THIS bitch.

https://www.weasyl.com/~morisan

I like it so far. c:

Because most of them were shitty anyways.

And I'll try to do better.

I mean seriously...I just had Kolby over and all she did was play on her phone and say she was going to Lily's after she visits us. Well come to find out she lied and said she was actually going to go to the refuge instead! And to put the icing on the cake, she said she wanted to hang out with me...but she never said anything.

What, do I only exist when she wants or needs something? Cause all she does is just come over for weed and food. Just...I don't understand people these days...I just can't handle this sort of "friendship" these days....what IS friendship anymore? Its like it has no meaning anymore...

I'm so stuck...

Lately its been rather boring at home besides helping my mom out.
I haven't been feeling so great and its been quite a hassle getting through days.

But I will be posting small things here and there. I promise.

Okay, I am really really unsure about my mood today. I have been really bored and still having some issues with art block and I have a huge headache.

So I'm kinda lost.

So to make myself not-so-dead, I'm going to find some more old sketches and/or sketch some random ones.

Because right now, I'm having some issues with artwork, I really have no idea what to draw right now and I honestly don't want to go through all that. I don't have the time for it, because I'm wanting to do some in real life stuff for a change. Fah ahhhhh emermerg

whatever man.

I went to Kolby's birthday party, and despite all the drama and the pissy attitudes (which I have a pounding headache from) because we had to rake the leaves before starting the party, it was amazingly okay. Didn't really do much, wasn't much of sorts, but we did get to see a good movie called The Hole, in 3D, so my eyes are still trying to adjust back to my regular glasses. Also, I have a new cartoon look, if you haven't seen it, its in my featured. And, yeah, I'm getting a Chrome Book, I'm done with this laptop, its too bulky, its too fucked up.

And my friend, Lily, is having some trouble and is upset, and I really do not blame her fro the drama cause its not exactly drama if I can put it that way, she's with my newest Anime buddy, Tyler, and well, their relationship has been extremely rocky for weeks, and I'm trying to be a good friend to her as best as I can and try to help her out with it, but she's nearly to the point where she doesn't want to but she'll have to leave him because even for her birthday party (which was a couple of weeks ago I think) Tyler was late getting there because this idiot named Mitch always has to have Tyler go with him to either Billings or Joliet for something, and when it was Lily's birthday, Tyler was late because Mitch needed new speakers for his car. Retarded, right? Well, as if THAT wasn't bad enough, this time, Kolby's party, he didn't even come AT ALL because MITCH needed his car fixed and they were all cooped up in Joliet. Extremely retarded, isn't it?

Tomorrow has disappointed me because I wanted to help out to feed the horses, and since it was very muddy today, I figured the mud would dry off tomorrow, well, Kolby pipes up and says, "Wait, no, I have plans to go to Joliet tomorrow." And I asked her for what kind of plans. She says, "I was planning on going to Katie's and getting drunk." I blinked in surprise because we all know what's been going on with Katie, but to top it off, Kolby just goes on and on about how horrible, stressful and annoying Joliet is, even though she goes back to the place. I kinda want to say something but I'm afraid I might get her mad and it might ruin our friendship.

I just wish all this drama would stop. And I'm sorry for that long ass story, I just needed to vent. I have a huge headache, a bad stomachache and just so tired from today... I don't want any drama, I just want it to end.

Sup, so, my computer's battery is loosing its power so I need a new battery, either that, or I need a Chrome Book, which would be nice, they look pretty good.

And I'm trying to get over my flustered emotions over this really cute chick right now as I figure out how to make my profile seem not-so-dead by posting at least traditional art because MS Paint just took a shit and took away the Undo and Redo buttons l:T So, yeah, I look like an asshole right now. l8C

Look, I know I said I was going to try to get back to school and get it over with, but that didn't happen.

I try to make an adult decision, I get burnt for it. Because I fell victim of the gossip and rumors about me, and its spread so fast that its nearly everyone in the school, even the homosexuals!!! I have an F in Biology class because of this shit, and I feel like a total failure for my parents because I've tried to not to get one F any subject...its killing emotionally and mentally so I fucking quit. I've tried so many times with school, its gotten to the point where the TEACHERS don't fucking give a shit and just shrug it off because "its happens all the time". MY GOD! I'm...furious and upset about this shit! I can't fucking stand schools anymore. Too much shit... Not only that, the gal I thought was my friend Kolby, she treats me like shit. I only exist to her when she NEEDS something. When she comes over, she doesn't come over to see me, she comes over for the weed and just plops on the furniture and its not even her house. She even embarrassed me when she told nearly EVERYONE in Biology class that when I get stoned, I will not shut up. Yeah, I don't, but I can';t help it, I'm trying to at least be happy. But I can't have people knowing my business!

Which is why I've been resorting to fantasy and plague doctors just to keep me sane and happy. I hate this generation, its a piece of shit, and I am not sorry. I'm not sorry for anything, my choices, my desires, my following of my heart. I am not sorry for anything. So, as a result, I am going for my G.E.D, go to community college to do film study and go to Film School. Fuck you bitches. Offended? Your loss, not mine.

Okay don't get me wrong, I love my new school to death, believe me, its got great teachers, my favorite of which is Mr. Hennsaker, the art teacher who lets you draw whatever the hell you want, but its the kids inside the school who drive me nuts and make me want to shoot myself, and so does my relative Kolby. Because there's these four kids who are my age and Kolby's, Kaleb, Cameron, Austin, and Angel who are all fucking little shits.

First off, there's Austin who's bugged me since starting that school. He's a hypocritical little shit who likes to call me pistachio because of my hair and he has a problem because I'm starting like girls more than guys. Its like, who fucking cares you fucking moron, there is gay men inside the school but didn't stop you from complaining about that, now did it??

Second, there's Kaleb. This little fucker decides to poke at my journal while I'm writing an assignment and asking me "What's that?? What are you drawing?? What are you writing?? Is that your diary??" its like that's none of your fucking business ya prick! But to put the icing on the cake, he takes a wooden cylinder and starts poking my journal with it. I took it from him and threw it to the hallways that has the door that leads to the Agriculture class and shop. And I should've threw it at his face.

Third, Cameron, all I can say is, he has a fucking staring problem who thinks he can do whatever the hell he wants when he wants.

Finally, there's Angel. Whom I've already had to call her out because one my most biggest petpeves is the ghetto neck thing. And I told her to not do that because if she does, she'll get hurt. I was being nice and trying to warn her about it and she just gave me this attitude, again, the "I can do whatever I want" attitude. So AUSTIN pipes up and goes, "Oh, don't take that shit, Morgan!" And I said, word for word, "I think what I said was enough." And he goes, "Well I don't think she knows what you're talking about." I said, "Well then that just proves to me that she's a dumbass cunt who thinks her shit don't stink." And as the big cunt she is, she scoffed and said, "I'm telling!" and I said, "Good, go cry to the teacher because she's going to ask you what you did."

Yeah, just...yeah, I hate people. I just hate it when there's kids at school who don't even deserve to go to school for their shit, or even be out of their house. Just, that kind of behavior just drives me nuts.

Yeah, I don't like this, but its for my own good. I need the education because if I keep going at this rate, I'm not going to go anywhere so might as well get school over with. I hate leaving my mom alone with my little brothers with how destructive they can be, but she is very proud of me, so I am going to take this chance at least.

Also, I'm free for art trades but don't be alarmed if they're late, it'll be because of school but they will be done regardless! So if anyone would like to do an art trade, sure, order up ^^

Well, basically all I can think is eat less, draw more furries, anthros, furry porn, voice act, sing, and get the first chapter of Day of the Mirror. That's all.

Great, 17 years old and I still don't have a job X'D

eeyup. Well, to be completely honest with you, I'm even more happier than before! But health wise, I'm not so great. Other than that, fine and happy. (For once.)

Sorry for the hiatus on the art, just been trying to focus on more Gmod things because some of my friends and other Gmodders are encouraging me to do so. c:

Anyways, that's all for now. Talk to me perhaps?

I've been playing with a new style so I can focus on other things I guess. I'll submit only a couple things that I want to get off my chest because of the read mode on FA. That's about it.

I AM SO PISSED AND FULL OF FEELS RIGHT NOW!!!!! If you watch Walking Dead then you know what I'm talking about. Just so pissed off I can't even....GUH!!

I started to look back at my old stuff from....maybe over a year ago and all I could think was "omg....ew..."

Dude, right now I'm so immature and stoned, I can't even think. But I will however post an update. We're in a new place finally, a trailer, but it's better than a fucking hotel to be honest. Lately, it's just been Regular Show that's on my mind because I hope my obsession of it lasts longer than my GTAgasm did, because my GTAgasm only lasted a month and I hated it because I really wanted to be a part of Rockstar Games but now it doesn't even apply to me. The only thing I imagine is just working with JG Quintel, because he's one of my top idols and I respect him for his cartoons, and I wish I was as great as he is, but no matter how hard I try, people just don't see any talent inside me whenever I try posting my ocs, except for my family but that's just because they don't understand what Regular Show is, but my mom does.

Anyway, so...I would like to post some more furry and anthro art but I'm seriously not up to it at this point because I'm trying to focus more on here than on deviantART but with me being so vigilant with my dA messages, it's a bit rough. You know how it goes. So...shiiiiiiit.

Not only because am I having a job but because I’m actually thinking of going back to school. My friend Coby suggested it, besides Hayley/Shadow. And yeah, I have been considering it, I need the education and it’s practically boring during the day if you ask me XD So, I’ll only have one maybe two hours of computer time. Sorry. :c

And I've actually been eating healthy, such as parfaits, sandwiches and limited rice with seaweed. I guess I'm doing okay...

Mhmm...coming back on here is a bitch. Also, it's going to be more fo a problem than it is now since I'm getting a job at Wal*Mart, and my computer time will be limited as fuck with GED studies and work.

I'm sorry to say this but... Real Life is more important than computer? I know most people might be a little pissed at me or actually proud of me but seriously, I've only had time to draw at night, but during the day, there's duties to do and I hardly to get to draw AT ALL, except of course at night besides dinner and dishes.

Sometimes trying to get out of bed is hard, even for most people, I've noticed. I feel like I haven't slept in days, but I really have. Maybe it's because of waking up in the middle of the night. Idk. Also, because of my stressed out and moody attitude, I've been slacking A LOT on chores and even taking my birth control pills. I know, most women do it at my age, but I can't help it. I'll tell myself to take it at a specific time, but there's that certain laziness in me that says to take it later. Harsh.

Oh, to clear everything of my GTA act, I've decided to take a break from that for a while, and have my obsession of Regular Show. How awesome would it be to have mortals and immortals live together? This show will tell you. :)

I apologize for everything, guys. So please don't think I forgot all about you.

Stuff came up. Equestria Girls, and the new Star Wars game. Equestria Girls was good but bad in my opinion, though the Star Wars game is awesome.

I've still been drawing just focusing on FA is a bitch. Been trying to concentrate but something else has to pop up and I have to give up computer time for something else. It's gotten so bad where I have to wait to even eat breakfast or lunch. This is getting to be bullshit.

Also, I hadn't gotten the chance to tell everyone that I'm getting on the boarder line of Type 2 Diabetes, I'm not anemic no more...but my health is getting worse day by day and I can't help eating the same things that I love to eat when I get a chance to or even think about eating. But it's never seeming to appeal to me. Plus trying to find a job is also starting to be a bitch. I don't know what I should do for a job anyways.

I dropped out of school perminatly because not only Public schools but Alternate schools are horrible. I keep getting harassed by boys who won't take no for an answer, all I was doing was trying to focus on my school and not them but they kept pushing me and the teachers won't do shit about it so I'm done. I'm done with school; I'm going to get my GED and go off to night school. Then after film school for a couple of years, it's traveling for me. Peace.

Anyway, that's it, just wanted to let you guys know.