Well todays my birthday and I’m finally at 30 years (technically 31 now but still)

Thanks yo everyone I’ve gotten to know and meet 🐊💚

Surprisingly it is already the new year but wishing everyone a happy one too

Lots happening here but i been very thankful

And finally remembered to post art so i finally stopped slacking

Finally got to it and got my new boyo oc done will be posting his ref sheet and art soon

Feels nice since the new oc is mainly pred while my croc can still be pred but back to being a prey moreso

Finishing up final touches for a new character im getting who will go by the name, Runt
Getting art of him to later share too so i excited ^^
Been meaning to make him a while now

Mmm seems the dreaded birthday has come and gone yesterday but thanks for all the wishes from those and had cake too today woo nice time

After Christmas festivities were done around 6pm I got severe paibs in my abdominal region and went to hospital to learn i got appendicitis!

So this morning later I will be undergoing surgery which Im not looking forward to for it to be removed.

Crazy how suddenly it happened too gonna try getting it fixed up

So every Saturday i do a game night for smash bros,Among us,etc

If anyone wanted to join lemme know for among sus🐊👍

Had a very nice birthday and foods on it

And wanted to make this since I saw the 2200 watcher count, i am so blown away by the support thank to everyone that puts up with my hungry butt ^^
And thanks for all the comments to, just kinda got back home a bit ago

Will also say i start a new/second job tomorrow so i’ll see how that one goes then

Ugh I finally turn another year older tomorrow and it feels weirder
Cant do too much that day so sill likely just binge nom micros or something

I will update saying i do have images to upload tomorrow and that page being updating

Curious who all is getting it
Heard stuff about it so was wondering

Just letting ya know i had things happen and that im still doing what i can, i have moved currently back which has been better

I am also free of the terrible job I was at (not been working there since August) since the store closed due to stuff and karma which was pretty refreshing not gonna lie.

Sorry again for any issues but still just a croc so hope ya don’t mind me

Sorry I probably pushed away everyone
I did see the messages and concern
I dont know really what to do though
Still here though but not sure what to do

Um just going to make this last post ever about how I am, I will say I have reached a new level of depression I did not know was possible um to the point where I can be seen as danger to myself. I am not happy I must admit, the fandom used to be my place to escape but it's became a place where I realize I don't matter and can't overcome the obstacles I'm dealing with in my life. I just recently had to overcome getting bullied for my weak stature where I got picked on especially with my speech.

I dont even know how to fully express the events that have happened but all my turmoil is based off two things.
Money and people/relationships. It's these two factors that I feel like a complete failure in. That and my so called friendships with people. Im giving in finally
This year alone has been the worst. I've lost so many friends, so many jobs, and so much money down the drain.
I'm just defeated, broken. Not only that but I'm just living off plan B since I'm barely managing to stay above water.

I kept asking myself when's it all going to change, is it never? I'm too the point where I'm tired of trying to keep living so hard with putting myself out there and the more I try the more I fail falling even deeper into hopelessness and left to pick myself up over and over...there's so much wreckage burdening me eating me up inside. If I try reaching out for help, i end up pushing people away or viewed in a different negative view. So i bottle it in and whenever something dramatic happens, I break.

Everything revolves around money to function, live, and be satisfied but I can never be satisfied. No matter how much work I do and slave over, I can't save up to get out of the terrible living situation with my family. Especially when I get threatened to be kicked out and had two jobs just to attempt saving up, but the money being leeched off to my family. I can never get ahead.

I no longer feel as if I matter or if anyone cares about how much I constantly struggle day in and out. I cant keep trying to overcome any longer just to fail over and over again. I'm numb and defeated. I'm no longer myself.

Um I honestly hate typing these things out though, its something I need to say though.
All I will say is I am leaving disappearing poofing gone
I dont really think anyone will care that much or notice that I'm gone or disappeared.
So all my projects I wanted and aspirations are dead in the water. Including my character on here. it will be no more croc. It's the end.
I am thankful for the people I met who truly I cherished.
I dont know um i guess this is it, bye bye

Honestly lost track of time but whia 6 years on here? Remember when it was 4 and thought it weird

Little late on the draw but if ya have any questions or stuff about me feel free to ask if curious to know and will answer once i see

In meantime have croc hugs for being so cool

Been a month but posting that I bern working my training as a garden merchandiser at lowes which has been both new and tough but neat

Hoping to save up too since i need too x3

And maybe try to get arts for people, mmok croco out

Heyos just making quick journal about two interviews tomorrow
One is at aflac for bigger pay and other for Lowes so im pretty nervous and will do what I can
Any extra advice/support will help with my stress for sure x3

Besides that nothing much to report in~

Finally remembered to post stuff up
Planning to get more here as well
I did lose my job so been job hunting since then
Aaaaaanndd still a dork so that is all for now ~

Woo so long 2018! Was such a rough year so glad to go in more noms next year!
Made myself a challenge to get vore art every month too :3
Mmok back to sleep now heh night all

Yes yes yes King K Rool FINAAAALLLY is in smash
Now i have my biggest want ever

Wellll im older so yaaay must eat all the candy cake and you know what else :3

Thanks for everyone too and stuffs

Still just not sure what to do x3

Rough past days with rl stuff and family
I’m better though so sorry for being non respondent
I did see what you all said and appreciate you all

I do have upcoming birthday so will be 25 which is both weird and scurry
Im still just a lil croc i swears it!

i never really do these but ask me anything you like :3

croco wants to answer stuffs and hey ask me stuff if ya wanna know more about me if ya so please

dont worry i only nibble a little bit

Been struggling with stuff as usuals

Thankfully i got a new job to work at even if it’s in retail
Other than that I’m just fattening up i suppose

~ Ralph

If you want chance at weapon armor art go here : https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/8708490/