Addition to the previous post. I have deleted all my drawings from all media (flash drives, google disk) and websites that I had access to, and they cannot be restored. The folder containing the drawings (including character references, comics, concept art, gifs, gifts, trades and commissions) weighed 270 GB over a period of five years since 2017. You probably have a question like, "WHY THE FUCK DID YOU DO THAT?!" It's simple, to avoid the temptation to go back to this useless activity and return to social media as an artist. Yes, I wasted these five years by deleting the drawings I've been working on for days, but I don't give a damn about them anymore. I didn't even cry. I literally feel nothing for them, just emptiness and a lot of pain. I don't want this folder to bother me every time. I will not be able to restore the drawings. I'm not going to regret it. In a few days, I'll get rid of the traditional drawings (maybe I'll make a big bonfire, or I'll tear it up in the old way). Five years of drawing on social media gave me the experience of being an artist on social media, this is a useless activity. I really tried to get up, I really tried to post more often, but apparently I'm an unlucky person, or too honest and naive not to cheat and not start scandals and quarrels with popular artists for the sake of black ads. In the end, I want to say that I don't want to convince anyone to stop drawing or creating. Everyone has their own path. Drawing is probably not my path. I want to wish everyone good luck.

I don't want to manage my social media anymore, because it's not my thing. I don't know how to draw popular things for the sake of attention and an audience, and I don't like it. I don't like it at all. For the sake of my mental health, I want to stop managing my social media. This means that I won't be posting my drawings, as they don't get much attention anyway. I'm also canceling my posts about my world, as it might not be relevant to your interests, and you might not find it interesting to read long pieces of text without images. My world is narrow-minded, as I make it for myself, focusing on what I like, rather than on popular topics. I'd rather draw and write for myself, rather than share anything. What's the point of sharing if it doesn't benefit me or feed me? That's right. There's no point. And don't tell me about these philosophical topics about "the soul," "it might work," and "for myself." No, it won't work. I've lost hope. Five years wasted, with my nerves and my psyche. I don't want to remake my world, my characters, and so on for the general public, I like my characters and my world as I designed it and I don't want to change it. It's like changing yourself just to please a co-worker or a new acquaintance. I don't want to change myself, I don't want to pretend to be someone I'm not. I don't want to adapt to the current trend. I'll find another job anyway, there are plenty of opportunities in this world if you know where to look. If someone messages me for an order, I'll take it. I always need the extra money. I won't delete my social media accounts, but I will remove my drawings and posts and leave this message. I'm sorry that my attempts to grow in the media didn't turn out the way I wanted. I'm sorry that you had to witness my burnout and stress. I understand that some of you may have enjoyed my drawings, but I believe that you were more interested in my fans than my characters and world. I think you were only interested in dragons. Sorry again for another farewell, but I can't do this anymore. I want to leave this circle of social media agony. I want to wish you all the best. Goodbye.

Who didn't know, but I decided to close the commissions for six years, as the process of drawing on order has exhausted, emptied, exhausted and does not give pleasure. I do not have time and strength after drawing orders to draw for myself, which greatly upsets me. I just want to embody my own ideas than someone else's. I do not want to beat my clients or something like that. I am grateful to them. I just need time to rest from four years of studying at university and come up with another more pleasant way to earn money. Maybe I'll occasionally take on commissions to pay for expensive services, but right now I have no desire to draw commissions because I feel like I'm forcing myself to do it in order to complete the order on time. I don't like to keep clients waiting. That's all I have to say about commissions for now. Have a nice evening.

I think that I will rarely create finished and detailed art, mostly black and white or color sketches. I will post something unfinished or abandoned, as I do not want to force myself to do such things for free anymore, even if I do not want to finish the work at some stage. My mental state has deteriorated.

I've been experiencing burnout again, which means I'll have to repost and share my drawings again 🥹🥺

Hi guys, sorry for the long absence, I handed in my diploma and finally defended it well. I will receive my graduation certificate soon.

And now to the point, I decided to create a second account for adult content, as I want to separate my content and the audience so that people and I feel comfortable. I'm waiting for everyone who turned 18 here  ninashbluetailart
Telegram channel (18+) — https://t.me/NinashBluetailArt
I post wips of future artwork there and you can chat with me there too.

[b]AND NO, I'M NOT CLOSING THIS ACCOUNT, ART WILL STILL BE PUBLISHED HERE[b]

I appreciate that you still with me after all my burnouts and posts about leaving. I really happy to have you with me. I really regretting about all my artwork deleted from here, but I hope I will repost them time by time along with new arts. Thank you so much for supporting me with fav and comments, you are the best! Wish you all great weekends ✨❤️👍

I quit and delete my social media accounts with my drawings. I don't want to draw or post my drawings anymore. I'm tired of thinking about publishing or drawing faster. My psyche can't take it anymore. My life is not sweet enough as it is. I don't want my drawings to stay online, but I know that's not possible, so I'll just delete them from my accounts. I don't want to make an archive or anything like that, so that there's no hope of returning. I don't think I have the energy to take orders from anyone, so that's it. Drawing only brought me an inferiority complex and insecurity. I don't see anything good in my style, drawings, or myself. I just want to disappear. Forget about me, find normal artists with an undisturbed psyche, and I'll become an ordinary man in the street. Once again, I'm deleting social media from Friday this week. I'm setting a deadline to give myself more time to think about whether I'll regret it or not.

hi everybody. I am currently having problems with the FA and Twitter, due to the fact that my vpn is outdated and cannot give me access to them. I will try to announce this raffle results soon. For now, I will publish my drawings in my tg channel, since publishing via the phone is not convenient for me.

My Telegram (18+)- https://t.me/+kEQRNs-IgNk0YzAy

You will see my arts, wips, sketches, sheetposts there. I also want to do raffles there as well. Please consider to join.

Thank you everyone for 630+ watchers, i very happy that you watch my work and sometimes take orders, so I decided to make a raffle for you! Please read the rules and my TOS. good luck to all of you!


LINK TO RAFFLE - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/57941729/

Hi. I regret to say that I am canceling the raffle with ych on twitter as very few people have responded. For me this number is not profitable, so I'm thinking of doing the raffle next time.....

Hey, everybody. I made the decision today to make a telegram channel for my comic, because for me furafinity is not very convenient in terms of publishing images. Furafinity doesn't allow me to post multiple pictures at one time, so whoever is interested in reading my comic is welcome.

I've also worked on making it easy for readers to look at the chapters. There will be a post with a menu and links to the posts (chapters).

LINK: https://t.me/lovefriendshipanddragons

Briefly about my thoughts before I draw.

I want to draw something for myself: Well, people will not like it will not collect a lot of likes....
I want to draw a fanart on famous fandom: will wait only fanarts and then go away, although the likes will collect a lot.
I want to draw a comic book: Who will read it?

Bottom line: Crooked sketches in a sketchbook)

Do you know why I don't publish my ocs and even less my dragons and dragonborn? The answer is simple. Nobody. needs. them. Only Just me needs them. That's why I'm posting fanart every month or week now. Why not publish my dragons and dragonbornoc? You draw dragons, they're popular. Exactly. Popular species. And therefore my human characters are not popular. If I put them out there and see a lot of likes on someone else, I'm depressed, so that's the way it is. And don't you dare fuckin' tell me you're interested in them, it hurts even more.

Sorry for this vent, just to need write about it somewhere 🙏

What is your favorite drawing theme?

as an artist who has characters and a world that is still in development, it is clear to me that no one needs them except me. so I think that you need to focus more on fanarts in order to gain an audience, and you can draw something for yourself on the table, as a calm after working on orders and fanarts. I don't need false hopes and consolations like "I'm interested in your characters and the world, I'd like to read more", which people say out of sympathy. such statements only stupefy me and do not allow me to develop in one direction.

I can't understand, maybe i'mblind, but damn why you think ai art looks souless- To me it's looks normal. I can't even understand your concept of soul in art, how do you can see something not material in damn pixel picture?

Whatever people will say about ai my mind won't change, i like its results and will continue use it, it's an amazing tool like photos for shortcuts in drawing and good time saver. Of course i will respect FA rules about ai artwork here and post only "normal" arts here. Just my opinion. I think soon arts made with AI and an Artist will be a normal thing in our life, like photos and i will just sit there with smile and laugh as i was right! You can stay with you opinion if you wish. :

Warning this is the first post here in this format. I decided to do this blog here as well. Like I think jurnals were invented for this purpose.

I still can't forgive myself for bending to people's comments under the Twitter post when I ran my sketch with my character through AI and corrected its mistakes, even though I liked the result a lot. I'll tell you a secret I don't like my style one bit. Not what I want and imagine. Here are the results of the work that I do with AI I am very much inspired and gives joy to life. It's like getting a good drawing of your character from a cool artist. After being told to draw my character better myself without running the sketch through AI, I struggled so hard to get even close to the AI result and ended up with crap. And that in the end the source and art with the help of neural network and I was left with my shitty art. And I don't give a fuck that neural networks use other huds' art for training. For me, if I work honestly, it's suffering and stress. And so AI saves me nerves more and the result is always satisfied. To make you understand I do sketches manually with light and shadows then run through the AI (image to image), that is the idea and composition of my, I'm not even use the first fucking generation , spend a lot of time, that is the soul I put into it, although I do not believe in this bullshit with the soul and so on. I'm sorry that my post may offend someone just tired to keep silent about it.

Do you consider artificial intelligence to be a good tool for artists, musicians, writers and 3D modelers to reduce work time and increase the number of high-quality works due to manual refinement?

Would you like to see a wallpaper of my characters on your phone? When I get the strength to draw I'd like to draw something like that. I just want to give a feature to my artwork. It is not a fact that I will draw them every month, but it is still interesting to know your opinion.

Hi, I know it's only been two weeks since the last journal with the unexpected information about me leaving social media and deleting drawings. I think I explained my reasoning there. My burnout is still working and I'm trying to rest more to regain my strength and motivation to draw. So what I'm saying is. I decided not to delete this page and other accounts, just because I still want to publish my art somewhere to share and show what I like. In the future I will just publish what I like without paying attention to whether it will like it or not. I still need time to rest, so there will be no new drawings yet, but reposts of old works and so on. I've also started writing some mini stories underneath the artwork, purely for myself when I get an idea. I deeply apologize to everyone for that last post, I was acting out of anger and tiredness. If I feel bad again I will try not to draw through force and just for a week to take a day off.

Greetings dear followers and customers. I want to announce to you the sad news for some that I'm no longer going to take orders and draw fanart, NSFW content with fandom characters. I originally took up drawing to draw my ideas, the characters, the world around them, my plots to draw. And I published drawings just to share it with someone. I was blown away by the amount of likes from fans that I started drawing them all the time, and then I got burned out because I couldn't afford to draw something simple for myself and put the art on this account, like nobody needs them, which is true. Then I hated all my drawings. So when the burnout came, I deleted art from almost all my accounts.

I want to do the same with this account, but you know that here just can not delete art without entering the password. So the account will be abandoned or deleted.

I want to apologize to those people who would like to take my order and wrote to me asking when I can open them. I'm afraid I won't be able to open the orders. Sorry for this letter just don't want to waste any more of your time.

Hello people


Hi guys I urgently need your help, my buddy urgently needs 40 USD to reinforce his house! Please pay attention to the YCH on his page. You might be interested in them. If you buy at least one ych from him for this amount, I will draw you a sketch work in the format of a portrait of your character as a thank you.

IF YOU TAKE A COLLAB YCH I'LL DRAW A SKETCHY FULL BODY!!!!!
WHEN YOU BUY YCH FROM HIM, WRITE ME IN DISCORD WITH A SCREENSHOT OF THE PURCHASE!

Example of colored sketch -

1) https://www.furaffinity.net/view/54914488/
2) https://www.furaffinity.net/view/56691254/

YCH COLLAB
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/56915511/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/56915511/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/56915511/

YCH WITH FEMALE DRAGONBORN
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/56821213/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/56821213/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/56821213/