I'm trying to re-establish a healthy sleeping plan around my job and especially when I have time off as recently I've been dropping to sleep more than usual and I've been waking up in the morning at around 10-11am, I'm sorry if I can't talk to others especially after work but I need to start having more early nights.

I'm writing this journal in the hopes that everyone who watches me can see this clearly instead of using the polls as it will also give you all free reign over what you can say.


In terms of my artwork, what do you want to see more of from me?

Do you want to see more of something or less of something else?

Give all of your suggestions and thoughts here, don't pull any punches.

ALSO don't be afraid to tell me what you truly feel about my artwork.

Until I can find some way to solve all of this dumb internet drama that I've ended up being roped in to, I am not going to draw or write any more things UNTIL FURTHER NOTICE!!.

I'm sorry but I cannot think straight when I have all of this idiocy happening to me and who I know.

It's not like anyone gives a damn about my artwork anyway.

Because I get this feeling like I'm just a bridge that people just walk over, don't get me wrong, I met some great friends but in the end, am I just a go between or do people actually care.

Because I'm slowly starting to lose the will to draw anthro art from all these thoughts.

Oh my goodness!!
That character reveal

If you want to speak to me the best time to do so is on Monday to Wednesday, I don't work on those days so I'm more likely to catch your messages quicker.

It was a misunderstanding that got blown out of proportion.

With this anthro wolf in? https://pbs.twimg.com/tweet_video/C.....HhWMAAUo8S.mp4

I'm just letting everyone who watches me know that starting next Thursday until Sunday (From New Years Eve to 3rd of January) I'll be working some crazy shifts at work which means I'll be staying at my dad's until Sunday.

This means DeviantART, FA, Skype activity is going to be fairly limited, everything will be back to normal on Monday 4th.

Hope everyone had a great christmas and are hoping for a happy new year.

With Chrismas quickly dawning upon us and we are getting closer to the twilight days of 2015, I want to give out a big THANK YOU to all who have supported me and spoke to me in this past year, even if I didn't reply or respond as often as I wanted to, know that everyone who watches me and supports me have been detrimental, important in the progression of my artwork and social interaction with others, this year I've been more open, more willing to talk about the things I like, dislike and love and loathe more than any other time.

May you all have a merry christmas and a happy new year.

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I would also like to take the time to give you all some advice, some words of wisdom if you will.

You've heard of the old saying "Good things come to those who wait" well take that with a pinch of salt because I have learned that if you sit around doing nothing WAITING for stuff to happen, then you're not going get those good things, YOU have to MAKE those things happen, don't wait for opportunities, CREATE them YOURSELF and claim them as your own.

The same applies for your dreams, your desires, a long while back a former "acquaintance" of mine tried to tell me that my dreams were impossible to make true, that he told me that I should give up on them because they were never going to happen, well all I can say is this...the only people who say that your dreams don't come true are the ones who want you to fail, the ones who will try to bend you to their will to make you nothing but a soulless automaton so that they can try and leech off your sadness, DON'T GIVE THEM THAT LUXURY, IF YOU CAN DREAM IT AND IT'S POSSIBLE IN THE REALITY WE LIVE IN, THEN MAKE IT COME TRUE!!!

Ok, so those who know me already to some extent know that I play videogames, sometimes a lot and don't get me wrong, they're brilliant pasttimes for me when I don't feel like drawing or I've got some spare time from work but I need to confess something...

Nowadays, I just really don't feel like playing newer games.

Sure there are some rare occasions where I buy a game and play it and complete it but sometimes I feel like I'm being too downtrodden with the way the face of gaming has been going recently.

To me, I feel like the gaming industry and the consumers are so negative nowadays it saps all the fun from games that I want to play.

For example, I'm looking forward to Mortal Kombat X's Kombat Pack 2, but I look on the internet I see people threatening to kill Ed Boon because they feel that because their favourite has been excluded from the pack they feel justified in ending a man's life.

Also nowadays I seem to notice that it's a "With Us or Against Us" mentality with most games and gamers, there are games I'm interested in that I really want to play but because it's made by a AAA company, I get labelled as a sheep or a pig in the system, however there are games that have cult followings that I really don't want to play or have any interest in and I fear that if I share my grievances with said game and explain why I don't want to play it, I get called a hipster or a special snowflake that's trying to be different or I'm trying to "stick it" to the latest trend.

I just want to play games and have fun with them and not have this feeling like I'm being pressured to either be a part of a grand design or force myself to wrap my gaming platforms and everything I own with tin foil.

I have a drawing in the works that has been inked and lined ready for colouring at a later time, it is a Christmas themed pic and I'm pretty confident that it'll be finished for the day, heck even before it, if so consider it my early christmas gift to everyone who's been with me ^^

Also last Saturday I went to my first WWE live event, it was the NXT Takeover UK Tour and it was fantastic, I have some pictures taken but I need to find my phone to PC cable to upload the pics, I might share them on St.ash.

Either way I hope things are going great for everyone who reads these journals.

I think it would be a great idea to be able to blacklist keywords when you're searching for art on this site as well as DA.

For example, I want to see pictures of Jon Talbain from Darkstalkers but I don't want to be rummaging through the pictures of Jon involved in Vore or Inflation activities but I want to put an emphasis on him being muscular.

What do you guys and guyesses think?

DJ has cancelled the auction.

Can't say I'm surprised when the majority of people on this site care more about jerking off to a drawing than actually helping someone in need by buying a picture.

It makes me laugh, people spend 100s of dollars on YCH's and on monthly bonus pretties but they can't give a bit of money to help someone pay for more important stuff.

Even though I'm from the UK and we don't actually celebrate it here, I would like to extend a happy thanksgiving cheer to all of my friends, American or anywhere else on the globe.

I'm thankful for having such amazing friends who stick by me and help me whenever I feel terrible, I'm thankful for having such an amazing love in my life!!

I'm thankful for being able to work and draw and pursue my own dreams and make them come true (somehow)

And I'm truly thankful for everything my friends have done for me, I love you all and you are all awesome in your own unique way.

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Oh I'll be mainly hanging around FA for the time being as DA is getting a bit too noisy for my liking ^^

Throughout the whole of this day I've been feeling really not like myself, normally I'd be going outside for a walk taking in the fresh air then going back to either play games or draw or write or generally chill out.

But today, I've just kept having this feeling where I want to do something but my mind keeps telling me to not do it, it makes my head hurt when I have this moment and any attempt at talking to people just gets me frustrated to the point I'm only able to form one word responses or I have to blurt out what I'm trying to say like a damn caveman...for example I ask my brother to swap a game on a console but instead of saying "Bro can you please put X into Y" I end up saying "Put X in Y".

My stomach has been aching all day and I don't know if it was something I ate or drank yesterday but it makes me feel really wrong...

and finally I don't know if this is connected but tomorrow I'll be working instead of Thursday simply to cover a shift so I don't know if because of my Autistic mind being used to working on Thursdays it might have upset a balance...

I just feel imprisoned in my own head!

I wish FA could show stories that have been uploaded to the site instead of having to download the file or copy and paste the story onto the description.

OKAY, New rule regarding comments, keep them mature and sensible, anyone making flirty and sexually explicit comments about the characters I draw will be removed.

Don't like it? then tough, go and find someone else's character to show to Rosy Palms.

I'm no longer putting up with people who'd rather wank over my drawings than appreciate the work and effort I put into it.

I'm starting to get tired of the comments on my work that are mainly from horny hormone-raging people who have nothing of value to say about my artwork and only comment sexually creepy things just to try and get into my OC/Fursona's pants.

As the title suggests it's been fun but I'm wanting to mature out of that process now, I'm wanting to improve myself as an artist and comments detailing how people want to rub their junk over Lycaon's trunk isn't helping me at all especially if it comes from someone I don't even know and they only came across my artwork through a group or in a "recent uploads" page, what I find even disturbing is that some of these comes from people who aren't even of legal consent in their country.

So the new rule I'm placing down is please be mature and sensible about what you say about the work I upload in the comments.


TL;DR - I want more comments about my artwork itself and not about how people want to shag my OC!

When you're saving up money for a commission to a particular artist that you like, you want to show them your support by giving them financial support in return of a drawing that you'd like them to draw, only for them to turn around and announce that they are no longer doing commissions or they PM you that they don't do commissions ever again?

Because that's how I'm feeling now, I've noticed two artists that I've been wanting to commission for ages but due to the lack of a job at the time I was never able to afford it, now that I have a job and am able to afford the commission my heart sinks like an weighted stone when I find out that they are no longer taking commissions.

I might be opening up a can of worms here but I really need to vent before it becomes a full blown problem, I mean, I explain clearly why I would like to commission the artist and when they say no my mind pretty much assumes they're saying "I don't want your money" or "I don't want to draw your character, I would rather draw what everyone else has drawn"

This is why I don't like to inquire about commissions or at least see if certain artists take requests to draw my character because I feel that because I'm not asking them to draw the latest trend or the same characters that everyone else asks them to draw or I'm not that well acquainted to them, they pretty much refuse to do business with me.

And what bums me out is when certain artists have a style unique to them and I want to see my character portrayed as such and when they say no to my character it's pretty much a variation of the Meatloaf song but sung "I'll draw anything you name but I won't draw THAT!"

Again, sorry for my venting rant but I felt I had to blow of some steam before I ended up lashing out on an artist the next time they said "no"

I truly appreciate each and every one of them, you're all awesome people!!!

Today at 9:08 I will turn 23 years old, I'm really looking forward to what my birthday brings me, hopefully a lovely cake and a lot of best wishes ^^

I seriously can't wait for it, the best thing is, I'm not working tomorrow so I can have a lie in bed!

THIS IS A SERIOUS QUESTION THAT I WOULD LIKE TO HAVE STRONG ANSWERS TO, DON'T RESPOND IF YOU DON'T KNOW OR YOU ARE INCAPABLE OF PROVIDING AN GENUINELY HELPFUL ANSWER!!

Could anyone who's an expert or at least knows a fair few things about cars, driving tests and car insurance provide me with helpful hints and tips on what to do to help things go to my favour, mainly how to improve my chances of passing driving tests (both theory and practical) and hints on how to look for best deals for insurance so I'm not breaking the banks