I hope you still remember me?
I just wanted to share what's on my mind—that I'm terribly afraid. I'm afraid that everyone will forget about me.

I was doing better some time ago. I even managed to finish a commission two months ago and thought the illness had retreated, but everything has come back.
I'm not drawing again.
I've locked myself at home again and don't go outside.
I've stopped keeping in touch with everyone, and I can't even remember the last time I saw my friends or family...
I've closed myself off and now I'm just a shadow, a hollow shell of the person I used to be.

My therapist has changed my medications again, and once more, I'm just hoping that I'll start to feel better.

But I'm so very scared. I'm afraid that by the time I come back, there will be no one to return to, and everyone will have forgotten me...

Hello everyone, my darlings. I just want to remind you that I’m still here—still fighting my depression, still trying to crawl out of this swamp and solve my problems. I’m still pushing through art block and drawing, but I won’t make empty promises about deadlines anymore. Every time I think, ‘This is it, things are getting better, I’m back on track,’ something happens again, and I break down.

I remember all my commissions, all the pending trade parts, and I feel so terribly ashamed and sorry for dragging everything out like this.

And to those of you who still believe in me—even when I can’t believe in myself—thank you. Your patience feels like tiny lifelines I don’t deserve, but I cling to them anyway.
Grief is a spiral, not a road. I’m sorry if my apologies sound like broken records; just know that each one carries the weight of all the previous ones. I’m trying, even when it’s invisible 🖤

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Today, March 3, I turned 26 years old!
I'm very happy that you all are with me and that you enjoy my creativity ~
Thank you so much to everyone who supports me! Especially now. I am very, very grateful for your responsiveness and warmth

If you would like to leave a donation:
https://hipolink.me/mothermothermor.....for-my-cake-33

THANK YOU VERY, VERY MUCH ♡

I apologize for disappearing for a while..... After the loss, I fell into depression and hardly painted anything, made little progress on my commissions, mostly taking new commissions to live on.
Antidepressants, which I was prescribed by my doctor, stopped working and the psychotherapist prescribed a more potent drug venlafaxin, which I have been drinking for two weeks.
My body's adaptation period has passed and I'm glad to be back to painting again.
Thank you so much to everyone who supported and continues to support me during such a difficult time!
And thanks to customers for their understanding and patience, I really appreciate it.

I apologize for the long absence, my father recently passed away and it's a big blow to me. He was my favorite person in my family and I will be in mourning for a while.
I'll get back to painting as soon as I can.
Thank you for your understanding.

Yesterday I found a new social network for me, very similar to Twitter and created an account there! I'm really looking forward to growing it, so I would be GREATLY grateful to anyone who subscribes to me!
Thank you so much for your support!!! ♡(˃͈ દ ˂͈ ༶ )
https://bsky.app/profile/mothermort.bsky.social

...It's my birthday today (March 3)
and I turned 25 (consider me TOTALLY an adult now aha haha) ⸜(｡˃ ᵕ ˂ )⸝♡
I don't really know what to write about this, but I'm very grateful to all of you for following me! ~
Thank you so much, my sweeties ^^

I love You ❤️❤️❤️

...If you happen to want to send me a donation (I'll just be happy q___q):
https://hipolink.me/mothermothermor.....birthday-party

and this is a tutorial on how to make a payment: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/55669761/

(Since hipolink doesn't list the sender of the donation, please post in the comments that you sent it so I can thank you!)