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(FRIENDS ONLY, NSFW) Bat-themed group doodle!
General | Posted 6 years agoSorry, due to IRL issues I had to cancel this.
At roughly 8:00 PM EST, and no later than 8:30 PM EST, I'm planning to do a stream to draw myself and a bunch of friends as bats - small, anthro ones like PennyBat. This group doodle will be NSFW and have a slight sleepover theme. Anyone can request to be in it, as long as they're a friend of mine! This stream will last for one hour, at the end of which I will save the picture and transfer over to my Twitch to stream Hollow Knight.
How to join: Just message me! Anywhere! Or show up to the stream! Just "I wanna be in this" is enough! I'll be taking a list of names by order of RSVP time, but that won't be the only deciding factor on who gets drawn when. What works in the picture is what I'll draw!
Info/Rules/Things you can request
- These doodles will be done for speed, not quality!
- I'm planning to have the background be a sofa with a pallet of blankets and pillows.
- By default, I will draw your main character, using their color and details as a basis. You can request that I use a different character/design, however, or that I change any details (even sex) that you want.
- By default, I'll give each character whatever clothes (if any) I think will look good - usually underwear, sleeping clothes, or even a normal outfit (possibly incomplete, i.e. a shirt with no pants) - but you can request anything you want on yours.
- Be aware that you may be drawn in a lewd/intimate/cuddly interaction with someone else's character, but I am respectful of sexuality and personal interest! (Heck, you don't even have to be showing lewd parts at all, you can be just chilling. This is honestly gonna be pretty softcore.)
My Picarto <- Stream will be here
My Twitch <-I'll be going here for the game stream afterward.
How to join: Just message me! Anywhere! Or show up to the stream! Just "I wanna be in this" is enough! I'll be taking a list of names by order of RSVP time, but that won't be the only deciding factor on who gets drawn when. What works in the picture is what I'll draw!
Info/Rules/Things you can request
- These doodles will be done for speed, not quality!
- I'm planning to have the background be a sofa with a pallet of blankets and pillows.
- By default, I will draw your main character, using their color and details as a basis. You can request that I use a different character/design, however, or that I change any details (even sex) that you want.
- By default, I'll give each character whatever clothes (if any) I think will look good - usually underwear, sleeping clothes, or even a normal outfit (possibly incomplete, i.e. a shirt with no pants) - but you can request anything you want on yours.
- Be aware that you may be drawn in a lewd/intimate/cuddly interaction with someone else's character, but I am respectful of sexuality and personal interest! (Heck, you don't even have to be showing lewd parts at all, you can be just chilling. This is honestly gonna be pretty softcore.)
My Picarto <- Stream will be here
My Twitch <-I'll be going here for the game stream afterward.
Art/Game Stream's back up!
General | Posted 6 years agohttps://www.twitch.tv/neomews
Turned it off for a while to do other things, but it's back up now, and save for some breaks to eat and shower, I'll likely go into the night. :3
Turned it off for a while to do other things, but it's back up now, and save for some breaks to eat and shower, I'll likely go into the night. :3
Art/Game stream!
General | Posted 6 years agoHamha, everyone!
It's time for another stream! This one's gonna be a bit of a doozy - I'm gonna flip between doing doodles and playing various games. I've got Hamtaro: Ham-Hams Unite!, Final Fantasy XIV: A Realm Reborn, and Monster Hunter World all lined up! Other games could happen depending on my mood! Let's see how long we can go for today, huh?
I'm gonna take a quick walk first, so the stream will start at around 1:10 PM EST. See you there!
https://www.twitch.tv/neomews
It's time for another stream! This one's gonna be a bit of a doozy - I'm gonna flip between doing doodles and playing various games. I've got Hamtaro: Ham-Hams Unite!, Final Fantasy XIV: A Realm Reborn, and Monster Hunter World all lined up! Other games could happen depending on my mood! Let's see how long we can go for today, huh?
I'm gonna take a quick walk first, so the stream will start at around 1:10 PM EST. See you there!
https://www.twitch.tv/neomews
Art Stream time!
General | Posted 6 years agohttps://picarto.tv/Neomews
Boy, it's been a while, huh? Gonna do some doodles for folks who donated when I was at the con then work on some other art.
I'm leaving the donation rewards open for the time being, so hit my Ko-Fi or otherwise inform me if you'd like a simple sketch.
Boy, it's been a while, huh? Gonna do some doodles for folks who donated when I was at the con then work on some other art.
I'm leaving the donation rewards open for the time being, so hit my Ko-Fi or otherwise inform me if you'd like a simple sketch.
Commissions Still Open
General | Posted 6 years agoI've been a bit slow on art, huh? My mistake, I've been enjoying myself, though I'm still trying to be productive... That said, my commissions are still open - they will be until I've got enough spending money saved up for the con, which starts on the 9th of May. Contact me however you see fit if you're interested and we'll work something out. I'll only "accept" a few at a time, though, so as not to overload myself. The slot counts on my commission info aren't accurate - the page wouldn't let me clear them out, so I just set numbers that sounded good.
As said before, prices in
$5 Sketch
$10 Flat Colors or Colorless Lineart (Coloring is relatively fast and simple for me, so I only charge for the lining process.)
$15 Simple Shading
$20 Detailed Shading
Extra for multiple characters, complex backgrounds, or complex designs. Probably $5-10 per 'extra', depending on the commission tier and overall workload being asked.
As said before, prices in
$5 Sketch
$10 Flat Colors or Colorless Lineart (Coloring is relatively fast and simple for me, so I only charge for the lining process.)
$15 Simple Shading
$20 Detailed Shading
Extra for multiple characters, complex backgrounds, or complex designs. Probably $5-10 per 'extra', depending on the commission tier and overall workload being asked.
Limited Commissions
General | Posted 6 years agoI meant to post this earlier, but whatever.
My League shop spat out some good deals on skins for champs I play. So, with it being the weekend, I figured this would be a good time to test out getting back into commissions. I'd like to take on one or two, maybe three depending on the complexity, to do over the weekend.
If you'd like one, post on this journal with your idea and the kind of commission you'd want. If I like the idea and am still accepting, I'll respond and we can work out the details.
My prices - in USD - are:
$5 Sketch
$10 Lineart/Flat Colors
$15 Simple Shading
$20 Detailed Shading
Extra for multiple characters, backgrounds, or complex designs.
I accept payment through PayPal and expect payment before or when I start sketching. Examples of my work are listed in my Commission Info tab. (Just ignore the slot count, I only put it in to turn the words green. It won't let me blank the slots so they'll be white and the red from 0 slots is hard to read.)
I'm going to bed. It's 1 AM. When I wake up I'll respond to any comments I get. In the meantime, good night everyone.
My League shop spat out some good deals on skins for champs I play. So, with it being the weekend, I figured this would be a good time to test out getting back into commissions. I'd like to take on one or two, maybe three depending on the complexity, to do over the weekend.
If you'd like one, post on this journal with your idea and the kind of commission you'd want. If I like the idea and am still accepting, I'll respond and we can work out the details.
My prices - in USD - are:
$5 Sketch
$10 Lineart/Flat Colors
$15 Simple Shading
$20 Detailed Shading
Extra for multiple characters, backgrounds, or complex designs.
I accept payment through PayPal and expect payment before or when I start sketching. Examples of my work are listed in my Commission Info tab. (Just ignore the slot count, I only put it in to turn the words green. It won't let me blank the slots so they'll be white and the red from 0 slots is hard to read.)
I'm going to bed. It's 1 AM. When I wake up I'll respond to any comments I get. In the meantime, good night everyone.
The State of Affairs - Streams, Donation Goals, Etc.
General | Posted 7 years agoShort version: Donation goal is up. Looking for ideas for donation rewards. Adding Twitch and Picarto links to my page.
So, things have been a bit... well, better, I'd say, as of late. I'm doing more art and I'm streaming art and games. I'm glad for that. I consistently want to draw and Pokemon Uranium's had me hooked, so I was streaming every day for a while there, but it's been over half a week since I did that due to circumstances.
Speaking of circumstances - I never told anyone, but I did set up donation goals on my Ko-Fi and Streamlabs a while back. I'm looking to save $60 to cover the registration fee for the local furry con, Furry Weekend Atlanta. That said, if I reach that, I'll add more goals. The con in total will probably run me around $200 for registration and expenses, and it starts on May 9th. On top of that, I still haven't saved up and bought a PS4, and with KHIII out - which I'm trying very hard to avoid spoilers for - there's now at least four games I want for it, and probably more I'm forgetting. T'get a PS4 and KHIII will run me $360. So that's $560 I'm looking to save over the next few months.
I've never really saved money before - at least, not without an allowance to bank on. I don't have a job and getting one is both stressful and risky for me. And I'm not sure what I can do to incentivize donations - I was looking to start commissions again, but when I sat down to finish an old one, even having been planning on doing so, I locked up again. I don't really have the time to try that again until V-Day's come and gone, and while I'm still willing to give it a shot time and time again, I'm just hoping this pattern of freezing any time I do work I'm "supposed" to do will break sooner or later. I used to offer doodles for donations, but my procrastinative tendencies got in the way. I could probably try that again, or some kind of reward for hitting small goals - like, every $20 or so. I'm open to suggestions.
Just to be clear, nobody's obligated to give me money. I appreciate it if you do, but I'm not telling anyone they have to.
Now, let's get on the positive side of things! You guys like streams, right? I'm quite a streamer myself, I just don't like going to the effort of updating my fA to alert folks. But streaming is my favorite thing to do and when I'm hooked on a game or really into my art I'll stream on the daily. I think my banter on Twitch is pretty funny and consistent, and on Picarto I usually play tunes while I draw. I'll see if I can make it easier to alert people about my streams, but in the meantime, I'll add my Picarto and Twitch (where I'm currently doing Pokemon Uranium!) to my page, and link them here - consider giving me a follow if y'wanna keep up with when I'm live! I also have VoDs enabled on Twitch and have been planning to start a YouTube channel to host my old recordings.
Picarto
Twitch
Well, that's all for now.
...Keep smiling, okay? I know it's hard, and it's okay to cry sometimes, but we're all doing the best we can, and that's something to be proud of. You guys make me smile a lot.
So, things have been a bit... well, better, I'd say, as of late. I'm doing more art and I'm streaming art and games. I'm glad for that. I consistently want to draw and Pokemon Uranium's had me hooked, so I was streaming every day for a while there, but it's been over half a week since I did that due to circumstances.
Speaking of circumstances - I never told anyone, but I did set up donation goals on my Ko-Fi and Streamlabs a while back. I'm looking to save $60 to cover the registration fee for the local furry con, Furry Weekend Atlanta. That said, if I reach that, I'll add more goals. The con in total will probably run me around $200 for registration and expenses, and it starts on May 9th. On top of that, I still haven't saved up and bought a PS4, and with KHIII out - which I'm trying very hard to avoid spoilers for - there's now at least four games I want for it, and probably more I'm forgetting. T'get a PS4 and KHIII will run me $360. So that's $560 I'm looking to save over the next few months.
I've never really saved money before - at least, not without an allowance to bank on. I don't have a job and getting one is both stressful and risky for me. And I'm not sure what I can do to incentivize donations - I was looking to start commissions again, but when I sat down to finish an old one, even having been planning on doing so, I locked up again. I don't really have the time to try that again until V-Day's come and gone, and while I'm still willing to give it a shot time and time again, I'm just hoping this pattern of freezing any time I do work I'm "supposed" to do will break sooner or later. I used to offer doodles for donations, but my procrastinative tendencies got in the way. I could probably try that again, or some kind of reward for hitting small goals - like, every $20 or so. I'm open to suggestions.
Just to be clear, nobody's obligated to give me money. I appreciate it if you do, but I'm not telling anyone they have to.
Now, let's get on the positive side of things! You guys like streams, right? I'm quite a streamer myself, I just don't like going to the effort of updating my fA to alert folks. But streaming is my favorite thing to do and when I'm hooked on a game or really into my art I'll stream on the daily. I think my banter on Twitch is pretty funny and consistent, and on Picarto I usually play tunes while I draw. I'll see if I can make it easier to alert people about my streams, but in the meantime, I'll add my Picarto and Twitch (where I'm currently doing Pokemon Uranium!) to my page, and link them here - consider giving me a follow if y'wanna keep up with when I'm live! I also have VoDs enabled on Twitch and have been planning to start a YouTube channel to host my old recordings.
Picarto
Twitch
Well, that's all for now.
...Keep smiling, okay? I know it's hard, and it's okay to cry sometimes, but we're all doing the best we can, and that's something to be proud of. You guys make me smile a lot.
Let's talk about the future.
General | Posted 7 years agoSo, I didn't get a tablet for Christmas, BUT I'm getting one for my birthday next month.
Which it's about time I laid out my plans for you guys. After my computer and tablet both stopped working, I on-and-off brainstormed what I'd do when I got back online and got a new tablet. I've already started streaming again, so that's a good start.
Sometime soon, I'll be mass uploading almost all of the art I have on my computer - primarily WIPs - in preparation for returning to the art scene. I'll also be looking into PostyBirb to help me make a comeback on sites like dA and IB without getting stressed out over how much time posting takes. While I intend to be more actively creative and want to finish most of those pictures anyways, I'll need you guys' input - if you see something in my gallery or scraps that you want finished, let me know in the comments section for that piece. Even if not, I appreciate feedback of any sort. I draw mostly for the satisfaction of making something - if someone tells me I did a good job, in whatever way they word it, it makes me feel good.
On top of this, I'm going to be pushing to build my personal projects - I have a lot of mental notes, but almost no actual art or development for these. These projects include things such as:
- Pokemon Legends, a crossover series of Pokemon and Zelda, which follows the travels of a wandering Pokemon named Leaf. Usually a Pikachu, but sometimes other species, each incarnation of Leaf finds their self blown into a quest to save their home region, if not the world.
- My PMDUnity apps and entries.
- Art and development for my games, such as Sugar Hearts - a cute Kirby-inspired platformer in which eating fruit changes the protagonist's colors and powers.
- Developing my stream further. As I said, I've started streaming again, and I've done some work on my channel, but there's still a lot more to do. Once I have my tablet I'll be making overlays for my stream, and when I have the first one complete, I'll be doing a big "official relaunch" of my channel, after which I will stream a set game regularly on Sundays at 2 PM EST, on top of my regular random streams. The first game will be Okami HD in an event I call Rebirth, and I will be advertising it on here with a special picture made just for this occasion. Hopefully, I can make advertisement pictures a regular thing.
- My Ask and Doodle Blogs, including Ask the Munchies, Psychic Seamster, Starlight Uplink, and The Mew Zone, as well as a new command-and-ask-driven blog focused on a single Mew named Myumi. Don't worry, I'm gonna find another place to host The Lewd Zone, since Tumblr decided to blam NSFW. You'll get your precious Mew lewds. <3
...As you can probably tell, this is more work than I've ever taken on. I've had months to prepare myself mentally, but it's still likely to be tough keeping at all of this. Most of these projects are years long in scope. I'll need all your support and feedback to keep me going. I'm gonna be doing what I love, but I am not known for my work ethic.
Anyways, thanks for taking the time to read this. ^^ I love you all. <3 I'm looking forward to making and sharing lots of cute, awesome, sexy, and/or kinky stuff with you!
...Yeah, that also means I'll finally start drawing and finishing vore art and stuff like that. Don't worry, I've had it planned for years that when I do I'll put thumbnails on all the weirder stuff, so my gallery is still safe for anyone who doesn't wanna see extreme fetishes. And my different galleries will be tuned to different crowds, of course - there'll be no smut in my dA gallery, for example! But fA will be my main gallery - you'll find most of my content from other pages in here. I'm a furry, and a degenerate with weird kinks, but I'm also a creative developer and an artist. I don't want to hide any part of who I am, so I'm gonna have at least one place where I can put it all, and here's hoping that doesn't bite me in the ass down the line!
My other galleries:
DeviantArt - SFW Gallery
InkBunny - NSFW/Kinky
Starlight Uplink (Tumblr) - Asks, Doodles, Character References, General Art
Neo's Corner - Occasional Doodles/General Art (tags: Neo's Art, Neo's Doodles)
...I'll make a Twitter at some point, I swear.
Which it's about time I laid out my plans for you guys. After my computer and tablet both stopped working, I on-and-off brainstormed what I'd do when I got back online and got a new tablet. I've already started streaming again, so that's a good start.
Sometime soon, I'll be mass uploading almost all of the art I have on my computer - primarily WIPs - in preparation for returning to the art scene. I'll also be looking into PostyBirb to help me make a comeback on sites like dA and IB without getting stressed out over how much time posting takes. While I intend to be more actively creative and want to finish most of those pictures anyways, I'll need you guys' input - if you see something in my gallery or scraps that you want finished, let me know in the comments section for that piece. Even if not, I appreciate feedback of any sort. I draw mostly for the satisfaction of making something - if someone tells me I did a good job, in whatever way they word it, it makes me feel good.
On top of this, I'm going to be pushing to build my personal projects - I have a lot of mental notes, but almost no actual art or development for these. These projects include things such as:
- Pokemon Legends, a crossover series of Pokemon and Zelda, which follows the travels of a wandering Pokemon named Leaf. Usually a Pikachu, but sometimes other species, each incarnation of Leaf finds their self blown into a quest to save their home region, if not the world.
- My PMDUnity apps and entries.
- Art and development for my games, such as Sugar Hearts - a cute Kirby-inspired platformer in which eating fruit changes the protagonist's colors and powers.
- Developing my stream further. As I said, I've started streaming again, and I've done some work on my channel, but there's still a lot more to do. Once I have my tablet I'll be making overlays for my stream, and when I have the first one complete, I'll be doing a big "official relaunch" of my channel, after which I will stream a set game regularly on Sundays at 2 PM EST, on top of my regular random streams. The first game will be Okami HD in an event I call Rebirth, and I will be advertising it on here with a special picture made just for this occasion. Hopefully, I can make advertisement pictures a regular thing.
- My Ask and Doodle Blogs, including Ask the Munchies, Psychic Seamster, Starlight Uplink, and The Mew Zone, as well as a new command-and-ask-driven blog focused on a single Mew named Myumi. Don't worry, I'm gonna find another place to host The Lewd Zone, since Tumblr decided to blam NSFW. You'll get your precious Mew lewds. <3
...As you can probably tell, this is more work than I've ever taken on. I've had months to prepare myself mentally, but it's still likely to be tough keeping at all of this. Most of these projects are years long in scope. I'll need all your support and feedback to keep me going. I'm gonna be doing what I love, but I am not known for my work ethic.
Anyways, thanks for taking the time to read this. ^^ I love you all. <3 I'm looking forward to making and sharing lots of cute, awesome, sexy, and/or kinky stuff with you!
...Yeah, that also means I'll finally start drawing and finishing vore art and stuff like that. Don't worry, I've had it planned for years that when I do I'll put thumbnails on all the weirder stuff, so my gallery is still safe for anyone who doesn't wanna see extreme fetishes. And my different galleries will be tuned to different crowds, of course - there'll be no smut in my dA gallery, for example! But fA will be my main gallery - you'll find most of my content from other pages in here. I'm a furry, and a degenerate with weird kinks, but I'm also a creative developer and an artist. I don't want to hide any part of who I am, so I'm gonna have at least one place where I can put it all, and here's hoping that doesn't bite me in the ass down the line!
My other galleries:
DeviantArt - SFW Gallery
InkBunny - NSFW/Kinky
Starlight Uplink (Tumblr) - Asks, Doodles, Character References, General Art
Neo's Corner - Occasional Doodles/General Art (tags: Neo's Art, Neo's Doodles)
...I'll make a Twitter at some point, I swear.
In case anyone still pokes around here...
General | Posted 7 years agoI've been without a computer for about a year, and in that time I've also been having a lot of med changes to improve my emotional state and try to resolve some issues that have even bled over into physical territory. Things like bodily tension and inexplicable pressure in my head. I'm planning to be much more active art-wise when I return, thanks to vast improvements my mental disposition, but I don't know when that will be, and there will be changes to my planned platform - such as no longer offering donation rewards and mass-uploading my old unfinished pieces and sketches.
Till then, don't expect much here.
Till then, don't expect much here.
I have a donation button link now.
General | Posted 9 years agohttps://Ko-fi.com/A707R2C
It's also in my profile.
Anyone who donates gets to request a small doodle of up to two characters.
My current Donation goal is $60 for Pokken Tournament. I have $26.50 right now.
It's also in my profile.
Anyone who donates gets to request a small doodle of up to two characters.
My current Donation goal is $60 for Pokken Tournament. I have $26.50 right now.
Doodle stream
General | Posted 9 years agoQuick Commissions for Pokemon Moon
General | Posted 9 years agoUpdate: I've received enough commissions to afford the game.
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Okay, since Sun and Moon are out, and I need to keep my mind off recent events, how would you guys like some commissions?
I know I have a small commission backlog, and I will get to that, I promise. I fully intend to get my three commissions to the paying clients very soon. However, right now, I would like to mostly take sketch and flat color commissions, in order to afford Pokemon Moon. Pokemon is very important to me, being one of the biggest inspirations in my life, and I genuinely believe if I can push myself to make the money to afford this game on my own, it will be a good step in the right direction.
Again, I am mostly looking to do sketches or even flat color commissions, for starters. However, I will accept higher levels if I need to, and I may be asked or decide to increase the level of detail on a commission, if I am enjoying it enough. I can also provide updated references for my art quality, since my current ones are a little less than optimal.
If you would like a commission, note me, or post on this journal.
I thank you for any support you can give me, even if you can't spare the money.
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Okay, since Sun and Moon are out, and I need to keep my mind off recent events, how would you guys like some commissions?
I know I have a small commission backlog, and I will get to that, I promise. I fully intend to get my three commissions to the paying clients very soon. However, right now, I would like to mostly take sketch and flat color commissions, in order to afford Pokemon Moon. Pokemon is very important to me, being one of the biggest inspirations in my life, and I genuinely believe if I can push myself to make the money to afford this game on my own, it will be a good step in the right direction.
Again, I am mostly looking to do sketches or even flat color commissions, for starters. However, I will accept higher levels if I need to, and I may be asked or decide to increase the level of detail on a commission, if I am enjoying it enough. I can also provide updated references for my art quality, since my current ones are a little less than optimal.
If you would like a commission, note me, or post on this journal.
I thank you for any support you can give me, even if you can't spare the money.
One of our cats just died.
General | Posted 9 years agoSadie died while at the vet, having been taken there due to a sudden onset of pancreatitis.
Everything feels so… pointless.
Yet again, I’m kicked just as I’m starting to stand up.
I’m more worried about my mother, though. She loved that cat so much.
This is the third cat in a row that we’ve lost. I still miss the first one, whom I grew up with.
…I’m surprised I’m not bawling my eyes out. I guess I’ve just become too jaded.
Everything feels so… pointless.
Yet again, I’m kicked just as I’m starting to stand up.
I’m more worried about my mother, though. She loved that cat so much.
This is the third cat in a row that we’ve lost. I still miss the first one, whom I grew up with.
…I’m surprised I’m not bawling my eyes out. I guess I’ve just become too jaded.
'Nother art multistream
General | Posted 9 years agohttps://picarto.tv/Neomew
Streamin' with ferretcyan 'n Randall
Streamin' with ferretcyan 'n Randall
Advice regarding streams, art, and building a viewerbase?
General | Posted 9 years agoI sincerely enjoy streaming art and games - though, on the game side of things, what I stream is a bit randomized. I stream a lot of Pokemon hacks, and I've also done some Final Fantasy. I mostly stream games that I think I can get the viewers involved in, by doing things like asking for name suggestions for units, or having them help me decide on factors like ability leveling.
Which brings me to one of my lowkey goals as a creator. I want to, and have wanted to, build a community of like-minded people around me, my art, and my hobbies. This means I primarily cater to furries, particularly those who enjoy adorable and occasionally kinky things. I've been trying to find things to do with people, and so far, streaming has been my primary success, with my more active nights having, on rare occasion, gotten up to around 7 viewers.
However, the majority of nights, I have a single person who views my streams - one of my best friends, Matti. Most nights, my notices about streaming seem to go unnoticed, with one or two friends poking in every few hours or so. I understand that this is to be expected, but I've been wondering if there is more I can do to get people interested in hanging out.
I've considered drawing an ad or two for my streams to put up here on my fA. Additionally, my art streams seem a little more popular than my game streams, which I understand - I didn't really enjoy watching people play games when I was little. Perhaps if I drew more people would be more interested. Or maybe I just need to schedule my streams? Right now, I just do them whenever I feel like it, and while I do love that level of freedom, it's possible that the lack of a schedule is making keeping up with me awkward.
Thoughts?
Which brings me to one of my lowkey goals as a creator. I want to, and have wanted to, build a community of like-minded people around me, my art, and my hobbies. This means I primarily cater to furries, particularly those who enjoy adorable and occasionally kinky things. I've been trying to find things to do with people, and so far, streaming has been my primary success, with my more active nights having, on rare occasion, gotten up to around 7 viewers.
However, the majority of nights, I have a single person who views my streams - one of my best friends, Matti. Most nights, my notices about streaming seem to go unnoticed, with one or two friends poking in every few hours or so. I understand that this is to be expected, but I've been wondering if there is more I can do to get people interested in hanging out.
I've considered drawing an ad or two for my streams to put up here on my fA. Additionally, my art streams seem a little more popular than my game streams, which I understand - I didn't really enjoy watching people play games when I was little. Perhaps if I drew more people would be more interested. Or maybe I just need to schedule my streams? Right now, I just do them whenever I feel like it, and while I do love that level of freedom, it's possible that the lack of a schedule is making keeping up with me awkward.
Thoughts?
I can't do this anymore
General | Posted 9 years agoI don't know when I'll be able to draw again.
I don't know when I'll be able to do anything again.
I'm in constant emotional and physical pain.
I can't do anything anymore.
Everything is too loud and scary.
I don't even want to be awake.
Nothing makes me happy anymore.
I need a new place to live, someone willing to take care of me, somewhere I can get affection and not have to worry.
I'm so, so tired.
I don't know when I'll be able to do anything again.
I'm in constant emotional and physical pain.
I can't do anything anymore.
Everything is too loud and scary.
I don't even want to be awake.
Nothing makes me happy anymore.
I need a new place to live, someone willing to take care of me, somewhere I can get affection and not have to worry.
I'm so, so tired.
Streaming Randomized Pearl here shortly.
General | Posted 9 years agohttps://www.twitch.tv/neonblue27
If you wanna drop by.
If you wanna drop by.
Panic and Distress
General | Posted 9 years agoI almost went to jail today. I'm at the absolute frayed ends of my rope. I need help, a lot of it. I need money, and people willing to support me when I can't offer anything in return.
I need a sense of security while I heal from two decades of emotional scars.
I need so many things, and I don't know how to ask for them.
I need a sense of security while I heal from two decades of emotional scars.
I need so many things, and I don't know how to ask for them.
What I want to do...
General | Posted 9 years agoI've been thinking a bit about what I actually want to do with my life. It's not like I'm completely listless - I know my interests.
Perhaps you guys can offer some insight on my thoughts, or some input on how to achieve my goals. Even if not, I appreciate that people would take the time to read this.
The long and short of it is that I want to consume and create. I enjoy exploring emotions and invoking them in others. Entertainment media is where I feel at home - particularly those heavy on visual stimuli.
A few of my goals include:
- Being able to draw for fun again
- Improving my art style to a point where the quality to time spent
- Developing indie games of various genres
- Dabbling in music composition
- Playing a wide variety of video and tabletop games
- Taking a crack at a video game play and review youtube series with my friends, akin to channels such as Game Grumps or Two Best Friends Play
I've never truly cared for physical labor or conventional education, and I've struggled with putting effort into those things all my life. The anxiety and depression I've developed over the years have also made it hard for me to even commit to the things I do enjoy, so that, in recent years, I've hardly accomplished anything worthwhile.
I want to get to a point where I can stop stressing about how much money is being spent on me, how much money I need to take care of my interests and needs, how much food I eat, what people I'm disappointing or angering, how long a picture is going to take, and so on. I want to be able to sit on a couch with someone I love and play video games all day and night. I want to be able to sleep in till 6 PM without being bothered about it. Heck, I'll even admit that I'd love to reduce my stress because what I'm happy I can do lewd things in much more rapid succession.
I've always found it difficult to work at other people's paces. I'm comfortable when I'm allowed to focus on my interests and do what I love. I love people. I love making people feel. I love bringing people joy. I love my friends.
Speaking of which, in my little tangent there, I almost forgot to mention - I want to bring people together. I have scattered friends amongst various circles, and I want to find ways to get those people together, talking, and interacting with each other. I have a Skype group, a Discord, and an F-Chat channel, but thus far I've had difficulty getting group activities going, even within those circles. This especially is something I've struggled with for as long as I've been on the internet. It's difficult to organize people and maintain their interest - even my own! So many projects of mine have failed because of this.
I seem to have covered everything I wanted to talk about here. This is an awkward and abrupt spot to try to wrap things up, but I'm not sure how else to do it. That said, I'm grateful to anyone who reads this and perhaps even leaves a response to it. You guys are great, I'm glad there are people who enjoy my work enough to follow it, and feedback really makes my day.
Perhaps you guys can offer some insight on my thoughts, or some input on how to achieve my goals. Even if not, I appreciate that people would take the time to read this.
The long and short of it is that I want to consume and create. I enjoy exploring emotions and invoking them in others. Entertainment media is where I feel at home - particularly those heavy on visual stimuli.
A few of my goals include:
- Being able to draw for fun again
- Improving my art style to a point where the quality to time spent
- Developing indie games of various genres
- Dabbling in music composition
- Playing a wide variety of video and tabletop games
- Taking a crack at a video game play and review youtube series with my friends, akin to channels such as Game Grumps or Two Best Friends Play
I've never truly cared for physical labor or conventional education, and I've struggled with putting effort into those things all my life. The anxiety and depression I've developed over the years have also made it hard for me to even commit to the things I do enjoy, so that, in recent years, I've hardly accomplished anything worthwhile.
I want to get to a point where I can stop stressing about how much money is being spent on me, how much money I need to take care of my interests and needs, how much food I eat, what people I'm disappointing or angering, how long a picture is going to take, and so on. I want to be able to sit on a couch with someone I love and play video games all day and night. I want to be able to sleep in till 6 PM without being bothered about it. Heck, I'll even admit that I'd love to reduce my stress because what I'm happy I can do lewd things in much more rapid succession.
I've always found it difficult to work at other people's paces. I'm comfortable when I'm allowed to focus on my interests and do what I love. I love people. I love making people feel. I love bringing people joy. I love my friends.
Speaking of which, in my little tangent there, I almost forgot to mention - I want to bring people together. I have scattered friends amongst various circles, and I want to find ways to get those people together, talking, and interacting with each other. I have a Skype group, a Discord, and an F-Chat channel, but thus far I've had difficulty getting group activities going, even within those circles. This especially is something I've struggled with for as long as I've been on the internet. It's difficult to organize people and maintain their interest - even my own! So many projects of mine have failed because of this.
I seem to have covered everything I wanted to talk about here. This is an awkward and abrupt spot to try to wrap things up, but I'm not sure how else to do it. That said, I'm grateful to anyone who reads this and perhaps even leaves a response to it. You guys are great, I'm glad there are people who enjoy my work enough to follow it, and feedback really makes my day.
Game Stream
General | Posted 9 years agohttps://www.twitch.tv/neonblue27
Streaming a rom hack called Pokemon Gaia.
Streaming a rom hack called Pokemon Gaia.
Streaming a game.
General | Posted 9 years agoI'm streaming Parasite Eve for some friends. If any of you wanna drop by, feel free.
https://www.twitch.tv/neonblue27
https://www.twitch.tv/neonblue27
The reason there's been no content.
General | Posted 9 years agoSo, I'm sure anyone who's been actively watching me has noticed the lack of art in recent months.
See, the thing is... I've been dealing with a whole lot of stress in my life.
Even when I was little, I was socially awkward and found it difficult to commit myself to things I didn't enjoy. As I've grown up, those same problems have revisited me time and time again...
And... right now, I'm at a point where it's all too much. My depression and anxiety have built over the last several years, especially with all of the times I've had friends of mine turn on me. For months - no, years - now I've found it hard to work up the energy to draw, and now, just the mere thought of doing almost anything - drawing, putting in a job app, even speaking to most people - is enough to make my brain go crazy and my neck to tense up. I have so much anxiety that it's affecting me physically.
Recent events with people close to me have only exacerbated the problem. Most days, I don't even do anything because I just don't have the energy. I have to constantly play video games to keep my brain focused enough that the anxiety doesn't take over my thoughts - and that's if I can get over my indecisiveness on what I want to do and actually play one.
I want to enjoy my art and make more of it for you guys, but it's very hard for me to do so. The last time I sat down to do a picture I really wanted to do, I spent two hours on it and then just... felt so disappointed in how it came out that I've had little drive to try again.
I know you're all here for me, and I appreciate it, but that's something I already have and it's really not enough anymore. I'm sorry.
See, the thing is... I've been dealing with a whole lot of stress in my life.
Even when I was little, I was socially awkward and found it difficult to commit myself to things I didn't enjoy. As I've grown up, those same problems have revisited me time and time again...
And... right now, I'm at a point where it's all too much. My depression and anxiety have built over the last several years, especially with all of the times I've had friends of mine turn on me. For months - no, years - now I've found it hard to work up the energy to draw, and now, just the mere thought of doing almost anything - drawing, putting in a job app, even speaking to most people - is enough to make my brain go crazy and my neck to tense up. I have so much anxiety that it's affecting me physically.
Recent events with people close to me have only exacerbated the problem. Most days, I don't even do anything because I just don't have the energy. I have to constantly play video games to keep my brain focused enough that the anxiety doesn't take over my thoughts - and that's if I can get over my indecisiveness on what I want to do and actually play one.
I want to enjoy my art and make more of it for you guys, but it's very hard for me to do so. The last time I sat down to do a picture I really wanted to do, I spent two hours on it and then just... felt so disappointed in how it came out that I've had little drive to try again.
I know you're all here for me, and I appreciate it, but that's something I already have and it's really not enough anymore. I'm sorry.
Streamin' a Pokemon Game
General | Posted 9 years agohttps://www.twitch.tv/neonblue27
Pokemon Sage to be exact.
Pokemon Sage to be exact.
Multi-streamin' lewd arts with ferretcyan
General | Posted 9 years agohttps://picarto.tv/Neomew
Never done this before! Should be fun.
Never done this before! Should be fun.
Sorry for the delays!
General | Posted 9 years agoI was attending FWA, and ran into some serious computer issues just beforehand that I had to resolve before I could re-attain oneness with normalcy.
