I am so terribly sorry that I must ask for help.
Even if it’s to get the news out there, I would so much appreciate it.
Also the sticker thing I will do my best to keep up.

https://ko-fi.com/msconnie/goal?g=0

Hello! Just a small update!

I’ve have stuff happening in my life, among genuine ineptitude, stalling me but I’m working on commissions as best I can.

I greatly greatly appreciate your patience. You have been more than kind to me.

Hi. I’m sorry for the lack of content on my part.
Things are complicated, as much as that is not an excuse, it is an explanation.
please trust that I have not forgotten the commissions.

I am sorry and thank you for your patience.

…I’m looking into it, but why I’m mentioning is because I’m not doing well with making commissions…..



I am so terribly sorry.

I don’t have the best explanation for you beyond that, so I understand if there’s any frustration.

I’m still working on commissions. Please stay patient. I am so terribly sorry ;-;

I’m still working on it, please be patient ;-;

Hello yes hello hi I am busy and yes I have stuff to do I’m sorry I’m working on it please be patient thank you have a good day

I am cancelling the Comissions I currently have promised. I am so sorry.

If you have paid for a comm, please DM me so I am able to correct the issue

If you would still like to support me, I do have a Ko-Fi (https://t.co/h6nKwLD0HZ )
This is in no way an alternative to getting a commission for me. This is only for donations.

i am so sorry and thank you.

Hello and Happy Holidays to everyone

Hope every one is doing well, staying safe, and I hope you are all having fun.

And it’s my birthday as of this post I guess.

I’m sorry to everyone who is getting a comm from me. I will be honest with you.

I have issues doing things, especially recently, and it’s getting worse.

No I can’t tell you why. No it’s not a easy fix as much as I want to force myself to work on things

I will tell myself “do the thing you need to do.” Then I’ll stare at it, or get distracted after trying to attempt it.

As well, if I somehow get inspiration, it’s not for the comms.

I’m sorry, I don’t know what to say or do. I’m sorry.

Also sorry this. Late night post

Hey, if you’re been wondering where I’ve been, I’ve just gotten busy with outside stuff.

I haven’t done any comms, but I haven’t forgotten about them either.


Also, sorry to bother people again with this, but I could really use the help, so if you are able and willing to donate, please do so.

https://t.co/h6nKwLD0HZ

(My Ko-Fi is meant for donations only no payments for comms or ways to get comms from me. If you would like a comm please DM me.)

You can support me via there if you’d like. But this is only for donations. Any commissions you require from me you can discuss them with me through DMs

Link: https://ko-fi.com/msconnie

So um hey everyone. Hope you’re doing well. Hope you’re enjoying the kinktober 2023 stuff! Been fun for me.

So yeah I uh fucked up. And there’s no real way around it.

You see I am really low on funds, and my credit card has been maxed out now.
Some of it is me gifting myself, I won’t lie, but the majority of it has been emergencies, medication, and groceries to help myself and my brother living together, among other regular purchases like insurance, rent.

The problem is I have no idea how to solve my issue. The minimum payment I need is $350 for my credit card, and I definitely am no where close to that in my funds.
I have been searching for a job, but with my course and my anxiety (hence medication), it’s been really hard trying to find a part time job in my area.

I could do commissions, but they might not be fast enough with my course being so demanding, and the dilemma of how I would need to price them, it will cause problems. (If my prices are too high, no one will be interested in buying them from me. But if I price them too low, I might not have enough in time/I’d have so much work on my hands I might not be able to do it all.)

So yeah I’m sorry I have to make an announcement like this, but if anyone knows how to solve this, please let me know. Thank you. Stay awesome.

Going to make this a new thing for a bit. Every day or at least every week try to type something and communicate with you guys.

So let’s make this the first!

Got some commissions I need to work on, I haven’t started them yet, for multiple reasons, but know I am remembering I need to do them. I promise.

I love the ocean. Its so pretty and cool and it’s got so many cool creatures and critters in it. I think another reason I enjoy it though is because I have grown up in a land locked part of the country, so it’s like this sense of “you like the things you don’t have”? Right?

I am not a good person. It is too hard for me to be a good friend, because my personality/my anxiety cannot be active or loving enough for my friends.

I can’t say I deal with worse stuff than someone else, so I dont. I am so scared about over shadowing someone, I am so scared about stealing attention, but I still want attention. I want people to care about me. But I cant see that happening to me. I can’t have people care for someone who can’t show care back.

people tell me I need to believe in myself more, but its so hard to do that. its not like I am a good enough person by default. I can be very cynical, I latch onto my friends for support like a leech. I value my friends far far more than myself.

it is hard to stand up for myself because I am always questioning if I am a good person or not.

Some days I just want to leave. Leave the internet, leave my friend groups, leave the world. Save you all from me.

I have made mistakes I regret constantly. It has not left me, for years and years ago. My brain just can’t function outside of that. Sometimes I am NOT as bad as I am now, but truely I have rarely felt complete or happy.

Do what you wish with this info. It’s not like it will harm any of you knowing this.

I might come back, but I don’t know if I deserve to come back

Get it? I am proud of pride? Pride Pride?

Anyway yeah being trans on here has been good, and of course very anxious. But that’s just how I be.

My irl situation isn’t as kind to me. Guess the benefit of internet anonymity right?

Regardless thank you guys and you all stay awesome.