In one week, A possible quarter of my life is gonna be gone. The 24th I turn 25!

So there is a FA goer who apparently takes offense to the fact that artists don't always upload art that people commission from them. They have been calling out everyone who doesn't and some of the artists are people I know. This annoys me greatly.

Since said person made a journal post and prevented comments. I am going to make a journal and allow discussion on it, because I don't live in an echo chamber.

An artist has every right to do with the art they draw as the person who commissions them. Just because they choose not to upload it, that doesn't mean they being assholes. Artists can do what they please with the art and the customer can do what they want as well. I upload all the FA post size pictures I get. BUT I DON'T HAVE TO GIVE YOU THE HIGH RES VERSIONS. That goes the same for everyone else. Artists are not your public servants, the art they upload is not an entitlement to you snot nose assholes who think they have a right to have and use the art that is uploaded to the internet. It doesn't become public property, it doesn't become yours! If you use my art, I am going to tell you to take it down. If you re upload my art, and do not credit me or the artist, than I am going to tell you to take it down. I put it up for you to view, I put it up for my friends to view. But that doesn't mean I am obligated to do so. That goes the same for the artist. They aren't obligated to upload the art if they don't want to. GET THE FUCK OVER IT AND STOP BEING A PRICK....

End rant. This person doing this shit, I hope you see this, and I hope it triggers you like the little offended prick you are.

Where are you new watchers coming from!?!? I haven't even uploaded anything! I appreciate the interest though! I do plan on uploading some stuff soon, just been unmotivated to really do it, that and I kinda want to just upload all my upcoming art at once.

Boy oh boy do I love leg day. I love the feeling of picking up heavy things, pushing my limits, and making new gains...... I also love not being able to walk properly for 2 days! I love being so sore that sitting on anything hard is uncomfortable. I love being too stiff to squat. Stack that all on top of work, and you have quite the awkward work day x.x Fucking leg day man.

Maaaan. Every year is something. Some reason I can't celebrate my favorite holiday.... Here I am trying to stay clean because I'm looking for a better job, and all my smoke buddies are off partying... Feels bad man Q.Q

Hellooo! So, for the past 4 months I have been forced to drive 2 hours a day to a job site north of town. This left me bored of my music rather quickly, and I discovered audibles not long before. SO after listening to the harry potter series and The eldest (eragon) series. I had to branch out. Here are some books I discovered that I think many of you might enjoy if you are into good ol fantasy! The narrators are also AMAZING!

First off is the Night Angel series. By Brent weeks It was a book my best friend recommended to me and boy did he get me hooked on it!

The series starts off slow in the first book, but you are soon plunged into a world of 'wetboys' which is assassins and a corrupt king that rules with terrible power. The magic in this series is called 'talent' and comes in several forms. As well as few other powers which I will not go into as it will provide spoilers. I really can't say much without ruining things. But I will say this. THE STORY IS SOLID AND ENGAGING. There wasn't a moment I wasn't interested and nothing was as it seemed, OR plot twists turned my world upside down. Paul Boehmer, the narrator, did an amazing job with voice acting for each nationality and individual, and his lady voice was pretty good too! Definitely recommend you guys listen to it! This series is also finished so you can dig in start to finish without the cliff hanger making you so mad you can't continue!

Second to go with is the series. Kings Dark Tidings. by Kel Kade

Once again, this series involves a corrupt king and the adventures of a young man named Rezkin. The book starts off with him growing up training in every form of fighting style and weapon with only knowledge of the world outside of his fortress home through books. He soon gets a taste of the world and his ignorance of everything will keep you smiling the whole time. As time goes on More characters join him and once again THE VOICE ACTING IS AWESOME! This book will have you crying, laughing, and angry all together! It is narrated by Nick podehi who did some awesome voices for the nobles, woman, and even Rezkin. Oh my god rezkin! He is so awesome! I really suggest this book to those who love a grand adventure. Now, this series is unfinished, but I think the third book is suppose to come out this year.

Third, The king killer chronicles. By Patrick Rothfuss

The tail is of a man named Kvothe, who is a tavern owner, being approached by a Man wanting to write a book of his adventures. The depth of detail this book goes into is awe inspiring and the writer is a master at his work! The strong emotions I have felt in this book just drove me to listen more and more. While I really can't go into detail with this one. What I can say is that Kvothe is a man of legend, someone who started from nothing and worked his way up with a reputation to rival that of gods. He is no special person however, he is talented and smart, but he makes all the mistakes a young man would growing up. Speaking of talent. The magic in this series is very scientific, very unique. You will be scratching your head at first but as the books go on, you will begin to understand the complex nature of such a cool talent. Nick Podehi is the narrator and he matches the emotion presented in the book so damn well. Expect the raising of a voice, the yelling of an angry person, the sorrow of someone crying. Sink your teeth into this book and you won't let go! Once more, this series is unfinished and the second book was published in 2011. The writer takes his work seriously and takes his time to make sure things are absolutely perfect. Here we are in 2017 and he says he is close, but still doesn't feel he has done a good job with what he has. Here is hoping it comes out this year because DAMNIT I NEED TO KNOW WHAT HAPPENS NEXT!

Anyway, I am on to listening to Metro 2033 as I remember there was a book that the video game was based off of and I want to see how awesome it is compared to the game.

Hope you guys get a chance to read these things, because They will rock your world!

I am fucking bored...

No but seriously. 3 months with very limited internet (mobile hotspot) Has giving me quite the time to think and I thought I would share with you guys, if anyone really cares.

First thing is, I didn't realize how dependent I was. Despite still having some internet to browse the web and check telegram, I spent so much of my time just at my computer. I spent so much time playing games online and have lost my attention span. Now, after so long, I grew detached. I don't feel the urge to just jump on my computer first thing.

Secondly. I realized how superficial most of my friendships are online. Yea I miss talking to my friends, but it really has felt like most of them haven't even really missed me, or have just moved on. Kind of disappointing but at the same time, not really unexpected with how much of the furry fandom is... sorry guys, but friendships seem to be pretty fickle here. But! I do keep in touch with some on telegram, those who don't just shrug me off when they aren't feeling horny or when they feel like actually wanting attention >.> Close friends only, or those who actually care about who I am.

Thirdly. SO MUCH MORE TIME! I Have so much more on my mind anymore and spend long minutes just reflecting on things in my life, keeping up on housekeeping, or even home improvement. I have been able to plan out entire weeks and feel the urge to go out of the house more often. As time has gone on, I have felt even more detached from my electronics and even my phone. I don't even feel the need to take it out of my car at work! I even began to meditate and think towards my future.

Fourth. My interest in the internet has grown specific. If I want to know something, I will still go look it up, search for information. But I don't sit idly around waiting for the next thing to catch my eyes. Even more interesting Is I grow rather bored when I am just sitting online, waiting, or even doing something. Games hold my attention for only so long before I am putting them down and spending time talking with my roommate or playing with Parker.

And finally, fifth. Holy shit I actually am saving money???? So this came as a bit of an interesting surprise. With more keeping my attention and keeping me moving, my mood has improved, and thus, my urge to find things that MIGHT make me happy has gone done. I don't browse amazon, or newegg, or even look for artists here on FA as much, and so, my spending has been cut back. I have started shopping more locally on my outings and even then, don't buy it unless I need it. Pointless spending is almost gone!


All in all, My attention span is coming back as time passes, I find myself more able to remember things and get less distracted. Work has especially grown more productive and with the possibility of starting up carpentry classes, that is certainly good. Really has me thinking about the addictive properties of the internet and just how dependent everyone is becoming, how much craving for attention and affection from those on it seems to be for many. Facebook especially. >.> Who the hell cares if anyone wants to even read this or reply? While I enjoy discussion, I owe it to no one about what I post or say? Before I used to want to make something people would comment on, that shot of dopamine I got when someone did. Now it's just... eh?

Anyway! I do want to make a few more journals just to share with everyone. One such Journal is going to be about books and some very interesting stories I would love to recommend. That will come when I actually sit down again and feel like it. For now, See you around everyone!

Ever have that one artist who draws very well and has great style. But as a fetish that you really don't enjoy. I have several. I'm not into vore, but the artist draws so well, that I look at it anyway.

Super embarrassed to speak of it but I don't really know what to do. I have some bad Dragon toys I bought and never really use. I want to get rid of them but don't want to just throw them out, they are in brand new condition and very clean. So. What the hell do I do with these things?

I just want to say this short little rant and let you guys voice your opinions!

I like me some thick thighs and big butts, but one thing that just does it for me. The very narrow waist, the waist that couldn't compliment anything besides a stick. The waists that despite all odds, manages to hold up giant tits. It turns me off. I have grown more interested in chubby ladies that with the tight waists. Cause the chubby ladies curves fit them in my opinion. PLus, big soft belly.

Mind you, I am not much for chubby irl, in fact I prefer my girls at a average weight with decent thigh width. Or fit/muscled .-.

But really, who else here can't wrap their minds around the view of big assets slapped onto a body like a twig?

My God, this house my roommate bought is.... A pain. It all started with us just needing to build a closet for the washer/dryer in the garage and get internet. Now, come to find, the furnace runs so much and is so inefficient, our bill for the month of December, the which we only have had lived 2 weeks in it, was almost 500 bucks! The Windows need replaced, the plumbing for the a/c condenser is right where the washer and dryer were going to go in a return air vent and leaks, meaning mold.
Oh, and there is no where to drain the washer....

He bought a cheap 1960 house and didn't plan to put 20k$ in repair...

So now the furnace is off, I'm freezing, no internet, no means of washing clothes, and loads of work. Please just abduct me someone v.v

As the title goes! Love all you fuzz balls!

You know what I want to Christmas? Internet please ;3;

After this weekend, I am moving into a house with no internet, yup, none, nada, no hookups to do so.

We are working hard to get cox to install hookups, but of course they are draggin their feet. Seems it might be weeks, to months. Not happy at all :/

Ok, just a ramble, nothing angry or any of that. Pig characters, I don't know why but just in any form, they are not something I find appealing at all. I don't know what is about them but they just turn me off or at least, lose my interest in seconds.

It could be that sometimes they are involved in grosser kinks. Perhaps the depraved ones as well. But man, They could look damn cute and I am just like "eh?"

I can't be the only one with this kinda thoughts of on it. Can I? Anyone else got that one species in the fandom that you just can't even care about or take interest in?

Oh I will just open up my browser real fast aaaaaaaaand bookmarks are gone...

Google has not support, I can't find any way to revert my account to yesterday, and no method to bring my bookmarks back works.

They are gone, just gone. All that was left was reddit, youtube, and facebook......


I hate technology... So much. I will never remember those bookmarks I lost. They were here this morning, not no more



Edit: soooo my google account was on my mom's laptop back home, and in an attempt to clear our my furry stuff. (which I don't understand how, she was on my account considering I deleted everything from that laptop.. that wasn't on incognito) She deleted all of my bookmarks as well as the furry ones.... Fuck my life...

I thought I would at least wish you guys something happy in spite of all this craziness this month. Hope you have a safe and wonderful day!

I like many people, saw this game and read the reviews, it seems like it was pretty good. Only one problem.... It is on origin XD I will never play it, because to me, EA Is absolute scum and deserves to be boycotted until they get off their high horses and produce some decent games again. Also, origin sucks ass...

For being like my..main kink, and huge nuts, I certainly have a lack of it. To do such a thing, I need partners to be filled! I can't afford to get to much more of my characters interacting, 2 person commissions expensive! So if you want, let me know if anyone wants to get some art~! With Elan and his swollen, belly filling nuts~!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRTTTTTTTT DUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUMMMMMMPPPPPPPP! :3

Once again , I am stricken with anger and annoyance at the bigotry taking place right now. It's Fucking over and people are still fighting one another. It's the damn extreme sided individuals that are causing this too. The trump supporters who instead of celebrating, then accepting those who lost as friends. They run around gloating and insulting the losers. The Hillary supporters out in the streets rioting and burning shit, calling for people to die! "Die whites die"

This is not cool in the slightest. Neither side is innocent. I'm disappointed that all those who called for fair treatment and equality. Have turned around and lashed out very aggressively.

I really want people to take everything they heard from the media, from the news, from others, and just let it go. Why? Because the elections are over and it's time to look at the future. Because both sides took part in lots of fear mongering. Protesting and rioting is not going to help, and won't change anything. Trump supporters, hug Clinton supporter. Same to the Clinton supporters. It's time to fix the divide!

Don't start anything in the comments. This is a serious statement I want to mention.

You may hate trump, but he is president now, it happened.. One thing you should take note of, is that the man said
"For those who have chosen not to support me in the past, of which there were a few people, I'm reaching out to you for your guidance and your help so that we can work together and unify our great country. As I've said from the beginning, ours was not a campaign but rather an incredible and great movement, made up of millions of hard-working men and women who love their country and want a better, brighter future for themselves and for their family."

You may not like him, but can't you at least try to work with the man instead of spiting him the whole election?

This is mostly to the LGBT community that are scared. Come forth, try to talk with Trump, present yourselves and your points. He said he wants to reach out to everyone. He doesn't see you as the LGBT, He sees you as fellow americans. So please, give him a chance.


The election is over. Now what steps are we going to make, remain divided, or at least try to work things out and negotiate? What happened to not hating? Because from what I have seen after last night, I am disgusted.

First off, go trump.

Secondly, I want you all to reflect on yourselves during this election. It by far has been the most controversial thing that had people fighting, families torn, friendships broken... It had peeler being violent, lashing out, and name calling.

This brought out the most ugly aspect about us as humans and no one is innocent, even those who don't live in our country took it upon themselves to push their opinions and bully.

I really hope that everyone who ever advocated this election, looks back and then seeks to better themselves as an individual. I know I am.

It is one thing to have a big body pillow with a sexualized picture on it, it is one thing to have a sex toy/murrsuit. THese things can be hidden away so no one sees.
But Are people actually getting art, figurines, sculptures of sexualized anthros.... TO SHOW IN THEIR HOUSE?????? I mean, is the mind so lost to porn that you have to have a naked horse draped on your wall? Or in one case, an orca getting raped by tentacles? Please tell me this is a joke? Why? You that isolated that no one comes to your place, so you just put up porn on you wall to save you the time to search it on google????

Also, GO VOTE TODAY!

The artist with my semi part 2 picture just emailed me a bit ago. So I am going to wait for it to be done before I post everything! Sorry to tease you but I hope you enjoy elan and kaje stuff!