Since today, the 14th of November, I am an uncle.

What a weird feeling.

Hey folks, hope you are all doing well out there.

Just spreading the message of a fellow fur who has had some financial troubles lately, so if you might be able to help out, it would mean a lot to my friend.

Thank you.

https://www.furaffinity.net/journals/maxwell1394/

Let's see if I can reach a draconic age one day and there will be a 1 in front of my current age!

*makes lemon-cheesecake as a birthday cake*

Dang, my 36th birthday is coming in faster than I thought.

Can it please slow down a bit? *whines and wiggles around*

Had a little bit of chaos at work on the 28th of July. Only now kind of getting the nerves / determination / focus to write about it.

So, my work-place, the university library, had a deep-cleaning scheduled for all the backoffice rooms. Just that I forgot about it. So it was a bit suspicious already in the morning when I was the only person in that wing on the floor I work at.

But I thought 'Okay, it's summer, some more folks took a day off, nothing uncommon.' And half an hour later, the workers of the cleaning service pop their head into my office, asking me if that was the right place for the deep-cleaning of the floors. At that moment I was like 'Oh dang, so that is why nobody was here.'

Thing is, those workers had no keys to the offices they were supposed to clean. Sure, if I would not have been here, they would have probably asked the secretary office to open these rooms, but now it was my responsibility to do so. But of course I quickly asked in the university secretary office as well if these people were who they claimed to be, don't want to be responsible for anything missing.

But then it also quickly turned out, these people were expecting to come in to nearly empty offices. According to them, we should have cleaned out the place from all easily moveable furniture etc. Which nobody had told us to do so (even though the secretary told us that we kind of should have known, as 'that obviously was the same thing that was done last year', which it was not).

So now these people told me, that this could have brought down the cleaning schedule totally down, maybe could even take several days, as they were not sure how long moving the furniture back and forth.

So now it was up to me to send out a group-email to everybody on my floor, to let them know not only what was going on, but in a kind of real-time what they were doing. You see, that whole mess started on monday, and we were told that the newly cleaned and waxed floor needs like half a day to dry properly. So if some offices were only cleaned on tuesday, the people from these rooms could only return on wednesday.

So it was all up to me to tell people which offices were done at what point, so people would not come in to an office they could not use.

Luckily in the end they managed to stil clean and wax the whole wing I was working in, so people could come in on tuesday as they had planned.


Yeah, this was waaaaaaay more responsibility in one day than I was used to, ahahha.

A fellow fur,   Commander-Raymond , is in some troubles regarding their means of transportation, and also facing imminent homelessness and is currently hoping for the Furry community to maybe help them out a bit.

They explain their current situation more at

https://www.gofundme.com/f/homeless-in-orlando-help-get-me-to-work?attribution_id=sl:57fbb71a-f38b-4ea1-8f73-81a5c29d7c6a&lang=en_US&ts=1754788244&utm_campaign=man_sharesheet_dash&utm_content=amp13_t1&utm_medium=customer&utm_source=copy_link

Just noticed that   vasiabryansk 's FA account is now pending for deletion and also his messenger contacts were deleted.

He once had a dragon charackter named Kasai as a sona, but since a few years used an Anubian Jackal named Osiris, in case you need to know better which person I am talking about.

Does anybody here know if he is doing well? Hope nothing bad happened to him.

My sister broke the news to our family a few days ago that she is having a child, around 15 weeks old currently.

So...wow, dunno how to fully feel yet that I will be an uncle. I guess I will be doing some babysitting in the future, possibly, haha.

But yeah. The family is growing larger in a few months.

...the date and all its supposed silly jokes are not funny to me. No 'hilarious journals' - 'leaving fandom or changing sona to something entirely different.

I simply cannot laugh about this day and its supposed jesting.

Hey folks,

just wanted to let you know that   Mei5683 is trying something for a clean slate with their art-career and are about to disable their gallery very soon, and move over to   KingxGhost to start freshly from there.

So if you ever commissioned them and have not saved your art from their gallery, now would be the time.

I hate it to lay in bed, unable to sleep and have my thoughts rotate about life, death, everything in between, making it even harder to sleep....

My friend   ChaosMiles is in a bit of a pickle. He would need some help paying off a fee for a storage unit.

https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/11065664/

He explains it in more detail here. So if you can spare a few dollars to help him keep his storage unit and thus keep the personal items stored there, he would be really grateful for sure.

A very happy new year.

We all had wild times during the past year of 2024. Some good, some not so good, but I wish the all of you the very best, nothing but the best for the coming times ahead, no matter where you are and who you are.

May 2025 be a great year to all of you.

Thank you grandma.

Thank you for being the amazing person you were and are.

Just feeling down now...my paternal grandmother had been in the hospital for several months now because of her being so weak and everything from chemo and all those cancer treatments. And they finally managed to somewhat stabilize her somewhat that she stopped loosing weight, and last time I met her there at the hospital she was lucid and everything.

So they thought they could get her back home, so she could be in a familiar environment. But she was stil super-weak, and my grandfather was just too overwhelmed with taking care of her, making sure she ate and drank enough and take her meds and everything, so after not even three days she is back at the hospital again.

And in the past few days she just felt more and more tired, and I just fear for her now. I just am wishing right now with all my mental might and power and whatnot, just hoping and wishing that she will recover and be well, so I can talk to her, visit her again, hugging her, just spending time with her for several more years to come.

I just want her to be healthy and her feeling normal again...

Got my balloons, got me a surprise Birthday cake from my mom and family toasted to me and sung happy birthday, with me awkwardly standing there.

Seriously, who actually is fine with the family singing that song ?

Will get my gifts tomorrow after a family brunch. Already excited what I will get. ^.=.^

Gosh...has really already another year gone by?

For some reason time to me seems to pass by faster and slower at the same time. I can recall when COVID broke out so vividly and everything, and it feels like that was just last week.

And yet I remember whenI told myself that by 30 I wanted to finish writing on that story series that I started writing on when I began to be active here on FA....why does time have to be so cruel?

So yeah, if anybody if you crazy folks out there wanna gift me something, you stil got two weeks left there. *winks and chuckles*

You all have heard it by now. You have seen the journals here on Fur Affinity. You saw the tweets, the posts on Telegram, Bluesky and other places.

  Dragoneer , the creator of this website here, Fur Affinity, in its shape and form as we know it today...he...he has gone onwards to another world.

I don't wanna debate the hows or whys or whatever about how this all came to be. I instead want to ask you to tell me, no, us, the fandom, what good memories you have about this lovely purple digimon.

To me, I did not really interact with him on a personal level. I think I might have had a conversation with him via FA notes, but that's about it. I did not know him personally, did not meet him, and yet, I feel a truly deep gut-wrenching sadness in my mind, body and soul.

To me, Dragoneer has helped me in the way that he created Fur Affinity in the first place. I recall how scared I was back then.

I found the website by link-hopping from website to website. It was at the time where I was doing my first cautious steps online. I did this stil on a family computer, even though it was on my own account, I was so afraid my family would be able to see what I was surfing and looking at.

I cannot recall why, but I was looking at these various websites that sold these latex prothetic face masks. It somehow triggered an interest in me and I started to look for animal people on google, not really sure what I was looking for.

And I then found photomorph / photoshop art showing a naked tiger-man, a very happy one. And in that gallery there were also more male tigermen being happy with one another. I was really confused by that, yet I remained intrigued. I kept going back to that website whose name I forgot since then. But I hopped around to other websites that also did show photomanipulated art, some of them by   Gryf , I think. And then I aldo found lots of drawn art.

I moved over to pages like Transfur, the personal website of Foxxy (I think was the name?), Yiffstar, that later would evolve into Sofurry, and then Fur Affinity.

There I would remain a lurker for quite some time. I did not even allow myself to fave stuff. Because I only made the account to watch, I told myself. See, I did not feel like what I was doing was right. I was mentally stil under the impression I had to ask somebody for permission to be on that website even. May have been my ADD, my aspergers, or just me being a scared teenager in the big big internet.

I looked around, was scared and fascinated at the same time. So much to see and do, yet I did not dare to do stuff. Until I got my fingers on TES Morrowind, and I found some mods here on FA that were made by   dragon-the-argonian , and I sooo wanted to make them work ... so I sent them a note, asking how I could do it. Pretty much the first note I sent here.

And it broke a barrier for me. I slowly started to fave. Then write a comment here and there. And my silly mind realized, I was allowed to do that. I did not have to ask permission to do such stuff. I became mentally more free. I started writing myself. I wondered about my own sona. I did my first monetary transactions via paypal to pay for commissions. So many firsts back then.

And this kept continueing. I explored myself, I explored the fandom, I encountered people, kinks, ideas, just so much. It was a place I could have never imagined. Yes, I was stil scared, but I kept on going. I kept on navigating through this gigantic mess, and I am so happy that this mess existed in the first place.

So yes, we shall mourn now   Dragoneer , but also let us remember the things he did for the fandom as a whole, for us all. What he enabled us to achieve and do, together or alone. But we were able to do so because he created and maintained this place.

So let's now maintain it for him. This wild circus, this gigantic disfunctional family, this...Furry Fandom.

*can barely hold back tears while writing this, sobbing quietly in the night while writing these words...*

What's up you all?

How have you been doing? Hope things are treating you well.

Just wanted to ask around if people are in the mood or need for some small stories? Like, I can either do stories for pictures, so the commissioned art does not stand out so alone, but have a little background story. You just show me a commission you got, tell me the me a rough idea and I can write a page or so for it.

Or I can try a story on its own as well if you desire so.

I thought about something like 20 dollars for a small background story for pictures, and something around 30-40$ for 2 - 3 pages of a stand-alone story? Does that sound good for you?

It has been a while since I took commissions, so I would only offer a small number of slots for that kind of commissions.

Let me know if you are interested in the comments below.

Just saying that here out loud, in case I forget to tell that some of the artists I suggested to commission soon.

Just got a big bill in where I gotta pay a share, which eats quite a bit into my savings. So for several months I won't be able to commission anybody, I am afraid.

Sorry, but I wanna rebuilt these savings.

Just wishing everybody and every creature and being and entity out there a happy new year.

Hoping for you all that the coming year will be a great and happy one.

Make 2024 your year!

(Just sending this journal out ahead of time so it won't get burried too quickly yet) ^.=.^

May you have a lovely celebration, with friends, with family, with acquaintances, your pets and who else you like.

May you have a lovely day today and tomrorow, enjoy the presents and the presence of one another and may you all together have a great time.

Merry Christmas, happy holidays, and also a happy new year.

So...apparently the Velan Central Library, popularly known as the Vixen Controlled Library, is dead since about one month.

I dunno why, but knowing this quite old Furry gallery has died...it makes me sad.

Well, it is not fully dead, there is an archive of it, kind of. Pretty much all art and all stories posted there have been preserved by a single person, creating a mirror of that very first dedicated furry gallery website. But all the meta-data, like artist information, text description of the things posted, as well as comments, did not transfer over to the archive unfortunately. I know that was done to save on data-size, making it easier to host, but I stil find it sad. I don't now really why it saddens me so much.

I can recall when I here and there found my way back to VCL again and again in my early days of the fandom, not really looking for anything specific. Though I did look up some specific artists, since you could watch all the stuff there without needing an account. You could even use google itself to search the website, I recall that much.

I think the reason why I find this so sad is that I am a hoarder. Of knowledge, of information, and the likes. And that a bit manifests in my current job as a librarian, I guess. Trying to preserve as much as possible for future generations. So seeing that website go down, and with it so much information, especially the comments...it saddens me. Because comments in a gallery are to me an integral part of a community, it shows people's appreciations, their thoughts, their ideas, their disgust even, it is a mirror or a fandom's social fabric. And now that is gone.

So...yeah. Seems the website already has been dead mostly for close of a decade, since around 2014 you could no longer create new accounts, and the website's creator named Ch'marr has disappeared years ago as well, and now since around a month ago, it was taken offline entirely.

So, if anybody of you had hoped to look at art there, you can now only look at the mirror of the website.

https://vixencontrolled.net/


I wonder now...when will such an end come to Furaffinity? Because...then I would be even more sad. For all its flaws and things that don't work here the right way, to me this website is stil a truly magical place. I truly hope it will be preserved in some sort of way.

Hooray?

This year my blrthday feels a lot less birthday-ish than in previous years.

Dunno why. Kinda been feeling emotionally absent at times, just living day by day.

Though I try to make small incremental steps to change this.

Hopefully I can soon show some results.

How does that even happen?

I just turned around, maybe a bit too fast, something in my lower back moved and PING , my entire lower back and legs are in so much pain, I can barely even sit comfortably, let alone walk in any meaningfull ways.

Called in sick for that of course, with me barely being able to walk to the bus-stop, I will have a hard time doing my work.

But damn anatomy, how does something like that even happen? How stupid does biology get if a simple movement can send you into such a state?