit the teachers are saying, I'm not interested what I'm doing anymore so I let myself distracted in any way possible and it's obvious for everyone but my parents, who are the ones paying for my studies.

SO I failed the previous semester,, which means I'll have to pass it again next year OR at the end of this year knowing that I have to pass the one I already failed last year AND pass normal exam for this semester. in short, I have three fucking semester to pass in one.

The problem is obviously coming from me. I'm getting nuts about school. I want to do something that makes me feel like I actually work for my future, I just don't give a fuck about modern art, theories about aesthetic or any of that crap. I want to learn about COMICS, about how to draw one, about their history, growing a whole CULTURE.

And now we are deep down in my problem. I am a childish spoiled brat that thinks that because he wants it, he'll have it without any effort. That same brat deeply hate school. so every theoretical class is just a waste of time. I'm not going to listen because I the only motivation I have to sit down for hours is to have a computer or a video games in the hands.

Now a new semester started, the difference between this one and the previous one is that my dream became my goal. I need to validate these semesters. art is boring shit, but I have to consider this like a training to the amount of bullshit I'll have to learn if I want for complete my dream in life.


About art in general, it might seem paradoxical but art is constantly on my mind. this is the reason I hate school, if you don't talk a specific language, you will never understand. but when I am at home, when I am surfing on the internet, watching all the things artists, bloggers and furries are posting, I just feel overwhelmed by art. I see all the possibilities people can make out of the same things, all the incredible stories their works are telling, all the good and bad things reflected into a picture, a comic or a story. THIS is the kind of art I need to develop my inner artist. not all that blabbering modern shit that they are have been shoving down my brain since a year and a half.



alright, I wish I had more time to continue my ranting, but I try to be more responsible and get up in time for classes. sorry for the bothering of a long rant journal. sometimes it's good to get it out.

drawing something sexy with my character, any monkey interested ?

YOU DID NOT WAITED FOR IT BUT HERE IT IS, RUBBED INTO YOUR FACE LIKE A JEOVAH WITNESSES BIBLE !


RULZZZ :
- You ask me questions and I'll answer them all in a comic.
- The question has to be about ANYTHING
- The question has to be random and/or useless.
- By the time you think of what question you can ask me, be aware that your clothes are touching your skin right now. Unless you are butt naked then you are a nasty person.

"Hey ! let's drink a beer while surfing on the internet, that's an awesome idea ! oh no, the bottle somehow explosed and I spilt beer all over the computer and now it's not working anymore ! okay, punching the screen will make it work again, let's do it ! oh no, now it's broken inside and outside, I have to spend all the money I saved for a new fucking laptop !"

I'm a god damn retard... -_-"

I'm try to get my hard drive back, my father like to play with computers. I really hope I can have my files back. I have two fucking years of my internet life on it. and especially  squeezecheetahpaw's request. this is the actually the most important actual thing I need to get back. the second one being my music.
All of this to say that I'm probably not going to do anything that I planned for this summer, because this just achieved to disgust me of having too much free time. I need a job to keep me busy, I need to face reality and stop realying my life on a fucking machine, I realized how easy it's remplacable and how much I was addicted to it. I was supposed to write two essay due for tommorow and I spend it trying to find a new laptop because I neededd it and no one was around to help.

I'll still be there though. just...not active by myself for good.

I'm bored and mentally blocked about everything right now. a terrible side effect of early holidays.
So here's a stupid ass game, WOOHOO !

rules :
- Ask me stupid questions and I'll try to answer them in a comic. (because voice meme is too mainstream )
- The questions can be about me or about a random stupid topic.
- The question HAS to be random and/or useless.
- By the time think of what question you can ask me, be aware that you are breathing.

before you come in, I'm not feeling very well these days. just a little depressed, nothing important, but I might not be very happy and full of joy.

EDIT :
FUCK...THIS...SHIT !

I just want to burn down the whole town right now ! so no stream today.

I just reached the 1k pageviews and I'm happy !
well, this is not getting me a job, but it's a little achievement...
And I've almost 100 favs yaaaay~

Hi guys !
I just wanted to tell you that I will be away from my computer for at least a week so I'm sorry :strobes: and :squeezecheetahpaw: but I won't be able to continue your request before I come back home.


Oh, and I'm about to do a FURMEET !!! and a big one like 50 person. THIS IS GONNA BE AWESOOOOME !!!!


Allright, see y'all in a week !

The Wii may have crappy graphics, I still prefer games that I cannot forget.

It is just IMPOSSIBLE to draw with that F*@#!ng livestream sh*t.

So if you guys know any other thing that allow me to share at least a quarter of my screen and let me draw WITHOUT INTERRUPTING ME EVERY TIME I TOUCH Y TABLET that would be awesome.

Thank youuuuuu~

step 1 : Meet a fur that lives near to you.
step 2 : Congrats, your just had a great day !

Thanks a lot to  Kai_Veloski for today. We absolutely have to meet again.

If you didn't know there was (maybe still is) an international day of protest against ACTA, then your government is ruled by assholes, just as mine.

What is ACTA ?
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Anti-C.....rade_Agreement
http://www.laquadrature.net/ACTA


Literally, the industries will be allowed to look freely in your computer and cut your Internet whenever they want.



DON'T WORRY ! there is another international protest, the 11th February. there is at least one in my country and the title say it's worldwide.
www.facebook.com/events/358922057468176/

Try to find out what it's all about and if your country is making protestations too.
http://www.facebook.com/pages/Stop-.....47563691923612


For fuck's sake, dat shit has just begun !

No guys, I have a few options for today.

- I stream

- I go watch  Shalinka stream

- I play game ALL DAY LONG (snes bitches, how can I resist ?)

- I GO OUT, FOR FUCK'S SAKE !

- nobody answer this journal and I make a decision by myself for once in my life



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random awesomeness

becoming a beast for a few weeks, just let me the time to get out of my stupid and useless depression and I'll be back again.

www.youtube.com/watch?v=F21aifX0lZY

IT'S FUCKING SNOWING OUTSIDE !!!!!!! FINALLY !!!!!


BWWWWAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHH !!!!!!



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Some random awesomeness  superboll

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-zmZfoMkVt8

Who's there ?