1. Gift art  furryjacket
2. Gift art  Pixelfigment
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I'm open to take more commissions, just note me with what you want. I'll be sure to link my commission info journal below♡

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/6481010/

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Work is doing good and my family has managed to raise $550 for my mom.
I managed to raise an extra $35 thanks to two friends on here and one customer from work. Got my first check and spent half already lol its totally worth it though. Anyhow, it's cold down here in west texas. How's everyone else doing?

Please make sure you have the money for your commissions/badges/ect.
I am very detail oriented so please provide me with a reference of your character. You will be provided with a rough draft (before inking) of every thing below (except ychs) to approve of.

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NOTE ME FOR THE FOLLOWING:

Your Character here (YCH)
Provide reference link and it's free!
I do this so you can experience my work before jumping in and paying for something you don't like! [Am willing to attempt ychs digitally if asked)

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Badges*
Head- $4 usd
Full bust/body- $8 usd
Couples- $12 usd
*all badges will come with characters names on bottom/side. Let me know if you would like a physical copy.

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Commissions (traditional)*
(Any pose, gender/species, humans, furries, animals, pokémon ect.
Can be full body, or bust up. Feral form is accepted too. )
Characters- $2 usd per character
Lineart- $10 usd
Lineart with color (light shading included)- $13 usd

KEEP IN MIND THAT BADGES AND COMISSIONS ARE SEPARATE. NOTE ME OR COMMENT BELOW WITH QUESTIONS! THANK YOU VERY MUCH♡.

No commisioned digital art as of yet,
Still practicing :)

Persona 5 - Japanese Trailer: http://youtu.be/kotF62s1NBA

For ps3 and ps4 thank you atlus!

Makes me want to play Persona 3 and 4 and draw all the characters xD
would y'all like to see the gangs from 3 and 4 and Q?

I haven't been feeling good the last day or two. With the flu and strep going around I'm kinda like welllllll, shit. Also got into a screaming match with the ex so yeah I'm not feeling well. Bleh.

May or may not sketch just enough to put up as a YCH.
Unless people have requests?
i'll connect my paypal to my bank tomorrow for tips n shit<3
MUAHHHHH!~~~

Pretty much anyway. Jayden isn't happy and hasn't been and I didn't believe him the first time he told me.
I assumed we were just way too stressed out, and we were, but in a sense I was wrong.
We've been together for about a little over 6 months. I live with him as well.
No hes not an absolute scum-bag.. im old enough to understand that relationships go sour.
That happiness and self-assurance play a big role in it, along with trust and loyalty.
There was no cheating, or anything like that. He just wasn't happy. I get it.

I've cried a little bit.. I'll probably cry a whole hell of a lot more later.
Please no hate. I don't want nasty comments. Shit happens, and I just wanted to give an update incase I disappear for a bit.

Check out this link:
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/6437954/

I've seen so much worse on deviantArt and they removed my sexual deviant wip because he's penis looks erect.

He happens to be sheathed actually. But whatever.
*grumble grumble*

I can't draw penises.

I would like to expand my traditional art by learning how to do some nsfw stuff.. but idk where to look for tutorials or who to ask..

Help?

If there's a pretty girl who has caught your eye and shes a bit weird but not a hazard.. snuggle that little weirdo.

When you get angry, take five to breathe and come back to talk it out. Don't ignore her or say mean things just because you hurt or your stressed.

Give her the benefit of the doubt, give her a chance to prove you wrong.

Most importantly, don't slap her hand away when she's trying to pull your sorry ass out of a hole and take the razors away.

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I'm not perfect. I say the wrong things at the wrong time and tend to think out loud. You do not know how much my heart really feels emotion wise. When you compliment or don't on something I'm wearing or make up or anything. I pick myself apart in complete silence, trying to figure out what I may have done wrong. I do the same thing when you come home grumpy from work, not because I want to but because you don't tell me anything. I worry a lot, most of it I can keep under control.. but have you noticed that I haven't been sleeping? I'll never be able to hold a job you so desperately want me to get if i'm up all night turning thoughts of you around in my head. I don't want to be like Cortana from halo. She ends up thinking herself into self destruction. You make me feel like her sometimes. Like I'm just thing little thing you carry in your pocket, only the relationship isn't the same. When I lose my head over something (like my cats being sick) you keep calm but cold. Tender to the animal but not to me. You lose your damn mind and spin into this vortex of I fucking hate everything if anything happens to your things..

Enjoy your razor blades.
Chew on that shit.

I'm glad my kitties are getting better.
Since we have returned home my significant other has been at odds with me.
taking stress out on me, things of that nature.
I have yet to lose my temper and tell him to fuck off, but I don't think over stressing myself is any better.

My depression has kicked in big time, it has also thrown my body out of whack. No I'm not saying I'm going to kill myself, but I will apologize in advance for any moody weepy or morbidly morose drawings that come of this.

He just makes me want to punch him in the face and cry. So we haven't really been talking, besides little stuff like "did you feed the dogs?"
he seems all happy n shit when he's on the Xbox one with his friends, but the second I come in the room (or when he leaves) The atmosphere changes.

I'm just tired of being the target..

Back from trip! Hope everyone had fun during xmas and new years!

Currently up near lake Buchanan, on vacation for christmas.  :) not doing commissions while I'm up here except for what art I owe/promised. Just helping the boyfriend around the property where I can and enjoying the nice green forests around me. With that being said, I wish you all a merry Christmas,  and a happy new year!
I'm out♡☆.

Every feeling hits at once,
Like stepping on a land mine,
I just want to turn it off,
I just want to be fine.

I have a pill for my sadness,
And one for when I can't sleep,
I have a pill strictly for staying chill,
Keeping my emotions flat for when anxiety creeps.

I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy,
And I fear for my future child,
Because I don't know if this is heriditary,
Or if my mind is just running wild.

When the anxiety rises up,
I feel so much that I cant breathe,
And sometimes I'm just numb,
Which Is Equally suffocating.

I have good days,
When I'm feeling okay,
And everything seems alright.
They never seem to last,
Unlike the quiet , bitter nights.

It's a constant war inside my head,
And the battlefield is my heart.
I wish most could better comprehend,
That behind every smile and laugh,
I can just as easily fall apart.

I'm grateful for those who still stand by me,
And I'm humbled by their love.
It's been proven to me time and time again,
That i, myself, am good enough.

Unfortunately this war will continue on,
I don't know for sure if it will ever cease,
What I do know is,
Giving up will get me nowhere,
And I have to keep searching to find my peace.
I don't want to just survive,
I want to live.

Go here!

https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/6324948/

Go here!

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/6299641/

So my mate and I have been under a lot of stress lately.
and he pointed out today that he feels we moved in together too fast..
I can't keep myself under control so I'm just going to go into the other room and draw.. and possibly cry.

I feel many different things right now.
I guess I'm gonna look for a new place to live.
my heart hurts guys.. so bad..

I wanna start making money for what I do.
I was planning on being cheap (since I provide a background anyway)
like 2-3$ a character and what not.
I need advice.. help?

So I have  muubles to thank for the amaaaazing character, and  rekuuhh for the base♡

I should recieve the pdf file and whatnot later today, so expect a reference sheet soon!

P.s. what I uploaded is strictly a preview, and I have linked the original post to kumi. Say I'm trying to steal her in any way and I will cut your throats! I'm not that kind of person, and if you assume me to be then get lost!♡

Okay.. so on further inspection of my fursona,
I realized key detailed marks had been left out of all the drawing I've done with her. I am so ashamed..

So hopefully tomorrow, I will create/color/label a reference sheet with exact details of my cabbit. I will also link my fursona so you can visually see what I had overlooked in previous pieces.

Alas my fever has returned, and I haven't been sleeping well so I may not have a chance to do it until tomorrow evening.. (because anything under 12 straight hours isn't enough sleep apparently.)

Please bear with me.
I don't have any money for a doctors visit yet.
and I'm miserable.
and my period is late (they test you before you renew your birth control and apparently I was not pregnant. . But now I'm not so sure)
so I'm stressing just a wee bit.
waaaah. T____T

There are times I wish I couldn't feel anything at all.
Then there are times when all I can do is feel.
This is one of those times. . .

One of my goals is to get out of this little town.. but not for obvious reasons. Sure it's tiny and the oil boom rapes us, assholes from other states rush in like runoff from a big rain storm, and suck the town dry, but that's not my reason.

I wasn't supposed to be born, nor my brother. My mother has had a hard life, and had been fighting Graves disease since her early to mid twenties. She had 90% of her thyroid removed, her neck stapled shut and was told she'd never have children.

I owe my mother my life.

I have apon my shoulders such a heavy burden. I have to get through college, I have to pursue geology and travel the world and bring forth from the earth rocks, and minerals. I have to go to Nevada and mine fire-stone opal, so my mom can hold the ocean floor in the palms of her hands. I must go on this journey for her and find myself a long the way..

I love my mother so much, that words don't compare anymore. Matching tattoos, while may be a lovely gesture, don't even come close. It's like I've been touched by an angel. My heart is just overflowing and i don't want it to stop. Words, gestures, acts of love just aren't good enough anymore. I must give her the world, because I owe her my life and because I love her so much.

She is my inspiration.
For art, for life.
We have a deep connection through dragons.. I will continue to draw them for her forever.

It's 3am, and you don't know how badly I want to call her right now. Just to hear her voice, to feel her hugs.. to just be with my mom in peace.

I'm crying, in bed with cats crawling all over as I type. I have no moral for my blubbering...  but I hope if my mom ever gets to listen to me read this aloud, that her heart will stir with such emotion, that her eyes brim with tears, and that for that moment she truly sees, and understands, and forgives me for every malignant thought.

I cannot throw away a life I call mine, when in all divine reality it is not my own.

I need her just as much as she needs me and without her I would be lost.
I love you, mom.

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 "Mama"

 What makes you happy
What makes you smile
And when you smile please
Is it for real

I know you're not one
One to pretend
Even when I was a child

You grow up too fast
And have to be brave
Braver than most strong men
That I've ever seen

Sing your song mama
Sing it out loud
When I hear your voice
It's the loveliest sound

Little girl
You can come out now
The dangers all gone
You can come out

All that you've held
Is too much to hold
So let it all go now
And you will become gold

Sing your song mama
Sing it out loud
When I hear your voice
It's the loveliest sound

Sing your song mama
Sing it out loud
Desperately singing
You're beautiful now

Laughter and tears
Gracing your face
The music of your strength
Held up this place

Yet daddy's right here now
You can let go
He's holding it all now
And healing your soul

Sing your song mama
Sing it out loud
When I hear your voice
It's the loveliest sound

Sing your song mama
Sing it out loud
Desperately singing
You're beautiful now

There's something
I'm trying to tell you
I've tried to tell you before and
Each time that I profess it
It just leaves me wanting more and

I think you are beautiful
And I'm proud of you
What I'm trying to say is
I love you
I love you. -Flyleaf

I had to take a break from the art.
going back and forth between digi, and traditional really messed with my eyes and I've been fighting migraines.

Boyfriend is playing with the tablet, so I'll be doing more of the traditional.
Boyfriend is also working two jobs, and we're both kinda sick too. So not much is going on over here.

Will start back up on challenges tmo. (I know I'm behind I'm so sorry xl)

Just.. needed a break from being stuck in the house.
~♡
Muffinboo

Is meh.
I'm rather disheartened.
Drawing digitally is difficult so to those who can do it.. kudos.
you make it look easy. Ridiculously.

I guess I don't know how to set up my layers properly..
like what should be first, second, ect.
I still like to use guidelines as well, they help.
they are the only reason Lyric came out the way she did.

All my other digi-art was free-handed.. :/
my hand has been cramping up too..
I don't feel as if i can move as freely as I do wi the a pencil..

so yeah.
maybe I should draw everything traditionally and then scan it in and go digital from there? Idk..

We found out that the shed we had all my stuff in was infested with mice so we had to rush and start moVing things into the house sooner than expected.
so the living room is a wreck and i have to work on that tomorrow. Jayden is working two jobs now, so I'm thinking of being über nice and making a nice dinner and surprise him with fancy lingerie.

Life is being so difficult right now.
I've got to be a better mate, despite my anxiety and depression issues.
because I love him.. and you do stuff like that for people you love. Right?

I hope.