Hey im opening up 3 digital colored shaded commission slots cuz i need a little money before FWA

Like i seriously would love you if you grabbed one, I'll put my all into these.

its 10$ each, not too much right?'

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Im playing it... and im soooo scawrd

HALP MEEE.

Love what all they did to this game. they really re-did the whole thing almost it seems. Such a fun game

So who all is going?

I will be hopefully getting a room with  arcarc,  anti_dev,  scrumpet360, and a few others.

Eh? so soooooo!? Whos going?

On another note, I managed to grab on of Kamui's WIP books as well, and it is FANTASTIC! its pretty cool and i knew alot of how to do it already, but i wanted to see the methods. pretty informative.

Its been a millinia folks, but no sorry I wont die off so easily. haha rest assured.

It's been an eventful year 2010. It has led up to many terrible and many beautiful happy moments.

I finally ordered my suit. so excited to see it done.

Ordered my new macbook pro with fast ass processor and ram.

I can finally draw again when i get it! my current comp takes an hour just to lock the comp itself.

pmuch dead.........

anyways. miss you guys

i feel like we almost lost eachother

going to their show tomorrow and let me say it will be a fine night to die indeed.

I'm SOO pumped. althought im curious to hear how Underoath has changed since their Aaron left. :\ baww on that.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U3mGH2NF92I

Sarah Hyland is FUCKING HALARIOUS

well GOINGTO DRAGONCON NEXT WEEKEND BETCHES!! ill be caramel dancin with my mate for my first con ever. too bad its not furry but somehting tells me ill be seeing at least a couple furs there... maybe

anyways, art classes are INTENSE!!!11!!!!11 like i had to 25 sketches in one night 5 of which were blind contour drawings. this girl fainted at the eisle today in class and paramedics came and took her away. dont blame her, 3 hours of standing at a eisle can make you faint, especially if youve been partying all weekend.

but hey its hard work I love to do. I'm sure ill be coming out of these classes at the top of my game.

I appraoched my new family (my aunts and uncles who i live with) today... and told them I was gay. Seeing as my aunt is a lesbian..and lives with another awesome chick named Ruth it wasnt as hard as you would think... but I also learned some truthes myself..

Anyone that knows me pretty darn well knows that both my parents died..fairly recently. but im really focusing on my fathers death. I was around about 11 or 12 and it was just this year when my mom died ( I'm 19 now). I was told by my late mother that my dad died in an accident...

But today i learn the real truth...that he actually killed himself...........

also my aunt's former husband ( the women who is now a lesbain) commited suicide also, and in the same way. My father shot himself over this very uncle's grave... One must assume b/c of my uncle's suicide.. it made it more .. able to ... make one's self commit suicide.

There was alot of drama that surrounded my father's unnatural death..which i dont feel like sharing...(I cant believe im sharing even what I have alrdy)

But i cant help but feel cheated....i'm extremely dissapointed in my mother. I think she was trying to protect me, but i deserved to know...she couldnt even tell me before she passed away...

Today most definatly has been the most emotional day in my life..

Coming out + Father's Suicide Life Lie + my mother's death = JESUS FUCKING CHRIST TITS WTF MAN

I really feel like shit...angry, frustrated, betrayed, confused, and scared all at once..

surely..this life on earth is hell...I must get past this

I finally finished and got the money I need for my fursuit commision.

I'm getting a full fursuit with a movable jaw. done by  FirestormSix

I'm so excited to pay him and get on the fur suit waiting train.

Just finished filling out the forms and will send them in ASAP

SO VERY MERRY BIRTHDAY TO ME

So I've decided to re-submit some of the old pieces from my other acc to here b/c i like them and I dont think people see them over there in that dusty corner of an acc. Plus i think i'll just sever the ties with that acc lol. soooo

lets begin...

Yup, Im in New York City for the week and im doing tons of shit. I've got alot planned as far as the summer and art stuff going on but for now. Party timez! XD
Congratz on the Classes of 10', we worked hard on graduating

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d2j-xR_wSAQ

lol a friend sent me this cuz he knows me all too well. ill have to check these guys out a little more.

Going to New York City for a week or so on the 17th of May.

After attending all the crazy graduation parties, I'll kick off a whole new life on my own. I have a summer job, ill actually be able to drive. and I have a Fen's First Fursuit Fund or the FFFF lol. commissions and all excess job money will be going to this. my goal is $2000. Yeah, I'm going all out, better make it a good one eh? I plan to have a moving jaw and all, prolly commission Azure Studios or FireStormSix

So!

I have 5 Commission slots open.. 10$ each full color. Pretty cheap I'd say

1) justin-michael-kenney
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So yeah, a friend at my school's mom is a psychiatrist for Lady Gaga's cousin.

SO...

Lady Gaga came to have dinner with her, the cousin, and my friend.

Aparently shes really weird and my friend didn't like her at all lol. But yeah, I wish he invited me XD

woulda been a once in a lifetime chance. Pretty cool.

I just thought, I know what would destroy this fandom,

if there was a Dada movement in art here. everyone would well.... not be furry

http://www.protomen.com/act2.htm

and better yet, if you cant find it on this page....

http://protomen.com/act1/protomen.htm

FUCKING AMAZING

I will be going. I'm going with a friend, and my lil brother. Lemme know if anyone else is going, and if so are they having that group price thing or need me and my gang to team up for that 10% discount.

I will be going with my friend and bro as the Kokori Tribe Kidz from Zelda

REPRESENTIN"! TEH DUKU TREE

lemme know if your going yeaaaaa

http://www.mocksession.com/30fps//s.....harassment.gif

hes a pro

it has been decided, due to finacial issues... I will be attending East Carolina University in stead of SCAD....

However i plan to get my master's at SCAD...yes that right MASTERS lol im going for it. I will have enough money to by then seeing as going to ECU eliminates all student loans and my scholarship to SCAD for $16,000 is still there.

But on another note, I need to find a job for the summer. once I get one, I will be buying a fur suit commision in the fall. I thought its about time I go have some fun and visit cons for once. not only that but its about time I get a suit. I have enough to buy a suit right now, but i need to keep that money for it is a lifeline til i get a job.

So, coming back to the states after my break (which wasnt restful at all) was a nighmare. I got the news that i cannot stay at my own uncles. I must find a job. I have to sell one of my cars, my house (which has been in the family for generations), pay every bill, get an apartment, and PAY my uncle for the short time i was with him for all his bills.

Not done yet!

Even after feeling clinically depressed after both parents deaths, I cannot see my mate, I dont have a drivers license. I just feel like biting a bullet. I like to be a hermit, I dont like people running to me and saying the ever so popular " I'm sorry for your loss" and " Dude i feel for you" I cry, wake up at ungodly hours, only wishing to walk into my mothers room and still see her sleeping there. I'm so lost, I want her back to tell me what to do, to get mad at me for the bad things I do, and most importantly hold me tight when I come crawling back when I learn my lesson.

She was a saint.

I'm lost...so lost...whenever I draw...it just comes out so depressing and I lose hope that I'll ever get better when I cannot concentrate.

My aunt even is trying to convince me to not go to SCAD...which was my only dream and life goal.

I cannot afford it...only two years of SCAD without a loan...but EVERYONE gets loans...she doesnt see that...

I need to go there...I have friends there..

I fear I'm turning into an alcoholic...all I do now is drink...drink....drink

So wish me luck on my 14 hour flight! Im coming off a small cold too..this flight is going to kill me. I will take loads of pictures and I told my room mate (whos hosting me at his house there) to let me eat all sorts of weird foods. some of which include:

Live octopus

Cow's Blood...

yeahh.....

so ill be gone for two weeks. cya guys in two weeks!

So I think its time for a vacation for me dontcha think?

here are my options:

1) My room mate offered a round trip to Seoul Korea and all things included. for all of spring break

2) New York with my brother for spring break

3) slim possibility I could convince someone to get me a ride to FWA

vote plz, and include your reasoning

* i personally think #1 is pmuch once in a lifetime chance + 18yr drinking age in Seoul = WIN

She left us at about 7:00pm today...

I'm am so relieved she can finally rest after such a long and troublesome life...

I will withdraw respectfully from this community for a breif time period for my greivances are quite heavy and tasking on me right now...

I will most likly need some support when i return...one parent lost was enough... but two...feels like i have lost everything