Chatting up people on okcupid is stressful. I envy couples sometimes, not because they already have a partner (well partly because of that too) but because they've already moved past that awkward small-talk introductory phase and have settled into a comfortable routine.

Some days are so boring, the only thing I look forward to is what or when my next meal is going to be.

I recently completed my Pokemon XY pokedex. Now I'm a little disappointed because there's really nothing left to do in the game anymore besides shiny-hunt, and that gets boring fast. At least I have Animal Crossing: New leaf, but even that's starting to lose it's novelty.

My check engine light came on recently, now I'm worried how much any car repairs are gonna cost me. I've already stretched out my funds with credit card payments, health insurance, medication, monthly cell phone bill, gym membership and gas for my car, so how the fuck am I gonna afford anything else? Oh, and my dad's birthday is coming up. AND I have to pay 60 dollars per session for electrolysis (permanent hair removal) at least once a week, or else my facial hair will start to become noticeable again. And I really have no choice but to pay for this, since I've already started treatments, waxing and shaving is NOT AN OPTION for me, and apparently a girl having facial hair is a sin in our society but for dudes it's A-OK.

Anyone here have a pet dog? Do you have a pet dog and need a kennel to transport them in? I'm doing someone a favor and selling this dog kennel on Craig's List, haven't gotten any replies yet.

It's a PetMate SkyKennel, to be exact. So you can use it to house your dog safely in the cargo hold of a plane during air travel. The craig's list posting can be found here: http://losangeles.craigslist.org/ws.....646546634.html

(That stands for Anime Los Angeles, for those who don't know)

It was a long wait on Day 0 to get on-site registration, but wasn’t nearly as long as Anime Expo 2007, thank GOD. Still a little disappointed that they didn’t have any One-day passes for sale, only the $60 full weekend badges. I only had the time to go to one day (Friday) because I couldn’t get off work for Saturday and Sunday.

Some things I did like about the con: My favorite part had to be the Some Assembly Required panel, where Parle Productions cosplayed Tony Stark and Loki and held a Q&A session in character. Very amusing and fun times were had.

There was a really fun group of people rooming right next to the pool deck that gave me free vodka shots just for walking by, it was cheap booze and it tasted awful, but hey, can’t argue with free alcohol.

Got a TON of streetpasses with my 3DS. And traded a bunch of pokemon too. Made new friends, got more Friend Safaris.

Okay, and this is where the whining comes in, so consider this a fair warning; you don’t have to read if you don’t want to

Some things I did not like about the con: The jacked up prices for plushies in the Dealer’s Hall. I saw several MLP toys marked up WAY higher than the price I paid FOR THE EXACT SAME plushies I’ve seen on sale in the malls/stores near my home.

I made the mistake of going to a con by myself again. I enjoy the freedom of not being held to anyone’s schedule but my own, but it gets lonely sometimes. Plus pretty much the entire I was running into groups of friends/acquaintances that already formed their little groups/cliques and I felt it would be too awkward to ask if I could tag along.

The Artist’s Alley had a severe lack of Professor Sycamore arts; I only saw about three things and I didn’t even like the one print I bought very much to be honest…

And on that note, I was hating myself for the majority of the con for foolishly getting my hopes and expectations up. The highlight of the con for me (the encounter I was most looking forward to) came up early and passed by in an instant, leaving me feeling rather empty most of the day. I honestly not sure what I was expecting, but something… I dunno, a little more than what actually happened.

At the risk of sounding sounding selfish, I have to admit, it’s VERY hard seeing the people you care for happily settled into relationships with others when you’re single yourself. ESPECIALLY if those one of those people is a person you’ve had a huge crush on for almost 3 years.

I went home that night feeling… I don’t know, a mixture of emotions like, determination, confidence, regret, disappointment, anger, emptiness, and a maybe twinge of jealousy? Probably more than just a twinge at this point though.

I wanted to go back again today/tonight around work hours, and I almost did, to be able to say I got my money’s worth for what I paid to get into the con, but I had a feeling I’ll regret it later when I’m in the hotel and greeted by the same loneliness that I felt yesterday.

Check it out!

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5186967/

I'm not sure if anyone heard yet, but there's some really shady shit going on in the restaurant/fast food industry. McDonald's has been trying to save a buck by giving its employees fee-laden debit cards in lieu of a normal paycheck. Because it costs them a bit of money to hire a payroll company to cut the checks, they'd rather bypass that step and give employees their pay on these cards instead. Because, you know, McDonald's, a multi-billion dollar corporation, is really hurting for the money. *insert eyeroll here*

Well, I recently received an email from the National Restaurant Association introducing their new EDGE Discover card which is pretty much like the Visa cards McDonald's is trying to force on it's employees. I got this email because I'm on the NRA's (that R stands for Restaurant, NOT Rifle, don't be confused!) mailing list from when I signed up to complete a food safety test online to get my Food Handler's Card. I would like copy and paste this email right here, but you can get pretty much the same information I received by going directly to their website: EdgePrepaid.com.

If you go to https://www.edgeprepaid.com/Why-Edge and click on the tiny fine-print link under the chart that says "Schedule of Fees", you'll see how awful this card really is. Fees to withdraw your own money, fees for a simple balance inquiry at an ATM, an ATM decline fee, AND fees to make a bill payment!

The NRA claims they are helping out the hard-working employees of the food service industry by offering them this 'convenient' card, but really it's a slap in the face by charging them fees to access their own money. The National Restaurant Association is working with Discover and The Bancorp Bank to issue this card, and I think it would be a great idea for a campaign to urge the NRA to drop their association with Discover card and stop encouraging food-service companies from paying their employees with fee-laden debit cards. Fast food and restaurant workers already bear the brunt of a broken economy, making them take these cards instead of a traditional paycheck will only chip away at their already meager wages while the people at the top pocket the savings.

I've already contacted SumOfUs.org to see if they will shine a spotlight on this issue, much in the same way they've started a campaign and petition for McDonald's to drop their association with Visa. I want to bring this up because if big companies/associations like McDonald's and the NRA can get away with paying employees with these cards, other companies will take notice and follow suit, and that's terrible. People should not have to pay fees to access their own hard-earned money!

Since last weekend didn't work out, I'm organizing this meet at the Del Amo mall again for this Saturday, the 31st.

More details here: http://www.meetup.com/SoCalBronies/.....nts/136851522/

Check it out!

If you don't and you happen to be a brony and live in the South Bay area, come check out my meetup I organized over on Meetup.com!

http://www.meetup.com/SoCalBronies/.....nts/135807392/

All the details you need are there. I'm also hoping to use this as opportunity to round up donations of crayons/magazines/colored pencils to benefit hospitalized children at the Harbor UCLA Pediactric Center in the Child Life Services program.

You know that phrase, 'When it rains, it pours?' That's what I'm going through right now. When something bad happens to me, it's never just one bad thing, it's always a bunch of shit thrown at me all at once.

So...it started on last Thursday, the 20th. My boyfriend and I broke up and I've been feeling down about that lately. That was a bad weekend because I stepped on the scale the other day and saw I gained three pounds since the last time I checked. Most likely from the comfort food that I turn to when I'm feeling down... Then on Sunday my dad decided he wanted to yell at me for not paying him back quickly enough for the money that I owe him.

Let me give you a little background, back in March when I was unemployed, my car needed some repairs to get up and running again, and my mom wasn't in a position to help me, so my dad stepped up and paid the repair bill for me. So now that I have my annual car insurance premium paid off and I'm only one payment away from paying off my Chevron credit card I used to buy gas with, I have not forgotten what my dad for me, and I'm fully aware that I need to start paying him back after I got the other more urgent issues taken care of. (More pressing because those two other things charge interest and will cost me more in the long run if I don't pay it off quicker)

But apparently, my dad didn't like that I wasn't giving him EVERY SINGLE PENNY from my paychecks to work on paying him back, so he had himself a huge temper tantrum, took away my debit card, flipped a table (I'm not making this up, he literally flipped a fucking table), and told me to not even bother cashing my checks at the bank now, just give them to him and he'll decide how much money to give me for gas to get back and forth to work, and that's it. He's keeping the rest of the money until my debt to him is paid off in full.

He got really upset after he forced me to log onto my checking account online, made me pull up my balance and account history, and saw me spending a little bit of my money here and there for getting take-out once a week or going to Target and getting shampoo, shaving cream, baking supplies, and insoles for my work shoes. Yes, maybe I should have saved up a little better, but at the same time, I'm not blowing through money like it's going out of style. He's spent more money on going to Dodger baseball games in the past 2 weeks than I've spent in a month on treating myself to lunch every now and then. >=/

And now I've got an unexpected bill pop up and I need $65 as soon as possible, by Thursday. I'm already low on gas, I only have $30 left in my account after my dad made me write a check out to him that took away pretty much all my pay, and even if I did go and take out that money, I can't get away with it because my dad is watching my account like a fucking hawk now. I'm thinking about what I have lying around my house I can sell for quick cash, because I'm getting a little desperate now. Telling my dad to give me back some of my money to pay this unexpected expense is not an option either, because that would open up a whole other can of worms I'm not ready to delve into now...

Ugh, this is just so fucking typical of my life. Next thing I know, I'll probably lose this job I've been working really hard to keep because if it weren't for bad luck I'd have no luck at all.

Yep, me and my boyfriend broke up today, it was nice while it lasted, but in the long run it probably wouldn't have worked out because he’s poly-amorous and I’m not. Not that there’s anything wrong with that, but it’s not what I’m looking for right now. Fun times were had; I’m gonna miss him. :(

I’ll be over here consoling myself with strawberry lemonade, cookies and sushi if anyone wants to join me.

Yep, me and my boyfriend broke up today, it was nice while it lasted, but in the long run it probably wouldn't have worked out because he’s poly-amorous and I’m not. Not that there’s anything wrong with that, but it’s not what I’m looking for right now. Fun times were had; I’m gonna miss him. :(

I’ll be over here consoling myself with strawberry lemonade, cookies and sushi if anyone wants to join me.

Guess who's going to the PS after work tonight and bringing some leftover sushi from her job? B)

My first date in YEARS. And my first date with a guy too. I met him through okcupid (don't hate!) and he was the one to approach me first. We went to the Howard Hughes Promenade located in the Westchester/Culver City area and went to go see Iron Man 3 in IMAX 3D, no less. It was great, I highly recommend it. Make sure you stay to see the scene at the end of the credits!

First before the movie we ate some pizza then afterward we had pretzels from Wetzel's Pretzel's since all the other desserts/sweets places (Mrs. Field's and Ben & Jerry's) were closed. He texted me when I got home, and all in all it was a great night, he was as sweet as can be. :)

Have you ever / did you ever :

been a boy scout? No, I wish I was though, those guys have all the fun, it seems, except for that whole No Gays Allowed thing they have going on. I hope that changes.

got arrested? No

visited someone in jail? No

wear opposite sex underwear? All the time.

give clothing to someone in need? I once took the shoes off my feet to give to a homeless lady.

woke up next to someone unknown? No.

convert to a religion? Yeah, I was undecided for a while though.

applied CPR? No

bought condoms for someone else? No

went to confession? No

got married? No

bought an adult toy? Yes

give money to charity? Yes

had a date with two persons on the same day? No

reported an animal emergency situation? Nope

blown up something? Does blowing up a beach ball with my breath count?

bought a present for your grandma? No, both my grandmas died when I was young, so I wasn't old enough to buy or make them a gift.

do hard drugs? Nope

spend time in jail? No

raised money for charity? Yes

went to sunday school? Yes

flipped burgers at McD's? No

met the president? No, but I would like to

jumped to save someone from drowning? No

begged for money? Yes

posed naked on the cover of a glossy magazine? No

been an altar boy? No

drive without a license? No

made love to something non-human? No

worked as a volunteer? Yes

bought a yiffy toy? soon I will

run away from home (longer than 48 hrs) when you where a kid ? No

planted a tree? Yes

took care of a homeless person? Yes

stole something? I've taken stamps from my mom's supply when I was running low and I didn't feel like going to the post office.

picked up someone else's litter from the street? Yes, I pick up bottle and cans for recycling money off the street when I see them.

been in a mental hospital? No.

considered a vegetarian diet? Yes

killed an animal? I've killed a snail or two.

saved someone's live? No

got divorced? No

committed a crime? No

do a speech at a funeral? I read a poem while my grandfather died

realized how lucky you are? Yeah... I guess.

taken from Foxyloxy86

Comment, and I'm supposed to...

1) Tell you something I learned about you by looking at your FA page for 10 seconds.
2) Tell you a color you remind me of.
3) Tell you my first memory of you.
4) Ask you a question.
5) Tell you something I like about you.
6) Tell you the object that is in front of me.
7) Dare you to do this yourself in your own journal!

Hi there, how are you? How was your day? That's nice, MY DAY FUCKING SUCKED.

In the morning, my toilet overflowed as I was getting ready for my job interview, but thank god I had help from my friend Ginger to take me to my interview on time. You see, my car took a turn for the worse, and I think it may be a problem with the alternator, which would be REAL FUCKING AWESOME because that's more expensive than getting a battery, because I have no money and I'm still looking for decent job. I also still have other bills to pay on top of this car shit that just came up, so unless my dad can come through on this for me I'M TOTALLY FUCKING SCREWED. I had to call AAA roadside assistance to give my car a jump, and it started up okay, but then as I was driving over to my dad's, it just...stopped. Right in the middle of the road on Sepulveda fucking Boulevard in the midst of goddamn rush hour traffic. I had to call AAA again, but this time I was like 'fuck it' and I just had them tow it home.

Things got a little better when my dad let me borrow his Volvo (he has two cars) so I could to get to my advanced cake decorating class at JoAnn's at 6:30 in the evening, even though I was a little late. I explained the situation to my instructor, and she was super cool about it all, even letting me go out into store to buy the supplies I still needed for the class. Thank god for 50% off coupons, or I never would have been able to afford the shit I need to take the damn class. And Patti for being a real champ and giving me the last 85 cents I needed to get a package of gum paste. Don't know what that is? Look it up, I'm not really in the mood to explain right now.

I'm going to bed now, and pray that when I wake up that I'll magically have the 300 or so dollars it'll take to get my car fixed and a job and a life and an attractive face and a boy/girlfriend and maybe someone that gives a shit that will hug me and hold me close and pat me gently on the head, give me words of encouragement and tell me everything will be alright.

But I know none of that shit's gonna happen so I might as well go smother myself with my pillow now.

So both Saturday and Sunday combined, my yard sale this past weekend pulled in $55 in sales. Yay! I wish I could have gotten rid of more stuff and sold the TV, but that's okay, I'll just post the TV in a separate new listing on Craig's List and see if that gets any hits. Also, thanks to my buddy Fritz that bought the Epic watch off of me when no one else wanted to buy it at my sale; I hope you enjoy it!

Also, last night I completed the last session of my 4 session-long Cake decorating Basics class (Course 1). I now have a certificate of completion and some new skills under my belt and tricks up my sleeve, yay! They also gave me a coupon for 50% off the price of another Wilton Cake Decorating Class, so I'm going to use that to buy the Course 2 Flowers and Cake Design class. It starts next Monday and goes for another 4 weeks, one session per week.

I made several cakes and cupcakes (and some cookies too) over the span of this course, but I'm going to post most of them to my scraps, I'm only putting my final cake project in my main gallery. Speaking of my final cake, I still have a lot of cake left. It's chocolate with chocolate frosting. Who wants some? :P

Hi guys, have any plans this weekend? How was your week? Tell me all about it! *pours out some tea into a cup and sits down on the couch*

Oh, by the way, I'm having a yard sale this weekend, getting rid of some old stuff to make room for the new. I got a couple of watches, a TV, a 5-disc CD player and a turntable (the platform itself doesn't rotate, but the stylus is in great condition). Also selling a few plushies in need of a new home and a handful art supplies as well...

If you're local, here's where it's happening! I made a posting on Craig's List for it, so much easier than taking out an ad in the paper, and it's free too: http://losangeles.craigslist.org/ws.....637135659.html

Hi guys, read any good books lately? I've read 3 new books this year so far and I started on a new one yesterday. I love going to my local library, the problem is I sometimes forget to renew them or bring them back in time and get hit with late fees! DX I'm getting better at remembering, though!

So far I've read "The Art of Being Kind" by Stefan Einhorn, "How Could You Do that?" by Dr. Laura Schlessinger, and most recently, "Get Some Headspace" by Andy Puddicombe. I've just started "The Universe in a Single Atom: The Convergence of Science and Spirituality" by His Holiness Dalai Lama, and the critics have given it an average rating of 4 out of 5 stars; so this should be an interesting read.

After that, I think I'm going to start reading something from my stack of bread-making and pastry books, then maybe take a break from non-fiction for a little while to read a romance or mystery novel.

I'm so glad I went, I almost wasn't going to go because I had been invited to three other events the same Saturday night! I hope you guys enjoyed the Rice Krispie Treats and Candy Cane Marshmallow Lollipops I made, they were gone less than 15 minutes after I had set them down on the table! And I got rave reviews from the chocolate peppermint cookies I made too, which was great because that was the first time I had ever made that particular recipe.

I got a $15 target giftcard from the white elephant gift exchange, which was totally cool, but I never did find the person that picked out my gift, a Trixie Lulamoon My Little Pony toy. Whoever it was, I hope they were a brony!

And special thanks go out to for making me my first fursona badge! I love it and I love you too Shadz~

So go ahead and ask me anything!

Stuff about me, my background, funny things I've seen or heard, places I've been, or cooking and baking related questions are all well and good. Just nothing really deeply personal or intimate. Keep it cool.

I'm pleased as punch that Obama won the election yesterday, and Marriage equality has been passed in three more states! I feel a little bad for my mom though, she's pretty bummed that she voted for Romney and didn't win. She even got a sticker for her car for making a donation to his campaign. I asked her one day, 'he's a millionaire making more money than you and I will EVER earn in our lives, why did you feel the need to give him even more?' She just glared at me, lol.

I wonder if she's going to take the sticker off now or leave it on for a while? Doesn't really matter I guess... Anyways, did anyone here decide to celebrate the results, and if so, how did it go? I heard some fireworks going off in my neighborhood. I also heard on Twitter that this Hawaiian-Mexican fusion restaurant over in West Hollywood was giving out free margaritas for people that presented their "I Voted" stickers. I would have gone, but parking absolutely sucks down and WeHo and the traffic would have been god-awful as well.

To all my American friends, today's the day we've all been waiting for! Yes, it's the last day we have to listen to political campaign ads clogging up the TV and radio airwaves! But more importantly, it's election day! So find your polling place, bring a form of ID and go exercise your right to vote! If you're voting during off hours, that's great, but keep in mind, lots of people get off work around 4 or 5pm, so you might have to wait in longer lines as the polls are the busiest at these times.

Also, another important thing to note, DO NOT... I repeat, DO NOT take a picture (by camera or phone) of your ballot any time before, during, or after you are voting! In many states and regions, it is considered ballot replication/duplication and it will render your vote null and void! If you've already done this and uploaded it onto the internet, take it down as soon as possible.

So fucking sad and shit, GODDAMN.

I feel so pathetic and lame, I hope I can snap out of this funk soon.

God this fucking sucks, emotions SUCK.

Why can't things be the way they used to be...

*sigh* I'm not even interested anymore in these pumpkin and chocolate-chip muffins I baked today for the exact purpose of trying to make myself feel better.

Light, Foxy, you want these? I don't need 'em.


I'll be curled up in a ball in the corner in anyone needs me.

FUCK EVERYTHING

Hello friends! Anyone out there in the SoCal area need some seriously strong sewing machine power, or knows somefur that needs it? I'm putting two overlock sewing machines up for sale on Craig's List for my friend whose mom could really use the funds to pay for important legal stuff. Even if you're not in the market for sewing machines yourself, please do me a favor; pass this around or ask your friends! Ask your fursuit maker friends especially!

The link to the posting is here: http://losangeles.craigslist.org/ws.....332687264.html

Thanks for looking everyone, my friend and I really appreciate any help we can get!