http://www.thinkgeek.com/product/e5a1/

ffffffff

*points, wiggles arms, makes brain noises*

my 'adult' account has been made. At the current moment its empty but all my art that has fetish tags will be moved there.

 hiddencobra

I spent two hours cleaning up my submissions. Will move the left over to scraps except for a few. Im surprised I didnt delete more.

FA really needs a mass delete/move option, doing it one at a time is annoying and hard.

Will edit this and my profile when I get the adult account up.

Ive been so shaky and dizzy the past few days not to mention annoyed with -everything-. Just having my mother talk to me makes me want to throw things or scream.

And now my laptop mouse is screwing up ;--;

*throws things*

No this journal has no point except for me to to whine. Why do I just want to floooop. Im so uselss

making an adult account, will edit this when its up.

Also will be either cleaning up this account or making a new one. Opinions?

So this journal is going to be a smattering of me smooshing together a bunch of questions. But I would like them answered so!

A)Im going to go more in depth for my commission information, this includes fixing some prices and adding some more categories as two/three at the current moment seems a bit off. Are my prices okay or do you think I should lower them?

B)I need more places to advertise. I am still on medical leave and as such can not get a 'real jurb'. I have a bad habit of forgetting I have other places to post art though and while I hate Deviantart..well. Should I grab one of those, do you think it would help?

C)I want to do more creature design. Is Chromo Co(My little genetic side project) still amusing or do you guys think ive done enough of that?

D)Should I open nsfw commissions/would you be interested in that from me.

E)Cookies! *tosses them everywhere

Anyone play? If so what 'realm'? How do you like it?

...Im bored and have no brain left for drawing at the moment :C

((Because I am bored out of my skull and want to draw creatures/animals/mythical thingummies))

special notes: If wanted please add to the bottom of the form if you wish for your creature to be a monster/scary.

Design your own creature, pet or humanoid companion!
Price 20$
Details. The customer contacts the Director with this form:

Creature, pet or humanoid?: pick one
Intelligence Level: animal, human, past human intel
Species Mash Up: 1-4 species you wish to go into the creation of your Chromo Co Creature. Example: salamander, wolf eel, fox
Specials: this includes scars, tattoos, extra genitals and three adjectives.






Note: Chromo Co scientist Damien retains all rights to the specie/creature etc design itself. The client retains the rights to the specific fetus or specially designed Creature. Please note in your filled form if you do not want others to be able to create their own creatures based off of the species of fetus you have bought. No designed Creature though will be allowed to be bought by anyone else, recolored or edited.

All other artwork featuring the clients bought product will come with a forever lasting 15% discount on later artworks of the product.

in the amazing words of my pet, "It's glorious', but besides that im not sure what to say about it or how to feel or how to stop laughing and feeling uncomfortable.

So I thought I would share.

That being said this is NOT SAFE FOR WORK

not even remotely close.
Y....yum?

I had to delete my notes because they were building up and I was beginning to panic haha.

That being said everyone whom commissioned me should have their art, if not please not me!(so sorry if I missed you)

my paypal is now in the minus because I am a colossal idiot and didn't realize that the cases were being sent to my JUNK folder and not my inbox. I have no idea why.

It seems ive had issues with these person in the past, and all I have is their name and email but I cant for the life of me find their FA username. Obviously im not about to post their email here thats uncalled for. Just, ugh fuck what am I going to do. my paypal is now in the red. Fab.

Im not saying this is a bad person or they are doing it on purpose. Please keep that in mind if you happen to be this person and reading this journal. All Im saying is its first, A) very very hard to prove to paypal refund that you gave a product to someone when it was quite some time ago and you use a note system on an adult furry website that hosts artwork. And B)if you've had trouble in the past with paypal having issues with your credit card or bank, stop, stop for the love of god stop using it. You are affecting the artists who NEED the money to eat, for bills and medication.


Also, seems im being ignored by a few artists I paid for art from awhile ago, and yet they are still posting new art art. Sigh.

because I never get asked the 'fun' questions


Ask anything, go go

-bumping my distressing journal away-



A question that sometimes drives me hazy: am I or are the others crazy?

Albert Einstein

Obviously if you do not want to read this, don't.

Normally I would not put the names of the medication I am on where total strangers can read it. And I am not. I am only putting the name of one, the newest, and mainly because I am seriously worried about the effects its having on me. The thing is, its still doing a lot more than anything else the doctor has managed to do for me the past few years he's had me. So far I havent had a serious diagnosis, he hasn't said to my face what ive had, he's jumped from one to the other, so at the moment im either paranoid schizo or im depressed or im just paranoid or im anxious and depressed. Take your flavor and stick with it I guess.

Before you say I should find a new doctor. Ive tried. I just cant roll around and pick one. Its hard enough, I do not have money, the funding is not there, and every other doctor has a list a mile long filled with patients waiting to get in.

Anyway, this new medication he put me on is called Topamax. He had me starting on 25mg x2 for the first week, then slowly upgrading till after four weeks then id be on x4 pills. At the same time id be weening myself off of prozac till id be completely off of the prozac. Lets put it this way, prozac and topamax? Hate each other. A lot.

The side effects are -horrible If im not throwing up I can barely think my way out past my nose. My fingers are numb, my feet are numb, my dreams are so vivid and real I wake up feeling like I didnt sleep at all. I go through life feeling like im living in a plastic bubble, and every one around me just..isnt real. They are staring at me, looking into me, tearing into me and mocking me. The are judging me. Im so tired, I can barely walk, I can barely breathe. I can barely -think-. I cant respond to things around me, I find paying for things to be troubling because I dont understand that handing a five dollar bill over is the normal thing to do. I swear im having micro naps.


And yet, even though im this close to wanting to take the nearest knife and jam it through my wrist to see the neat little bones inside? Its not because I want to die, its not because I want to end it all and kill myself. Thats just it. Its not because i want to die. I just...dont. Care. Im just not responding to things around me.

What the hell do I do.

open for about ten, from icons to ones like these: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/10655864/

note me if you're interested, since its a wide range prices will differ, though if you are interested in ones like I linked there they'd be 10$

Charryzarry-regular commission
Sionmekos-regular commission
Chazori-unknown

note: don't have to read, just need to get this out

Im just tired of never having anything for myself. I can't even work yet still due to the mental issues and the fact that still, after what, two years, the medication is doing little but keeping me semi-stable. What money I do make on the side with art, when I think I might be able to save it up to get some new clothes(I haven't bought new clothes in over a year, I wear the same pair of pants over and over pretty much). I need it to buy food. I need it to buy medication for mom. I realize I don't "NEED" to take care of her, but there is a large difference between thinking that and being able to say it when you deal with a blood relative you might not like, but you still have to love.

She has osteoporosis, she could break a bone by bending wrong. She has false teeth, she needs a specific expensive diet for her bones and her kidneys. She needs pain killers. She refuses to get checked out for mental issues(And I quote, "I am not crazy"), but I'm certain she has OCD and PTSD to say the least. This does not help my own issues, especially when I have my manic episodes of wanting to scream at her for making the least noise, for breathing to loud, for chewing loud enough that I can hear.

I just want to be able to buy myself a shirt and not feel bad about it. I want to be able to have my quiet time, when I don't have to hear anything but the noise of air and birds outside.

But I cant, so Ill deal.

and its only 15$? Am I being trolled? :(

http://www.sammydress.com/product517544.html



...no this journal has no point so bite me

Opening for the moment unlimited slots for quick commissions, being that there was an issue with something not coming in and I need my medication.

So that being said, if anyone is interested in anything else please note and I am sure we can talk.

Chibis: 3$
Example: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/10557547/

Sketch headshot: 5$
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/10539892/

please either leave a comment here or note. Paypal must be sent first.

Paypal is: Mcauley_natasha[at]hotmail.com

The library apparently no longer carries a copy, and I would like to have my own. Im curious if anyone has these books, and if they would be willing to part with them, perhaps for a trade of art? I would use amazon but they don't take canadian paypal.

BOOKS WANTED:
Animal Anatomy for Artists: The Elements of Form
The Weatherly Guide to Drawing Animals
Dynamic Figure Drawing by Burne Hogarth
Anatomy for Fantasy Artists: An Illustrator's Guide to Creating Action Figures and Fantastical Forms
Imaginative Realism: How to Paint What Doesn't Exist
Animals Real and Imagined: Fantasy of What Is and What Might Be
Fantasy Creatures: The Ultimate Guide to Mastering Digital Painting Techniques
Digital Painting Techniques vol 1-onward

((if this form does not work please tell me and I'll fix it.

If it does work, you will receive a note over the Furaffinity system with confirmation and requesting payment.))

At the current moment since this is a test drive of our new transgenic creations, all adoptions are on sale!

PRICE: 10$ per creature!

https://docs.google.com/forms/d/1Hz.....DQEvE/viewform

I got my hair cut, a lot shorter than my mother wanted(she stared at me blankly for a good few minutes before finally going 'wee-eeelll its shorter then I thought you'd get ;x and that was all). Suffering from extreme anxiety and paranoia i went from loving the cut to being terrified at how ugly I look.

I got ID'ed today picking up my prescription. I tried to walk into the bathroom only to have some old lady go 'this is the ladies room'.

Yea, I realize that, I want to be a guy, I AM a guy I just happen to have this most awkward body at the current moment. The point is just, ugh. It was like being slapped on the face.

I feel ugly, I feel stupid, I don't know what to feel.

My hair is short enough that its spikeable now, and I still like it, I just dont like the way people expect you to look like cookie cutter clones.

This journal is meaningless. I needed to rant. At least my cats love it. Gizmo spent a few hours grooming me and chewing till he had it the proper cat spike design. He'll have a good career as a hair stylist yet.

Im not going to name names here, that would be cruel. But I just want to state that Im tired of basically giving people free art. Normally when something I draw is priced under 20$ i will draw it first since my art tends to come with an artistic license stamp if you read my TOS, then I will ask for payment.

I can no longer do this. I have given far to many people free art, having never heard back from them with the payment. The recent flux of pin up art has been the worst. I just want to state that I may not be the best at art, I know I need to work on certain parts and Im trying really I am, but this IS a job for me. I am medically unable to work. I have three felines to support(and before someone cries that I shouldn't own pets if I cant pay for them, they are all rescues and all very important for my anxiety and depression). I need to eat, even with what little I make from art, I still rarely actually eat. I will have something small once a day more than likely.

Im still shakey about my prices. I don't want to seem to over charge, but in some regards I do think I'm under charging.

But, thats beyond the point. No longer will I allow people to pay AFTER the art, artistic license or not. When you commission me you should be aware that you are buying my muse and not a cookie cutter peice of art work. Unless you give me a good reason as to why you can not pay up front, I will no longer start drawings until I get paid.

All artwork that is 20$ and OVER can still be done in payment plans, as its not proper to expect people to have that sort of money on hand.

ALSO, the client must pay the paypal fees. Im sorry about this, really, but I can't keep being under priced because paypal is a dick.

now you are all free to hate me.

your art wil be finished in a day or two. I just can't draw on Dad's days off as he comes repeatedly into the living room to see what Im doing. Yes I'm an adult but that doesnt mean I want to tell him why I'm drawing a naked mouse or furry bunny lady with big boobies. Nor do I want to hear his reactions :c

take your attitude and jam it down your throat. I hope you choke on it and your misread and mistyped stats.

Love; the tank who's had enough of your bullshit

I want to draw sensual art, ladies and monsters and boys and LADIES I WANT TO DRAW <3

So uh, waist/thigh up, colored, flats, 10$, anyone interested?