I'm probably going to start posting again, tonight or tomorrow.

But otherwise, for future reference, I'm not gonna bother saying when I'm gonna stop posting. It's not like I have thousands of people waiting to see my garbage, It's not like I'm being paid, this isn't my job or whatever.

So if I feel like disappearing for a while, I just will, and start posting again whenever I guess.

I currently get no joy or satisfaction from my hobby, I barely want to draw anything, I don't even want to go through the effort to just post it.

Right now I have no drive to do this, and I might not for a while, and I'm not going to force myself.

Bye for now, it probably won't be too long anyway.

I beg of you fucking PLEASE

Id love a feature where you could prepare multiple drawings on a queue or something to be posted automatically.

Can someone just report me because they think my tags suck or if they think they're misleading?

Sometimes I post something I only want followers to see so I make bullshit tags, I don't like this!

Woo woo!

If you align with nazis, far right, homophobes, transphobes ect.
If you supported, still currently support the big orange moron.
If you are ignoring what's been going on, your peers being at risk, their livelihoods and identities at risk of being made illegal.

Leave, please fucking unfollow me.
There are no exceptions, unfollow.
I do not like you.

Somewhat atleast.

Had a freakout
Hope to be gone for a week.
Bye now.

He still needs some funds for the trip! Any help is appreciated!

https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/11176222/

I meant to say this earlier but to those who are protesting today please be safe! And best of luck!

I love him

I'm considering changing their names, between the fact their name hasn't changed once compared to the rest of the aliens who had different species titles at one point, meaning it's a bit outdate, and the name itself is based off a concept from them that is no longer a canon part of their culture (being magical altars used for travel, this also means the species name wasn't even spelled right)
And also the name is just far too similar to Alternian, and I already have a species that's compared to homestuck trolls I don't need more.

The new name in the works is Asternereids, the name is similar, not too different, but very new and more fitting as children of the stars, the latter part of their name nereid being from sea nymphs, because their spaceships look like sea vessels more than spacefaring ones

been doing unwell, that's all I guess, probably will just be taking a step back for a week

I have no idea if I'm going to do a big drawing or something special but I am thankful, being careful not to burn myself out again!

Genuinely, thanks.
I am glad to be here.

Probably taking a little break, I'm lower on stuff to post and I feel like fucking garbage.
Will be lurking still but may not post any art for a bit, especially since my inking pens are being fucky and low, idk if it's possible to refashion the bigger ones I don't use into narrower ones I can use or something like that, tips from other traditional artists would be appreciated in that area.

Anyway, happy spiralling out of control season everyone.

That is all! thank you.

Tooth is infected, got pills for it to take until they can actually pull it.

But basically I'll probably not be drawing much (as if I was already har har) but likely will keep posting stuff from FA to my Bluesky as I've been.


Fuck teeth, teeth are overrated.

I'm on here now as an alt, may not post there as much as here, but come say hi or whatevs.


https://bsky.app/profile/n04vice.bsky.social
https://bsky.app/profile/n04vice.bsky.social
https://bsky.app/profile/n04vice.bsky.social

Yep, all signs point to me being shadowbanned! (people cannot find my post through tags and such) Not like I used it that much anyway but I think I might end up not using it period now, at the end of the day I guess it's just another reason for me to consider bluesky but... still it really blows, is it because I linked to my FA? but then I thought it would have shadowbanned me sooner, this was noticed more of as a recent thing.

I'm not even going to bother anything with support, because others online with a similar issue say they don't even respond so... why bother?

Anyway that's about it, yippee, thanks for readin'

Either tonight, tommorow or in a few days, idk, don't expect frequent posts, I say that but wasn't posting as frequently anymore anyway.

I do appreciate the kind words in my previous journal, though I didn't reply to anything, I may just end up deleting it because I got a bit toxic and ranty.

Thank you for your patience.

Hey, shit happened, same usual shit, something I held dear died, of course, because every time I return to some slight amount of normalcy tragedy fucking strikes, because god forbit I'm happy, I try not to let my emotions bleed too much into my posts but I'm at my fucking limit right now.
I likely wont be posting for a while.
Fuck every conscious waking moment I spend in this god damn hellhole of a planet.

But I'll be ok

Sorry for the decline in posts, sorry for the decline in quality, I guess, but whatever, I'm not making money off this shit anyway.

I have a Tumblr, I didn't ever bother linking it anywhere here but after what just happened holy shit!

https://www.tumblr.com/blog/wannaberatking

I think having links to places I also am may be a good idea now.

Rest in peace to dragoneer, admittedly I didn't know much about him besides him being the owner, but regardless of how well you knew someone it's never nice to see, I hope his family and friends are doing alright.

And also, I've been seeing scary stuff about the state of FA, and I was afraid even before that one post was going around, though that person didn't even work for FA if I'm correct.
Some people seem worried some people don't, I'm the former.
I can't lose this place, I don't know where to shift too, deviant art doesn't allow straight up adult stuff and Twitter is completely off the table.
I'm unsure about bluesky and places like ink bunny
And people on e6 are just hella fucking mean.
I really hope FA makes an official statement.

I got another camera and the damn thing didn't work out either, it seemed to be unable to focus, all my images would look like dog shit even in the highest resolution option.

But I had also taken a picture with my phone camera and proceeded to just edit it to be "presentable" enough , and could just post art again this way (I really don't want to, at all, but otherwise I'm waiting until October to get a new device)

So should I just start getting used to editing art before posting? I did it now and then for mistakes already.

I try as hard as I can not to let my personal issues bleed over to where I post my work, especially since those fee months I was in mourning, keep some semblance of this fake ass professionalism or whatever, but I really do be doing like dog shit right now, I'm very unhappy, and if I really do take pictures with this shitty phone I will be replacing the source files with better photos as soon as I get a new phone.

Y'all may not even mind or notice too much of a difference but I'm very very picky with how I present what I've drawn, and I'm in hell rn.

Anyway appreciate you all, sorry for the long rambling rant, may post again soon, ect ect.