hi!!
really happy to tell you I'M WORKING HEH will finish yches as soon as i can!
wanted to tell you i reopened my instagram where will be all my sketches & wips:

https://www.instagram.com/mister_las/

/also if you're interested, you can find there a link to my private acc uwu/

hii
i'm really sorry for being inactive, got some breakdowns and lots of debts
next week will be less amhh hard? soo i'll finish yches (and i hope a comm too!)

god i wish i had energy to do everything

thank you guys
i just
really appreciate that i have you
/love you/

so
during last 2 weeks i finished

ychs & private work
two zines with detailed work (>15 full works)
pack of new postcards
did some posters for my university

today i did about 10 new charms

and
i wanna
just
lay down and sleep forever

(attacked by some anxiety cause of fatigue and have lots of unread messages and need to w o r k and do s t a f f and i dunno can you turn me into a potato and put me to the bed...)

will do yches and comm next week i hope

i'll answer all notes & comments this weekend!
terribly sorry, having troubles
(also'll post finished ych)

hello everyone!
i'm backkk

that means i'll post some stuff and do some staff and more and more actually i dunno what,,,,
maybe there'll be a great post about ireland !
or maybe not
i'm too emotional now and it changes too fast from deep depressive mood to happy overreacting and that hurts a bit and i begin to procrastinate and then again
so
wait for smth
i'm doing things
i'm alive
and that's nice
i guess
or not
i don't know anymore
thank you for reading all this messed words..

hello guys!
I..
I've always had a little dream.. to visit Ireland. Love their culture, and just this country. But..

Had lots of misunderstanding, people tried to assure me that that's strange and even weird. Even one close (the closest for that moment) person to me stared at me as at.. freak? Like that was smth I should feel guilt for.

I'm happy to say tomorrow I'll finally be there.

B-But. These thoughts and memories make me feel anxious again. Remember bad times.

Can you just a bit.. cheer me up?.. wish good luck? Sorry.
I really need this sometimes..

(!) completely forgot about that theme

I wanted to ask you about online shops.
Well.. I have different stuff: about 6 packs of stickers, same amount of postcards, + posters, sketchbooks, lil books are also coming soon. I just.. have no idea where to show and sell it.

I faced with tictail and storveny (hope i'm right), redbubble.
But i know nothing about them.
Ok, i guess i can just seriously read their rules etc....... But.

Maybe you can tell me smth about it? Maybe you have one? Or just prefer certain site?
Which is easier for you or mb you have an experience?

Thank you for attention ❤

i'm really sorry there're so many ych's
need money..... completely broke actually, in some debts and in need to visit my doctor again

hi there
sorry, I'm in a huge mess again
i'll answer on your comments and notes a bit later..
thank you
(sorry again)

I know the person i need to write won't read it.. but. Sorry.
I just need..? don't know what..

I miss you.


Sorry again.
That's so.. weak, i guess..? I hate a bit myself for doing this, but..
agh, will delete it later..

what d'you feel about sketches and so on? about pencil ones too ?

i'm leaving 18 but i'll be able to post here some sketches
or i can give you my twitter??
fulll of depressive thoughts on russian yeaahh..... b u t i'll post art in that case no really
or you know
maybe i can even try to turn back to live my instagram wow

well i dunno
maybe you don't even need it ahahah
anddd don't worry i'll finish all the debts before leaving

h-hah, hello.. i guess it's my b-day today
i don't know actually why i'm writing it
but wanted to share it with you

have a nice day, my dear
i hope i'll have more time and strength for new works..

helloo hello hello
i guess i was absent for quite a long time
and i really hope that for now i'll have time to draw more!

can't say i feel much better
bbbuttt
i want to try to do smth
so be ready for new arts and YCH's! and maybe lil raffle

A-AND
guys
thank you al for watching & supporting me
❤

AAAAAAAAAA.
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.


that's all
nevermind and be okay
i'll just continue to die

hah, you know.. that's the first place where i can really talk and show all the feelings.
even those of them i can't tell my friends (but welllll actually i even don't know who i can name a "friend" now...... hhhahhhhh)

that's so important for me that i can just
write and blow away all these feelings?
and there are people who DO CARE ?

every time you leave a comment or even give advice and support!
i'm so happy.. even cried couple of times because of that, hah, because that was too unexpectable after real world.. ?


i'm also too scared to answer you in comments, so.. sorry, i wish i could do it.

thank you again.
i really appreciate you all.
(i want to say "sorry" again and many times, but i feel like that's too much already for these days)

sorry
i'm just
s o r r y

i have at least to write it all to someone.. you can ignore it
it will be okay

i'm still trying really hard to overcome that damn fucking depression and stop just hating myself
reading lots of psychological books
taking lots of medicines
talking to people that do! care! (but.. not ones i really need.....cause they fucking left me like that??... damn, sorry again)

and sometimes i feel like
at least i can work? not cry?
BUT FUCK
NO
THAT JUST CAN'T STOP RIGHT
that comes to me again and again
making me hate myself even more


BUT. PLEASE.
DON'T EVER SAY SOMEONE
THAT THEIR PROBLEMS ARE "NOT! IMPORTANT!"
and that "there are people who are more in need than you"
more miserable.. or i don't know..

BECAUSE THAT MAKE PEOPLE TO FEEL GUILTY.
you're just making it worse

you know, i'm so damn tired of all that words
i can talk and talk about all of them
i hope one day i'll be able to make a comics or a zine about
"what you shouldn't say to a depressed person"
because i so much want to help... to help people not to feel it all


love yourself, please
YOU A R E IMPORTANT
i wish i could think like that about myself
but one day.. i hope.. i try

we should be.. strong, right..?
sorry.. again

hello,,,
i'm a bit confused to write here.. but how do you overcome your anxiety or depression?.. or chronic fatigue?.. or maybe just thoughts about it
sorry, i know you may be tired of that shit from me.. ohh sorry, really...

----
if you didn't face it (and i really hope that's like that!)
can you advice any films?? cartoons? b o o k s ?
things to do??

Hello guys!
I was just wondering what can I do for you ♥

I'm going to do some more YCH's next month and maybe I can do something special? What are you intrested in? More chibi, males/females, erotic or SFW with background, humans?

Also you can ask for more my OC info (I can do a little ask for you for one of them ~) or even fan-art?