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I feel alone, so often, unwanted, unneeded, just a waste of space. I'm sick of this feeling yet nothing i can think of will cure this affliction. it's all on my shoulders to change my routine, to invite new possibilities and to find new things to share with people. but i don't want to change, i want to be loved for who i am, desired for what i have, needed for what i offer. Why is it that i can't just be me and i have to be what you want me to be. Why won't this feeling go away and leave me in peace instead of pieces. I dance on the edge of a sharpened knife, one false step could end the night. if pain is proof that you live, why would anyone want to be alive? this feeling in my core, emanates throughout my person, a crushing emptiness that consumes all thoughts of joy. The only distraction, being someone's toy. Just for a while, until they get bored, then i go back to being needed no more. back to square one, 1 step forward, three steps back, i stare into the sky as the night turns black.