Dunno if any furries are into this but I will be at the Talon Crescent war! If you go, let me know. Maybe we can meet up and have a beer before we bash each other's shields in (;

I am moving out soon, within the next two months. Once I am set up I will be back and try to nail out commissions... I am so very sorry I have vanished off and on, my life's been stupidly complicated right now.

If you can or want to spare some change to help with my deposit on my apartment I'd be greatful! I am trying to save up, but my work sucks (...totally changing jobs asap -_- )


Anyway I never was one to talk much...I'm alive x:

I am tired.


and I just want someone to love me and fucking hold me for once in my goddamn life.


Fuck this.

I need to figure out how to manage my money, fast. I haven't been working as much lately, so my $300 paychecks just haven't really been cutting it. I spend my money like an idiot, then wonder later why I can't get gas or pay my bills. I am so frustrated...I work hard, $9 an hour isn't enough for what I do. Oh, I got a $0.25 raise this week because I'm a dog trainer now.

25 cents an hour.


Thats: (and this is at BEST) if i work 40 hours a week, an extra $10. $40 a month extra before tax, to do significantly more, be responsible for people's pets AND safety during a training class.

I feel like I should be grateful for any kind of raise, but with how my life is right now and how I have to worry EVERY week if I will make end's meat, it isn't enough.


OTL


I need to finish school, but what will that even help? Probably nothin at all.

My shite old laptop (which is actually kicking ass still, just old. ) was returned to me (read: i took it back from an ungrateful fool) recently and I have gotten it working for the most part. -Iffy handgestures- I'm excited to have this thing working, since I really don't feel comfortable drawing anything in front of my ROOMmate (we share a bed, privacy doesn't exist in my world any longer.) It's nothing she does, I'm just always ashamed of the furry stuff I do. I miss drawing...I hope I can get back into it. I tried a few times unsuccessfully, but I will keep pressing forward in hopes that I can continue :s

I know I owe people some art...I'm sorry it's taken so long, it's inexcusable, but I think my life has been tumultuous enough that I can excuse myself. Moving, car problems, job problems, moving again: kicked out by parents shortly there-after, then being taken in by my best bud. After that it hasn't gotten much easier, car is still having issues but I did find out I'm accepted to CSUB; however, I am greatly considering moving out of this god-forsaken city to Chico or somewhere up in northern California.


That's my life in a nutshell right now, oh! I am a CERTIFIED DOG TRAINER at Petco, too, now! I am grateful for the promotion and I am going to try to make the best of the new position.

I miss you all, and I hope maybe we can be friends sometime. I could use more people to casually chat with! It would probably make me feel a bit better, really. :)

Soooo that's it. I never talk a lot, I know. I'm chronically vague but there's too much for me to quantify easily.

You can see all of his art in my gallery. Would anybody be interested in purchasing him? (for the right price)

Won't be cheap... I need money to help me procure my motorcycle, and helmet, gloves, whatever, so I am thinking of something around $200 if I sell him at all.

Male and female form...I will post all the commissioned art i have if a buyer is actually interested

Hours at work were cut. My life is tumultuous as fuck right now. I am trying to sell my car quickly so I can buy a cheap motorcycle... I dont know if I will have enough even after that

I'm stressing like crazy :/ Panic attacks. I have been trying to draw even just on paper and I cant even manage that. I'm sorry. I feel like a fucking failure, I can't even do the one thing I used to get joy out of. I just don't feel it anymore. I want to... I try almost every day.

I broke down on my way out of my work today, it was bad.

sorry. I just feel sorry for myself all the time... -goes to hide-

I went to the college (community college) to beseech the counselors to let me transfer EARLY: turns out, I already have enough units!

I am so thankful and I got so hopeful I choked up and cried a little on my way out. It's been a 4 year struggle to get out of the community college system, mostly due to an anxiety breakdown and a move to a town I loathed. I just applied to CSUB. Application was a $55 I couldnt really afford.. but I had to do it anyway, I couldn't wait on it. My parents MAKE too much, which is hilarious because I havent gotten a cent of help from them in a LONG time. Frustrating, but I am not going to let that bog down my excitement that I AM GOING TO A UNIVERSITY (once accepted). I can transfer. Hell, I could pack up my few items and take a train and move to another town if I really wanted to.


I'm going to ask my roommate & best friend in a few days if she wants to come with me, if I leave. I love her and she's my family. I would kill to bring her to HUmboldt county with me :D

-does a little dragon jig-

I have been living with my parents for the last two or three months, because its been convenient. But a week ago my car stopped turning on -- something is broken and I'm kind of up a creek about it.

Some stupid shit happened at my parent's. I made a few minor mistakes, and they blame me for shit that isn't even true. I don't feel like getting into details because it's all stupid anyway. I'm hurt.

My dad yesterday told me to leave, so I'm moving in with my best friend.. I have a place, but my car is still broken and it's kind of necessary to get to work.

I'm freaking out. I don't know what to do... I don't and havent drawn anymore. I'm sorry. I will need to work something out, but now isnt the time. I can't fucking think straight. I've been DISOWNED by my goddamn family; yeah, cause I'm soooo bad.


-goes to curl up in a big ball of fuzz and cries-

I really am trying to get back into doing stuff here, but my life hasnt permitted me to be AROUND.

But, Im here tonight and trying.

Soooo I would LIKE to do a wood burning piece for someone, if they are interested. Really, the cost will cover a teeny bit of gas or food for me, and mostly the actual hunk of wood I would be burning... shipping will be a thing too, but in an envelope it should cost about $5 to ship.

Cost: $25+$5 shipping

It'll be a portrait, I can do any furry critter and also scales look neat in a wood burning piece. If you are interested, let me know!

I just finished one today and it looks rad, a collaboration with a friend. I will upload samples when I have time or email them if you're interested.

I feel like ive lost all talent. I cant draw pen and paper, and its my only media right now. Pretty fucking depressing actually.

I'm still trying to fix my financial problems. I dont have much to say, I'm depressed still.

but im alive :/ So there's that.

I got into a huge fight with my roommate some weeks back, and I refuse to go back there now...so meh...at least Erin took me in...

Right as I think I'm doing better, shit happens again. I don't believe anyone can live on their own on a minimum wage job. It's impossible. I'm doing what I can, but like always. I got paid Friday and now I'm broke again. Shit.... I can't. Even get govt financial help unless I'm married or have kids? Fucking bullshit l

I don't think I'm dealing so much as putting it in a cabinet and shutting it. I'm forcing my brain to be quiet but I dont think its helping.

Only reason I get out of bed anymore is that I have responsibilities to other people. I never do anything for myself. I feel scatter brained, I know I've been complaining here a lot, but I don't really know where else to go. I can't afford therapy, even though I know I need it. I really just want some anti-anxiety medicine, maybe it would help me cope.

I still don't know how long I can cope with feeling this way. The girl I've been spending 90% of my freetime with actually expressed an interest in bein with me but I told her no. How could I tell her no? I'm an idiot.. but maybe not, she's miles above my league and I feel so small I'd be lucky if anyone looked my way.

I dont think she was serious anyway.


I'm gonna shut up nw because im rambling..

First of all, I'd like to thank everyone who helped me last week! I appreciate it, and needed it. Was nice to be able to eat. It's been rough, im still in choppy waters. I haven't gone home yet (and really dont plan on it, if my car breaks down on that side of town itll be way more hectic than if I have issues where I'm at currently.)

If you don;t know, Bakersfield is a huuuuuuge city. Its spread out suburban and urban area, so covers probably a good 45 minute drive from one far end of town to another. I don't like it. Its easy to spend an hour trying to go to one place to another due to traffic or whatnot.

I am going to be trying my hardest to save up for a down payment on a motorcycle. I would like to buy myself a sketchpad and pencils,..so maybe I can at least do traditional commissions in the meantime, maybe I need to just try and buy myself a laptop? I don't know. I might just have to do that once my finances are more in order.

Why am I opting for a motorcycle? Gas. Reliability.
Gas prices are going to sky rocket shortly, if you've paid any attention to the oil industry's practices, mainly OPEC, it's fairly obvious. So for that reason I'm nt going to buy a car, probably a sportster (Harley) which I can get for $3,500 and it'll be worth around that by the time I need to sell it or feel comfortable purchasing a car.


I don't know why I even feel the need to tell anybody this, but I think part of it is the only person i have to listen to me has been working on her own issues as of late...so I cant complain much to her. ._.

Thanks again for the help. If you'd still like to contribute, my pp is becca.simmons[at]yahoo.com <3

I'm pretty much stuck on the west side of town, where I work. THankfully my parents are gone for the next few days, so I'm ok to crash here. My car's headgasket problem is back. I'm smelling antifreeze burning while I drive, I lost horsepower, its put-putting...yeah... I'm fucked.

I need help. I don't know what to do, I have $6 to my name right now and I don't get paid until friday. I dont know how I made it this long without money. I can't believe this is happening. I don't know what to do. Eventually I need a car or motorcycle, but again idk how that's going to happen. :s cheapest motorcycle is about $1200, and my car might be able to fetch $600...if that. I even doubt that at this point.

If you can even throw a buck my way, I'd appreciate it. I want to get back to my normal life. Drawing. I havent drawn in months, because of all this stupid crap going on.

If you can and want to help, my paypal is becca.simmons[at]yahoo.com ._. I hate asking. But I'm at the end of my very short rope right now....

Love you all,
Myn (Beck)

during which I will attempt some commissions, I'm so sorry guys. I'll post updates when I can. Hopefully I can get back into the swing of things

Money's tight now too...I've got $70 bucks to last me 2 weeks....I'm an idiot. :(

As of late.

My car is momentarily fixed, headgasket liquid is the bomb. So it's moving. I'm working. I plan on trying to return to finish commissions as soon as possible, I haven't been sitting around twiddling my thumbs. My personal life got complicated for a while...still is...I'm behind on bills because im a major fuck up (salute).


I fell in love with a girl. Got my heart ripped out, now im trying to repair it (feels like im gonna puke just thinking about it). Tonight I work, I open the store tomorrow, and stuff.


I got a promotion at work, on the plus side. I begin training as a dog trainer asap at work. I'm incredibly excited for the oppertunity. Kinda numbs the pain im feeling a little

Anyway....thank everyone for their patience. I'll keep you updated, when I start working on art I'll let everyone know...

I can't believe my life right now.


My car started having overheating probs a few days ago. No worries, right? Just throw some liquid in the thing and its fine.

No.


It started staying hot, then shuddering. Finally its been blowing smoke out of the engine and the exhaust. My headgaskets are blown, according to three different mechanics (My friend's fiance, my step brother, then his co-worker at an actual shop)


So that's $1000 repair...ontop of everything else, nd i live a 20 minute drive from work. I HAVE to have a car.


FML.


I wanna curl up and die rn.

Terms of service
1. As the artist, I reserve the right to post the artwork as I see fit (Generally to galleries on different sites) I may use any piece I create for artistic showcasing, portfolios, and advertisement. -- I will never claim your characters as my own.

2. I will post the image to my gallery unless specified not to beforehand.

3. I will NOT draw content that is illegal or unethical (that is for me to determine).

4. I have the right to decline your commission. You will receive a reason why it was refused.

5. A client may repost a picture that was intended for them and fully purchased to FA/DA/inkbunny/sofurry. Any sites outside must be asked. I'd prefer my work stay in those realms.

6. Customers have the right to have their identity hidden if they wish to.

7. Do not claim the artwork as your own work, remove my signature, or attempt to sell the piece itself. If this is violated, I will contact admin.

8. Clients may not use the picture for any profitable reason, unless discussed before hand. This will entail a higher cost at the buyer’s expense.

9. You may not remove my signature or watermark. When possible, please link to my FA if you’re posting said work.

10. You may not edit any of my images, unless discussed and given explicit permission.

11. If you lose the image after receiving it, I am not responsible for keeping a back-up so make sure you save it! I do NOT have to keep it posted in my gallery

12. If you are ordering adult art you are stating that you are 18-years-old or older.


full refunds will only be given at the sketch stage of work After I finish sketching, you will receive a 50% refund. If you do not like your final piece and you have given me the thumbs up throughout the process, there is not much I can do. I you have an issue with any part of a drawing let me know during the beginning phases so I can fix it! I want all my costumers happy as I reasonably can.

13. After I send you the line art, it will be at that time you will need to identify anything you wish to be changed before approval then again at the flat color stage. Once you approve of the artwork, I delete the SAI/PSD (apon completion) file from my computer, so it would be too late if you later notice something that needs to be edited. Please look over your order carefully before giving the OK to proceed.

14. Please decide and confirm the character you wish to be drawn before giving me the all go

15. Please do not just add in sudden major changes such as choosing a different character to be drawn or making major changes to the character's design while I am working.
-Make sure you know what you want before you confirm and send the payment; please provide me with an accurate reference.


A few things of note before I start the commission

if your commission has a character in it that does not belong to you and has a rating of mature permission from the owner is a must. I'll need to see their permission (via note or a screen cap conversation between the two of you) before I do anything. Please check with the owner before contacting me.

I will edit work after the finals if I forgot major details. If you added details after the work is finished i will not edit for those details.

Orders above $50 can be done in installments to be figured out

You can print out artwork/commissions you have bought for personal use only.

You MAY NOT sell my artwork/commissions digitally or as prints.

Artwork ownership

If you have a piece commissioned containing someone else’s character that does not belong to you, you forfeit complete ownership of the piece. This means it is communal property between you and the other character’s owner, regardless of who paid for the piece. That being said; if you have issues with the other person after the piece is done…doesn’t matter. They still own half the piece.

A simple fix for this is to use ONLY your own characters. This includes YCH auctions as well: you own a percentage of the piece, not it in its entirety unless both characters belong to you.

What I will need from you
1. A clear visual reference to work from or very detailed text
- Permission of other character’s owner. (If applicable) -- You may request to have any of my characters in the piece if you need a pairing :3
2. The general idea of what you want unless I am given artistic freedom

Payment
1. I only accept payment through Paypal. Full payment must be sent first before I proceed with your commission. I am from the United States, so the payment must be converted to U.S. dollars (USD) if you use a different currency.
2. Please send payment under services
3. Do not put anything in the comment box
4. Becca.simmons[at]yahoo.com

Quotes:

Please note me here or email me (mynerva.commissions@gmail.com) if you'd like a commission quote
please answer these questions when inquiring about a commission (or copy and paste the following)



TOS may change without notice
Please see and read before every commission

Feel free to contact me if you are unsure about anything, or have any questions!
Thank you again.

Stolen (with major edits) from DevilsTrill because she said I could. Bahah.