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General | Posted 13 years agoI am fully aware that there are LOTS of MLP fans on here and that doesn't bother me. That said i still love this video
https://youtu.be/0Sxm2EYfEKs
https://youtu.be/0Sxm2EYfEKs
you ever wonder...
General | Posted 14 years agowhat you'll be? Sometimes i wonder what I'll amount to in the end. I don't really see myself as that great of a guy, i may make people laugh and feel good but maybe that's all i'm good at really. I'm working at a retail store and i'm loving my job so much so i got that going for me and a loving family and friends who care about me. It's just that i don't know what i've done for everybody else that really matters. Maybe i'm just one of those people who act like a stepping stone for everybody else to be someone who really matters, like the guy from It's A Wonderful Life only i don't amount to much.
LIKE IT!!!
General | Posted 14 years agoMASS EFFECT 3 DONE!!!
General | Posted 14 years agoThis game series has got to be the most intense i've EVER come across. The third game was absolutely amazing and everything about it blew my friggin mind. Having just finished the game i can say with true honesty that my mind is racing a thousand miles a minute right now. I'm finding it difficult to describe it and express how i feel in vivid detail cuz i believe that it deserves that, but at the same time i can't do it.
share what your thoughts are on the ending if you've reached it, and if you haven't... well do whatever you want
share what your thoughts are on the ending if you've reached it, and if you haven't... well do whatever you want
Justin "Beaver" (face) outdone by dog :D
General | Posted 14 years agoThis dog is way better than Michael Jackson's young and white doppelganger.
https://youtu.be/acyZ86ydO6I
https://youtu.be/acyZ86ydO6I
MASS EFFECT 3 IS HEEEEEEEERE!!!
General | Posted 14 years agoPeople, is this game awesome or what!?
MASS EFFECT 3
General | Posted 14 years agofountain of youth is real people...
General | Posted 14 years agoBOOBIES AND COCK!!!
General | Posted 14 years agoooooh no... ¬_¬ *holds up sarcasm sign*
General | Posted 14 years agohttps://youtu.be/oR_HoOvIO_g
okay, let me just throw this out there... one of my best and oldest friends i've ever had, he has autism, aspergers, depression, anxiety disorder, ADHD and i don't see him spending every free hour of the day in front of a computer screen.
honestly there's more to life than video games
okay, let me just throw this out there... one of my best and oldest friends i've ever had, he has autism, aspergers, depression, anxiety disorder, ADHD and i don't see him spending every free hour of the day in front of a computer screen.
honestly there's more to life than video games
new theme
General | Posted 14 years agohttps://youtu.be/KTtpLRaRlmU
okay everybody, this is the new theme i want people to play when i make an entrance :3
okay everybody, this is the new theme i want people to play when i make an entrance :3
to all Battlefield 3 players
General | Posted 14 years agoif you EVER team kill me like the jerks i've been coming across lately i'll *censored*
love you all <33333
love you all <33333
dreams... very weird dreams @__@ pt. 8
General | Posted 14 years agodamn it's been so long since i wrote out one of these dream journals. mostly cuz my dreams have been so consistently weird that my weird dreams aren't exactly weird anymore... regardless i just figured i'd try and get back to writing them out.
last night i had a dream that started out with me simply going out on a road trip with my parents... and that in itself is already weird on so many levels x3 it simply started out by going to visit a friend of the family in her new house, which actually happened. Anyways i was supposed to be following them on the road and ended up on the wrong side somehow. Before i go into what comes next i have been trying to start out a workout regime IRL. so strangely enough i ended up at some kind of gym and got to business. it was like one of these workout videos my sister uses with two people up front doing workout stuff and you just do as they do. It wasn't long before it was time for a break so we grab water, turns out that the water wasn't really water, some kind of weird chemical that tasted like water but had no hydration properties whatsoever. suddenly everyone breaks out into a lil riot saying they need water and then the gym owners go all "WE'VE BEEN COMPROMISED!!!" and a bunch of secret agents burst through the windows and start gathering people up. I for some reason was special and they asked me to help them with a supernatural division. And of course i said "hell yeah!"
Little did i know what i was getting into, turns out their headquarters was in a mall, but in order to enter their area of the mall you had to go down this REALLY creepy hall that had all these terrariums of really fucked up shit... one of them had these lil creatures that looked like bouncy boobs but with fangs and sharp needle like teeth coming out of the nipples and these bugs in another that emitted this screeching sound that pierced your head. I started working a bit and trying to find unauthorized supernatural activity and then it turned out that to be considered more than a novice a member would have to wear some kind of hat of sorts, any kind. I already had on black jeans, a white button down shirt, black hoodie and a black over coat and round sun glasses and for some reason i figured a top hat would go well with that. let's just assume this shows my only recently found sense of true fashion XD
From that point on i got to work with this demonic woman who had one of those kind of clothes that were sexy but you think to yourself "how is that staying on her!?" like some anime gals i guess. there was some sexual tension but it all went away when she turned into a lil girl who followed me around. it was time for us to make a selection for a case and we were looking through them like when you look up movies on demand, a long list of movie poster kinda deals and we chose this one about a stretch of river that was haunted. just the way it looked was creepy and in broad daylight too. land was constantly eroding into it and long sticks like fingers were poking out of the water and would try to grab things. The deal was that if you got into the water then you would slowly change into a fish and made it harder to get out but if you did manage to get out then you would change back.
Suddenly i get the bright idea "hey i'll eat the dirt around the river side!" and it actually tasted like chocolate pasta... if there is such a thing. and it caused me to get REALLY high. i was freaking out and walking all over the place and couldn't tell where i was. i was trying to follow some kind of really colorful bird for a long time. eventually i get pulled into the water and start to change but the lil girl saves my life and pulls me out and everything went back to normal. i was suddenly in my home IRL and my sister was arguing with me why a handbrake for your care isn't really called a handbrake...
last night i had a dream that started out with me simply going out on a road trip with my parents... and that in itself is already weird on so many levels x3 it simply started out by going to visit a friend of the family in her new house, which actually happened. Anyways i was supposed to be following them on the road and ended up on the wrong side somehow. Before i go into what comes next i have been trying to start out a workout regime IRL. so strangely enough i ended up at some kind of gym and got to business. it was like one of these workout videos my sister uses with two people up front doing workout stuff and you just do as they do. It wasn't long before it was time for a break so we grab water, turns out that the water wasn't really water, some kind of weird chemical that tasted like water but had no hydration properties whatsoever. suddenly everyone breaks out into a lil riot saying they need water and then the gym owners go all "WE'VE BEEN COMPROMISED!!!" and a bunch of secret agents burst through the windows and start gathering people up. I for some reason was special and they asked me to help them with a supernatural division. And of course i said "hell yeah!"
Little did i know what i was getting into, turns out their headquarters was in a mall, but in order to enter their area of the mall you had to go down this REALLY creepy hall that had all these terrariums of really fucked up shit... one of them had these lil creatures that looked like bouncy boobs but with fangs and sharp needle like teeth coming out of the nipples and these bugs in another that emitted this screeching sound that pierced your head. I started working a bit and trying to find unauthorized supernatural activity and then it turned out that to be considered more than a novice a member would have to wear some kind of hat of sorts, any kind. I already had on black jeans, a white button down shirt, black hoodie and a black over coat and round sun glasses and for some reason i figured a top hat would go well with that. let's just assume this shows my only recently found sense of true fashion XD
From that point on i got to work with this demonic woman who had one of those kind of clothes that were sexy but you think to yourself "how is that staying on her!?" like some anime gals i guess. there was some sexual tension but it all went away when she turned into a lil girl who followed me around. it was time for us to make a selection for a case and we were looking through them like when you look up movies on demand, a long list of movie poster kinda deals and we chose this one about a stretch of river that was haunted. just the way it looked was creepy and in broad daylight too. land was constantly eroding into it and long sticks like fingers were poking out of the water and would try to grab things. The deal was that if you got into the water then you would slowly change into a fish and made it harder to get out but if you did manage to get out then you would change back.
Suddenly i get the bright idea "hey i'll eat the dirt around the river side!" and it actually tasted like chocolate pasta... if there is such a thing. and it caused me to get REALLY high. i was freaking out and walking all over the place and couldn't tell where i was. i was trying to follow some kind of really colorful bird for a long time. eventually i get pulled into the water and start to change but the lil girl saves my life and pulls me out and everything went back to normal. i was suddenly in my home IRL and my sister was arguing with me why a handbrake for your care isn't really called a handbrake...
JEEEZAAAAASS!
General | Posted 14 years agohome is a mental prison...
General | Posted 14 years agoYou ever have one of those days when at first things seem to be alright with the world, but as it goes on you start to think about your life and how you truly feel. We'll I've realized that even though i do have things good going for me like a job i love to death and friends and family who care for me very much, at the same time my mind keeps on being dragged back to what's wrong.
I already pointed out how i feel like a second class citizen in my own home a couple journals ago, but now i'm starting to see the bigger picture. I have for a long time spent a lot of my free time in my room and the reason was always back in my mind but i now truly know why. it's cuz outside my room, among my family and friends i'm not able to truly be myself. Hehe, as any of you who know me well enough and from my art know that i'm roughly bi, though i certainly lean towards women there are a handful of guys i know who i like in a way that heterosexual men wouldn't consider. It goes without saying that's part of who i am and won't change, same goes for being a furry. However, i could NEVER tell my family that. It's not like my family is against gay people but... well my mom in particular is very religious and has no shame in imposing her beliefs on me.
I was raised catholic, a community not very much accepting of anything beyond heterosexual. It's a faith that's centered around love for your fellow man and if that love is expressed physically between two MEN then suddenly it's bad... sorry i don't buy that, not for a dollar.
Anyways, back to my mom, she loves me to death and i know this for a fact and always will, and i always will love her. However, being afraid to be myself around her and everyone else around me is literally eating me up inside. Do you know at all what it's like to have your best friends prefer to open up to your parents instead of you? To know that they'll have fun with you but don't take you seriously to the extent that they go to your parents instead of you whenever they need someone they can trust? well i certainly do. my friends are always going to my mom for consolation when i'm right friggin their and they don't say shit to me. my old and aweosme friend who i've known since 4th grade told my mom he's considering priesthood and has yet to say ANYTHING to me about it... WHY!? what is so fucking unapproachable about me to my IRL friends from back in middle school? It's not fair that my friends have my mom to go to when i can't open up to her myself. I have a couple friends i can open up to about anything but one's ways away and another... well it's complicated to say the least... one family member but she's always busy with her job so that makes me a bit reluctant for some reason. I've been a "counselor" for people before, and enjoy it but i always struggle so bad to reach out to others. I want to feel needed but i don't know what the hell to do when i need others other than hold it in and stuff down my emotions.
Also i've been noticing at work that my co-workers are talking about how they hang out and ask if they wanna go places together to have fun... why doesn't anybody ever ask me to go anywhere? i mean... they seem to enjoy me in the work place but never offer to do anything. It's like middle school and high school all over again.
I seriously feel like i'm eroding away a little more inside every day, that i'm loosing touch with reality and don't know what to do anymore. Sometimes i even tell myself i should be buying commissions or spending money on things that make me happy... why don't i want to be happy!? I keep on thinking these things that don't make any sense to me and i want to understand but am afraid to. It makes me think back to the time many years ago that i used to actually have suicidal thoughts, not that i do anymore but why think about that at all? i'm loosing my fucking mind here!
...
i feel so lost
I already pointed out how i feel like a second class citizen in my own home a couple journals ago, but now i'm starting to see the bigger picture. I have for a long time spent a lot of my free time in my room and the reason was always back in my mind but i now truly know why. it's cuz outside my room, among my family and friends i'm not able to truly be myself. Hehe, as any of you who know me well enough and from my art know that i'm roughly bi, though i certainly lean towards women there are a handful of guys i know who i like in a way that heterosexual men wouldn't consider. It goes without saying that's part of who i am and won't change, same goes for being a furry. However, i could NEVER tell my family that. It's not like my family is against gay people but... well my mom in particular is very religious and has no shame in imposing her beliefs on me.
I was raised catholic, a community not very much accepting of anything beyond heterosexual. It's a faith that's centered around love for your fellow man and if that love is expressed physically between two MEN then suddenly it's bad... sorry i don't buy that, not for a dollar.
Anyways, back to my mom, she loves me to death and i know this for a fact and always will, and i always will love her. However, being afraid to be myself around her and everyone else around me is literally eating me up inside. Do you know at all what it's like to have your best friends prefer to open up to your parents instead of you? To know that they'll have fun with you but don't take you seriously to the extent that they go to your parents instead of you whenever they need someone they can trust? well i certainly do. my friends are always going to my mom for consolation when i'm right friggin their and they don't say shit to me. my old and aweosme friend who i've known since 4th grade told my mom he's considering priesthood and has yet to say ANYTHING to me about it... WHY!? what is so fucking unapproachable about me to my IRL friends from back in middle school? It's not fair that my friends have my mom to go to when i can't open up to her myself. I have a couple friends i can open up to about anything but one's ways away and another... well it's complicated to say the least... one family member but she's always busy with her job so that makes me a bit reluctant for some reason. I've been a "counselor" for people before, and enjoy it but i always struggle so bad to reach out to others. I want to feel needed but i don't know what the hell to do when i need others other than hold it in and stuff down my emotions.
Also i've been noticing at work that my co-workers are talking about how they hang out and ask if they wanna go places together to have fun... why doesn't anybody ever ask me to go anywhere? i mean... they seem to enjoy me in the work place but never offer to do anything. It's like middle school and high school all over again.
I seriously feel like i'm eroding away a little more inside every day, that i'm loosing touch with reality and don't know what to do anymore. Sometimes i even tell myself i should be buying commissions or spending money on things that make me happy... why don't i want to be happy!? I keep on thinking these things that don't make any sense to me and i want to understand but am afraid to. It makes me think back to the time many years ago that i used to actually have suicidal thoughts, not that i do anymore but why think about that at all? i'm loosing my fucking mind here!
...
i feel so lost
skyrim=boner XD
General | Posted 14 years agohome isn't home...
General | Posted 14 years agohow do you know when you're being treated like a second class citizen in your own home...?
when you can't even do something like cleaning your room in a way that you'd prefer without being yelled at... i fucking dare any of you to try and hang up a poster where you sleep when my mom and dad live in that same house... i fucking DARE YOU! I promise you'll end up walking away with your tail tucked between your legs and then hear them whistling and humming happily 2 minutes later.
of course i'm too much of a coward to stand up to them like anybody with a spine would, serves me right
when you can't even do something like cleaning your room in a way that you'd prefer without being yelled at... i fucking dare any of you to try and hang up a poster where you sleep when my mom and dad live in that same house... i fucking DARE YOU! I promise you'll end up walking away with your tail tucked between your legs and then hear them whistling and humming happily 2 minutes later.
of course i'm too much of a coward to stand up to them like anybody with a spine would, serves me right
EAT §h¡+ DORA!!!
General | Posted 14 years agofunny obnoxious §h¡+ XD
General | Posted 14 years agoarrow to da knee!
General | Posted 14 years agoFREE REQUESTS :D
General | Posted 14 years agoUUUUUUGH.... that's better
General | Posted 14 years ago just so you know... this is a bit "ew" but i couldn't stop laughing xD
https://youtu.be/MyZwDcLGknUhow good are you with your hands? ;3
General | Posted 14 years agoi hate my nose
General | Posted 14 years agouuuugh... i am sick with a chest cold. yesterday i just had a soar throat but now i'm hacking up yellow stuff and all that yummy crap *gags* Dx
don't worry though i'm taking medicine to help me out but still... tis a bitch
don't worry though i'm taking medicine to help me out but still... tis a bitch
to be silly, or not to be silly
General | Posted 14 years agookay, anybody who knows me well enough knows that i enjoy being silly haha. It's fun and makes people smile, simple as that :3
what's YOUR reason for being silly?
*derp face*
what's YOUR reason for being silly?
*derp face*
