Still can't upload with this shit connection. Ugggh.

I'm collecting quite a bit of size play macro micro themed art, due to the fact that my phone's internet connection is utter shyte, I can't upload.
Anyways have a good night furry niggas.

I pushed you so far away,
That you left me so far behind
It's so much colder without your light
When I know I will never feel the warmth of your hearts confines
I just wanted to say,
That I still think of you day after day,
As I twist and turn beneath the crushing weight of a hopelessness that never goes away.
Every last word I spoke to you so far from true.
With all my mistakes that  separate me from you
I only wish you knew the ways I break now that we're through.


Life without you leaves the world I see dull and flavorless, everything around me rendered in fading colors. Every second spent without you, lingers for what seem like hours. I decompose Inside this cheap motel room,
insides cooking to the consistency of glue,  wish I knew that there was a chance I could proove that I'm not who I've been to you. I'm dying to get a fresh breath of relief from the ways missing you suffocates me.
With one last ember of hope I tried to ignite a fire so bright, you'd forget the lies that bought me the ache of  goodbyes.
One last ember, burning in vain.
Still smoldering but not hot enough to catch flame. Do the last vestiges of our memories still linger so I can truly feel the pain, of watching the love we shared fade away?
I never thought I'd meet the day, when you would leave me to everything I deserve. I never knew you could make me bleed, simply by not saying a word.
With one last ember I spoke, only to watch it smolder and smoke,
For one last ember, I spent my breath, only to watch it flicker and fade,
Growing cold glowing weakly in pale shades of blue,
I never thought I'd lose you.
I feel as if to you I never meant much,
Or else I wouldn't have been this easy for you to crush

Dead kin,
Smoke sin
Cold light illuminates glassy eyes,
Nothing left inside,
Searched the city scarred and scathed
Lost in it's streets like a hopeless maze to tangle me up in the anxiety that the world can hear the thoughts inside of me.

  beneath this tired bitten bleeding sky
I sought out the truth in lies cloudy and synthesized.
The ghost moons forlorn indifference
Makes me think of my lack of penitence
I think I like my purposeless life just fine, make the deciscion to fight for love, or die in the arms of your empty muse, it's desolate figure steals the breath from you, when you try and make it your truth.
Oh why!? Why do we have a variety of ways to piss away the love he gave?

So many poisons,
But I found mine,
Fell in love with the process of
Bleeding the diamonds from my eyes
And crushed beneath credit cards,
Oh how I loathe your cold disregard

I've never felt lonliness , so desperate to freeze my heart, so I'll forget the sorrow, and Don another scar. You know, I never walked away from home this far, I never seen the stars furious crimson glow, I never felt my heartbeat cease its rhythmic flow.


Bruised pallid and blue,
In the aroma of a psychosis
I own this diagnosis,
Nothing left of the love I used to feel,
I lost faith that the love I gave was even real.

Life told me a cosmic joke to which were all the punchline.
You got your wounds and I've got mine,
No escaping this life in peaceful Somnolence, no slipping away into blissful inexistence.
Beyond the bounds of mortal tethers,
There is a place we'll live forever.

So what are you waiting for?
Incinerate your soul,
Life is a joke,
I like the taste of vapors,
And memories in smoke
I sold my salvation,
Just let Me ride this wave of infatuation,
Just let me feel the caress of my souls dillapidation.

"Taste of decay"
My withering wills dried up and blown away,
My testimony choked out in vain,
The threads of my sanity broken and frayed,
I run so far away into the arms of outer darkness I've strayed.
To bathe in the black flames of dismay
Tantalizing the tongue of the grave.
I am weary dry and laid to waste like scattered remains I'm a carcass eaten by the corrosion of Shame.
Losing the desire for the dawn of day. Chasing the shadow of death for another taste of decay.


Poem I wrote