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Posted 2 years agohey everyone, Zen-Aku Shiragami here.
So um I noticed while I was on Hiatus (like being afk from the internet for awhile as I'm not feeling well and I'm recoverying) I notice I lost one of my watchers and that the comments was deleted, I honestly dunno why, they could of at least told me or even be civilized with me.
This isn't for drama or anyone take things wrong or personally, because really I'm not up for that! they should know better by know as what they're doing is completely wrong spreading drama or false rumors.
Anyways I'm not active here like I use too, it's because either
1. I could be busy and dealing with irl situations in life.
Or
2. I could be on Hiatus because I'm not feeling well or doing so well (duo to Cyberbullying, Duo to sending threat messages, Duo to spreading hate speech, duo to someone being racist, duo to someone who wants to enjoy creating problems, fights, arguments and forcing friends to unfriend other friends even when he or she's been Loyalty and good to them in general)
So if I'm not active and that I wasn't able to post anything or even was able to talk or message some of y'all at all, they could of at least come and check on me to see if I'm doing okay or if I'm doing alright, just like I would with each and every single one of you, no matter which social media it is.
All I'm asking is from the kindness of my heart is to at least check up on me, like I would do the same for you.
To my friends, Fav Artists, fellow watchers, and to everyone is know that are good, pure hearted and to those who went through a lot: I notice that some or even all of you are going through a lot lately and you've been mistreated, being abused, and that you're feelings have been hurt so much that all of you wish that this would end, that good things can happen for each and every single one of you, as certain people/users that we all know of as they're Toxic, abusive, two Faced liars, manipulators, Black Mailers, Trolls, Cyberbullies, bunch of Karens/Kevins, Those who have Jealousy over me/you/our friends/loved ones, those who have hatred towards you and those who would like to frame you, steal from you those who have bring you down, causing you to have stress, depression and is cuaising you to suffer through trauma and even try to ruin not just your friendship or your relationship ,but also our friendship/relationship as well. (I'm saying it to those who try to ruin it as I'm not in a relationship but trying to help others who've been through that) they say that they're good friends, but a real friend wouldn't be saying "no one cares about your feelings, shit I don't even care about your feelings or rather if you live or die, you're just a mistake in this world, you'll never have someone special in your life! You've got no life, no one cares what your medical condition/conistions is, you're just a sad, pathetic excuse who need to go kill themselves, just die already!" If you or any of your friends have been through something very similar to these words on the way they say things, the way they're treating you, manipulating you, things like that? Then they're not your real friends, they're not someone who you can trust on or even relay on, they're just Toxic and Fake friends who only wants to ruined your life and humiliate you so badly that they just want to make you suffer and have trauma as I have, I want to let you all know this, the only reason why they're telling you this it's because they think we're "ignorant" and the only reason why they think that we're ignorant,its because they cannot stand listening to the truth north the reality! So I tell you all this, don't let these things get to you, to all of you, because that's what they want to do to you and I won't stand by allowing them doing this to you, to any of you, to all of you in general! Do know this from the bottom of my heart, that non of you are a mistake, you are non of those things as what these toxic users that we know of, we are non of those things in what they say, they talk about wanting to be treated with respect, but! Respect is not a one way street, respect! Is a two way street! If they wanted to be treated with respect, they have to give you, me and everyone else the same respect and if they don't the way we say things, then the door is right there and they can just step out of the door and just fuck off, we don't need their negativity, their mistreatment and their Toxic behavior, and trust me when I tell you all this, Karma is gonna get them, one way or another as Karma works in mysterious ways as I'm not just saying this to defend myself, but also defending all of you and your amazing friends too! And know this, I know that you're tired, but just know that you're making Progress. Your efforts are not wasted. You're doing so well! Know that you've been working your best and your hardest to put a lot of work and effort. Fulfilling your accomplishment and your goals and your achievements,I know you've been going through a lot through hard and tough timings in life, I wanna let you know that there are others, including myself that we'll always will be appreciated for everything you have done and worked hard for! we'll always appreciate you when you're being there for us, supporting us, caring about us and we're always Appreciative for your friendship, your loyalty, your honesty, how good you've all been, and how sweet and kind, that all of you have been to all of us, no matter what! I wish and hope that all of you have the best and most wonderful day ever! I do hope that all of you received and having the best Miracle that can happen to all of you! You guys know who you are, all of you know your true self, and knowing your own personality and accepting yourself for who you are and that is the beauty of it! Spread the word and spread the love!
From yours Truly Zen-Aku ShiragamiBEWARE: DarkWings45 steals Everyone's female Ocs please r...
Posted 3 years agohello everyone, my name is Zen-Aku Shiragami
I have an Important announcement to make as this is an Emergency situation!
So I found out from a good friend of mine that I've know for a very long time that a User that goes by the name of DarkWings45 has been Stealing People's Ocs without Permission of any artist, Owners or from any of our friends and Family's Ocs!
So if anyone thinks that he's faving them, guess what? He's not faving them because he likes everyone's and your artwork, he likes them because he wants to steal people's female Ocs without permission, without your permission!!!!
As what he is doing right now is against FA Rules he only fave everyone's Gallery as it's a Female Characters as he's a total creep, a character theft and only wants it for his selfish and greedy desires! I need everyone to spread the word and have the FA staff and administratiors to report his his FA account for character theft! Warn the others and make a beware about him! Make a report to discord and FA and any other communities if you have too!
FA Page is here: https://www.furaffinity.net/user/darkwings45/
Please for everyone's Safety warn the admins and the staff members in each and every single community, he cannot get away with this!Re-Sumbitting
Posted 3 years agohello everyone, my name is Zen-Aku Shiragami
I do apologize for deleting my 3 submissions, as you can there,there is a certain someone that I know, who has me blocked who doesn't deserve to fav my pics, especially when he has an obsession with female Sonic Ocs, who's has been too needy greedy, and if he's reading this, you sir, were told to unfav my pics, you have no respect for me at all, I asked you to stop faving my pics, especially when you sir have me blocked DW45 aka DarkWings45, this is my request that i'm telling you, to stop faving my pics, without my permission or without my consent, because if you're gonna block me for no anonymous reasons, then don't ever fav my pics, you do not deserve to fav them and I will say this again! if you do not respect the request that I'm asking you, especially you did something wrong in the past, then do not ever fav my pics at all, because really, you lost my respect and I mean it, my friends asked you politely to please unfav my 3 pics, but you did not listen, you still kept faving them without my permission,especially when you have no respect for anyone, not even me, and if you cannot listen when they asked you politely, then you have no respect for anyone in general as there is a saying "common sense speaks louder then one's actions" and my common sense speaks louder then your wrong actions!!!
and if you ever want to Fav them, then you're gonna have ti=o talk to me directly either in Via Note or in Discord and we could maybe resolve this together in a Civilized manner and if not then please leave my page and Never come back Darkwings45, i mean it and i'm dead serious about this!Hey everyone
Posted 3 years agohey everyone, it's me Zen-Aku Shiragami
I do apologies for not posting more pictures,or try to get commissions, or even be active here. π₯
I was being on Haitus for awhile, as I was trying to recover from what was happening from my irl situation, such as my older brother who had cancer, and the fact that I had a family loss....π₯π also just noticed that I lost certain watchers in FA, on my watch list.
So I have returned and I honestly hope things will get better instead of worse, as we all bad our ups and downs and things we've been through.π
I also would appreciate having more watchers in my FA page if that is alright with all of you. I do miss you all so much and how much that all of you mean a lot to me as friends, best friends and family.
So I do hope that all of you have the best and most wonderful day ever, from the kindness of my heart from yours truly Zen-Aku Shiragami! π₯Ίπ€πBad news...... π
Posted 3 years agoHey um.... Everyone.... This is Zen-Aku Shiragami here.... I just received a call from the doctor and it was about my older brother...... My older brother Christian.... He's got cancer..... And it's cancer positive...... When I told mom and my little brother about it..... They're crying, worried and panicing..... Same as I am...... I'm not okay..... I-I really am not Okay...... π’π
I can't stop crying..... I really can't stop crying..... This never happen to me before my whole life and this happened for the first time that's happening to one of my family relatives....... ππ
I'm.....im so damn hurt right now.....it breaks my heart so so much.....πππππππNew Raffle Event going on By Vtech88!
Posted 3 years agohello everybody, my name is Zen-Aku Shiragami
So today there is a New Event going on in a Raffle
As there are also rules in her journel, so before anything else, be sure to read the rules of the Raffle event going on by Vtech88
The link is in the description down below
https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10223710/
So good luck and have fun! Thanks! ^^Hello everyone, I'm back
Posted 3 years agohello Everyone, My name is Zen-Aku Shiragami and I hope that all of you are being safe and doing alright!
I do apologize for the inactivity,been busy lately and been packing and such, but don't worry, I'm doing okay and I'm doing fine.
I do wanna wish you all to have the best and most wonderful day ever from the kindness of my heart!
Also I've been noticing that certain servers have been deleting the comments behind my back and been in watching me, which it's rude and disrespectful,I do apologize that I've been away, and just because that I was away doesn't mean that it's okay to unwatch and delete the comments without me knowing, like it really doesn't make it alright at all, that was a scummy move they just did there.
Anyways I would appreciate all the help I could get, getting watchers and supporters, as I've been going through so much irl, it's not easy for me to handle but at least I'm trying my best to keep things going.
So please take care all of you, I might post some artwork I've been getting such an commissions, giftarts and things like that, I dunno when I'll be posting them, I just need to come up with their stories of their own, and such, also I might need to get myself a New Pc because some how the keyboard buttons isn't working which is CTRL, Z, X, C, V, and ESC.
Honestly that never happened to me before and I think it's because that I have this laptop since 2015 like wow I couldn't believe that it survive that long but right now, that the keyboard buttons are messed up, I dunno who was responsible for it, because I always take good care of my stuff Unconditionally. So maybe once I do get a New Pc I'll be sure to post any art piece I may have from my phone or when I get a New Pc
So thanks for reading this and I hope all of you have a fanatic day from yours truly Zen-Aku!Discord is acting strange
Posted 3 years agohey everyone Zen-Aku Shiragami here
So I try to log back into my discord now it's acting strange
It's starting to repeat the same thing empty username#0000
I dunno why it's acting this way, but I'm not liking it at all, if any of you can help me and tell me what's going on, please do, because now it's bothering me that it's acting so strangly so, please help me, I could use a lot of help and support please, as I'm worried and concern right now.....π₯πToday's my 28th birthday ^^;
Posted 3 years agohello everyone my name is Zen-Aku Shiragami
So today is my 28th birthday as I just turned 28 years old
God I hate being old, it sucks. TwT;
But just want to let all of you know that I'm doing okay, doing alright, even tho I've been going through a lot with irl situations but I'm doing okay, as I'm staying safe away from Covid, but I hope that all of you are doing well and doing good as I miss all of you so so much as all of you mean a lot to me, my friends and family members here in furaffinity.
The New York style Pizza was pretty good as I do miss it a lot from New York but I do want to thank you all for being there for me, supporting me even when I've been going through a lot of hard times, I really do appreciate all of you from the kindness of my heart! ^^
I do wish and hope that all of you have the best and most wonderful day ever and most pleasant day ever
Thanks from yours truly Zen-Aku Shiragami~π€π ^^Terrible news...... π
Posted 4 years agoHey guys um terrible news.... I'm not feeling well..... I'm not feeling okay..... I'm not feeling alright....... Something...... Very horrible has happened....... One of my family members in New York...... One of them Had a baby girl that is a year and a half..... I've known her for awhile, she's a sweet baby girl..... And..... So they got a call from the Doctor...... And..... He told my mother that..... That the baby girl She's about to die..... And it's COVID positive she was born 6 months...... She's a year and a half..... She is a happy baby........ She's always sweet, kind, loving..... And because of the doctor called..... She's gonna die as she is COVID positive as some dumbass did something to her....... I feel very heart broken right now.....πππππππ
So she might die soon..... I was her baby sitter..... She was someone important to me as she is family...... And when I was done babysitting her..... I got a call from them and they told me some asshole gave her COVID.... She's too young..... I don't want her to die...... ππ
I'll end up being Bullistic and break everything.... I don't want to lose her anymore...... ππ
I try to call the doctor asking "is this true.... Please tell me this isnt true......"
And I got the answer from the doctor and she's gonna die soon..... She's family.... She's just a sweet happy girl..... It breaks my heart so damn much...... πMy grandmother isn't feeling too good.... π
Posted 4 years ago Hello my Amazing and wonderful friends of mine, Zen here, so um.... I don't usually talk about this.....because I know a certain someone who actually doesn't care and that this person rather be heartless and toxic and makes it as Horrible joke as that person has a twist of humor.... Anyways I just got back from the hospital as I'm worried and concerned for a family member of mine... Who is a 80 year old woman who happened to be my grandmother.... who is really sick badly... She has a heart problem and is robotic as they give surgeries for it..... So my grandmother is having a heart surgery.... And I'm worried that she may not come back I dunno.... I've lost my grandfather since 2010.... I lost my uncle since 2015..... I lost a cousin since 2016..... And I don't wanna end up losing another family member as having losses is really stressing me out..... And if anything happens to her..... I would lose my calm and be Bullistic, meaning in lose control and break things.... And I'm letting everyone know that I'm not saying this to look for problems, to start drama, nor seeking attention, no non of that.... I'm just letting everyone know on what's going on as I'm worried and concern for my 80 year old grandmother..... I hope she'll recover from the heart surgery and I hope nothing bad will happen.... So I will need some comfort and support from all of you amazing and wonderful friends of mine.... As it's been very hard for me lately especially when losing someone you care about and love the most....π₯ΊπLosing watchers please help
Posted 4 years agohello everyone, this is Zen-Aku Shiragami
Listen I'm noticing that I'm losing watchers about 6 of them
I have a feeling that some certain users are saying things behind my back, what's not suppose to be said, that's like having them to back stab you without you knowing, whoever is responsible for these things needs to stop because this goes against FA rules and honestly they really have no idea what's been going on when they should of at least DM me talk to me and things like that instead of doing something without permission, and honestly this is wrong, very wrong.... And who is ever telling my watchers something that is total false should be ashamed of themselves for doing something that is not right and against FA rules, so all I am asking from all of you is for your help it would really mean a lot to me, please and thank you because atm I'm trying to help finding a home for me and my family still, it would really mean a lot to meHey everyone
Posted 4 years agohello everyone my name is Zen-Aku Shiragami
So I just wanna let y'all know that I am alive and active still trying to survive from COVID-19 as it's still going on, it's dying slowly but it's still active.
Anyways the reason why I wasn't able to be active because at the moment I was packing up boxes and moving into a new home in the U.S. so once I find a new house and a New home I will be sure to let y'all know how are things going on, yet again I do apologize for the slow replies and delays, things have been going on and things have been changing as well.
So I hope you guys are doing okay and staying safe I wish and hope that all of you have the best and most wonderful day ever from the kindness of my heart, so wish me Luck! ^w^Today is my Birthday~!
Posted 4 years agohello everyone, this is Zen-Aku Shiragami so I do have a special announcement that today is my 27th birthday ^w^
Gosh I hate getting old TwT; but on the bright side I don't age much as I'm young as a teenager
Anyways I hope all of you are doing okay and alright, I miss you all so much and I hope we can celebrate my birthday this year.
I did notice not many people were replying on the new year journal some of you did.
Anyways I hope this year could be better then last year and I wish and hope that all of you have the best and most wonderful day ever~!
Thanks from yours truly Zen-Aku ShiragamiHappy New year! 2021
Posted 5 years agohey everyone happy new year, I know new years is already past I just thought I celebrate it with y'all I wasn't able to, because I'm sick with a common cold which I am still sick, hopefully I'll recover soon and I do apologize for the inactivity, I do miss all of y'all so much I wish I was active more but because of things that are happening irl, I wish all of y'all have the best and most wonderful new years ever, as much as I care about all of y'all and love each and every single one here as all of you made my year very special and I want to thank all of you for that from the kindness of my heart. Rip Queen my baby Dalmatian you will be missed
Posted 5 years agohey guys... Zen-Aku Shiragami here...
Um I just wanna let y'all know that... Yesterday that it was raining a heavy thunder storm from this morning and... I was walking the dogs I mainly was walking Queen my Dalmatian... And she was afraid of the thunderstorm as I was not expecting it was going to happen... I try to walk her yesterday evening and... She was laying down on the grass... I dunno what was wrong with her, so I had to at least help her out picking her up bringing her inside giving her food and water and... I called her she wasn't moving she was just laying down relaxing and then when I put the lesh on her and take her home to the kenal and the next day this morning and when I was about to walk her again... She wasn't breathing normally and I had to call my older brother as my mother and sister in law and my older brother too her to the vet and when I got a call from my mom... Queen my poor baby Dalmatian... She's dead....
My poor baby girl is dead... Queen my Dalmatian... She may be a grown dog but she was still a pup....I just lost a family dog... As we had our good moment together as I always loved her, cared about her, play with her and treat her well...
And now she passed away...My poor family dog....
I always been taking great care of her for 12 years...
And now she is gone.... It was hard for me.... And it was hard for my family too... It breaks my heart very much.... πππππππHey everyone
Posted 5 years agohey everyone this is Zen-Aku Shiragani
Just wanna let y'all know that I'm doing okay and staying safe as well,
Also I've been noticing that there was a sudden unwatched from users who had watched me.
Dunno if it's been happening to you guys or not but it's been happening all of the sudden which is strange so cause it was like a sudden unwatched 5 times from different days.
I'd be adviced to let others know and be sure to have them watching you back and to me as well
So I dunno if it's really them unwatching us or FA is acting up
Strange lately I can't say for sure it's a 50/50 chance that it's either of those but anyways I just wanna let you all know that I'm doing alright irl has been keeping me way too busy, wish I could get a break from irl.
I do wanna let y'all know that I miss you guys very much and wanna let y'all know that you guys always been amazing and wonderful friend, watchers and family.
Thank you very much for everything you have done and being very supportive thanks from yours truly Zen-Aku Shiragami.Emergency announcement Impersonating (please read)
Posted 5 years agoAttention All members in furaffinity and Discord Users!
i have an Emergency announcement to make!
a Certain User has been Harassing a good friend of mine and has been IMPERSONATING as 
whitemagetifa in the Discord Dm and in Servers as Shiba is a good friend of mine!
The one who is Impersonating as Shiba by a username Katto, Katto#2570 is a female user who likes to cause alot of trouble and say things that are ugly, harassing others and making threats! trying to Impersonating as anyone she wants to have his or her friends to go against each other and reporting one to another for something they did not do nor something that shiba did not do!
as for your safety, do not and i repeat do not add Katto to your friends list what she is doing in strictly illegal and can take Katto to Jail/Prison!
Katto is Also Targeting Shiba's Boyfriend 
darksword-wolf which can ruin their relationships because of Katto! Impersonating as Shiba!
it can also happen to each and every single one here because of Kattos wrong and Illegal actions!
I repeat do not add Katto to your friends list as i have proof of this as she likes to target other friendly users from each and every server she goes too!
https://cdn.discordapp.com/attachme.....8/image0-1.png
please let others know and spread the word to users either if its your friends and the people that are in in FurAffinity and in discord servers!
Please Make a report to discord and report Katto for Harassment and Impersonating
Do Not add her by the username: Katto#2570
whitemagetifa
darksword-wolfRaffle Event by Ember_Darkfire
Posted 5 years agohello Everybody my Name is Zen-Aku Shiragami
Some of you may know me and some of you are New to my Profile~!
Also I wanna wish and hope all lf you taking care each other, staying safe and protected!
Anyways an Amazing and Wonderful Artist name 
Ember_Darkfire is doing a Special Raffle Event going on, please be sure that you follow the rules in her journal and please give her a Watch+ and Fav to her Profile and her Gallery pages~! And please be sure you share this with your friends and your fellow watchers that would be much appreciated~! ^Ο^
The Link to her Channel will be Down Below!
https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9473975/
^^^^^^^^^^
Thank you very much and I wish, hope and pray that all of you staying safe, being careful and have a wonderful and blessful day~!
Thanks from yours truly Zen-Aku Shiragami
P.S. all of you have Been an Amazing and wonderful friends, watchers and Family, have the best, Amazing and most Wonderful day~! ^w^
Ember_DarkfireToday is my Birthday~!
Posted 5 years agohello everybody my name is Zen-Aku Shiragani
So today is my birthday and I'm very excited for this time of day
I just turn 26 years old, god I hate being Old TwT;
but that's part of life so no matter >w<
because I'm still young and feel really good about it so yay
So I really hope we could celebrate my 26the birthday as I wanna make it special as much as I care about all of you and love you all as you are my friends, family and fellow watchers so I'm very micj happy to have you all by my side, you guys been the greatest gift I could of asked for~! :D
Thanks from Zen~Tomorrow will be my Birthday (don't worry I'm still alive)
Posted 5 years agohello everyone my Name is Zen-Aku Shiragami
So Tomorrow is going to be my Birthday, I'm about to be 26 years old an adult. God I feel so old TwT;
But hey it's part of life so meh.
Also I apologize if I wasn't being active jn the furry community, there was a lot going on in the reality world and had to take responsibilities to help others and support one and another but anyways, I will be trying my best to at least do some drawing or get a commission when the time is right.
I'm also trying my best to practice to at least improve my drawings skills, as I draw things in Anime style and Flst coloring, but I do wanna try to at least try to learn how to do sharing and animation ehrn that time comes and when that time comes I will try to at least try to sell some commission's but anyways I do wanna Celebrate My birthday with each and every single one of you tomorrow, for those who owm Fa, discord, telegram and other accounts as I wanna spend time with all of you my friends, family and my fellow watchers.
Thank you very much and I wish, hope and pray that all of you have the best and most wonderful day or night ever
Thanks from ZenMerry Christmas everyone~!
Posted 6 years agohello everybody, my name is Zen-Aku Shiragani
To All of my Fellow watchers, friends and supporters
I do wanna say Merry Christmas, wish, hope and Pray that all of you have the Nicest, sweetest, Happiest, awesome, wonderful, and Blessful Christmas this year ever!
2019 hasn't been a good year for some of us after a though, hard and dark timings we've been going trough, but in next month it'll be a best, amazing and a very good year for all of us in the year 2020 as I can assure to all of you that it'll be the most best and loviest year that we asked for, for a very long time, we've been working very hard and to achieve our goals. Now in 2020 we're being reword in the after what we've been wishing and Dreaming will finally come true~!
Anyways Merry Christmas everyone from yours truly Zen-Aku
P. S. All of you have been amazing friends, family, watchers, supportters I ever asked for. My huge thanks to all of you for I am truly am grateful, thanks have a nice pleasant Morning, afternoon and a goodnight~ ^w^Happy Holidays My friends and Fellow watchers
Posted 6 years agohello everybody, my name is Zen-Aku Shiragani
To All of my Fellow watchers, friends and supporters
I do wanna say Happy Holidays, wish, hope and Pray that all of you have the Nicest, sweetest, Happiest, awesome, wonderful, and Blessful Holiday this year ever!
2019 hasn't been a good year for some of us after a though, hard and dark timings, but in next month it'll be a best, amazing and a very good year for all of us in the year 2020 ae I can assure to all of you that it'll be the most best and loviest year that we asked for, for a very long time, we've been working very hard and to achieve our goals. Now in 2020 we're being reword in the after what we've been through.
Anyways Happy Holidays everyone from yours truly Zen-Aku
P. S. All of you have been amazing friends, family, watchers, supportters I ever asked for my huge thanks to all of you for I am truly am grateful, thanks have a nice pleasant Morning, afternoon and a goodnight~ ^w^Happy Thanksgiving to all my follow watchers and friends
Posted 6 years agohello everybody my name is Zen-Aku Shiragami
Today I wanna say happy thanks giving to all of my friends and those who are watching me as my fellow watchers, I wish, hope, and pray that all of you have the best, loveliest and most wonderful thanksgiving ever from the kindness of my heart
It's always fun to spend time together us furries, you, me and everyone to those who we care about cherish and love the most in our lives even spending time with our pets as they are sweet hearts as well
How is your thanks giving? What did you had for thanksgiving please let me know in the comments down below, I would love to hear your fun side of your thanksgiving it'll be fun, have a nice chat all the good times! ^w^
Anyways happy thanksgiving from the kindness of my heart and my prayers will always be with you and hope that you had a blast
Thank you very much from yours truly Zen~! ^w^someone try to report me something i didn't do wrong
Posted 6 years agohello everyone my name is Zen-Aku Shiragami
um today i wanna explain things on what was going on
a certain user who is trying to look for problems and try to report me something i haven't done anything wrong to those who i care about.
i will not say who or their names because that would be calling them out, but i will explain my side of the story that is a known fact
okay so this male user wanted to report me over the littlest thing of me watching him in FA, i will say this, he always tries to put me in trouble and reports to the admins because i watched him in FA, i wanted to watch him because how amazing he is and how amazing his gallery is, so he had a wrong mindset with me in Discord in DMs, him being angry over the littlest thing, which honestly that is childish on the way he is acting and the way he talks to me was wrong, rudely, childish, its like he hates me, even when i always help him and support him all the time, as i always tell him that i dunno why are you being angry for the littlest things, if nothing was happening, i even tell him that i'm on the side of neutral a side of peace and happiness, he was arguing with me back and forth he try to turn me down, but i always get back up as i always stay calm, happy and positive, and always talk to him nicely and politely, and he always love to try to find ways to have my friends go against me, always tell them lies something i didn't do and/or would never do, because i always follow and respect FA rules like everyone else does, infact us watching someone who we liked and care about they didn't have to fight over something this small and simple.
Look i didn't came here in FA to look for problems
i came here to make friends because i lost all of my real ones since 2013 and I've been in FA since 2014 to this year, and they always care about me and appreciate the things i do for them to be there for them, help them, support them, and make them smile out of kindness
i mean if someone is watching because well they wanna make friends with you, or if they ever wanna see your drawings and spend time with you
i mean that's a normal thing, like that's part of life, to watch their amazing gallery, Characters, our drawings everything, like there was no reason for him and/or they to be angry about, and supposedly that i give him bad luck?
that wouldn't make any since, because he knows that i haven't done anything wrong to him or say anything bad to him
if he has some type of problems even when its something i didn't do or if something happened in RL, he should get a professional help to get his mind clear and realise things and for him not to be so angry all the time over the littlest things.
because honestly all of us, we are not bad people/furries, like we're someone who wants to spend time with others, do some drawings, and show how much we care about them, there is no reason for them to be angry, or act childish or carrying hatred for these types of things what we like and love to do in FA, FA is like home to us, it sets us free from bad problems and negativity around, it what makes us happy and who we are from the bottom of our hearts
and there is a saying "if you wanted to be treated with respect, you gotta give the same respect what they ask for, like if you don't have anything nice to say, don't say anything at all until you know how to say things in the right way without arguments, fighting and looking for problems and reporting them for something we didn't do", its called politeness, respect and cooperation
i'm not saying this for those go targeting him or look for drama, i am saying as i am standing up for myself as i am a 25 year old man as a mature adult, who wants peace and happiness, and make friends, that's all i ever wanted from the bottom of my heart.
like was that our fault, that we wanna watch them? was that really our fault that we see them as amazing people who we liked, if it was one of our favorite artist or watch them to make friends, and support their work, gallery and characters? was that really our fault? no it isn't its normal and natural it shows how much we care about them and wanted to support them and be there for them and their artwork that is part of life.
I hope all of you fellow watchers who can understand and related to this, and hope that this Journal i made helps not just to me, but to help you as well, i wish, i hope, and i pray that all of you have a nice, peaceful and blessful day
Thanks from Zen-Aku
P.S. all of you are Good, amazing, wonderful and outstanding people/furries i ever met and i appreciate your watch and support from the kindness of my heart~ ^w^
