THANK YOU. I know muffin is adorable, but I must give credit where it is due!

 mct_tyan created the lovely "Pop-sicles!"

And  monian created both the sfw and nsfw versions of "Cool for the Summer"

Please please please go show these two lovely artists love!
I am so happy with the work♡

And to my dear  dorianvalentine, thank you my dear♡

She owed me artwork that I paid for and now her account is disabled?
Anyone know what happened??

I have a traditional ref I sketched up for a comrade and I would like to find someone who could take the ref I created and make a digital copy.

Anyone interested?

I'm back and in the process of making a new OC.

So kitty or fennec fox?

Msg me for my facebook, tumblr, and Deviant art info if you'd like to continue following my art in general.

New love, new life, and my heart just isn't in fur affinity anymore.
I'll pop in from time to time, but will most likely just update my journals.
Please understand.

So mom had surgery again and is "put back together".
I moved to San angelo.
I had an uncle and a few other relatives and family friends pass away.
I'm still more active on dA and facebook but will be on here too.

I'm tired of being on a hiatus.
I missed you.

I'm here to tell you all that I have gravitated away from furries.
This occurred when I realized that I need to better my art on different styles (bust, face, full body), poses, human and animal forms (anatomically correct) to feel comfortable drawing furries again.

So if you will bear with my doodles and what not, I'll post them.

You can contact me via facebook, email, or dA. I will leave the three below. Still doing request/gift art/commissions. Just drop me a msg with the info..

Facebook.com/muffinboo432

kelsie-gurl[at]hotmail.com

Kirei-boo.deviantart.com or whatever

Also, came out as bisexuals to my family and friends.
It went well and I'm glad.

Hey everyone. I know I've been a little bit absent and I apologize for that but I've been having some stuff going on in real life that I can't ignore. My mom is doing okay but she has to go back to the doctor again I'm still working trying to get back into school. I'm still drawing and mainly posting to my facebook and my tumblr not so much on here or my deviantART account. I try to keep the first and the related things on here and the other fandoms separate but if you'd like to see my newer stuff please let me know and I'll show you.

I just wanted to put this little update out so everyone would know that I'm still here and that I'm still okay I've just been busy. Thank you to those who still have me friended and continue to follow my works whether they be on here or anything else. I truly do appreciate you.

That's all for now see you

Mom lost the majority of her colon in an emergency surgery about 10 days ago. She's back at home now, and me along with other family members are helping her and sitting with her during the week.

I'm so thankful for everyone who sent positive vibes and prayed for my mom. She's alive and I am so relieved for this♡

Okay everyone we are up to 1070 dollars out of 5000. I wanted to go ahead and share the link for my moms GoFundMe account that way if you want to help my mom get better you can. The hospital she's currently at is refusing to continue treating her besides doing the bare minimum to keep her alive because they're not making any money off of her. She's my mom and I will do anything and everything to help her and if you can't donate that's perfectly fine I understand. I just want to go ahead and thank everyone in advance for everything that you've done whether you donated parade or just sent positive vibes our way its all appreciated thank you.

www.gofundme.com/p322mt8a

I am also considering taking pwyw comission to also help out,
If you would like one, just note me with your request and I'll send you my pricing list♡

Basics

Name: Muffinboo
Nickname: muffin, boo, kitten, kelkitty
Location: Odessa, tx.
Age: 24
Height: 5'0
Zodiac sign: cancer
Pets:  dolliemae, lokicat, Tigger (cats), and lokidog
Favorite thing about yourself: my smile, and laugh.
Worst habit: nail-biting
Fun fact: my birthmark on my right outer thigh, looks like the USA minus alaska, part of florida, and hawaii.

Identity, Sexuality & Personality

Gender identity: Female
Sexual preference: bi-curious.
Romantic preference: *shrugs*
"Kinsey Scale" score: haha ;D
Relationship status: Single, single, single.
Myers/Briggs type: wtf?
Hogwarts house: raven claw lol

Routine
"Early Bird" or "Night Owl": Night Owl♡
First thought in the morning: Gotta piss.
Last thought before falling asleep at night: mainly reflecting on thoughts that have meant something to me.

School/Work
Do you work or are you a student: sophomore in college, and hostess.
What do you do well: Draw, write poetry, sleep.
Where do you see yourself in 5 years: ...Hopefully with someone I love, enjoying life wherever I maybe. Hopefully out of this hellhole.

Habits (Do you…?)

Drink: Socially mainly, but by myself occasionally.
Smoke: vape, no nicotine
Do Drugs: Nah
Have a go-to comfort food: recently it's been bean and cheese burritos.
Have a nervous habit: Zoning out and being silent.

What is your favorite…?

Physical quality (in yourself): My eyes
In Others: Personality first, looks second.
Mental/emotional quality in yourself: don't really have one.. I'm an empath.
Food: italian
Drink: soda, water, liquor.
Animal: DOGS AND CATS AND FOXES AND BABY ANIMALS♡♡♡
Colors: Rainbowwww♡
Artist/Band/Group: too many to list.
TV Show: supernatural, and anime♡
Video game: omg so many you have no idea. T_T

Sometimes it feels like we are never going to catch a legit break.
To catch everyone up to speed about two months ago my mom was releaseD from the hospital. During her stay she was receiving treatment for C-Diff (Google it), and also receiving med for her gallbladder. She couldn't be scoped or have any kind of surgery due to C-Diff.

Mom weighed 82lbs when she was released, and all seemed okay.
Mom got remarried on July 11th. Her weight was bouncing between 82 and 95lbs.

Now.. mom was admitted yesterday due to 4 days of severe pain, and two days of not eating or drinking. I don't know anything else.
I'm so mad, and sad, and worried and.. powerless.

All that can be done is to visit her and pray. Lots and lots of prayer.

Ask me♡
[Pick a number or numbers and leave a comment and I will answer honestly and wholeheartedly]

1 if someone wanted to really understand you, what would they read, watch, and listen to?
2 have you ever found a writer who thinks just like you? if so, who?
3 list your fandoms and one character from each that you identify with.
4 do you like your name? is there another name you think would fit you better?
5 do you think of yourself as a human being or a human doing? do you identify yourself by the things you do?
6 are you religious/spiritual?
7 do you care about your ethnicity?
8 what musical artists have you most felt connected to over your lifetime?
9 are you an artist?
10 do you have a creed?
11 describe your ideal day.
12 dog person or cat person?
13 inside or outdoors?
14 are you a musician?
15 five most influential books over your lifetime.
16 if you’d grown up in a different environment, do you think you’d have turned out the same?
17 would you say your tumblr is a fair representation of the “real you”?
18 what’s your patronus?
19 which Harry Potter house would you be in? or are you a muggle?
20 would you rather be in Middle Earth, Narnia, Hogwarts, or somewhere else?
21 do you love easily?
22 list the top five things you spend the most time doing, in order.
23 how often would you want to see your family every year?
24 have you ever felt like you had a “mind-meld” with someone?
25 could you live as a hermit?
26 how would you describe your gender/sexuality?
27 do you feel like your outside appearance is a fair representation of the “real you”?
28 on a scale from 1 to 10, how hard is it for someone to get under your skin?
29 three songs that you connect with right now.
30 pick one of your favorite quotes

Meeeeeee♡
My acc. Was locked and disabled but I fixed it!
hello my loveys♡

Ugh.

I'm tapping out.
I'm in the bottom of the hole and I'm just covering myself with dirt now.
mom is doing okay, single still, ex toying with heart.
moving out and back in with dad.
emotional as fuck.

I just want to rage.
but I know if I do, the storm will just get worse.
so I will be silent and weather the storm.

Jayden and i are no longer together.. officially. So I will most likely not do couple commissions anymore With his character.

Mom is home and doing okay, but we are still watching her like a hawk.

Currently being schmoozed by one of my exes. He's one out of maybe two that ended on good terms and we have been able to remain friends since.

That's all for now.
back to work..

They finally figured out what she has.
it's a highly contagious disease that has three specific causes-
1 weak immune system (mom has Graves disease )
2 too many antibiotics (yep)
3 too many doctor visits.

Weird huh?!
anyway, mom is on an upswing. Not bleeding so much. She's eating soft food now. Still will be in the hospital for a spell but atleast she's finally fucking healing.

THANK YOU TO EVERYONE WHO PRAYED AND HAS CONTINUED TO DO SO♡

My mom's blood pressure got so low they moved her to the fourth floor and have her on a heart monitor.

I'm going to start praying my ass off, because I should have from the beginning but I was wrong In not following through. Between. My mom and work all art from me is postponed, aside from this weekends comicon in my hometown.. then again I don't even think I'll be going.

I need prayers now, more than ever.

They thought she had diverticulitis. . And now they think she has ulcerative colitis. to make a long story short her doctors are clueless .

So mom's colonoscopy has been postponed due to her colon being swollen and her having a bacterial infection. I went and saw her the other night. She was really dehydrated so her body was absorbing that IV like crack. She seemed to be a little better tho.

She had a rough day today though.
Will find out more tomorrow.
For now, goodnight♡

Yesterday my aunt started a bake sale for my mom to raise money for hetreatment on March 10th. Please signal boost me or something. I want so desperately to help, that I'm donating my first check to help my mom.

Please, I need commissionees so I can help my mom.

Visited my mom last night.
she's in a lot of pain. I can't remember what it is called but she's bleeding from her large intestine.
A colonoscopy has been scheduled and they will most likely have to do surgery and remove some of her intestines.

So my sleep last night wasn't restful, I didn't take my meds, so my mind raced all night and I had nightmares about my mom.. and I've been crying off and on for the last two hours or so.

I want my mom's suffering to end,
but how it could end is what is scaring me the most.
>.<

Life is okay.
paypal is fixed.
work is good.
relationship with roommate is normal.

and then there is..

Mom still sick,
animals are sick,
roommate is sick,
I'm starting to feel sick.

>.< I want mildly warm weather, everyone to be healthy,
and a new bed for my new room.♡♢♧♤☆

I just want to rant about this fucking holiday. It puts  couples under unnecessary stress,  and put unnecessary stress on the relationship it really pisses me off. another reason I'm not as fond of this holiday is because my parents separated on Valentine's Day like 10 years ago and even though I have let this situation go it still bothers me when this holiday comes around because my dad hasn't let it go and my mom deep down hasn't let it go either. I also don't like Valentine's Day because I have been dumped on it which really really sucks and with my current situation I don't have a Valentine to share on this day that is supposed to be special for couples and all that shit. It is depressing to get on facebook or other social media sites and see everyone going on about how their Valentines Day is going to be so special and then it's even more depressing seeing statuses on Facebook and other social media about people who spend Valentine's Day alone. It makes me sad and it makes me angry and it makes me want to shut the whole Valentine's Day operation down.  I wonder what it would be like is Valentine's Day was just another day if it wasn't a holiday- if candy and cards and all those oversized teddy bears were not mass produced for this one day. I wonder what it would be like if it was just like every other day where you could just hang out with who you wanted eat wherever you wanted and just be and feel loved. It makes me really sad I don't know how else to explain other than it makes me very sad. I wonder what it would be like if the roses and the chocolate and all the little gimmicks Valentine's Day were just treated like actual gifts and were actually spontaneous. I don't have anything against anyone who goes overboard on Valentines Day, I'm assuming that you must really love that one person very much , and I hope they know that ...but I really don't consider Valentine's Day a holiday I don't think it should be a holiday because I know it causes a lot more heartache than anyone really lets on and I wish that I didn't feel this way. I wish that I could be excited about Valentine's Day like everyone else and wonder if or hope that I might get something special from someone. A special gift that was not forced, the type of gift that just comes from someone's heart because they want to give it not because they have to. This may sound silly but this is what I actually feel and these are some things that I've heard and seen and it made the whole Valentine's Day thing really depressing the hype for it blows and as much as I like to be an optimist I honestly believe them or hearts are broken on Valentines Day more people are disappointed and let down and most relationships tend to fail because of the overwhelming pressure this holiday provides feel free to prove me wrong or anything else I appreciate comments especially on subjects like this but like I said before this is just how I feel I can't speak for everyone else.

I've got a lot on my heart.. some if it is stupid, and some of it is super serious. We'll start with the serious..

My mom has Graves disease (Her immune system is attacking her own body basically). She's had it for a long time now.. I remember writing a speech about her being the strongest person. I know because of it. Well she was in a car accident last year... about November or december. It did some damage to her insides (and severely fucked with her stomach ulcers) when she went to the doctor and had tests done because she got really sick after that.. the doc said that she's basically stressing/worrying herself to death. Literally. Like, do you even know how that makes me feel? I've watched her suffer, made her cry, made her feel unappreciatEd in the past. Since I've been trying to make it up to her. My mother, the woman who gave life to me, the woman who is and will always be my best friend is so sick. I can't even explain without crying. one of my biggest fears is losing my mother. All I can do is hope and pray and have faith, but im still scared. So I'm asking, from a bleeding heart, even if you don't believe in shit, just.. just take a moment an actually pray for my mother. Actually mean it From your heart. You do not realize how much of an impact this will have.

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As for the stupid shit, it's my ex. I still love him dearly, and as much as I want to move on, I feel stuck. I get insanely jealous when he talks or hangs with other girls. I feel ignored, and all these other bullshit feelings. I don't want to fucking feel anymore. I'm grateful for my job, and everything will fall into place eventually but Jesus christ, does it have to hurt this bad? I bet if anyone could feel as much as I do, on a daily basis, you'll seriously question my sanity.

I knew this breakdown was coming.. it was just a matter of time.