Hey everyone, so sorry I have been struggling a lot with life and have been very neglectful of your commisions I owe.
If i owe you a commission, please comment below with what it was and your ref sheets.
I have lost a lot of the notes and instead of what you commissioned, if you would wrather like something else. My mate has kindly offered to help me get these done since.. I honestly have lost all my feelings to draw..
I hope you under, so please..comment below. Thank you.

*squeek* my mate made these awesome Icons for her and I! You guys should really see how cute these are!

Sorry I have been very inactive lately. I am working on a lot of art, just been hard for me to balance it with friends, work and family. Again I am so sorry..
Also, for the last couple of days I have just been so head over heals sick...I barely want to move right now or do anything..I am even having a hard time eating anything because it just hurts my stomach so bad,..

I am doing my best to have a whole slew of art posted..again I am so so sorry with how long things are taking...please don't be mad.

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I'm working on a huge art dump sketch page to get back into the swing of drawing and finding my style once again. This shall be finished tonight depending on how many people post a ref (and if I decide to color sketches or what.)
If I really..and I mean really down hard like your character, you maybe drawn more then once in this huge sketch dump work.
This will also have a mixture of my characters in there too, probably interacting with your characters as well.

This will be a SFW piece only.
please post a ref sheet that is SFW ONLY if you do not follow this rule, it's most likely your character wont be chosen because therefore I can not see it do to it being rating blocked.


Other then that, please keep me busy and back into the swing of things and out of this funk. I am hurting myself bad about how I feel about my art, and want to change that for the better.

Thank you and post your ref sheets away.


(Edit please note: PLEASE GIVE ME INFORMATION ABOUT YOUR CHARACTER. PERSONALITY WISE, LIKES, DISLIKES THANK YOU )

I know, usually this stuff doesn't matter but I want to know..

1. What do you want to see more drawn?
2. What do you like about my work?
3. What do you want to see less of?

I'm at a stand still and don't know what to do right now.. I can't finish commissions because my funk is so bad... that blindly I threw my tablet across the room because I got furious that I didn't have the "Creative spark" to create a unique character for myself...
I know I haven't been on in awhile due to metrocon and I noticed that I have been losing watchers left from right. What did I do to fail you...?

Idk if I am going to make an angel dragon anymore...I hate to sit down and work on a design, to find out it looks to close to anothers design that I never seen before till someone says something...
Idk if it is worth it to make one now...I mean, there cool but...meh..

Thinking about hopping on the ban wagon and making an angel dragon character. I even have a name and Idea set for him

Today, Marks the most beautiful day. Today is the 5 Year Anniversary of mine and my beautiful mate
(we made it to this milestone without breaking up. that's something to feel accomplished about!)
She is my rock, my light, my everything. When I feel like I am going to lose my way, she brings me back again. She keeps me stable the best she can, keeping me from changing into a monster.

She is my Rose Tyler, My Bad Wolf, My Beautiful Companion
I am her Doctor, Her Mad Man With a Box, Her One and Only Time Lord

She keeps me smiling, as we set forth on are adventures when ever we can.

I may have my "Dark" moments, but I am damn lucky she just rolls with it and helps me past it.

My sweet loving Riki, thank so much for making this Dragon the most happiest he has ever been. I could have never asked for something most beautiful, caring and dear as you.

I love you with all of my heart and hope to spend everyday with you~

Happy Anniversary baby~

Hello everyone! Yes, I am still alive and well.

METROCON WAS AMAZING! I feel like I was cheated out on the last day..I didn't get to stay till the end of the con due to having to rush out so fast.
Friday I got to spend the whole time alone with my GF We spent the time together enjoying are 5 year anniversary early, since Metrocon was are first convention together. (not this year, but YEARS ago.)
I wish we could of had time to sit out on the dock to watch the sunset and enjoyed are sea-salt ice cream (lollipops) but, are ride came and picked us up to show us where are hotel was at.
I have to say, this year out of all the cons I went to (not my first metrocon or AFO when we met Vic, Travis and Aaron <3) WAS THE BEST OF ALL TIMES!
Other than my sonic screwdriver breaking on me randomly. I wanted to cry so hard, it was my very first Sonic Screwdriver and like..my baby to me.
:hopetlioness: and are other friend Luna worked together and got me a new Sonic Screwdriver. I broke down into tears.. These two are like my sisters to me..my family. They did this for me and I completely lost it. OMG IDK how I AM EVER GOING TO REPAY THESE TWO! THEY DO SO MUCH FOR ME, OMG I LOVE THEM!
I all so got a bunch of doctor who things I don't need either rofl.

Sadly, I could wear my dragon for long. I had a tragic incodent one year when I wore a fursuit for the first time at Metrocon. I started to get hit with flashbacks and on top of that, trying to hide the panic attack I was about to have. I needed to get back to the hotel ASAP and thanks to  hopetlioness I made it back to the hotel, safe and unharmed and before I had an attack. I am going to try to wear her to smaller cons to get comfurtable again and work up to wearing her to metrocon. Someday I will break that fear.


Speaking of an anniversary, on the 23rd will mark 5 years that I have officially (without breaking up and getting back together) been with my loving mate  kneel4loki13 I am working on a gift for her to celebrate. If anyone wish to draw us something (not saying you have to) These is what are Fursonas look like.

Mine ---> http://www.furaffinity.net/view/13206775/ http://www.furaffinity.net/view/13108670/ (PLEASE DO NOT ADD THE EARING, ALSO SHE IS NO LONGER A SHE, SHE IS NOW A MALE/HE!)

My mates ---> http://www.furaffinity.net/view/13101502/

We both like:
Disneys Frozen
Doctor Who - (I am her 10th doctor as she is My Rose Tyler)
Anything Disney LOL




Speaking about art as well, I AM SO SORRY WITH HOW LONG THINGS HAVE BEEN TAKING!
I was so busy with getting ready with the con and getting over post con depression, also getting back into the swing with things at work.
My momma has also been in and out of the hospital..she goes back on the 30th for knee surgery.
I've been the one mostly taking care of my mom, because when something happens, my sister rushes off to her Boyfriends house and I am stuck home taking care of everything while mom is away in the hospital. I'm not trying to complain..but, I am just tired of being the only one who cares for are mom...well, more like pissed off that my siblings seem like they can care less...



Brighter news I was invited to be apart of the "Time Ladies of Metrocon 2014" where a group of ladies (and myself) all did one version of the Doctor from Doctor who. I have photos and might post them on here if anyone is interested with seeing them.

Anywho, I am back. Hi


(P.S. If your not watching yet, please go watch my fursuiting account more photos to come soon! )

Hey everyone, please support me and go check out these amazing pictures of my partial suit while in cosplay!
You can see the cutie on  skyedragon Go give it a watch! more pictures to come soon!

I AM SO SORRY I HAVEN'T BEEN SO ACTIVE ON HERE! WARNING: A LITTLE RANTING IS COMING

Metrocon has been around the corner and I HAVE BEEN BUSTING MY ASS WITH TRYING TO GET THINGS DONE.
I am tired from lack of sleep, My hours are back to par at work and they have been working me like a useless dog... I am thinking about transferring stores, I am just tired of my coworkers bull shit and the manegers not doing shit about anything.
I have good news though, I went from being bagger to Cashier :3 yay me!


I've been trying to get art done on here.. projects for the con.. cutting fake flowers to hand out.. breaking into my converse that I am wearing with my cosplay. Trying to get a little healthier and lose some weight for the con. Trying to save money, which is so FUCKING HARD when you have someone (not saying who) hammering you about getting them a phone and putting them on your plan.. yeah, I will be paying $35 a month for my phone, but $35 for there phone too is OBSERVED. I am having a hard time trying to keep my phone on as it is..after paying my phone bill I need to come up with MORE MONEY to help pay for car insurance, gas and everything else. Then I get snipped at when I break down and finally get myself something...fucking hate this crap.


Another reason I haven't been on FA much, is I have been dealing with being overwhelmed by this convention coming up in less then two weeks and no have any money with me for anything... A lot of stuff is going on at home and work has been so stressful...

I am hoping this convention will be what I need to get away.. to get away from the stress... from the lies from everything..to escape... sometimes I just feel like my world is crumbling.

I am doing my best to get things done before July, if I can't get it done before the con, I will have to get things going right after. I am so sorry everyone.. Just everynight I feel like crying...

sorry.. so sorry

So, I keep having a crap ton of pop ups and bing and stupid junk poping up.
I checked my extensions nothing.new was added. Running my virus cleaners and going.to restart my laptop by fully shutting it off and turning it back on...
Weird and yes pop.up blocks is on.

Going to a family picnic and I know I'm going to be an outcast today so...yeah.
Link ref sheets down below so I can have something to draw while I'm out there on my down time.

PLEASE MAKE SURE THEY ARE CLEAN SO IF A MEMBER OF MY FAMILY PEAKS OVER I WONT BE SCOLLED FOR IT!

these will be traditional sketches maybe even some color to it. Just something to do.

Going to a family picnic and I know I'm going to be an outcast today so...yeah.
Link ref sheets down below so I can have something to draw while I'm out there on my down time.

PLEASE MAKE SURE THEY ARE CLEAN SO IF A MEMBER OF MY FAMILY PEAKS OVER I WONT BE SCOLLED FOR IT!

these will be traditional sketches maybe even some color to it. Just something to do.

Here is my newest MLP OC StarDancer http://www.furaffinity.net/view/13636475/
Go ahead and ask him a question, on my free time I will do my best to drawing a picture to answer! I would like to see what some people may ask him :3

I am busting my tail on getting everything done before I leave for the con in July.
I will be bringing my laptop and tablet to work on art in the hotel on down time, just to doodle or what ever.
If I have all my trades and commissions done by then. I Might ask for ref sheets in the beginning of July

*** ( PLEASE DO NOT POST THEM NOW THANK YOU, I REPEAT. NOT NOW!! ) <--- if you don't read that, I shall smack your booty so hard. ***


Another thing I am so happy and proud to announce!

Everyone (or if you don't know, now you will) Knows that I am going as the Tenth Doctor from Doctor Who to metrocon.
I was sent a message on FB to be apart of "The Time Ladies of Metrocon" Group meet up and photoshoot!
Well, I asked to be the groups 10th Doctor (lady Doctor *wiggles brows*) AND I WAS ACCEPTED OMG YES!!! *runs around screaming* I am so nervous, because the leader of the group is counting on EVERYONE to be there for the photo shoot on friday! (Will so have her camera ready!)

Give me a ref of there mlp oc will get a picture from me when I get off of work.
I need to do a warm up.

Somedays this is exactly how I feel..mostly because my depression has getting the better of me lately..



Thinking about drawing discord whooves to this song

I should just stop talking/typing...every time I speak my mind...say an opinion..or just say...anything..everyone says I am pissed/rude/outlandish/downer...well, I should just mute myself...maybe that will make people happy...

My internet is down right now so, I can't get to the ref sheets and everything that I need to finish commissions at the moment!
Waiting for my brother to get home from work so he can restart it, since it's on my grandparents side of the house.
Just wanted to give everyone a heads up...typing this all out on my phone..

I stole this from

Just wanna see how this goes I guess *shrugs*

x] You cry often
[] You have cut yourself
[x] You have taken a liking to the color black
[x] You think things you think nobody else would ever think (constantly..and it freaks me out...things I never wish to talk about not even to a doctor..)
[x] You have thought about killing yourself (a few times when I went cold turkey from my medication/couldn't afford it anymore/..but, now the thought of growing old and dying just breaks me to tears....)
[] You punch, scratch yourself
[x] You're poor (even with a job...I just make so much..)
[x] You hide your face with your hair (half of my face)
[x] You think nobody understands you
[x] You feel alone
TOTAL: 8

[] You've taken a liking to other peoples pain
[] You enjoy pain
[] You have thought about cutting yourself
[x] You want something to die a lot
[x] You have thought that you were bipolar (never thought..I AM bipolar....)
[] You have no friends
[x] People have labeled you "emo"
[] Everybody hates you
[] You go to therapy (use to for different reasons)
[x] You're quiet
TOTAL: 4

[x] You think nobody cares about you (My worst days..I feel this way...)
[x] You have been told "there's people that have it worse then you" (I FUCKING HATE BEING TOLD THIS! Yes, people do... instead of telling me..FUCKING HELP ME THEN...That or I feel like they just don't understand! This is the last thing they can think of to blurt out!)
[x] You don't leave the house
[x] You stopped eating for at least 2 days
[x] You're worried about your future
[] Your parents don't care
[x] You don't like being around people (it depends...)
[] Your friends left you because your depression
[x] You're lonely
[x] You spend alot of your time on the computer
TOTAL: 8

[x] You feel like there is nothing good in life (some days....)
[] You're an atheist
[] You only believe there is only bad in the world
[] You feel more comfortable in black clothing
[x] You don't know what to do anymore
[] You have wanted to die for a stupid reason
[x] You have overreacted to something stupid
[] You could care less about school
[x] The people/A person that live(s) with you make you feel worse
[x] You've hated your life at least at one point
TOTAL: 5

TOTAL OUT OF ALL: 22

If you got 4 or under - you're fine.
If you got 8-13 - you could be better.
If you got 14-17 - see a doctor.
If you got 18-22 - your depressed/suicidal.
If you got 23-26 - you are very depressed and you had to have at least cutten cut yourself once. <--- Mine (No, I have never cutten myself..but, I have had placed my hand under the faucet in the sink and skulled myself....)
If you got 27-40 - you are one messed up person.

I want to say sorry without keeping any updates..Those who know me, knows I suffer highly with depression..
I have been working on trying to move to a different store closer to home, but sadly they just hired a bunch of people and I can't get transferred yet...I will have to keep trying.

Hurricane season is going to be a BITCH FOR ME IF IT HAPPENS THIS YEAR!
I have a good distance to travel...hopefully we can stay safe...

I also have been very sick on and off...been getting constant migraines and my noes have been randomly bleeding... Stress level from being chewed out at work, anxiety about metrocon rising...and MAJOR stress here and fighting because my brothers (gf? don't even know anymore...) has came back SOONER then everyone has planned... Trying to pay back my grandparents..fighting with rent and everything... trying to keep up with my own life.. it's hard. The stress is making me very sick... and when I finally have some peace at mind..things fuck me over again..

I am trying to stay strong, trying to keep my head up and hold on..but, there is just so much one can do before they break...before they just... lose themselves and everything...

I all so have been heavily fighting with my identity as of late...I truly feel that I wasn't supposed to be a girl... No..not getting a sex change...but, I just hate how..i hate that the fact I am a girl...
I all so thought about making muno a male instead of a girl..just how I feel...

Sorry about commissions being so slow..I am working on them...so very sorry...

I Thought YCH Reminders (Where it says REMINDER on the picture) and adoption reminders were now against FA rules...
I hate to be a butt about this..but, when I did a reminder for one of my adopts, it was taken down in a heart beat and got smacked with a warning...and I only posted it ONCE AND THAT WAS IT!

I keep seeing reminders blasted all over the front page and in my submissions...constantly...I even tracked a few and they were never forcefully taken down by FA admins...

just wtf...

Today is mothers day, and let me just say. Happy Mothers day to all my friends who are mothers out there.

Today, is a very sad day for my mate  kneel4loki13 Her grandpa was rushed to the hospital and isn't doing very well...please send here all your prayers and let her know that you are here for her. She needs everyone..please ---> http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5747882/