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Posted 16 years agoFire
[ x] If you get in my way I'll POUND YOU!
[x] I confide in my Passion!
[x] I can beat anyone with my superior will!
[ x] I don' like to wait to get what I want.
[ ] I like warm weather and lots of sun.
[x] Caution is not worth sacrificing efficiency, in some cases.
[x] I have a short temper.
[x] I like Spicy/Savory food. And it's gotta be hot!
[x] It's important to fight for what's right! Very much!
[] Music should be fast and powerful. It should make me want to dance!
Total: 8 (+8)
Water:
[x] If you get in my way, I'll just go around you.
[x] Versatility is invaluable.
[x] I can overcome anything with my superior wit.
[x] I'll get what I want using a method you hadn't considered.
[] I like when it rains.
[x] I'll help you if you need it, but don't get greedy.
[x] I'm willing to bend my morals for the sake of progress.
[] I like food that soothes my body. Like how you can feel water run all the way into your belly.
[] A solution can be found with diplomacy.
[] Music should be soft and soothing, but also focused if that makes sense.
Total: 6 (+6)
Earth:
[] If you get in my way, I'll get in your way!
[] I center myself on Focus!
[x] I can't be overcome by anything. I'll stay right here until you give up!
[] I can wait for what I want.
[] I like cool mornings and lazy evenings.
[ ] I bet I could beat you in a staring contest. Don't lose focus!
[x] I won't sacrifice my morals for anything. I have them for a reason.
[x] I like earthy/savory foods. Like heavy breads and red meat.
[x] I respect devotion and order.
[] Music should be strong and steady. Like the beat of your heart.
Total: 4 (+4)
Air:
[] You can't get in my way. Haha!
[x] I believe in total freedom!
[ ] I already have everything I could want.
[x] It's impossible to stop me, because I'm not limited by the same things as you.
[] I like a refreshing breeze on a warm day. With lots of white clouds.
[x] I live in the moment and act on my impulsive desires.
[] What's the point in getting angry? Just have fun!
[] I like light and sweet foods, like sweet breads and water-based broths.
[x] I'll do anything to be free and happy.
[] Music should dance in my ears and remind me of what it's like to cut loose.
Total: 4 (+4)
Nature:
[] Oh! Am I in your way? Let me move.
[] I believe life should be cherished above all other things.
[x] I will submit for now, but I will never give up.
[x] If I play my cards right, everything I want will be provided for me.
[x] I like windy days that make the trees sway and whisper.
[] I will not hesitate to help you if I am able.
[] Everyone is entitled to their own opinions. I will fight for that right only.
[] I love fresh fruit and vegetables.
[] I would compromise before I would argue.
[] Music should be honest and gentle like leaves blowing in the autumn wind. Or the creaking of a great tree.
Total: 3 (+3)
Ice:
[x] If you get in my way once, I'll find another way. If you do it again, I'll kill you.
[x] My strength is drawn from Clarity and Understanding.
[] Come winter, you'll freeze to death, and I won't have to bother with you.
[x] I'll endure much suffering to get what I want.
[] I love cold, cloudless days.
[x] Your problems aren't my problems. Bother someone else.
[x] I'm not easily impressed.
[] I like cold and sweet foods. Like cold soups and shaved ice.
[] Justice is indefinite you fool.
[] Music should have clear, bold sounds. Like bells.
Total: 5 (+5)
Lightning:
[ x] Try getting in my way! I'll blast right past you!
[] Confidence is key! I just lose it and forget to check under my doormat, sometimes.
[x ] I don't stop until I win!
[ x] I don't like waiting for what I want. If it takes to long, I'll find something else.
[] I'd prefer not getting rained on, but I love thunder and lightning.
[] I'll to anything for my friends.
[] I'm easily excited
[] I love sour!
[x] I'll fight tooth and nail for my pride!
[] Music should be fast and upbeat. Techno and Electrodance baby!
Total: 4 (+4)
Darkness:
[x] Don't ever cross my path.
[x] I draw my strength only from myself.
[x] I'm not afraid to be underhanded.
[x] All I want is for people to leave me alone.
[x] I like the night. And the shade during the day. I prefer to avoid the sun.
[] People like Batman's The Joker, and Naruto's Orochimaru are my idols.
[x] If there is no profit in it, I don't do it.
[] I like salty and bland foods. Potatoes are a must.
[x] I would be an executioner.
[] Music should be low and slow. I should feel the darkness of the composer's heart in the beat.
Total: 7 (+7)
Light:
[x] No obstacle shall obscure my righteous path.
[] Justice and Loyalty are of the utmost importance.
[] Valor will overcome all forms of treachery.
[] I want to see peace throughout the world.
[x] I love warm sunny days where the wind blows across the golden fields.
[x] I find the world to be dismal and seek to correct it.
[] People have called me stuck up.
[x] I appreciate food that is prepared with hard work and love.
[x] Those who are wrong must be corrected!
[] Music should be beautiful and imposing. Drum, Trumpet, Piano, Harp, Flute, etc... are lovely.
Total: 5 (+5)
Space:
[x] I know all the alternate paths. No one can get in my way for long.
[x] I pride myself on my Awareness.
[] I just want to enjoy the scenery.
[x] My tastes change often, so getting things I want is sometimes a chore.
[] I like wide open spaces. Like sparsely treed fields and big houses.
[] I would prefer to travel than live in one place.
[x] Don't crowd me!
[x] I like things you can eat a lot of without getting full.
[] I'll fight for the best seat in the house.
[] Music should be grand and boisterous. It should echo!
Total: 5 (+5)
Time:
[] If you get in my way, I'll wait for you to leave and come back.
[] Among all things, Patience is the most valuable.
[x] I can outlast anyone at anything.
[x] Everything is finite. I'll take what I get and leave what I don't.
[] As long as it's convenient to me, I like any weather, for the most part, anyway.
[] People should go out of their ways to spend time enjoying things.
[x] I can easily become lost in thought.
[] I like hardy, filling foods.
[] I don't bother fighting over things. People will eventually wear themselves out.
[] Music should be timeless. Enjoyable by all people through the ages.
Total: 3 (+3)
total 54. elements type mainly fire and darkness, as expected of a extremist
[ x] If you get in my way I'll POUND YOU!
[x] I confide in my Passion!
[x] I can beat anyone with my superior will!
[ x] I don' like to wait to get what I want.
[ ] I like warm weather and lots of sun.
[x] Caution is not worth sacrificing efficiency, in some cases.
[x] I have a short temper.
[x] I like Spicy/Savory food. And it's gotta be hot!
[x] It's important to fight for what's right! Very much!
[] Music should be fast and powerful. It should make me want to dance!
Total: 8 (+8)
Water:
[x] If you get in my way, I'll just go around you.
[x] Versatility is invaluable.
[x] I can overcome anything with my superior wit.
[x] I'll get what I want using a method you hadn't considered.
[] I like when it rains.
[x] I'll help you if you need it, but don't get greedy.
[x] I'm willing to bend my morals for the sake of progress.
[] I like food that soothes my body. Like how you can feel water run all the way into your belly.
[] A solution can be found with diplomacy.
[] Music should be soft and soothing, but also focused if that makes sense.
Total: 6 (+6)
Earth:
[] If you get in my way, I'll get in your way!
[] I center myself on Focus!
[x] I can't be overcome by anything. I'll stay right here until you give up!
[] I can wait for what I want.
[] I like cool mornings and lazy evenings.
[ ] I bet I could beat you in a staring contest. Don't lose focus!
[x] I won't sacrifice my morals for anything. I have them for a reason.
[x] I like earthy/savory foods. Like heavy breads and red meat.
[x] I respect devotion and order.
[] Music should be strong and steady. Like the beat of your heart.
Total: 4 (+4)
Air:
[] You can't get in my way. Haha!
[x] I believe in total freedom!
[ ] I already have everything I could want.
[x] It's impossible to stop me, because I'm not limited by the same things as you.
[] I like a refreshing breeze on a warm day. With lots of white clouds.
[x] I live in the moment and act on my impulsive desires.
[] What's the point in getting angry? Just have fun!
[] I like light and sweet foods, like sweet breads and water-based broths.
[x] I'll do anything to be free and happy.
[] Music should dance in my ears and remind me of what it's like to cut loose.
Total: 4 (+4)
Nature:
[] Oh! Am I in your way? Let me move.
[] I believe life should be cherished above all other things.
[x] I will submit for now, but I will never give up.
[x] If I play my cards right, everything I want will be provided for me.
[x] I like windy days that make the trees sway and whisper.
[] I will not hesitate to help you if I am able.
[] Everyone is entitled to their own opinions. I will fight for that right only.
[] I love fresh fruit and vegetables.
[] I would compromise before I would argue.
[] Music should be honest and gentle like leaves blowing in the autumn wind. Or the creaking of a great tree.
Total: 3 (+3)
Ice:
[x] If you get in my way once, I'll find another way. If you do it again, I'll kill you.
[x] My strength is drawn from Clarity and Understanding.
[] Come winter, you'll freeze to death, and I won't have to bother with you.
[x] I'll endure much suffering to get what I want.
[] I love cold, cloudless days.
[x] Your problems aren't my problems. Bother someone else.
[x] I'm not easily impressed.
[] I like cold and sweet foods. Like cold soups and shaved ice.
[] Justice is indefinite you fool.
[] Music should have clear, bold sounds. Like bells.
Total: 5 (+5)
Lightning:
[ x] Try getting in my way! I'll blast right past you!
[] Confidence is key! I just lose it and forget to check under my doormat, sometimes.
[x ] I don't stop until I win!
[ x] I don't like waiting for what I want. If it takes to long, I'll find something else.
[] I'd prefer not getting rained on, but I love thunder and lightning.
[] I'll to anything for my friends.
[] I'm easily excited
[] I love sour!
[x] I'll fight tooth and nail for my pride!
[] Music should be fast and upbeat. Techno and Electrodance baby!
Total: 4 (+4)
Darkness:
[x] Don't ever cross my path.
[x] I draw my strength only from myself.
[x] I'm not afraid to be underhanded.
[x] All I want is for people to leave me alone.
[x] I like the night. And the shade during the day. I prefer to avoid the sun.
[] People like Batman's The Joker, and Naruto's Orochimaru are my idols.
[x] If there is no profit in it, I don't do it.
[] I like salty and bland foods. Potatoes are a must.
[x] I would be an executioner.
[] Music should be low and slow. I should feel the darkness of the composer's heart in the beat.
Total: 7 (+7)
Light:
[x] No obstacle shall obscure my righteous path.
[] Justice and Loyalty are of the utmost importance.
[] Valor will overcome all forms of treachery.
[] I want to see peace throughout the world.
[x] I love warm sunny days where the wind blows across the golden fields.
[x] I find the world to be dismal and seek to correct it.
[] People have called me stuck up.
[x] I appreciate food that is prepared with hard work and love.
[x] Those who are wrong must be corrected!
[] Music should be beautiful and imposing. Drum, Trumpet, Piano, Harp, Flute, etc... are lovely.
Total: 5 (+5)
Space:
[x] I know all the alternate paths. No one can get in my way for long.
[x] I pride myself on my Awareness.
[] I just want to enjoy the scenery.
[x] My tastes change often, so getting things I want is sometimes a chore.
[] I like wide open spaces. Like sparsely treed fields and big houses.
[] I would prefer to travel than live in one place.
[x] Don't crowd me!
[x] I like things you can eat a lot of without getting full.
[] I'll fight for the best seat in the house.
[] Music should be grand and boisterous. It should echo!
Total: 5 (+5)
Time:
[] If you get in my way, I'll wait for you to leave and come back.
[] Among all things, Patience is the most valuable.
[x] I can outlast anyone at anything.
[x] Everything is finite. I'll take what I get and leave what I don't.
[] As long as it's convenient to me, I like any weather, for the most part, anyway.
[] People should go out of their ways to spend time enjoying things.
[x] I can easily become lost in thought.
[] I like hardy, filling foods.
[] I don't bother fighting over things. People will eventually wear themselves out.
[] Music should be timeless. Enjoyable by all people through the ages.
Total: 3 (+3)
total 54. elements type mainly fire and darkness, as expected of a extremist
gay quiz results thing
Posted 16 years agoYou Scored as Straight Acting
Heya your on the straight and narrow but still enjoy a good cute guy with a pint of beer.
Straight Acting
70%
The all-round cute gay guy
50%
Raging Queer
40%
A Big Bear
30%
S + M guy
20%
Straight
20%
Straight Queer Basher
10%
well these results are expected since i like to be in closet alot, for people i have not told my sexuality too. beside i always good at acting, maybe i should be a actor, or maybe not... acting keeps me safe from those that can't accept me..
http://quizfarm.com/quizzes/new/hey.....f-gay-are-you/
Heya your on the straight and narrow but still enjoy a good cute guy with a pint of beer.
Straight Acting
70%
The all-round cute gay guy
50%
Raging Queer
40%
A Big Bear
30%
S + M guy
20%
Straight
20%
Straight Queer Basher
10%
well these results are expected since i like to be in closet alot, for people i have not told my sexuality too. beside i always good at acting, maybe i should be a actor, or maybe not... acting keeps me safe from those that can't accept me..
http://quizfarm.com/quizzes/new/hey.....f-gay-are-you/
Personality Test thing of nothingness
Posted 16 years agoExtraversion |||||||||||||||| 66%
Stability |||||||||| 34%
Orderliness |||||||||||||||||| 78%
Accommodation |||| 18%
Interdependence |||||||||| 36%
Intellectual |||||||||||||| 54%
Mystical |||||||||||| 43%
Artistic |||||||||||||||||||| 83%
Religious |||||| 23%
Hedonism || 10%
Materialism |||||||||||||| 56%
Narcissism |||||| 23%
Adventurousness |||||||||||||||| 70%
Work ethic |||||||||||||||||||| 90%
Humanitarian |||||||||| 36%
Conflict seeking |||||||||||| 43%
Need to dominate |||||||||||||||| 63%
Romantic |||||||||||||||||||| 83%
Avoidant |||||||||||||||| 63%
Anti-authority |||||||||||||||||||| 83%
Wealth |||| 16%
Dependency |||||||||||||||||| 76%
Change averse |||||||||||||||| 63%
Cautiousness |||||||||||||||||||| 90%
Individuality |||||||||||||||| 70%
Sexuality |||||||||||| 43%
Peter pan complex |||||||||||||||||| 76%
Family drive |||| 16%
Physical Activity || 10%
Histrionic |||||||||||||| 56%
Paranoia |||||||||||||||||| 76%
Vanity |||||||||||||||||||| 83%
Honor |||||||||||| 43%
Thriftiness |||||||||||||||||||| 90%
Stability results were moderately low which suggests you are worrying, insecure, emotional, and anxious.
Orderliness results were high which suggests you are overly organized, reliable, neat, and hard working at the expense too often of flexibility, efficiency, spontaneity, and fun.
Extraversion results were moderately high which suggests you are, at times, overly talkative, outgoing, sociable and interacting at the expense of developing your own individual interests and internally based identity.
trait snapshot:
self revealing, neat, craves attention, prefers organized to unpredictable, needs things to be extremely clean, worrying, perfectionist, emotionally sensitive, respects authority, social, vain, does not like to be alone, likes large parties, controlling, social chameleon, not a thrill seeker, enjoys leadership, takes precautions, puts the needs of others ahead of their own, assertive, rule conscious, makes friends easily, always busy, heart over mind, phobic, aggressive, clingy, compassionate, dominant, outgoing, suspicious, hard working, strong
a new year meme
Posted 17 years agobored and saw floating around.
1. Where did you begin 2008?
At home chating with a friend online during the ball drop televised
2. What was your status by Valentines Day?
content that things go well my love and everything to that degree
3. Were you in school anytime this year?
at one point i was intil i quit.
4. Did you have to go to the hospital?
no, i have not, since i keep myself in good health despite not caring to health
5. Did you have any encounters with the police?
at my job, when they trying to find out how robbed money for the soda vending machine
6. Where did you go on vacation?
i did not go on one.
7. What did you purchase that was over $100?
the down payment on the place i live, $1295.
8. Did you know anybody who got married?
mark and georiannia at my job. they make a nice couple.
9. Did you know anybody who passed away?
nope, and even if i did, i would be unplazed.
10. Did you move anywhere?
to this trailer i currently in, because i could not live in the old house, because of my father, despite being offered to stay there.
11. What sporting events did you attend?
What is that sport think that you talk about? :o
12. What concerts/shows did you go to?
i don't go to them.
13. Describe your birthday.
my job forced me to come in my brithday to learn how to make sandwhiches for travel mart which just opened, i spent four hours there and stupid siliva, she tried to get me to stay and help her with perp and i told her its my birthday and i intend to enjoy whats left of it, so your by yourself. so i went home and enjoy a cake i bearly could eat, because cake is bad for me.
14. What is the ONE thing you thought you would not do, but did, in 2008?
punch a hole in the wall of new house like i did in my old house out of anger towards someone, my mother is still bitter at me for making a hole for such a stupid reason in the wall.
15. What have been your favourite moments?
when i finally go to be with my love for the first time, the chirstmas party at pier 9 my job does, when i finally found outlaw star's 2nd ending theme "house of moon"
16. Any new additions to your family?
no and am glad it that way, since am very detacted from my family and i don't care much for them, since they hinder me.
17. What was your best month?
febuaray, since my brithday and i get my tax return then and have money to spend and enjoy my birthday fully.
18. Who has been your best drinking buddy?
drinking so ignornat and pointless since its nasty and kills your brain.
19. Made new friends?
no, i still have the same friends like always, am rather anti-soical sometimes and i perfer only my love as my company.
20. Favorite Night out?
can't say i had one
21. Other than home, where did you spend most of your time?
i spend most my time at my job, where i clean every inch of the men's room and on other days, i make most perfect yugurt parfaits and sandwhiches and salad. still dispointed my job tried to sell expired foods and makes me there bitch.
22. Have you lost any friends this year?
came close, but i usually talk it out with them and it gets resolved, am not one for conflict and if they wish to leave then i will allow it.
23. Change your hairstyle?
if i did not have this disease then i would try hairstyles.
24. Have any car accidents?
no since i would be dead if i was
25. How old did you turn this year?
20, so am finally not a teenager anymore, although still my body looks like a 17 year old and no one belives my age intil i show my id.
26. Do you have a New Years resolution?
to cut away my weakness and to crete a future that i won't quit it.
27. Do anything embarrassing?
no, since am serious person, so i tend to avoid such matters.
28. Buy anything from eBay?
unable to, since ebay has new poicy on money orders, but yuigoh cards before the change in policy
29. Get married or divorced?
i desire to marry my love, but gay rights has not gotten to the point where they would allow such a thing. to which its depressing, that people wish to not let others stand as equals in this world because they live differently.
30. Get hit on?
by the wrong type of people and i threaten them away
31. Been snowboarding?
no
32. Did you get sick this year?
no, but i developed heart problems and breathing problem, because the stress and my work enviroment cause me pain.
33. Are you happy to see 2008 go?
i wish to start a clean slate and so i wish for 2008 to begone.
34. Been naughty or nice?
i do as i see fit within the rules set forth.
35. What are you looking forward to most in 2009?
have a more stressfree life, live with my love and never be alone anymore, shopping spree with my best friend, learn to drive better and have a lincesne and car, get my own place at one point. finsh my yuigoh card list once and for all.
1. Where did you begin 2008?
At home chating with a friend online during the ball drop televised
2. What was your status by Valentines Day?
content that things go well my love and everything to that degree
3. Were you in school anytime this year?
at one point i was intil i quit.
4. Did you have to go to the hospital?
no, i have not, since i keep myself in good health despite not caring to health
5. Did you have any encounters with the police?
at my job, when they trying to find out how robbed money for the soda vending machine
6. Where did you go on vacation?
i did not go on one.
7. What did you purchase that was over $100?
the down payment on the place i live, $1295.
8. Did you know anybody who got married?
mark and georiannia at my job. they make a nice couple.
9. Did you know anybody who passed away?
nope, and even if i did, i would be unplazed.
10. Did you move anywhere?
to this trailer i currently in, because i could not live in the old house, because of my father, despite being offered to stay there.
11. What sporting events did you attend?
What is that sport think that you talk about? :o
12. What concerts/shows did you go to?
i don't go to them.
13. Describe your birthday.
my job forced me to come in my brithday to learn how to make sandwhiches for travel mart which just opened, i spent four hours there and stupid siliva, she tried to get me to stay and help her with perp and i told her its my birthday and i intend to enjoy whats left of it, so your by yourself. so i went home and enjoy a cake i bearly could eat, because cake is bad for me.
14. What is the ONE thing you thought you would not do, but did, in 2008?
punch a hole in the wall of new house like i did in my old house out of anger towards someone, my mother is still bitter at me for making a hole for such a stupid reason in the wall.
15. What have been your favourite moments?
when i finally go to be with my love for the first time, the chirstmas party at pier 9 my job does, when i finally found outlaw star's 2nd ending theme "house of moon"
16. Any new additions to your family?
no and am glad it that way, since am very detacted from my family and i don't care much for them, since they hinder me.
17. What was your best month?
febuaray, since my brithday and i get my tax return then and have money to spend and enjoy my birthday fully.
18. Who has been your best drinking buddy?
drinking so ignornat and pointless since its nasty and kills your brain.
19. Made new friends?
no, i still have the same friends like always, am rather anti-soical sometimes and i perfer only my love as my company.
20. Favorite Night out?
can't say i had one
21. Other than home, where did you spend most of your time?
i spend most my time at my job, where i clean every inch of the men's room and on other days, i make most perfect yugurt parfaits and sandwhiches and salad. still dispointed my job tried to sell expired foods and makes me there bitch.
22. Have you lost any friends this year?
came close, but i usually talk it out with them and it gets resolved, am not one for conflict and if they wish to leave then i will allow it.
23. Change your hairstyle?
if i did not have this disease then i would try hairstyles.
24. Have any car accidents?
no since i would be dead if i was
25. How old did you turn this year?
20, so am finally not a teenager anymore, although still my body looks like a 17 year old and no one belives my age intil i show my id.
26. Do you have a New Years resolution?
to cut away my weakness and to crete a future that i won't quit it.
27. Do anything embarrassing?
no, since am serious person, so i tend to avoid such matters.
28. Buy anything from eBay?
unable to, since ebay has new poicy on money orders, but yuigoh cards before the change in policy
29. Get married or divorced?
i desire to marry my love, but gay rights has not gotten to the point where they would allow such a thing. to which its depressing, that people wish to not let others stand as equals in this world because they live differently.
30. Get hit on?
by the wrong type of people and i threaten them away
31. Been snowboarding?
no
32. Did you get sick this year?
no, but i developed heart problems and breathing problem, because the stress and my work enviroment cause me pain.
33. Are you happy to see 2008 go?
i wish to start a clean slate and so i wish for 2008 to begone.
34. Been naughty or nice?
i do as i see fit within the rules set forth.
35. What are you looking forward to most in 2009?
have a more stressfree life, live with my love and never be alone anymore, shopping spree with my best friend, learn to drive better and have a lincesne and car, get my own place at one point. finsh my yuigoh card list once and for all.
what a kiss means meme
Posted 17 years agosaw it floating around and wanted to try it, plus have not posted a jounral in ages.
+Kiss on the stomach = "there is more come"
+Kiss on the Forehead = "your in my thoughts"
+Kiss on the Ear = "Your speical to me "
+Kiss on the Cheek = "your sweet to me"
+Kiss on the Hand = "we belong as one"
+Kiss on the Neck = "i need you"
+Kiss on the Shoulder = "I want you"
+Kiss on the Lips = "I love you"
What the gesture means...
+Holding Hands = "we are connected always"
+Slap on the Butt = "This no-one else can have"
+Holding on tight = " always be with me"
+Looking into each others Eyes = "your eyes trance me into loving more"
+Playing with Hair = "Tell me your idea of me"
+Arms around the Waist = "come closer to me and simile"
+Laughing while Kissing = "i feel like i be my trueself around you"
+picking someone up off their feet = " i only wish to be the best for you"
--Advice--
+ Don't ask for a kiss, take one
+If you were thinking about someone while reading this,
you're definitely in Love.
--Requirements--
+Post this again after reading!!
Or you will have a bad year of Relationships.
If you LIKE, LOVE, OR MISS someone right now
and can't get them out of your head
then Re-post this within One Minute and Whoever you are missing will surprise you.
Re-post this as "what a kiss means"
+Kiss on the stomach = "there is more come"
+Kiss on the Forehead = "your in my thoughts"
+Kiss on the Ear = "Your speical to me "
+Kiss on the Cheek = "your sweet to me"
+Kiss on the Hand = "we belong as one"
+Kiss on the Neck = "i need you"
+Kiss on the Shoulder = "I want you"
+Kiss on the Lips = "I love you"
What the gesture means...
+Holding Hands = "we are connected always"
+Slap on the Butt = "This no-one else can have"
+Holding on tight = " always be with me"
+Looking into each others Eyes = "your eyes trance me into loving more"
+Playing with Hair = "Tell me your idea of me"
+Arms around the Waist = "come closer to me and simile"
+Laughing while Kissing = "i feel like i be my trueself around you"
+picking someone up off their feet = " i only wish to be the best for you"
--Advice--
+ Don't ask for a kiss, take one
+If you were thinking about someone while reading this,
you're definitely in Love.
--Requirements--
+Post this again after reading!!
Or you will have a bad year of Relationships.
If you LIKE, LOVE, OR MISS someone right now
and can't get them out of your head
then Re-post this within One Minute and Whoever you are missing will surprise you.
Re-post this as "what a kiss means"
a well learned art lesson.
Posted 17 years agosomething i was deeply in thought about, why i like art. its not about results or how the piece could look like, its about for me, the process of creavity and how i can mold something from my mind to paper, it does not mattter that is a master piece or some peice of fithy porn so people can say oh that hot or something pointless to act like they care.
"creativity" am glad i could discover my reason for art. maybe this lesson well learned in my books since even though making a nice piece is good, but you won't get anywhere if you doubt yourself from the beganning like its been while since i drew or this artists makes look like shamful pile of dung.
its all about the fun. and am glad i remembered it. :3
"creativity" am glad i could discover my reason for art. maybe this lesson well learned in my books since even though making a nice piece is good, but you won't get anywhere if you doubt yourself from the beganning like its been while since i drew or this artists makes look like shamful pile of dung.
its all about the fun. and am glad i remembered it. :3
why are memories sealed away in the mind?
Posted 17 years agoDoes the mind seal memories is something I wondered for while now. For some reason I wish I knew, I can’t seem to remember things I feel like I should know or at least have some recollection of them to describe. I first noticed this when I was typing my life story or what I joke as my will. Now I would know the reason behind this if was things that were traumatic to me and my mind wanted to prevented me from suffering.
But this so far deep that my mind even affects lesser memories and things I should know. I know the brain prioritizes what needs to remember from most important to less important and dumps what is not needed., but that is only when tasks and responsibilities are needed to be finished, after that you should have the sealed memories back I should think. Maybe this all in mind or maybe its all a figment of my imagination.
I want to remember all that I can and everything and not feel limited to only the most important memories and most important responsibilities, I wish to think of the other moments, but I am unable to. It seems my mind is set in way I could only think objectively and not let my mind wonder on something pointless or something that has meaning.
Its sort of depressing in that way, something I wish I could at least say what they were I can’t even do that. In a way, I feel like am losing my memories. This my mind set I deal with, a mind that wishes to erase my past, or remove the idea of me having a past. I wish I could unlock them with a special key, but this lock has no key for which can be unlocked.
But this so far deep that my mind even affects lesser memories and things I should know. I know the brain prioritizes what needs to remember from most important to less important and dumps what is not needed., but that is only when tasks and responsibilities are needed to be finished, after that you should have the sealed memories back I should think. Maybe this all in mind or maybe its all a figment of my imagination.
I want to remember all that I can and everything and not feel limited to only the most important memories and most important responsibilities, I wish to think of the other moments, but I am unable to. It seems my mind is set in way I could only think objectively and not let my mind wonder on something pointless or something that has meaning.
Its sort of depressing in that way, something I wish I could at least say what they were I can’t even do that. In a way, I feel like am losing my memories. This my mind set I deal with, a mind that wishes to erase my past, or remove the idea of me having a past. I wish I could unlock them with a special key, but this lock has no key for which can be unlocked.
which site has better art? Deviantart or furaffinity?
Posted 17 years agoi have wonder this for while since i look at the art on this site and i like it, but then i look at art on Deviantart.com and am like this just wonderful, this person is of the master level of art, then i am like i wish i could do that...
here is my deviantart account since i actively post there like i do here. http://moontreefurry.deviantart.com/ i added the furry since "moontree"
" was taken and that site is not furry not that stops me from posting or liking the art on that site, since some people get so bothered by it.
now when comes to furry art this site tops all others, that much i can say is true for me and that is what i like, now when comes other art, that site rules over all others and that i could prove using a few artist i watch on that site and just love their art, in particular these two girls post the best bleach,nartuo,death note, yuigoh and fullmetal alchemist art i have ever seen. there is some very amzaing furry art on DA that is better then what i seen here, but overall this site wins in that favor. its so hard to tell which site has better art or artists for that matter....
there are often times where i just be a DA artist, but i have friends here, where as the other place, only about 3 people, so am more of here on FA for friends and somewhat art, were as DA am solely there for the art i could never ever dream of seeing here. but all this is matter of opinion and not facts about art and artist between the DA and FA, am just making a observation.
as for how sites works, DA i have more site useage problems because of downtime then this site i have FA. meaning FA is more realiable to me more then 97% of the time. but DA is nice, but the friends factor of FA is what makes come here. for the better art, i would have say DA, but FA is pretty good in that regard, but seeing the people i do i say DA. but for furry art that is better, this site wins.
here is my deviantart account since i actively post there like i do here. http://moontreefurry.deviantart.com/ i added the furry since "moontree"
" was taken and that site is not furry not that stops me from posting or liking the art on that site, since some people get so bothered by it.
now when comes to furry art this site tops all others, that much i can say is true for me and that is what i like, now when comes other art, that site rules over all others and that i could prove using a few artist i watch on that site and just love their art, in particular these two girls post the best bleach,nartuo,death note, yuigoh and fullmetal alchemist art i have ever seen. there is some very amzaing furry art on DA that is better then what i seen here, but overall this site wins in that favor. its so hard to tell which site has better art or artists for that matter....
there are often times where i just be a DA artist, but i have friends here, where as the other place, only about 3 people, so am more of here on FA for friends and somewhat art, were as DA am solely there for the art i could never ever dream of seeing here. but all this is matter of opinion and not facts about art and artist between the DA and FA, am just making a observation.
as for how sites works, DA i have more site useage problems because of downtime then this site i have FA. meaning FA is more realiable to me more then 97% of the time. but DA is nice, but the friends factor of FA is what makes come here. for the better art, i would have say DA, but FA is pretty good in that regard, but seeing the people i do i say DA. but for furry art that is better, this site wins.
Happy birthday to my love shad0w0lf
Posted 17 years agotoday march 11 is 
shad0w0lf birthday, so it time for me to make a big deal out of it and him like i enjoy too. ^_^
happy birthday my love and i hope you get alot of nice things for your birthday which i did not get from my family. one day i will bake you a cake in your favorite icing and favor, to which i forgot to ask and i wil also make sure to give man gifts including. a speical gift. ;) i think you catch the drift.
i wish i could be there with you, but that is impossiable intil the destined day, so happy b-day to you from me like i said for the 10+ time.
your love,
moontree
shad0w0lf birthday, so it time for me to make a big deal out of it and him like i enjoy too. ^_^happy birthday my love and i hope you get alot of nice things for your birthday which i did not get from my family. one day i will bake you a cake in your favorite icing and favor, to which i forgot to ask and i wil also make sure to give man gifts including. a speical gift. ;) i think you catch the drift.
i wish i could be there with you, but that is impossiable intil the destined day, so happy b-day to you from me like i said for the 10+ time.
your love,
moontreeMy Birthday is coming up, on the 27th of feb
Posted 17 years agofinally my Birthday is here, i can finally be 20 year old very soon, but still to young to enter a porn store or by booze. Side note. (i would never go into a porn store, because my DVD i found in the trash at work is all i need, plus it still works, thanks PS3, also booze makses you stupid and ruins your liver and your brain). i can't wait til my Birthday since it the only day of the year i actually give a ***K about. but it also to me, one more year til my death. i see my Birthday as something to be very happy about and very depressed about. a taste of good and evil if you would.
so my mother to make up for the my depression caused by many things is baking me a cake, which she always does anyway, even though i could bake my own cake although last time i did, it was so gross i tossed into the forest up the rode from me. also she is geting me my fav food, shrimp so am happy, my mother regerts she can't buy me gifts this year since she needs the money to move out, but am like it okay, the shrimp and the thought you wanted too is more then enough for me.
So happy 20th birthday darren gonzalez, you lucky bastard. wait was i talking to myself just now.??? also this day is very speical to me, since this year i will make the most improant birthday wish i ever made and this one i feel will actually come true for a change of pace. Please freaking draw me B-day pics or i will kill you........, nah i know nobody will do it, so i will take the burden myself, beside my mind is scattered, plus my chest will not stop buring. moontree
so my mother to make up for the my depression caused by many things is baking me a cake, which she always does anyway, even though i could bake my own cake although last time i did, it was so gross i tossed into the forest up the rode from me. also she is geting me my fav food, shrimp so am happy, my mother regerts she can't buy me gifts this year since she needs the money to move out, but am like it okay, the shrimp and the thought you wanted too is more then enough for me.
So happy 20th birthday darren gonzalez, you lucky bastard. wait was i talking to myself just now.??? also this day is very speical to me, since this year i will make the most improant birthday wish i ever made and this one i feel will actually come true for a change of pace. Please freaking draw me B-day pics or i will kill you........, nah i know nobody will do it, so i will take the burden myself, beside my mind is scattered, plus my chest will not stop buring.
moontreeam a college drop-out now
Posted 17 years agofinally the deed has been done, i have successful quit my college for good now, am surpsied how quick the process was even with them trying to convice me otherwise. At least i do not have to pay the grants(free-money) i was given back. but am looking at a $4500 -$4600 debt i own to that collage now. but hey thats better than having to pay $10,000 plus like many others do.
but my mother is going to find out if it is $4500-4600, since i was only their for a semster and a half so i should have to pay more than the books and materials and 8 classes i went though. since she want me to have money for a car and lincense. now i have to go on my orinirnal plan, this was destined to happend, since i foolish choose a coarse that i know my weakness lied in and i did not read more about the corase to prepare for it, i choose it out of a moments passion.
so now i will work more at my job cleaning the bathrooms and do prep work in the food to make up for the money i need. i knew this would happend, but denying destiny is pretty difficult with this body i have. now at least i can put more money in the bank and get my car and lincese. so in way this got my life off the delay process. plus college is retared and it not worth my time. no matter what i will still save my money for my future and pray to have the future i seek so dearly, i DO NOT REGERT, my DESCICION. and if you disagree or look down on me, than i suppose thats on you. moontree
but my mother is going to find out if it is $4500-4600, since i was only their for a semster and a half so i should have to pay more than the books and materials and 8 classes i went though. since she want me to have money for a car and lincense. now i have to go on my orinirnal plan, this was destined to happend, since i foolish choose a coarse that i know my weakness lied in and i did not read more about the corase to prepare for it, i choose it out of a moments passion.
so now i will work more at my job cleaning the bathrooms and do prep work in the food to make up for the money i need. i knew this would happend, but denying destiny is pretty difficult with this body i have. now at least i can put more money in the bank and get my car and lincese. so in way this got my life off the delay process. plus college is retared and it not worth my time. no matter what i will still save my money for my future and pray to have the future i seek so dearly, i DO NOT REGERT, my DESCICION. and if you disagree or look down on me, than i suppose thats on you.
moontreei decided about my life and am returning here. read
Posted 18 years agookay here is my choice, college is the most difficult thing i have ever done in my life it proves to be the worst choice i ever made and doing more bad than good. also i bearly passed the first quarter and the second quarter is going so horriablely. suffering is not cup of tea to do.
i feel bad about this but i will quit college for good if i fail the second semseter, i don't give fuck, am sick of suffering and trying something i clearly do not understand. am not one to fight a pointless battle. my mind is up made after i spoke to shad0w0lf about this and spoke to my mother for hours about it.
also i handled my personal business with shad0w0lf that upset me, and learned the truth and i could not be more shocked that am really cared for even when i don't know about it. so in other words i love him more his deicataion to me all his work. so it shames to quit when he working so hard. but i know this right in my heart this choice.
i hear there is job near me that pays $15 ahour and it just putting pototae chips and snack food in boxes, sounds easy to me for such good pay, and if i work for 5 days at hours a day for week that about 600 bucks and after taxes maybe 530 or so. i suck at math and i had to pay somebody in high school to do my work in it to pass, because am failer and can't do something without somebody help.
so all and all whats bothering me my future and if i can have one, since before i meet shad0w0lf, i always saw my future and it was me stabing myself in the heart with my sword crying in the forest. but after all this money troubles i don't know. It all about money that bothers me since a future can only be bulit with money and sadly i have basicly very little to work with.
currently have $2,495 in the bank towards my furture with shad0w0lf but i need more than that and i hoping my college would give me nice job to make that amount more, but i guess not....................................... so i have take a new path in life to support us. sadly my father was right......
i feel bad about this but i will quit college for good if i fail the second semseter, i don't give fuck, am sick of suffering and trying something i clearly do not understand. am not one to fight a pointless battle. my mind is up made after i spoke to shad0w0lf about this and spoke to my mother for hours about it.
also i handled my personal business with shad0w0lf that upset me, and learned the truth and i could not be more shocked that am really cared for even when i don't know about it. so in other words i love him more his deicataion to me all his work. so it shames to quit when he working so hard. but i know this right in my heart this choice.
i hear there is job near me that pays $15 ahour and it just putting pototae chips and snack food in boxes, sounds easy to me for such good pay, and if i work for 5 days at hours a day for week that about 600 bucks and after taxes maybe 530 or so. i suck at math and i had to pay somebody in high school to do my work in it to pass, because am failer and can't do something without somebody help.
so all and all whats bothering me my future and if i can have one, since before i meet shad0w0lf, i always saw my future and it was me stabing myself in the heart with my sword crying in the forest. but after all this money troubles i don't know. It all about money that bothers me since a future can only be bulit with money and sadly i have basicly very little to work with.
currently have $2,495 in the bank towards my furture with
shad0w0lf but i need more than that and i hoping my college would give me nice job to make that amount more, but i guess not....................................... so i have take a new path in life to support us. sadly my father was right......whats the kinkyiest thing you ever did?
Posted 18 years agowell the kinkyiest thing i ever did is put whip cream on my nipples and lick it off and suck my fingers nastyly while doing it and puting whip-cream on my cock and doing that same thing by wipeing it off with my fingers and licking it off nastyly too wile appearing to suck my fingers, on the same day a few mintues after each other for a speical webcam show. heheh
so whats your nastiest kinky thing you do? hehehehe this so freaking wrong, but mad hot.
so whats your nastiest kinky thing you do? hehehehe this so freaking wrong, but mad hot.
i finally got a webcam.!!!!!
Posted 18 years agofinally a webcam is mine and i finally have some fun with it. so if your on my IMs you can see me, if you like and i can put on shows with my swords and kunais and show case my art and yuigoh card and teach stuff. plus only of shad0w0lf my "speical shows" are available. don't ask for them since he gets them only. since it is his desire.
OMG SHAD0W0LF IS FINALLY ON MNS MESSAGER!!!!
Posted 18 years agoyes, he is finally on, am so fucking happy i could just scream. AM SO HAPPY.
finally i can be with him shad0w0lf
but i still talk to friends on it. promise. :) kay.
my love is finally here with me. ^_^
finally i can be with him
shad0w0lfbut i still talk to friends on it. promise. :) kay.
my love is finally here with me. ^_^
question/is weird if a guy is not lusty at all really?
Posted 18 years agowell there is one more good question i have for my watchers out there. is werid if a guy is not lusty at all really? i mean most guys are pretty lusty about sex stuff when it comes to if your striaght or gay. It wrong to not be as lusty as other men and not fantasize about sex or dirty things? i wonder if there is something wrong with a person if there not go-ho about sex all the time. if anybody has views on this let me hear them, regardless if you cataoreize them by striaght and gay differences. to which i don't belive there are any.
but shoot your view and lets see here this ones goes debate-wise. honesty wanted and remember zelos will get your soul and feed your body to sugar plum fairies if you lie.
but shoot your view and lets see here this ones goes debate-wise. honesty wanted and remember zelos will get your soul and feed your body to sugar plum fairies if you lie.
question/Does being gay make you less of a man?
Posted 18 years agothis is question i need some answer for since i find it kind of intregaing what kind replys i get from this. so if anybody has a view and idea about this, don't be afaid to tell me about it. even if sounds like your gaybashing me since you all know am a faggy. so whats your ideas, tell me or face the wrath of evil cupcakes and pancakes devouring your soul. hahahahha
will i still stay on furaffinity after i get shad0w0lf?
Posted 18 years agoi was wondering this question for quite a while now. will i just leave this site once i have shad0w0lf, my lover. i know i spend all my time with him and everything, since there is lot i love i have to give to him. but i wonder will i give up on my art quest once i have him. there is one thing i do know and that is i would never forget my friends while having him, since that wrong and cruel to just leave all you guys out of the blue for him. plus that majorly selfish and nasty to act like my friendships did not mean anything.
but this still stands "will i still stay on furaffinity after i get shad0w0lf"? for that answer i have wait like i always do, which sucks ass alot. since i like answers right away. just two years and all my answers will come at once to me. am i perpared to be give all them at once though? my furture out of many others that exist with different peoples is so random, that even when i plan it out so well something else happends. like when i planned a shopping spree with jason and everything went pretty bad in a short time.
whatever the furture holds, i do know this i will never leave my friends and i will have shad0w0lf of these two am sure of.
but this still stands "will i still stay on furaffinity after i get shad0w0lf"? for that answer i have wait like i always do, which sucks ass alot. since i like answers right away. just two years and all my answers will come at once to me. am i perpared to be give all them at once though? my furture out of many others that exist with different peoples is so random, that even when i plan it out so well something else happends. like when i planned a shopping spree with jason and everything went pretty bad in a short time.
whatever the furture holds, i do know this i will never leave my friends and i will have shad0w0lf of these two am sure of.
i been very sick lately and i know why!
Posted 18 years agoI think the reason I been so sick lately and have lost most of functions is maybe that am allergic to perfumes and fragrances since they came into the picture I been sick, plus my mother is allergic to them and maybe I in heritages from her. My nosey is so stuffy and runny and I sneezing a lot when am near them. Plus I have been coughing a lot more and my throat feels like it been jammed with the smells and it killing me. I think am going to see a doctor for medication since am so bad off that am getting really drowsy and sleepy and losing my focus to talk to people and draw pictures.
Am sorry if I can’t get to people these days, but I been very sick and I need my rest. I try my best to get over this. Since I hate allergies. I just wish girls at my college would not wear their perfume so strong since it killing me and makes me want to wear a gas mask to be able to breathe. Also my asshole brother lights a fragrance candle in his room here the computer is and it ruins me a lot with it powerful smell. It so strong I grasp for air since it closes my throat. Why is this happening? I ask myself a lot. As a new rule, nobody I hang with in real life is allowed to wear fragrances and perfumes. Am sorry, but I rather smell ass than smell perfumes and fragrances.
Am sorry if I can’t get to people these days, but I been very sick and I need my rest. I try my best to get over this. Since I hate allergies. I just wish girls at my college would not wear their perfume so strong since it killing me and makes me want to wear a gas mask to be able to breathe. Also my asshole brother lights a fragrance candle in his room here the computer is and it ruins me a lot with it powerful smell. It so strong I grasp for air since it closes my throat. Why is this happening? I ask myself a lot. As a new rule, nobody I hang with in real life is allowed to wear fragrances and perfumes. Am sorry, but I rather smell ass than smell perfumes and fragrances.
am IT survey, try it if tagged by me. ^_^
Posted 18 years agoHere it is... tagged by 
hasani
Rules:
1 - Post these rules
2 - Each person tagged must post 8 random facts about themselves
3 - Tags should write a journal of these facts
4 - At the end of the post 8 more peeps tagged and named
5 - Go to their page and leave a comment telling them they’ve been ‘tagged’
1. i draw pictures since i have no life
2.i love to eat seafood, esically shrimp
3.i have 54+ video games and 5 systems
4. i own the playstation 3 and the nintendo wii
5.i hate veggies and they make me vomit if i eat them
6.i love shad0w0lf forever and he is my soulmate
7.furaffinity is the site i most visit on the net.
8. i own a sword and kunais and a ninja throwing star.
i will tagg for this game.
shad0w0lf
steel-froggy
wolfclaw
maneater
furrygami
catenatus
tyroo
granmago
try it out and lets learn about you. ^_^ kay.......
hasaniRules:
1 - Post these rules
2 - Each person tagged must post 8 random facts about themselves
3 - Tags should write a journal of these facts
4 - At the end of the post 8 more peeps tagged and named
5 - Go to their page and leave a comment telling them they’ve been ‘tagged’
1. i draw pictures since i have no life
2.i love to eat seafood, esically shrimp
3.i have 54+ video games and 5 systems
4. i own the playstation 3 and the nintendo wii
5.i hate veggies and they make me vomit if i eat them
6.i love shad0w0lf forever and he is my soulmate
7.furaffinity is the site i most visit on the net.
8. i own a sword and kunais and a ninja throwing star.
i will tagg for this game.
shad0w0lf
steel-froggy
wolfclaw
maneater
furrygami
catenatus
tyroo
granmagotry it out and lets learn about you. ^_^ kay.......
me and shad0w0lf love story. edited
Posted 18 years agoThe love story of me and shad0w0lf
One day when I logged into my furaffinity account, I saw my user page and my new messages like I always do since I feel like a lot happens in a day and in most cases that true. So I saw this guy called shad0w0lf shouted my user page twice, one about how we have few similar interests and how we can get along great. The second was how there is glitch in Hack G.U. that I should try in volume one in Mac anu.
Like I usually am, I was very suspicious of this guy out of the blue saying stuff like these had had to investigate it. So I private messaged him asking a few questions about him, how did he find me and does he want to be friends since am pretty lonely on the FA and wanted friends to talk too. So he accepted my hand in friendship and we were friends, we talked for 4 hours that night and I asked him how did he find me? He said I found you by see the picture http://www.furaffinity.net/view/752875 , it was picture I did of Kite from the original dot. Hack video game series in wolf form, since I like to draw video game characters furry and this was perfect to do. So after we talked about very personal stuff about us and we really opened to each other, I asked if he was my twin. Since I feel like your me, just a different person living else where in the world. After that he said if you are truly my twin than do you play runescape? I personally don’t play online games and just use the internet to talk to friends so I said no. Than I felt really upset that he might reject me as a friend if I did not have account, so I said, please don’t let us not be friends over that and I will try to make a account right now. So he gives me the link and I was ready to begin runescape. But I was such a newbie as people call it and was stuck in a room that was full of tutorials and could not leave to start the adventure. So he asked for my profile info and helped me out of the room.
He and I had some fun on runescape and I felt so happy to spend time with him, since I felt like he was such fun friend rather than my boring real life friends, I always wished for. Than my lousy selfish little brother got home from radio shack and wanted to use the computer since we share the damn computer. Than I told him the story about that and I had to go. The whole night I lay on my bed and stared at the ceiling a lot and wondered if I ever see him again and I felt such pain and sorrow if I could not see him again. Than the day after I logged back on to furaffinity and spoke him and told him about my problems with losing the computer since I have share it and I hope I did not make him mad.
So we talked again about fetishes I think and about Hack G.U. although it was hard for me since I only beat volume one and still have yet to play volume two and three. So afterwards we stay in touch from time to time and he responded to my art pictures and comment on my journals, which at the time reveled heavily my personal life and past. What he said in them really made me happy since it showed me he cared for me and understood my pain. I always replied back to him and learned so much about him and felt strong feelings for him that bordered on more than friendship. Than I was stuck with a nasty depression again, because my art was failing to reach the high standards of others and as artist I was pretty much a failed artist compared to others I watched. So I kind of drifted back and forth to people profiles looking at what they were doing and get my mind off kill myself out of pity.
Than I saw a gay meme journal he had and I commented since I thought he copied and paste it from me since I give him a private message allowing him to take memes from me. I basically told him I was glad he did it and I said at least I give you something before I kill myself. He told me don’t kill yourself since we get along great and really know each other and feels like we can have a relationship together, after had a few years to himself. Than am like yeah it would be nice to have you, but am loser as a human being and nobody would want me, so I choose my own death. Than he said he would devote his life to sorcery and bring me back from the dead and kill me, himself.
Than I said am already dead as a person, why bother? Than he said he would give me a reason to live and he laughed and said he was a slutty puppy. Than I said sorry am not a virgin, so am not sure you would have me. He said you ever heard of tight virgin ass? He said he has a lot of stamina and he is good for five rounds and that we have fun. I said even sex is not going to change my mind on choosing my death. So than I posted a lot of death journals, explaining why I am choosing death over life. Than he put as comments, please don’t die since I like you a lot and prefer you don’t die, when we know so much about each other. Than about that even a loser can find glory among failures if he believes and tries to searches for them.
That the path I am choosing is wrong and he would to stop me from thinking it. He also said as my twin you would be killing me as well, so please stop it. He also said if my life is lie than I should try to make it a reality and I will find a reason to live if look hard enough. He talked and talked to me and commented up and down my journals, I give up on the idea and he convinced me to live.
But I was still delusional about the whole ordeal and I really started actually love him after that since out everybody in my life he truly cared for me.
So after that I posted a journal about my thanks to all my friends that cared enough to stop me from killing myself. I give special thanks to shad0w0lf and even said in the end of my thanks to him that I can go as far as saying I love him. Than he got mad at about spelling his name wrong since I guess there is somebody called shadowolf on the FA other than him. So than my friend named tail on the FA saw this change in me and had to question shad0w0lf if he loved me. Tail found out shad0w0lf loved me and would like to be together.
He ran back and told me and I was pissed off that he invaded my piracy and went to him and asked. But I was curious and asked him what he learned. So I was shocked and surprised since I felt the same way about him. So that night I wrote up my story about how I joined the FA and how I meet shad0w0lf and how I in truth I love him and I want to be his forever. So after that night I went to visit my college the next day to try and get admitted in to try and have a successful future.
Than when I got home I told my story about my journey to the college and all ands at the end put my next journals would be my true feelings for shad0w0lf and the trouble I had getting the Nintendo wii. So basically I was already saying I loved him without making sound direct. Since I like to explain myself and don’t make easy really at all. I private messaged him about that he should read the journal since my true feeling for him will be revealed at last. He said he would check it out and I was happy.
I had to wait to spring the journal up since it was during the time before my secret was out and I did not need my family knowing about it, since it my business and my life. Beside family don’t like their kids if they find out their gay and reject them. So I finally posted it up based on how I wrote it with minor changes at the last minute. He read it and expressed his feelings and told me that he loves me and he wants to have me. I was so happy and I cried for while about it. He said after he would finish college he would meet up with me and we would be together. So than I was hooked and I planned exactly how it could happened and everything.
There was later problems with doubt, since he was the only one I ever truly loved and I questioned his love for me. After all my question and my friend tail question him up and down since he was concerned too and I was going to hurt him for getting involved again, I found out what he discovered. All my life I never believed in love at all and thought of it as a useless emotion and it can only hold me back from trying to make my failure of life into a successful one.
Plus nobody before give a shit about me so I was skeptical and thought maybe he was just saying all that to use me or something more evil than that. But he expressed his myself and told me and tail that is not the case and he truly loves me. So I was sighed a big sigh of relief and was glad these was not a dream that was not going too happened at all. Since I have been hurt before by people who acted like they care and totally betrayed me, not in love relationships by in friendships I had in the past, so I lost my trust in people. He rekindled that trust in me and I made lot more friends that way.
I figure after the two years, he would visit me in New York and I would met him and run into his arms since really want him and tell him in person I love him. I for the most part I actually set up that day we would first meet and I have the plans right in my head. Even though I rarely can get in contact with him since furaffinity has it site problems and he not there as much as me, he always comes around to give him views and ideas to me. He is all I ever wanted out of life over my success as a person and being somebody.
So I work as hard as I can in college to prove myself and make sure we can both support each other. The path to have him is the hardest thing I ever having in my life, but out all the paths in my life this one is the most rewarding to me to finish. So with my entire story said. I end with this line. Shad0w0lf I love you more than you could ever think and I truly want you in my life and I want us to be happy together. You’re true love. Darren J. Gonzalez.
One day when I logged into my furaffinity account, I saw my user page and my new messages like I always do since I feel like a lot happens in a day and in most cases that true. So I saw this guy called shad0w0lf shouted my user page twice, one about how we have few similar interests and how we can get along great. The second was how there is glitch in Hack G.U. that I should try in volume one in Mac anu.
Like I usually am, I was very suspicious of this guy out of the blue saying stuff like these had had to investigate it. So I private messaged him asking a few questions about him, how did he find me and does he want to be friends since am pretty lonely on the FA and wanted friends to talk too. So he accepted my hand in friendship and we were friends, we talked for 4 hours that night and I asked him how did he find me? He said I found you by see the picture http://www.furaffinity.net/view/752875 , it was picture I did of Kite from the original dot. Hack video game series in wolf form, since I like to draw video game characters furry and this was perfect to do. So after we talked about very personal stuff about us and we really opened to each other, I asked if he was my twin. Since I feel like your me, just a different person living else where in the world. After that he said if you are truly my twin than do you play runescape? I personally don’t play online games and just use the internet to talk to friends so I said no. Than I felt really upset that he might reject me as a friend if I did not have account, so I said, please don’t let us not be friends over that and I will try to make a account right now. So he gives me the link and I was ready to begin runescape. But I was such a newbie as people call it and was stuck in a room that was full of tutorials and could not leave to start the adventure. So he asked for my profile info and helped me out of the room.
He and I had some fun on runescape and I felt so happy to spend time with him, since I felt like he was such fun friend rather than my boring real life friends, I always wished for. Than my lousy selfish little brother got home from radio shack and wanted to use the computer since we share the damn computer. Than I told him the story about that and I had to go. The whole night I lay on my bed and stared at the ceiling a lot and wondered if I ever see him again and I felt such pain and sorrow if I could not see him again. Than the day after I logged back on to furaffinity and spoke him and told him about my problems with losing the computer since I have share it and I hope I did not make him mad.
So we talked again about fetishes I think and about Hack G.U. although it was hard for me since I only beat volume one and still have yet to play volume two and three. So afterwards we stay in touch from time to time and he responded to my art pictures and comment on my journals, which at the time reveled heavily my personal life and past. What he said in them really made me happy since it showed me he cared for me and understood my pain. I always replied back to him and learned so much about him and felt strong feelings for him that bordered on more than friendship. Than I was stuck with a nasty depression again, because my art was failing to reach the high standards of others and as artist I was pretty much a failed artist compared to others I watched. So I kind of drifted back and forth to people profiles looking at what they were doing and get my mind off kill myself out of pity.
Than I saw a gay meme journal he had and I commented since I thought he copied and paste it from me since I give him a private message allowing him to take memes from me. I basically told him I was glad he did it and I said at least I give you something before I kill myself. He told me don’t kill yourself since we get along great and really know each other and feels like we can have a relationship together, after had a few years to himself. Than am like yeah it would be nice to have you, but am loser as a human being and nobody would want me, so I choose my own death. Than he said he would devote his life to sorcery and bring me back from the dead and kill me, himself.
Than I said am already dead as a person, why bother? Than he said he would give me a reason to live and he laughed and said he was a slutty puppy. Than I said sorry am not a virgin, so am not sure you would have me. He said you ever heard of tight virgin ass? He said he has a lot of stamina and he is good for five rounds and that we have fun. I said even sex is not going to change my mind on choosing my death. So than I posted a lot of death journals, explaining why I am choosing death over life. Than he put as comments, please don’t die since I like you a lot and prefer you don’t die, when we know so much about each other. Than about that even a loser can find glory among failures if he believes and tries to searches for them.
That the path I am choosing is wrong and he would to stop me from thinking it. He also said as my twin you would be killing me as well, so please stop it. He also said if my life is lie than I should try to make it a reality and I will find a reason to live if look hard enough. He talked and talked to me and commented up and down my journals, I give up on the idea and he convinced me to live.
But I was still delusional about the whole ordeal and I really started actually love him after that since out everybody in my life he truly cared for me.
So after that I posted a journal about my thanks to all my friends that cared enough to stop me from killing myself. I give special thanks to shad0w0lf and even said in the end of my thanks to him that I can go as far as saying I love him. Than he got mad at about spelling his name wrong since I guess there is somebody called shadowolf on the FA other than him. So than my friend named tail on the FA saw this change in me and had to question shad0w0lf if he loved me. Tail found out shad0w0lf loved me and would like to be together.
He ran back and told me and I was pissed off that he invaded my piracy and went to him and asked. But I was curious and asked him what he learned. So I was shocked and surprised since I felt the same way about him. So that night I wrote up my story about how I joined the FA and how I meet shad0w0lf and how I in truth I love him and I want to be his forever. So after that night I went to visit my college the next day to try and get admitted in to try and have a successful future.
Than when I got home I told my story about my journey to the college and all ands at the end put my next journals would be my true feelings for shad0w0lf and the trouble I had getting the Nintendo wii. So basically I was already saying I loved him without making sound direct. Since I like to explain myself and don’t make easy really at all. I private messaged him about that he should read the journal since my true feeling for him will be revealed at last. He said he would check it out and I was happy.
I had to wait to spring the journal up since it was during the time before my secret was out and I did not need my family knowing about it, since it my business and my life. Beside family don’t like their kids if they find out their gay and reject them. So I finally posted it up based on how I wrote it with minor changes at the last minute. He read it and expressed his feelings and told me that he loves me and he wants to have me. I was so happy and I cried for while about it. He said after he would finish college he would meet up with me and we would be together. So than I was hooked and I planned exactly how it could happened and everything.
There was later problems with doubt, since he was the only one I ever truly loved and I questioned his love for me. After all my question and my friend tail question him up and down since he was concerned too and I was going to hurt him for getting involved again, I found out what he discovered. All my life I never believed in love at all and thought of it as a useless emotion and it can only hold me back from trying to make my failure of life into a successful one.
Plus nobody before give a shit about me so I was skeptical and thought maybe he was just saying all that to use me or something more evil than that. But he expressed his myself and told me and tail that is not the case and he truly loves me. So I was sighed a big sigh of relief and was glad these was not a dream that was not going too happened at all. Since I have been hurt before by people who acted like they care and totally betrayed me, not in love relationships by in friendships I had in the past, so I lost my trust in people. He rekindled that trust in me and I made lot more friends that way.
I figure after the two years, he would visit me in New York and I would met him and run into his arms since really want him and tell him in person I love him. I for the most part I actually set up that day we would first meet and I have the plans right in my head. Even though I rarely can get in contact with him since furaffinity has it site problems and he not there as much as me, he always comes around to give him views and ideas to me. He is all I ever wanted out of life over my success as a person and being somebody.
So I work as hard as I can in college to prove myself and make sure we can both support each other. The path to have him is the hardest thing I ever having in my life, but out all the paths in my life this one is the most rewarding to me to finish. So with my entire story said. I end with this line. Shad0w0lf I love you more than you could ever think and I truly want you in my life and I want us to be happy together. You’re true love. Darren J. Gonzalez.
I love you forever shad0w0lf no matter what!
Posted 18 years agono matter what i love shad0w0lf and my feelings for him will never change at all. now i think we are in true love, instead of just love. am very glad to have him and i wait everyday and read anything i got from him or anything about him everyday. i truly want him and want to be his lover of course. the wait is very hard on me, but my love for him will help me over come. please wait for me shad0w0lf as i will for you. someday will be together at last and be more happy together than most couples can ever be.
I LOVE YOU shad0w0lf
shad0w0lf and my feelings for him will never change at all. now i think we are in true love, instead of just love. am very glad to have him and i wait everyday and read anything i got from him or anything about him everyday. i truly want him and want to be his lover of course. the wait is very hard on me, but my love for him will help me over come. please wait for me shad0w0lf as i will for you. someday will be together at last and be more happy together than most couples can ever be. I LOVE YOU
shad0w0lflife is going to difficult for a while.....
Posted 18 years agowell after lewis and my brothers actions, it going to take me a while to absorb the blows and recover. am sorry, i can't do much these days. am trying my best to get my art up and sumbit like i always do. my brother takes most of computer time, so it hard. i try my best to over come all these problems. i don't want my family sued over that kid who wanted to see what my brother would do. plus a friend bratyraling you for three years really destorys you pretty badly. sorry..........
lewis faked our freindship to use me as cover from the polic
Posted 18 years agoi can't be belive what i just be told by jason on the phone today. he found out from his family directly. he told me lewis was arrested and he caught trying to steal swords and guns from his friend robert. i found out that lewis all these years faked being my friend and jason friend to steal from us and make himself look not susupesious from the cops by having freinds. he even played his new regilious family for fools by using them to steal from and give him a place and enviroment that would not arouse the police to think he would plotting any crimes.
i found out he stoled money from the anti-drug group at my school and he even stole money from the collection bin at his church. lewis even tryied to rape my friend jason's girlfriend maria. i can't belive this i was used as cover to hide from the police and jason too. so he really did steal yuigoh cards from me, i tried to look the other way to think he change, but i was wrong. he fooled everybody into thinking he was a good person.
EVEN AFTER WE SAVED HIM FROM KILLING HIMSELF, HE STILLED PLAYED US FOR FOOLS. i really was his friend and he just was using me. for THREE years he faked our friendship.
HE BRATRAYED HIS FAMILY, ME AND JASON AND EVERYBODY ELSE. i can't belive i did not see the sighs and noticed this eailer, i belived he would change. I can only blame myself for not seing this coming even after his recent actions were odd and questionable.
i found out he stoled money from the anti-drug group at my school and he even stole money from the collection bin at his church. lewis even tryied to rape my friend jason's girlfriend maria. i can't belive this i was used as cover to hide from the police and jason too. so he really did steal yuigoh cards from me, i tried to look the other way to think he change, but i was wrong. he fooled everybody into thinking he was a good person.
EVEN AFTER WE SAVED HIM FROM KILLING HIMSELF, HE STILLED PLAYED US FOR FOOLS. i really was his friend and he just was using me. for THREE years he faked our friendship.
HE BRATRAYED HIS FAMILY, ME AND JASON AND EVERYBODY ELSE. i can't belive i did not see the sighs and noticed this eailer, i belived he would change. I can only blame myself for not seing this coming even after his recent actions were odd and questionable.
how would protect the ones you care for ? meme
Posted 18 years agothis is a speical meme, i request of a meme king i know to make for me and let me copy it for my use since he made it for me anyway.
answer this special meme i recivced and be honest.
1. if i were threaten to be killed what do you do?
2.if i wanted to end my own life what would you do?
3. if i needed a organ trasplant and you could donate would you do it to save me?
4.if you saw me on the ground bleeding to death what do you do for me?
5.if you saw some bullies bother me, what would you do?
6.if i was sad because somebody hurt me what to do?
7.if you saw me lemping out in the middle of street what would you do?
8.if you saw a gun pulled at me, would you take the bullet?
9.if i was in a fight would you jump in to help?
10if i need to walk to bad part of town would you walk with me their?
11. would you protect me even if the troblue i got into was my fault eniterly?
12. if i said weird things would you help me overcome?
13. if i was sent notes about people wanting to hurt me, what would you do?
14. if my family was abusive to me and was crying would you stop them?
15.if i needed you to give a few bucks to save myslef from a man that in the mob , would you do it?
this meme was specially made for me, by the meme king i know him as leit.
answer this special meme i recivced and be honest.
1. if i were threaten to be killed what do you do?
2.if i wanted to end my own life what would you do?
3. if i needed a organ trasplant and you could donate would you do it to save me?
4.if you saw me on the ground bleeding to death what do you do for me?
5.if you saw some bullies bother me, what would you do?
6.if i was sad because somebody hurt me what to do?
7.if you saw me lemping out in the middle of street what would you do?
8.if you saw a gun pulled at me, would you take the bullet?
9.if i was in a fight would you jump in to help?
10if i need to walk to bad part of town would you walk with me their?
11. would you protect me even if the troblue i got into was my fault eniterly?
12. if i said weird things would you help me overcome?
13. if i was sent notes about people wanting to hurt me, what would you do?
14. if my family was abusive to me and was crying would you stop them?
15.if i needed you to give a few bucks to save myslef from a man that in the mob , would you do it?
this meme was specially made for me, by the meme king i know him as leit.
