Soooo, 24 years ago, I came out of a cooch.... Ok that was weird. Anyway. Yea, I turn 24 in 3 days .-. don't know what the fuck I am going to do for it as all my plans fell apart of it. Maybe I should try this new go kart track that was just made across from my place... yeaa.

http://i.imgur.com/YCM62rO.gifv

This man, the old spice bro, the actor, the joker, the sexy man, and the master of muscle bouncing.

You are my idol, I love you <3

I am going to start looking in other states, consider my options and get ready to get the fuck out of kansas. I'm tired of this place, tired of not fitting in, tired of being so isolated.

Things I'm looking at, construction jobs, housing and reasonable costs, possible roommates as I would prefer to not live alone. To expensive to live by myself.

If any one can offer me advice, information, and possibly somewhere to go. I would very much appreciate the help.

Every time I make plans, plans for friends to visit, plans to go places. Why? Every time I do, they fall apart just before it happens.... I had so much fun planned for this july and aug. Just some examples. I was going to have an old friend come to visit, canceled because they got a ticket. Was going to see some friends this weekend who flew into a near by town, cancelled. Was going to earn lots of cash for harvest to plan out my vacation. Oh wait, cancel that too, it rained.


It seems that trying to plan ahead for me always ends up failing.... this is why I get anxious, this is why I am nervous. I feel like I don't do things soon, then they will fall to pieces. It is always something out of my control and so my 'live for the moment' and rushed attitude is a result of many failed attempts because of time. God damn I am sad now... the two examples both got announced today...

While I like the play style, the characters, and the feel. I hate the maps. I absolutely get annoyed by the tight choke points in the capture games. While the contest ones were great, anything attack and defend just seems boring, People turtle and win and the layout is almost to tacky. I may get a lot of hate for this post since everyone seems to worship this game, but 3/4 good things doesn't always beat the 1 bad one that can make the biggest influence.

Hit me up and let me know if you want to play! I just got it.

So I am about to hit 1k watchers and want to do something for you guys. I am asking around for artists who would be willing to do a raffle with me. I will cover the costs of the picture. What do you guys think?

You ever have those one friends who at first seemed great, only to find yourself feeling like you are the only one actually trying to keep the friendship going? Yea... I'm done trying. Half the friends I have made have pulled this and I'm not going to put in the effort when I get crap in return.

No not really, but seriously, finally got to cut wheat, started at seven, finished for the day after 18 hrs. Tomorrow? Shooting for another 18! Now. My face is going to slam into the nearest pillow. Goodnight everybody!

Time to turn from construction worker back to farmer as it us that time of year again! I'll be gone all week So seeya guys 4th of July!

Expect art in July! I'm gonna splurge! If any one wants art with me. I'll go halves! Send me a note and maybe any ideas!

So I was rather quiet this weekend on all fronts, kinda that way every year sons father's day. I can't really celebrate it and it is more of a day to mourn. It also serves as a reminder that here in just a bit over a month on the 24th of July is my birthday, and 3 days after that marks the day of my father's passing.

I make this journal in hopes that my birthday won't just pass quietly by like it has for 9 years since it is so close to a less than enjoyable event. I want to plan something, maybe a party? I don't know, it's all somewhat alien. Hell I don't even get gifts anymore after my 18th and I think part of it is I don't ever talk about it, even my relatives have stopped asking me what I want, just handing me some cash and their birthday cards. Which is nothing bad, I just hate asking others for stuff because I feel like a mooch. But in all honesty, everyone can say happy birthday, and that's all I get. Not many have shown much else.

This journal may sound like self pity, and it probably is . But I'm a bit down and don't want to just sit around on my birthday when I will be hitting this low point again. I would really love a present, something with meaning in it, not just bunches of "happu birthdays" which die away in the same day.

I don't like just asking people who's characters I like if they want to get art together, I like making friends before so it's not just some sex picture and so on. But fuck it seems hard to make friends. Like I meet a lot of furries but so few actually get art and trying to get them to collaborate withme seems even harder.

Getting art is just getting boring because it's like 90% of the time it's solo, and I don't have the income to get to many interaction pictures with my characters. Uuuugh why does no one follow up with me.

Just short little rant.

Adoptables would be so much more fun for everything if artists didn't just make one character and recolor them 5 different times. I have a few people I just wanna smack

Some artists actually challenge themselves and make different species and such. The pose means nothing to me, it's the fact that I see a really cool character, then see it recolored and sold as a seperate character.

For instance, a Brown furred bear milf for sale, oh but wait! She has a twin sister of the same height, weight, and everything. BUT SHE IS BLUE!

No that to me is a lazy cash grab and no offense to the artists that do this, but I hope only the original sells.

https://beta.furrynetwork.com/mrspycrabs/


So in spite of recent events, I have decided to start branching out from FA. The Straw that broke my back was finding out that certain moderators are ignoring the code of conduct. I don't sit well with corruption so I am going to start working on my Furry network. I will keep up to date here and still post journals. But know this


If I EVER leave FA or Delete/disable my profile, I did not do that. I was silenced.

I am immune out of this place so my freedom of speech isn't hindered. Furry network allows criticism that is constructive, I can actually share opinions.

To me, this website will be better once the staff finally get's swapped out for actual moderators.

Recently a well know artist uploaded an incestuous cuckolding comic who's characters are obviously not of age. The comic has caused lot of stir in the community because despite the artist saying the girls in the comic were in college, they are no where near the look, they are cubs. Sorry,

The code of conduct that FA is SUPPOSE TO UPHOLD is as follows


2.12

Content featuring minors is prohibited when nudity or sexual activity is present. Minors are real or fictional humanoids with a childlike body or younger than 18 years old, and any adolescent animals.

I as well as other people have reported a ticket about it, well guess what. Our law abiding moderators shut the ticket down without a word. So I'm calling you out! You not so much as responded to explain why this ticket is not valid, you are Fucking defending a popular person despite clearly being the rules. You would take down the individuals comic and inform them not to upload cub porn to this website, but instead you fucks sit on your hands. Do your job or stop being a moderator.


"But dude, it's size play, they are just really small to the men" horse shit, they are much smaller than their own father who is also small and they have literally no WOMANLY features. If even features of a teenager. You guys are defending the very people breaking your rules.


UPDATE; I just learned that said artist IS A MOD! GG FA

No not literally! That would hurt...

Nope I mean, it's been 6 months and I have not uploaded a darn progress picture on my muscle work. The reason? Well, Lately things have not been changing to much. While I do go up in weight on my workouts, I have hit a figurative wall, meaning that my muscles are adapting and getting used to my workouts.

How do you fix this? Variety, keep the muscles guessing. I have been trading around different exercises to trick my body, hopefully enough to stimulate more muscle growth

This also comes at a bad time when stress has been heavy. I am trying to put on mass now, upping my calorie intake to 3k finally was achieved, but to avoid getting a gut, I am having to really push myself to go. I also need to invest in some cardio and maybe spend more than just 45 minutes to an hour at the gym.


GOTTA GET SHIT DONE TO FEEL THE BURN AGAIN! x.x

But do expect an update picture soon, because in 6 months I have bulked up a bunch and my arms have hit the perfect tone~!

I think it would be helpful to the community and possibly help out artists. Sure i get lots of nice art, but my god I see some pretty darn good stuff!

No this is not a critique journal, I am actually interested in just spreading the fun and having some fun discussions


http://www.furaffinity.net/view/20169723/

This pretty picture right here for instance. I love fuzzanonamous! And while it might be a while before I ever commission him, I thought I would just show his stuff off. He collabs with his mate too and they do some good stuff.

This image is what I love most in kinks, cause I admit it. I like being messy! Though I keep being hesitant to actually get art of it. Maybe soon!

Some of the coolest furries I've met seem to always be over the big swimming pool, aka over seas. It's weird that most of the ones I get along with best are all 7-14 hours ahead of me. I get really bummed to when I see them getting art with others and I just never have the time to get to know them enough to get that privilege.

So a shout out to my friends who live over the ocean, I MISS YOU GUYS!

Ever have that one artist watched, who is really decent, but 90% of their art is of their character, in practically the same 3 poses, over and over and over? Despite this, you still watch them, because the art is good, at least, of their character in said poses?


Yea I'm saying it, and more power to the artists who do this, but damn I begin to over look and flat out ignore them until that 10% of variety shows up, which is not always to impressive because of it being so uncommon. No I'm not bashing on these artists, other wise, I'd be stating named, but I'm sure a few of you see this!

In light of all this, I just wish I could draw period, because I have so many ideas, and even one for a comic series, but I would need, thousands of dollars QvQ

To be completely honest with you guys, I find auctions to be a negative impact on both the community and the artists. One once and a while is fine, they do tend to generate a decent chunk of change. But when an artist goes all auction after action, I feel like it really limits them and does not broaden their creativity. Like hitting a wall at the gym, you are limited buy your capabilities. There is no one pushing your limits.


But that works with all YCH. I'm more annoyed about how people get shafted by artists they really love and would want to commission.

I make a decent wage and still manage to have some cash after expenses, but Christ I'm not paying over 100$ for a commission unless the artist is really worth it to me. I've stopped watching several artists I loved because all they do is auctions, and from what I see, unless you auto buy, you never win! Every auction starts small with some major AB sum and some fucker with tons of disposable income snatches it up. It, I'm my opinion, is so unfair, a pay to win If you want to think about it. I miss commissions, I miss the artists who gave out decent art at a moderate rate that fit for the average Joe, instead of looking for those with deep pockets. Because I really feel auctions are just for them

Good to be back home after a long weekend

Though interestingly enough, a new comic by Adam Wan came out. It featured a lab who's wife cheated on him religiously and he himself didn't have the ability to take control of an unfair situation. He pretty much gets bullied around and it kind of urks me with the situations, considering I have been there before... I am not for cuckolding for one reason and this comic really made me realize it.

It might be the fact that I have been cheated on in the past on more than one occasion but I get this strong urge, dominance? Possessiveness? Alpha assertion? I don't know but I always get somewhat angry at the one who is imposing himself and cheating with the significant other.

IT is weird, but as I was reading the comic and witnessing the Lab father get pushed around, I could only feel myself laying into either one of the pricks who were taking over his life. It is a pretty strong emotion too, like the feeling I had when I found out I was being cheated on. But I don't put full blame on the cuckolders either, the significant others would be dropped.

I guess that is my biggest issue with that whole fetish, and why the very thought of actually witnessing it instead of finding out later, would result in me possibly going to town on the shifty bastard.

I can't stand dominants who take from others instead of working for their own partners. Like I said, perhaps its my protective nature as a dominant, alpha. But I would hurt anyone who touched my SO, and if she was going along with it, I would walk all together.

Woof! Finally getting away from town and going somewhere fun for the weekend! I'll see you guys at the lake!

But anyway, you all have a wonderful weekend and stay safe! Memorial weekend may not mean much to some, but it is a paid holiday for me so that is Aye ok it my book!

I am so happy! I put in my application in to the breeder, and got a phone call within an hour on tuesday. They really like it and think I would be a perfect home~!

I put my deposit in and now I just have to wait Q.Q He isn't going to be ready to adopt until memorial day and I won't be in town, soooo I gotta pick him up later.


THIS WAIT IS GOING TO KILL MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! *dies*

Well good news! I filled out an application to adopt a corgi pup~! The lady even texted me later and informed me that she thought I would be a great home~! I am so happy to hear that!

Though, I don't know if that officially means I got him.... I am like, super nervous and even woke up in the middle of the night. I Certainly hope I get him, I might cry if I don't QvQ

https://www.twitch.tv/mr_spycrabs Come watch!