By going here: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4366151/ and following the instructions.

Shalinka is an amazing artist with one of the most sexy and adorable characters I've ever seen!

Her style is beautiful, well done (both technically and aesthetically) and as such, this is a great opportunity to help her and maybe score some of her work for yourself!

What are you waiting for!?

So, yeah. I barely draw these days. It's been long enough, that I kinda feel like I've lost the knack for it. Things that I used to do fairly easily take a lot longer now and honestly I just get depressed half the time I pick up the tablet. Recently though, I've had a bit of incentive.

See, a friend of mine (who is an artist and has her own webcomic... two actually!) kind of expressed a bit of sadness when she heard that I was thinking about giving up drawing all together due to what I mentioned above. She expressed hope that I wouldn't give up and that I'd keep trying because she'd really like to see where I go with this hobby of mine. It wasn't much, but that little bit of encouragement planted a seed but wasn't quite enough to get me going just yet. That was about two, maybe three weeks ago. Fast forward to last sunday: I find out that her birthday is coming up. As usual, I have no idea what to get her (I'm bad at birthdays, Orz). All I really know about her at this point is that she loves art and honestly just loves watching people draw and enjoy themselves with art.

So, my solution? 1 sketch a day for this week. I've allowed myself 1hr per sketch and I write an accompanying journal entry (short, 1 maybe two sentences) explaining what I drew and why, and what I was thinking about at the time. The focus is to show her how much she inspired me.

I'm pretty set on this as my gift to her.

The reason I'm writing this is because 1) I plan on sharing the sketches that I like and 2) I kinda feel bad that people watch me and I haven't actually put much, if anything, out in a long time.

So yeah. I'm not dead and might not be giving up on this whole art thing. Yay?

Edit: I think I'll just upload them as scraps for now, since they're mostly going to be messy sketches.

Is not something I'm going to do. Seriously, if you really wanted to know you would have spoken to me already. Not that I'm incredibly social, but I try to at least not be a total dick to strangers.

(seriously though if you guys actually want me to answer any of those questions feel free to ask in the comment section, I'll probably answer)

So, pending on what happens with a refund from Air Canada that I'm waiting to hear back on, I may be going to Anthrocon this year. I'll likely be getting my own room again (no roomies, sorry) but I'm still a bit up in the air about it. If I'm going to do it my way (which is to say, get my own room) I'm going to need to decide soon. That said, given that there's a lot of people who go that I don't enjoy, my primary concern is those who are going that I do enjoy being around. So.. you going?

and you should check it out!

Go to http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3017548/ and enter, it's easy. You don't even have to pay, just comment and (optionally) post a journal about it! How much easier could it get? Good luck to all who enter!

Alright, that's over now, and supposedly I won. o.o

I *never* win anything. This is completely awesome.

I'm still alive. Work got hella busy and motivation went way down. Still not drawing actively, but I had a bit of fun with a halloween ID.

So, s'up with you?

I'm really bored and can't sneak in any further work on the sketch I've got going.. so you get a meme that I took from someone.

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Where are you staying?
The Omni

What day are you getting there?
Thursday afternoon

Who will you be with?
someone

Who will you hang out with during the convention?
 missmab  damaris  kelmar  kv1nn4 ... and others.

Are there any panels you might be attending?
I haven't actually looked to see what panels would be going on. I tend to go to the opening and closing ceremonies, as well as art tutorials.

Are you attending any stage or public performances?
Not really. I don't like spots where I can't sit and be more or less anonymous.

Will you be suiting?
Not a bloody chance. I find that stuff highly creepy.

Which suit(s) will you be bringing?
Creeeeeeepy

Do you do free art?
Eh, very rarely. I need an inspiration and when I'm on vacation, inspiration to draw/work isn't often there.

Do you do trades?
Nah.

Do you do badges?
Nope.

Do you do commissions?
Nu-uh.

What are your limits to drawing?
Limits? As in what I won't draw? Highly subjective, but in most cases there's no: Cub, Scat, Watersports, Gore, Vore, Rape or Extreme bondage. In terms of what I can't draw? Oh my, we're going to be here a while...

What is your gender?
Male.

How old are you?
28, though my birthday isn't too far away.

How tall are you?
6'2"

Are you taken? Are you looking for a 'mate'?
Dating someone for almost a year now. I've always found the term 'mate', in this context, funny. Oh you, furries.

Can I talk to you?
Sure, but you probably won't like it. I've got a bad habit of being somewhat of an opinionated prick. I try not to be, but it doesn't always work.

Can I touch you?
Unless I know you and/or tell you it's ok? Fuck no.

How can I find you?
If you're reading this, there's a good chance you've seen a picture of me. That should make it easy. That failing, you can ask some of the folks I'll be hanging around. I'm sure they'll be more than happy to rat me ou....tell you where I'm hiding.

Can I visit your room?
Are you one of my friends? No? Then no, no you can't. Even then, possibly not. I like my privacy, yo.

Can I buy you drinks?
You can pay for them, yes. I don't trust anyone to handle my drinks. If they're sealed, then yes. That would be fine. Besides, do your wallet a favour and don't buy me drinks.

Can I give you stuff?
Sure, but I don't promise that I'll like it. Folks tend to give 'gifts' that have no thought behind them and then get uppity when you don't kiss their ass for it. Drives me insane.

Can I hug or snuggle with you?
This is the same as the touching thing. Not big on the touchy unless I say it's ok.

Are you nice?
To folks I like, yes. Otherwise... I'm fairly neutral.

How long are you going?
I'll be there Thursday afternoon and leaving Monday morning..

Do you have an artist table?
No.

Do you have prints/CDs?
Nada.

Will you have art in the Art Show? General or Adult sections?
No siree.

If I see you, how should I get your attention?
Just walk up to me and say hi?

Where will you be most of the time during the day/s?
The last two years I've been either in the zoo, my room or running around and getting stuff for  missmab,  kelmar, and  kv1nn4 . I'm very much their bitch at conventions.

What/where will you be eating?
Whatever strikes my fancy at the time, really. I'm on vacation!

Can I come with you for food/fun/etc?
I'm not the most social person, but if you ask and I'm not cranky, sure!

Can I look in your sketchbook?
Yep.

Can I draw in your sketchbook?
If you want.

Can I take your picture?
No. I don't like having my picture taken. Never have. Maybe one or two others are allowed. That's it.

What's your goal(s) for the con this year?
I'm on vacation. Fuck goals.

So. I'm still alive. Doing pretty good. I still draw on occasion, just haven't had much inspiration. I've thrown a few things up but not much to speak of. How you guys doing?

No, not me. I still only draw for fun. Someone far better than me however,  whitedragon , is. Check out his page for more details. The man does incredible art: beautiful paint colours and bitching line work. He's incredibly professional, has great prices and was a flat out joy to work with when I commissioned this: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/4552988

Which he was able to do in *less* than 24 hours. Seriously, this guy is worth checking out.

Hey guys,

Look, I hate to do this to you all right now, particularly after gaining a bunch of new watchers here recently (I know I said I wouldn't thank people for watching me, but I appreciate it and am really glad that you like my work), but I've hit a rough patch in my life recently that's made me not want to even draw. I won't go into the details of it, as it's really not relevant to any of you, nor will I do anything retarded like claim I'm leaving forever over my troubles but I will say things might be quieter than usual from me. I'll still be watching this and who knows, maybe tomorrow I'll be singing a different tune but for now, I just don't have it in me to draw. Thanks for your patience, understanding and caring.

So I'm part of a webcast on Sunday nights and they're doing a Play-it-War donation drive to raise funds to 1) Take a bit of the load off of the casters wallets where it comes to buying games and consoles for our viewers entertainment and 2) To help cover some of the recent hardware costs they've encountered to maintain the ability to broadcast. (The webcast is located at http://justin.tv/balade primarily with more info available at http://www.javgw.com )

The first round of voting for this is taking place at http://clockworkmansion.com/forum/i.....ic,7738.0.html with more details on the whole shebang being there. In order to vote you must be a member, as per the forum rules (and who knows, you might just like it in there) but that's a relatively quick and painless process. Forewarned: I am a moderator on that forum so if I catch you guys misbehaving, I will come down on you and not in a good way. ;)

Anyway, I'm voting for Fatal Frame seeings how the actual playing will take place in October. I figured that a nice horror game would be fitting for the month that contains the greatest holiday of them all (Woo! Halloween!).

If you don't know who he is, you should feel ashamed of yourself. Go look at his pictures and fall in love with them. LOVE THEM I SAY! Especially since I've been looking at his work non-stop of late and kinda like drawing his characters. I may do some more of Pleinair and possibly some drawings in a similar style to his. His stuff is incredibly cute.

Ok, I'm not going to likely be able to draw at lunch today due to heading out with some coworkers but I'd like to get folk's opinion on the 3 sketches/doodles that I tossed up over the last two days. Which of the three would you like to see get taken further? How much further would you like to see them? Finished sketch (i.e. details in, clothes on)? Inked? Inked and coloured? Shaded?

My goal is to have at least one of those turned into something half decent by the time I start my webcast on sunday (www.justin.tv/mowser).

Hey all, sorry for the lack of posts. Been failing hard in the art department. I've tossed probably 10 different pictures in the last month or two. I've decided to try and churn something out by this Sunday, even if it frakking kills me. I've got three poses I'm going to try and even if it's only a single damn hideous sketch and nothing more I will submit it. I know that, for the most part, people don't notice when one single artist hasn't posted in a while (particularly one that didn't post that much to begin with) but on the off chance folks were wondering about it I figure I should let you know that I am still alive and still manage to crawl out of my cubicle at regular daily intervals.

Alright, long story short? Mab's (  missmab ) in a bit of a spot. She doesn't want to say anything about it because she feels like she's begging/whining/whatever and that she shouldn't because she still has other donation rewards that she owes.

So I'm asking you to, if you haven't already, show the girl some love. She's been putting out an excellent comic for a good many years and has always been pretty damn nice to just about everyone.

Spread the word, would ya'?

You can donate by clicking on the "Feed the Mows" button at www.missmab.com

They're bringing me down a bit. Someone! Quick! Amuse me! It needs to be worksafe stuff as I am at my desk.

If you do, I'll lurves you foah evah!

Urgh, between trying to be a sociable person and keeping up on my gaming (either personal or for the webcast I do on sundays) I've been too busy to write or draw any, it's terrible. I'm even losing track of the days at this point, such that I noticed that I'm going to have to get to work on a few things. So I'm thinking I'll start up work on the next installment of my fanfiction of Knighthood probably next week, including the art that I plan to have accompany each chapter(as I had planned on making this a monthly thing). I've done a few rough sketches of what I'd like to do for the fanart, but nothing has really settled.

The biggest concern I have at this point is that I'm fast catching up on the story in the comic and would like to write some more to keep people entertained while the katbox crew moves on to their other bonus material. Think folks would be open to a back story chapter of my character in that universe as stalling material? Maybe make it a bit easier on myself by doing art of my own character to accompany instead?

I think I've got a few folks from the Katbox Forums watching me, and honestly I would like to think my regular (and most excellent) watchers are interested in this project too so let me know what you guys think.

Tsundere (Harsh Outside-Gentle Inside)
[x] You come off as sort of aloof to other people.
[x] In public, you intentionally refrain from showing much weakness.
[x] You have a secret obsession with something cute.
[ ] You pretend that you hate your crush even though you really love him/her.
[ ] You blush when people point out your sensitivities.
[ ] You blush when people tell sexual jokes.
Total: 3

Yandere (Gentle Outside-Harsh Inside)
[ ] You’re very sweet and kind in public.
[ ] When romance becomes a topic of discussion, people say your personality changes drastically.
[x] You know some sort of martial art, *swordplay*, or otherwise
[ ] You have a crush who you’d literally kill for.
[X ] You have a pet-peeve that makes you snap.
[ ] Schizophrenic?
Total: 2

Meganekko (Girl-with-Glasses Character)
[ ] You have glasses.
[ ] You can sometimes always be clumsy, ditzy, or absent-minded.
[X] You are always very polite in your speech.
[x] You are fairly intelligent in some field.
[x] You take discipline seriously.
[x] You have some sort of fetish for something
Total: 4

Tsukkomi (Angry Guy)
[x] You have a friend who often makes dumb or embarrassing remarks.
[x] You smack/beat up this friend in some way.
[x] You do your best to maintain a calm facade, only to be thwarted by this friend.
[X] If you & your friend were a yin-yang, you’d be the “yin”
[x] You swear a lot.
[X] You try to bring out the more serious side of your ridiculous friend.
Total: 6

Boke (Dumb Guy)
[ ] You often make silly or embarrassing comments.
[X] You like annoying the heck out of your best friend.
[ ] You often get beaten up by your friend in some way, but you take it in good stride.
[ ] If you & your friend were a yin-yang, you’d be the “yang”.
[x] You are normally very laidback and carefree.
[ ] You try to bring out the happier side of your angry friend. (I don't have any angry friends .3.)
Total: 2

Nadeshiko (Perfect Wife)
[ ] You are always, almost overly, polite.
[ ] You love traditional Japanese culture.
[ ] You often wear either a kimono, yukata (summer cotton kimono), or apron.
[X] You’re an excellent cook.
[ ] You are hardly ever angry.
[ ] You have really long hair.
Total: 1

Sexy Character
[ ] Your bust/package is...formidable.
[x] You like making sexual innuendos.
[ ] You encourage trips to the beach, pool, or onsen.
[ ] There are some sexual things that you are ignorant to or need explained to you.
[ ] You’re an expert cosplayer.
[X] You like the taste of alcohol.
Total: 2

Loli/Shota Character
[ ] You like sweets or chocolate.
[ ] You adore cute things and/or the word “kawaii”.
[ ] You use Japanese suffixes like “-chan,” “-tan,” “-sempai,” etc.
[ ] You add unnecessary suffixes to the ends of your sentences, like “nyo,” “nyu,” “un,” etc...
[ ] You are considered gullible or naive.
[ ] You have a tall/powerful friend who protects you.
Total: 0

Tsukkomi (Angry Guy) for me. Bit of a spattering of Meganekko (Girl-with-Glasses Character) with the exception of I don't wear glasses nor am I a girl.

I am drawing stuff. None of it worth posting. Trying to put clothes on Asha, think that's almost done. Also trying to put together some fan art for some of my favorite comics, but I've not settled on any of that.

Honestly, work has kinda killed my motivation for a lot of things lately so art has been a bit slow. It's been a chore to just stay awake during the days let alone doing art work or even really gaming. I'm trying to shake it off, but honestly, while I don't hate it, I think my job is sucking the life out of me. Not in the good way either, if you catch my meaning.

What's new with you peeps?

S'up?

I've always been very clear where my preferences lay with regards to women. I like strong women. I don't just mean athletic women, but also ones with mental and emotional strength. All forms of strength are fair game. I don't want the shrinking violet. I don't want the seen but not heard girl. I am not captivated by the girl who calls for aid at the first sign of danger with out even thinking about how to possibly solve it herself. I, much like one of my favorite characters, love the Amazon.

Over the last few years, I've done much to pursue those I felt were strong. Who had strength to either match, compliment or exceed my own. The problem became when I started noticing some of those traits I value in their extreme forms, and they honestly scare me.

The first, and most surprising was the woman who was so driven to be independent that to even offer her assistance for any reason was tantamount to insulting her and every woman alive. To offer to carry something for her, was to imply that she and all women were weak and unable to do things for themselves. To offer to walk her home was to imply that she couldn't defend herself or repel potential threats. To even tell her that if she needed to, she could talk to me about her problems was essentially calling her a nervous and emotional wreck.

Scary stuff.

The next one was one who had such a desire to be a the strong and in control one, that she felt she could only ever be with a woman simply because she felt she could never be stronger than or in control of a man. This confused and worried me a bit, especially where now more than ever, men and women are able to live and be seen as equals (Yes, I know it's not perfect yet and there are contradicting points and situations that exist). So why would someone who was so driven to be strong and in control, cow at the thought of trying to dominate a male?

Confusing stuff.

The final one I'll mention was one that I consider an incredibly smart and passionate woman. She was a champion of many causes, attended many rallies and public talks aimed at educating folks about the plights of others. From the plight of women today, to the war torn nations and the world around us, there was no cause she wouldn't take up. The thing was, if you weren't right in the thick of it, you were the 'enemy'. Strange jump in logic, right? I attended a take back the night rally that she was speaking at. I wanted to show my support for this woman who I was so proud of and enamored with. What I got, was something I did not expect, and nor did any of the other males who were there to support these women. By the time she was done talking, we were made to feel that we could not only never understand their plight but that by even just being there, we were exacerbating it. Our presence was just the sad attempt of primitives who could not ever understand, and who were just offering a hollow 'there there, dear', effectively perpetuating the situation and in truth, making a mockery of it.

Hurtful stuff.

They had one thing in common though. In their drive to be strong, they pushed away others. I don't know if I have a point to this, really. I'm confused by it all and struggling to understand it. When did the amazon become the crazy one who only knew how to stand and, ultimately, fall alone? Where did the warrior women who could stand not only toe to toe with men, but also side by side with them, go? Did they ever really exist? Was this always and will this always be a war between the sexes?

Some of you have actually asked where my artwork went. More so, I think because you wanted to understand *why* I removed it. I'll humor you in this. I frankly didn't feel like sharing it anymore. There's a lot more to that statement that I'm not willing to divulge, but suffice to say it's gone and I probably won't re-upload it to any of the spots I share my work. They've all been cleaned out and will stay that way. However, this does not mean they're destroyed. I do have the original files and will be willing to give copies to folks IF AND ONLY IF they agree to not post them. I am not at this time willing to share my stuff with the general public and even some of those who call themselves my friends.

I'm going to take some time and work my art to a point that I feel is worth sharing. This isn't related to the above. The above just gave me cause to wipe things clear. This isn't me starting over, so much as it is me taking a bit of time to work on some things that I feel are required to post art that is worth viewing. I don't feel, especially looking at my peers, that what I was putting up was worth while. I want to put stuff out that I can feel proud about, and I don't think I'm there yet.

Thank you to all those who have watched, faved, commented and given me shouts. I do appreciate the encouragement and the fact that you enjoy my stuff. I'm going to try and do better for you. I don't know how long that will take, but I will try.