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Well guys, here it is!! If you wanna help me though, read...
Posted 8 years agoHere's the baffling thing. Never in my life did I think I'd be moving into this type of situation...
Before I delve further, let me explain what's been happening.
My last Journal was 7-8 months ago. Well, I've been nonstop working, I've been working 3 jobs since April.
Let's go back further...
In 2015, I took my first flight by myself... June of 2015. I'd had a horrible flight, and dealt with the crazy airport, enjoyed my 2 weeks, and then flew back. Upon flying back, I'd spoken to a flight attendant about her job, what she thought, and that she'd though I should apply, got interested in the job (again since I was now old enough) and started looking into it.
Last year, I'd taken another flight, enjoyed it all, and decided to finally apply to be a flight attendant.
I'd applied to United (my first main choice but not the ultimate one), Delta (my main choice, the ultimate one) and a few others. I'd continue applying to others. In September, my Delta application progressed further, I'd later on do a video interview, and in late October-early November, receive an offer for an in person interview with Delta Airlines. Big name, big look, big choice. I had my interview in December. It was an amazing experience, but sadly I didn't make the cut. HOWEVER, to be one of the 7500 that applied, and one of the 1200 to step foot in the room, I felt honored, especially on my first try.
I received the email 2 days later that I wasn't accepted, and was crushed. It was the fatal blow. After fussing for about 2 hours, I'd simmered down, and bucked up. I'd decided it wasn't the end, I was allowed to apply again in 6 months, and until then, I'd apply where I could.
Which brings me to this year. It's been rocky. Money, my car, etc. My time came in February to apply for United again, and their application wasn't open. It came in May to reapply for Delta, and it wasn't open yet either. I applied at my airport, and had an interview, and got put on "hold" for a "hiring freeze". I still don't know if it's true...
During all this time, I'd looked casually at Disney. I'd look and see what was open, what would be cool to do, etc. Nothing really peaked my interest too much, though I did see spots I'd be interested in. When May came around, I REALLY started watching the Delta site in hopes of reapplying, but it never came up. One day after checking Delta, I checked Disney, only to see Monorails-WDW in the list of available positions, and I was floored. I applied straight away, since I'd been wanting to get out of one of my current jobs.
It got a response within the first week for an assessment, and last month for a Web-Based interview. Upon that, I had passed and been asked to schedule a phone interview. I had it on the 28th of June. The recruiter was exceptionally nice, and insisted he was going to offer me a position!
He stated "Normally within the first 5-10 minutes we decide whether or not we offer them a position. With you, I could tell within the first 5-10 seconds." I was baffled, befuddled, shocked! He was super impressed by my responses and my attitude and energy, I'd been offered a position! FULL-TIME, IN MONORAILS!
Here we are. It's now. I'm moving to Florida in about 2 weeks, as I've been offered a Full-Time position in Monorails, and I'm stuck. I'm in shock. I'm leaving 3 jobs, and going to one, with little to no money, but a goal and lots of planning... It's crazy, I never thought I'd have secured a job at Walt Disney World in less than 2 months. Which leads me to this... am I making the right choice? Am I doing what's best for me? People snapped at me and told me not to do it... The money issue is making it more and more and more apparent that maybe I shouldn't.
I'm super excited, super pumped, but concerned about financials... I AM NOT ASKING FOR DONATIONS, however if you feel the need, my paypal is nace888@aol.com. I'm not expecting anything out of anybody, I just wanted to update y'all, give y'all a view into my crazy lifestyle recently, and announce that I was moving to Florida! :D
MONORAILS, HERE I COME!!!
Before I delve further, let me explain what's been happening.
My last Journal was 7-8 months ago. Well, I've been nonstop working, I've been working 3 jobs since April.
Let's go back further...
In 2015, I took my first flight by myself... June of 2015. I'd had a horrible flight, and dealt with the crazy airport, enjoyed my 2 weeks, and then flew back. Upon flying back, I'd spoken to a flight attendant about her job, what she thought, and that she'd though I should apply, got interested in the job (again since I was now old enough) and started looking into it.
Last year, I'd taken another flight, enjoyed it all, and decided to finally apply to be a flight attendant.
I'd applied to United (my first main choice but not the ultimate one), Delta (my main choice, the ultimate one) and a few others. I'd continue applying to others. In September, my Delta application progressed further, I'd later on do a video interview, and in late October-early November, receive an offer for an in person interview with Delta Airlines. Big name, big look, big choice. I had my interview in December. It was an amazing experience, but sadly I didn't make the cut. HOWEVER, to be one of the 7500 that applied, and one of the 1200 to step foot in the room, I felt honored, especially on my first try.
I received the email 2 days later that I wasn't accepted, and was crushed. It was the fatal blow. After fussing for about 2 hours, I'd simmered down, and bucked up. I'd decided it wasn't the end, I was allowed to apply again in 6 months, and until then, I'd apply where I could.
Which brings me to this year. It's been rocky. Money, my car, etc. My time came in February to apply for United again, and their application wasn't open. It came in May to reapply for Delta, and it wasn't open yet either. I applied at my airport, and had an interview, and got put on "hold" for a "hiring freeze". I still don't know if it's true...
During all this time, I'd looked casually at Disney. I'd look and see what was open, what would be cool to do, etc. Nothing really peaked my interest too much, though I did see spots I'd be interested in. When May came around, I REALLY started watching the Delta site in hopes of reapplying, but it never came up. One day after checking Delta, I checked Disney, only to see Monorails-WDW in the list of available positions, and I was floored. I applied straight away, since I'd been wanting to get out of one of my current jobs.
It got a response within the first week for an assessment, and last month for a Web-Based interview. Upon that, I had passed and been asked to schedule a phone interview. I had it on the 28th of June. The recruiter was exceptionally nice, and insisted he was going to offer me a position!
He stated "Normally within the first 5-10 minutes we decide whether or not we offer them a position. With you, I could tell within the first 5-10 seconds." I was baffled, befuddled, shocked! He was super impressed by my responses and my attitude and energy, I'd been offered a position! FULL-TIME, IN MONORAILS!
Here we are. It's now. I'm moving to Florida in about 2 weeks, as I've been offered a Full-Time position in Monorails, and I'm stuck. I'm in shock. I'm leaving 3 jobs, and going to one, with little to no money, but a goal and lots of planning... It's crazy, I never thought I'd have secured a job at Walt Disney World in less than 2 months. Which leads me to this... am I making the right choice? Am I doing what's best for me? People snapped at me and told me not to do it... The money issue is making it more and more and more apparent that maybe I shouldn't.
I'm super excited, super pumped, but concerned about financials... I AM NOT ASKING FOR DONATIONS, however if you feel the need, my paypal is nace888@aol.com. I'm not expecting anything out of anybody, I just wanted to update y'all, give y'all a view into my crazy lifestyle recently, and announce that I was moving to Florida! :D
MONORAILS, HERE I COME!!!
Where is everyone going??
Posted 9 years agoFor some reason, different profiles are being disabled, and I dunno why... o.o I'm so confused
Who wants to watch me draw??
Posted 9 years agoIf you wanna watch me draw, let me know! I may start a small stream for a bit!
I AM SO SORRY.....
Posted 9 years agoI'M SO SORRY....... I've practically been non-existent, and I promise it's not because of you guys!! I've been working nonstop, literally. It's only just recently I've really been getting back into drawing, and I've been trying to not work too much.
For those of you wondering, lots of stuff has actually happened, some good, some... not so good... Few months ago, I ended up making a report to HR on my workplace because of how things have been going, especially with me sitting in some child's urine by accident, and not being allowed to go home to change or anything... Long story there, don't ask. I've been trying to level out my work schedule and my free time, because I want to read and draw a bit more.
Other than that, I've considered live-streaming art! I'm not the best, but if you'd like to see me stream artwork, just tell me, and I may do it sometime! In addition to that, I've decided that my 2 things I'm saving up for at the moment, are a new computer, and a fursuit. I decided that I want Ardeon brought to life, in some type of form, but I DO want a fursuit of him too, so I'll be saving for that. My computer has nearly ended it's life-cycle (although it still runs well with MOST things) but it's outdated by at least 4 processor models, and most computers come with more RAM nowadays as well.
That's okay though, I've been seeing all the art you've all posted, and I've been seeing journals of all kinds of stuff, I just simply haven't been able to draw much or post anything. BUT, I'm trying to pop in more often! :D
For those of you wondering, lots of stuff has actually happened, some good, some... not so good... Few months ago, I ended up making a report to HR on my workplace because of how things have been going, especially with me sitting in some child's urine by accident, and not being allowed to go home to change or anything... Long story there, don't ask. I've been trying to level out my work schedule and my free time, because I want to read and draw a bit more.
Other than that, I've considered live-streaming art! I'm not the best, but if you'd like to see me stream artwork, just tell me, and I may do it sometime! In addition to that, I've decided that my 2 things I'm saving up for at the moment, are a new computer, and a fursuit. I decided that I want Ardeon brought to life, in some type of form, but I DO want a fursuit of him too, so I'll be saving for that. My computer has nearly ended it's life-cycle (although it still runs well with MOST things) but it's outdated by at least 4 processor models, and most computers come with more RAM nowadays as well.
That's okay though, I've been seeing all the art you've all posted, and I've been seeing journals of all kinds of stuff, I just simply haven't been able to draw much or post anything. BUT, I'm trying to pop in more often! :D
Thinking about WICKED Commissions??
Posted 10 years agoIf you've seen the Wizard of Oz, you'll know that there's 3 known witches, and a Wizard! There's some flying monkeys, and of course, Dorothy...
BUT, WICKED tells the story BEHIND all these characters, BEFORE Dorothy drops in! Of course, if you've seen or heard of this book/musical, you know all about it.
With that being said, I'm debating doing WICKED themed drawings!! If you happen to be interested in having your character as a character from WICKED, I'd be willing to do that, IF YOU WANT IT!!!
Right now, I'd be starting with a base for males and females, and I'd be adding clothes and details as well!! If you have seen the musical, you know that there's NO symmetry in the uniforms at all, with the exception of maybe 2-3, which means I'd be willing to kinda work with what you'd like, or I could try!!
If you'd be interested, let me know!! This is kind of a poll to see if anyone would buy one!! Of course, color would have to be done because of the uniform styles, but please let me know if you're interested!!!
BUT, WICKED tells the story BEHIND all these characters, BEFORE Dorothy drops in! Of course, if you've seen or heard of this book/musical, you know all about it.
With that being said, I'm debating doing WICKED themed drawings!! If you happen to be interested in having your character as a character from WICKED, I'd be willing to do that, IF YOU WANT IT!!!
Right now, I'd be starting with a base for males and females, and I'd be adding clothes and details as well!! If you have seen the musical, you know that there's NO symmetry in the uniforms at all, with the exception of maybe 2-3, which means I'd be willing to kinda work with what you'd like, or I could try!!
If you'd be interested, let me know!! This is kind of a poll to see if anyone would buy one!! Of course, color would have to be done because of the uniform styles, but please let me know if you're interested!!!
Does anyone want commissions??
Posted 10 years agoI think I'm going to do headshot sketches, and may offer Disney Prince and Princesses sketches, with your sona as one! All PWYW!!
Commissions???
Posted 10 years agoHey guys, I'm hoping to get some money before my girlfriend comes down for a visit for a month. I am hoping to do PWYW commissions, and hopefully have a little spending money while she's here... Is anyone interested?? It doesn't have to be much at all, even if it's $2-$5 and such. Please let me know in the comments!!
A HUGE UPDATE!!!
Posted 10 years agoWell aside from loggin in for the first time in ages and seeing 337 Submissions and 140 Journals currently waiting for me, it's been crazy!! I went up north for 2 weeks, I got a girlfriend from my best friend (we were Best Friends who became bf/gf) and I had a crazy awesome trip!! Those who are friends with me on fb may have seen all the pictures!!
Sad thing is though, I miss her to bits, and now I'm not sure what to do... She was gonna come down in a couple weeks to stay with us for about a month, but things are a bit rocky on her end (no not between us, XD) and it might fall through.
Either way, I AM alive, just barely, but I'm still alive.
I know this journal isn't exactly huge though, but yanno... I'm tooo lazy to type anymore. Sigh.
Sad thing is though, I miss her to bits, and now I'm not sure what to do... She was gonna come down in a couple weeks to stay with us for about a month, but things are a bit rocky on her end (no not between us, XD) and it might fall through.
Either way, I AM alive, just barely, but I'm still alive.
I know this journal isn't exactly huge though, but yanno... I'm tooo lazy to type anymore. Sigh.
I'm sorry for the last journal...
Posted 10 years agoI'm still hurt from it tbh, and I don't mean to have typed a whole essay... I don't know what to do, STILL... Don't know what we did... dunno how to fix it... I just hurt...
As far as my life goes... I've hit a new low.......
Posted 10 years agoSo, I doubt some of you will read this, but as the title says, it's been a shitty few days, let alone the last couple years... HOWEVER, yesterday and the day before were worse... much... much... worse...
Some of you may know that I have a sister... MAYBE... what y'all don't know (unless you freakishly do) is that she's deaf. That's DEAF, not DEAD... DEAF, as in CAN'T HEAR... I thought we'd get that mis-read out of the way now before I proceed much further...
In addition, there'll be some more background... I have an older uncle, a younger uncle and aunt (twins), and of course, still my gramma on mom's side... My older uncle is deaf as well, gramma's part deaf, the other two are not...
Little more back story, in 2010, I decided to be nice and invite my older uncle and my gramma to my High School Graduation... They came, it was pretty cool... Until drama got started because uncle found out something, told the other 2, and big drama ensued about a month later... It ended up with this mass chaos which lead to none of us talking to ANY of them, even though we already weren't... (Technically mom's 3 siblings are the reason my PawPaw died in 2010)
Anyways... My sister's graduation was coming up, she invited the same 2 I did, and I guess she had spoken to mom about them coming... Mom said fine, but they can't come to the house... After all the shit that's happened, I don't blame her, yanno?? So apparently, as time got closer and closer, CLOSER AND CLOSER, we figure she'd been talking to them more and more and more, and it was apparent something was up...
Mom told my sister she COULD NOT go to the hotel with them. I mean we're driving all this way, we wanna spend graduation with her, nothing wrong with that, right? Well, the other day (20th), we started driving to Knoxville. About halfway there, mom's texting my sister, and somehow the hotel subject came up... O_O So, mom asks "Which Hotel?" and my sister's response is "Knights Inn"... Something wasn't right, and when mom asked, she says her friend's name... Mom asked if she was lying, and she goes "Haha, with Uncle and Gramma"
Needless to say, mom was pissed... My sister was OFF CAMPUS with people she was told NOT to go with... THEY HAD COME AND PICKED HER UP AND TOOK HER OFF CAMPUS. (For those wondering, she goes to a deaf BOARDING school)... When mom called the school, they told her that she had given permission, and that they didn't know where my sister was... By this time, we're all mad. Obviously... Yes, she's 20 yrs old, but yanno...
We got to the hotel, dropped our stuff off, and went to the school. My sister wasn't there, they had photocopies of mom's texts to my sister (apparently giving permission, that was their proof), and the guy in charge says he gave her permission because of her age and the texts that he misread. When we tried to get my sister back, all we got was NO NO NO... After a while, she starts responding with this "Go to hell" "God has my back and will take care of you" "You lied to my face" "I hate you" "I don't want you here" and much more. SHE NEVER SAYS STUFF LIKE THIS, especially about God or the bible, and it was apparent something was EVEN MORE UP when we got "Fix your grammar." SHE NEVER EVER tells someone to fix their grammar, and moreso hardly uses it herself in texting since she's deaf.
After sitting at the school for some time and arguing with my sister, we gave up, and went back to the hotel. By this time, my parents are fighting, and are pinning me in the middle of it... They're screaming at each other, and then start screaming at me, and ugh. FML... During all this time, they were getting some kinda response from her, but me? Nope. Not HARDLY. NOT AT ALL. I GOT NOTHING. They got responses, disrespectful or not, but me, NOTHING...
After a while, we got some food, ate, went to sleep, and woke up yesterday morning... We decided that even though my sister was being a bitch (to put it lightly) we'd go to the awards ceremony... We arrived, and found my sister, with THEM... We already figured that was the case, but regardless, we went... When we saw her, she only said one thing to my mom, and that was to get her shoes. Mom told her they were in the truck,, and my sister said to get them. Mom said again that they were in the truck, and my sister then glanced at me, snubbed me, and turned around, and walked away... Needless to say, her attitude went from bitch, to bitch witch, and progessively worse... The art teacher tried to get her to come talk to us, but she refused... Dad couldn't handle the shit, and went outside... Grandma followed suit, mom started feeling sick, and by this time, I'm starting to cry... yeah... My sister was noticed for honors, and that was it...
Turns out, all the seniors (only like 30 seniors total) got a gift from the art teacher, of a watercolor painting of a selfie they decided to take... At the end of the ceremony, my grandpa (stepdad's side) grabbed my sisters gift bag to give it to her, when someone comes from behind him, snatches it out of his hand, and says "That's Samantha's, NOT YOURS." My grandpa responded with "This is her mom, and we were gonna give it to her." and the art teacher snatched it completely, and stated "I don't think she wants anything to do with you right now." and walked away... I found that out outside... She refused to approach mom at all, and that started to hurt pretty bad... for all of us... By this time, we're thinking that we've done NOTHING to deserve this behavior... NOTHING, and we're getting treated like straight shit.
By this time, my sister had vanished to the SENIOR FAMILY LUNCHEON with THEM, while we went outside. She didn't want us there... Feeling pretty hurt, we hopped in our respective vehicles, went to the hotel room to take care of the puppy quick, and went to lunch. By this time I've cried more than once, mom has too, and everyone's straight up pissed... We went to lunch, finished, and grandma and grandpa didn't feel wanted, so they left to go home last night... We ended up staying regardless because the room was paid up for another night...
As much as we felt she didn't deserve it, I got mom and dad to go to the graduation... I felt it only right. You only get ONE High School Graduation... And regardless of the shit, we wanted to see her walk... Until she realized we were there (by seeing me with the camcorder) and made it VERY apparent that she didn't want me there. She turned her head, hid her face, cut me the most burning evil looks, and then turned to THEM, and said "brother and mom and dad here" and started talking about stuff...
I filmed all of the students walking, and when it was her turn, she cut me the look of pure hatred, and stepped off the stage, not giving me another look... By this time, she's said absolutely NOTHING to me, refused to look at me, and when she did, it was hell... She refused to come home with us, and left with them... Pretty much her last memorable high school moment, and she made us feel like pure shit...
By this time, I'm starting to break down of pain, not much to say but "Why?" and "What did we do?", and we left. We went back to the hotel room, tried texting her, and still nothing. She basically shunned us out...
We had thought she had removed her fb, only to find out from my girlfriend (they're friends on fb) that she didn't remove it, she removed ALL OF US, and blocked us... All of us except those in Ohio, THEM...
I feel absolutely shattered still... Not sure what to think... We don't think she's coming home, obviously, but I don't even know what we did to deserve this, other than the fact we didn't let her have her way, but she did it anyways...
I think I'm just gonna go die now, only seems right... MY LITTLE SISTER, and this happened... I can say I'm proud that she walked... I can say I'm glad she got a stole with her cap and gown (I got one for my school, and wanted her to have one), and I can say I'm happy she graduated... But she wants nothing to do with us, at all, so Iunno... We all still feel pretty hurt tbh... And I'm not sure what else to say...
Some of you may know that I have a sister... MAYBE... what y'all don't know (unless you freakishly do) is that she's deaf. That's DEAF, not DEAD... DEAF, as in CAN'T HEAR... I thought we'd get that mis-read out of the way now before I proceed much further...
In addition, there'll be some more background... I have an older uncle, a younger uncle and aunt (twins), and of course, still my gramma on mom's side... My older uncle is deaf as well, gramma's part deaf, the other two are not...
Little more back story, in 2010, I decided to be nice and invite my older uncle and my gramma to my High School Graduation... They came, it was pretty cool... Until drama got started because uncle found out something, told the other 2, and big drama ensued about a month later... It ended up with this mass chaos which lead to none of us talking to ANY of them, even though we already weren't... (Technically mom's 3 siblings are the reason my PawPaw died in 2010)
Anyways... My sister's graduation was coming up, she invited the same 2 I did, and I guess she had spoken to mom about them coming... Mom said fine, but they can't come to the house... After all the shit that's happened, I don't blame her, yanno?? So apparently, as time got closer and closer, CLOSER AND CLOSER, we figure she'd been talking to them more and more and more, and it was apparent something was up...
Mom told my sister she COULD NOT go to the hotel with them. I mean we're driving all this way, we wanna spend graduation with her, nothing wrong with that, right? Well, the other day (20th), we started driving to Knoxville. About halfway there, mom's texting my sister, and somehow the hotel subject came up... O_O So, mom asks "Which Hotel?" and my sister's response is "Knights Inn"... Something wasn't right, and when mom asked, she says her friend's name... Mom asked if she was lying, and she goes "Haha, with Uncle and Gramma"
Needless to say, mom was pissed... My sister was OFF CAMPUS with people she was told NOT to go with... THEY HAD COME AND PICKED HER UP AND TOOK HER OFF CAMPUS. (For those wondering, she goes to a deaf BOARDING school)... When mom called the school, they told her that she had given permission, and that they didn't know where my sister was... By this time, we're all mad. Obviously... Yes, she's 20 yrs old, but yanno...
We got to the hotel, dropped our stuff off, and went to the school. My sister wasn't there, they had photocopies of mom's texts to my sister (apparently giving permission, that was their proof), and the guy in charge says he gave her permission because of her age and the texts that he misread. When we tried to get my sister back, all we got was NO NO NO... After a while, she starts responding with this "Go to hell" "God has my back and will take care of you" "You lied to my face" "I hate you" "I don't want you here" and much more. SHE NEVER SAYS STUFF LIKE THIS, especially about God or the bible, and it was apparent something was EVEN MORE UP when we got "Fix your grammar." SHE NEVER EVER tells someone to fix their grammar, and moreso hardly uses it herself in texting since she's deaf.
After sitting at the school for some time and arguing with my sister, we gave up, and went back to the hotel. By this time, my parents are fighting, and are pinning me in the middle of it... They're screaming at each other, and then start screaming at me, and ugh. FML... During all this time, they were getting some kinda response from her, but me? Nope. Not HARDLY. NOT AT ALL. I GOT NOTHING. They got responses, disrespectful or not, but me, NOTHING...
After a while, we got some food, ate, went to sleep, and woke up yesterday morning... We decided that even though my sister was being a bitch (to put it lightly) we'd go to the awards ceremony... We arrived, and found my sister, with THEM... We already figured that was the case, but regardless, we went... When we saw her, she only said one thing to my mom, and that was to get her shoes. Mom told her they were in the truck,, and my sister said to get them. Mom said again that they were in the truck, and my sister then glanced at me, snubbed me, and turned around, and walked away... Needless to say, her attitude went from bitch, to bitch witch, and progessively worse... The art teacher tried to get her to come talk to us, but she refused... Dad couldn't handle the shit, and went outside... Grandma followed suit, mom started feeling sick, and by this time, I'm starting to cry... yeah... My sister was noticed for honors, and that was it...
Turns out, all the seniors (only like 30 seniors total) got a gift from the art teacher, of a watercolor painting of a selfie they decided to take... At the end of the ceremony, my grandpa (stepdad's side) grabbed my sisters gift bag to give it to her, when someone comes from behind him, snatches it out of his hand, and says "That's Samantha's, NOT YOURS." My grandpa responded with "This is her mom, and we were gonna give it to her." and the art teacher snatched it completely, and stated "I don't think she wants anything to do with you right now." and walked away... I found that out outside... She refused to approach mom at all, and that started to hurt pretty bad... for all of us... By this time, we're thinking that we've done NOTHING to deserve this behavior... NOTHING, and we're getting treated like straight shit.
By this time, my sister had vanished to the SENIOR FAMILY LUNCHEON with THEM, while we went outside. She didn't want us there... Feeling pretty hurt, we hopped in our respective vehicles, went to the hotel room to take care of the puppy quick, and went to lunch. By this time I've cried more than once, mom has too, and everyone's straight up pissed... We went to lunch, finished, and grandma and grandpa didn't feel wanted, so they left to go home last night... We ended up staying regardless because the room was paid up for another night...
As much as we felt she didn't deserve it, I got mom and dad to go to the graduation... I felt it only right. You only get ONE High School Graduation... And regardless of the shit, we wanted to see her walk... Until she realized we were there (by seeing me with the camcorder) and made it VERY apparent that she didn't want me there. She turned her head, hid her face, cut me the most burning evil looks, and then turned to THEM, and said "brother and mom and dad here" and started talking about stuff...
I filmed all of the students walking, and when it was her turn, she cut me the look of pure hatred, and stepped off the stage, not giving me another look... By this time, she's said absolutely NOTHING to me, refused to look at me, and when she did, it was hell... She refused to come home with us, and left with them... Pretty much her last memorable high school moment, and she made us feel like pure shit...
By this time, I'm starting to break down of pain, not much to say but "Why?" and "What did we do?", and we left. We went back to the hotel room, tried texting her, and still nothing. She basically shunned us out...
We had thought she had removed her fb, only to find out from my girlfriend (they're friends on fb) that she didn't remove it, she removed ALL OF US, and blocked us... All of us except those in Ohio, THEM...
I feel absolutely shattered still... Not sure what to think... We don't think she's coming home, obviously, but I don't even know what we did to deserve this, other than the fact we didn't let her have her way, but she did it anyways...
I think I'm just gonna go die now, only seems right... MY LITTLE SISTER, and this happened... I can say I'm proud that she walked... I can say I'm glad she got a stole with her cap and gown (I got one for my school, and wanted her to have one), and I can say I'm happy she graduated... But she wants nothing to do with us, at all, so Iunno... We all still feel pretty hurt tbh... And I'm not sure what else to say...
I'M SO OOOOOOOOOOOOLLLLLLLLLDDDDDDDDDDDD!! :'(
Posted 10 years agoYep, it's my birthday... Yep, I'm 23!! I'm okay with it honestly, but wow! XD I FEEL SO OLD!
Bout to be in the hole of debt...
Posted 10 years agoSOOOOO, who wants some quickish commissions??
I can do PWYW low as $3 Headshot sketches,
Templated commissions of your sona as a Monorail, see this topic
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/6569663/
Or You could just tell me what you'd like, and I'd do it for as low as $5?
My parents bills are kicking my butt, and so are my insurance bills, as well as the rest of the stuff... :S SOOO, I'm close to overdrafting major. :S
I can do PWYW low as $3 Headshot sketches,
Templated commissions of your sona as a Monorail, see this topic
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/6569663/
Or You could just tell me what you'd like, and I'd do it for as low as $5?
My parents bills are kicking my butt, and so are my insurance bills, as well as the rest of the stuff... :S SOOO, I'm close to overdrafting major. :S
Who wants $2 headshot sketches?
Posted 10 years agothinking about doing $2 headshot sketches, and it should be done pretty quickly. I'm not sure how many i can do, but lemme know if you want one!
WHO WANTS TO HELP ME BUY..................
Posted 10 years agoMONORAILS?? I HAS TO BUY DEMS ALL
SO I'm opening TEMPLATED commissions!!
Posted 10 years agoThat's right! I'll be doing a few I think, but right now I think I'm gonna do MONORAIL templates, and you can have you/your character/fursona as EITHER:
A Disneyland Resort Mark V Monorail (seen here) http://www.furaffinity.net/view/14138258/
(This template can allow for 3 monorails side by side at the shed)
-or-
A Walt Disney World Mark VI Monorail (seen here) http://www.furaffinity.net/view/13696023/
(This template can allow for 2 monorails side by side on the open line, or 3 at the shed)
-or-
A Disneyland Resort Mark VII Monorail (seen here) http://www.furaffinity.net/view/14189163/
(This template can allow for 3 monorails side by side at the shed)
ALL OF THESE WILL BE PWYW, with $4 being the minimum!
!! ALL MONORAILS ARE PAID FOR, I'LL ALLOW $6-$7 FOR 2 IN ONE SHOT !!
Later on I'm thinking about adding MAYBE the Disneyland Tokyo Resort Monorail as a design, but those aren't as cool looking... As well, I'm considering doing Sackboy template commissions.
Leave a comment if you'd like one!! :D
Why do I feel like Noone ever reads my journals?
Posted 10 years agoI know it seems childish of me to be concerned over this, but out of HOW MANY watchers, it seems noone reads my journals?
Sometimes I need people to talk to, sometimes I need help... sometimes I feel like absolutely noone cares about anything unless I absolutely show them, or scream at them after having bottled it up...
I know some people read them and aren't able to answer right away, but I'm the type of person who isn't demanding, but would actually like some interaction sometimes...
At home, I deal with shit...
At work, I deal with shit...
Online, I deal with shit...
And it never ends... and yet, even if it's just to rage, a simple "It'll okay" or something would be nice every now and then, yanno?
I'm sorry if I seem childish about all this, but with ALL the shit I've gone through in the past 2 years and CONTINUE to go through, it seems like I'm digging myself deeper and deeper into the abyss that is depression, stress, and loneliness...
I know people are busy often, and I know people don't get chances to read stuff right away, etc... Please don't take this as a harping at all... I mean I understand y'all don't wanna read stuff like this, or deal with it for that matter, but sometimes I just need somebody... :S
Sometimes I need people to talk to, sometimes I need help... sometimes I feel like absolutely noone cares about anything unless I absolutely show them, or scream at them after having bottled it up...
I know some people read them and aren't able to answer right away, but I'm the type of person who isn't demanding, but would actually like some interaction sometimes...
At home, I deal with shit...
At work, I deal with shit...
Online, I deal with shit...
And it never ends... and yet, even if it's just to rage, a simple "It'll okay" or something would be nice every now and then, yanno?
I'm sorry if I seem childish about all this, but with ALL the shit I've gone through in the past 2 years and CONTINUE to go through, it seems like I'm digging myself deeper and deeper into the abyss that is depression, stress, and loneliness...
I know people are busy often, and I know people don't get chances to read stuff right away, etc... Please don't take this as a harping at all... I mean I understand y'all don't wanna read stuff like this, or deal with it for that matter, but sometimes I just need somebody... :S
My ABSOLUTE SUCKTASTIC Day
Posted 10 years agoSo, I know I don't owe y'all an explanation, but I want to explain.
Today essentially was one of those random days that basically boiled over for me. My phone hit the ground, my sister blamed it on me (when she was the one who tackled me) and I was upset at that. However, I was fine for a few, until I looked at the phone a couple times, realized what happened, and completely lost it. Possibly I have an unhealthy relationship with my phone? Idek.
But when I got upset about that, I could tell I was gonna cry, and at that time, I flipped about EVERYTHING else. It all piled up into this massive amount of hysteria, anxiety attacks, and SO MUCH hyperventilating to the point where I was getting lightheaded and my arms and hands were going numb. I mean it was BAD. My legs gave out in the doorway and I fell, I almost couldn't type earlier, it was horrible.
That's part of what the spaz text was. That, and all I COULD do really. (worry) I know I don't have it worse than EVERYONE, but it boiled over...
I did get a phone to tide me over until April, and I'm feeling a little better, but I've noticed (unfortunate to my best friend and I'm sorry) I'm extremely on edge, and currently overthinking things more than I usually do.
Today essentially was one of those random days that basically boiled over for me. My phone hit the ground, my sister blamed it on me (when she was the one who tackled me) and I was upset at that. However, I was fine for a few, until I looked at the phone a couple times, realized what happened, and completely lost it. Possibly I have an unhealthy relationship with my phone? Idek.
But when I got upset about that, I could tell I was gonna cry, and at that time, I flipped about EVERYTHING else. It all piled up into this massive amount of hysteria, anxiety attacks, and SO MUCH hyperventilating to the point where I was getting lightheaded and my arms and hands were going numb. I mean it was BAD. My legs gave out in the doorway and I fell, I almost couldn't type earlier, it was horrible.
That's part of what the spaz text was. That, and all I COULD do really. (worry) I know I don't have it worse than EVERYONE, but it boiled over...
I did get a phone to tide me over until April, and I'm feeling a little better, but I've noticed (unfortunate to my best friend and I'm sorry) I'm extremely on edge, and currently overthinking things more than I usually do.
PEOPLE ALL AROUND THE GLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOBEEEEE
Posted 10 years agoLEMME SEE YOU HIT DE FLOOORRR, NUMBAH ONE QUESTION ISSSSS.... WATCHU KNOW BOUT DAT 2x4
HELP ME THIS IS MY NEW JAM OMFGThoughts of commissions...
Posted 11 years agoI'm considering opening up some type of commissions, because I really need a plane ticket, and I'm only about halfway there. I'm not sure what to do though, but I have ONE idea...Since January is SuperHero month in Australia (I BELIEVE) and since there's a bit of SuperHero stuff going on where I am, I'm debating "templated" commissions of your character as a SuperHero or SuperVillain!!
Should I do that? What others would you like me to do?
Happy New Year 2015!!
Posted 11 years agoHAPPY NEW YEARS!!!
I'm a mix of emotion right now...
I dunno if anyone reads this, half the time I doubt it. I'm happy, but down. Good mood, but sad... It's 2015, and I've got no one to spend it with, but my best friend on Skype... I can't hug her, can't kiss her, can't be there... And yet, I remember that I'm still working 2 jobs, paying my parent's bills, and have nothing to save for, to prove it all... I can't go anywhere, do anything, I have no life...
And yet at the same time, I try to be in a good mood, all the time. I hold this... happy image that I'm not sure is holding up much more. I love my job, but could do without the people. I love my parents, but could do without their bills... I LOVE MY BEST FRIEND, but can definitely do without the DISTANCE that holds us apart...
I promise I'm in a good mood, I am!! I'm glad to see the first year of 2015! Glad to say I completed a goal! HAPPY that the new year doesn't mean a NEW ME, but new beginnings and endings, new chances, new choices, a NEW YEAR. I'm not one of those NEW YEAR NEW ME people, but I'm happy that the New Year is here.
Sorry, End rant.
HAPPY NEW YEAR 2015!!!IUFHBCIWOSHDLWIH
Posted 11 years agoJUST OMFG EJIHBCLIUHBEDLIUCLFIGCUEULCIUHBJE
I'm tired of things not going my way. I'm tired of my best friend hurting and me not being able to do anything. I'm tired of working 2 jobs for nothing. I'm tired of being treated like crap. I'm FED UP!!
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I'm tired of things not going my way. I'm tired of my best friend hurting and me not being able to do anything. I'm tired of working 2 jobs for nothing. I'm tired of being treated like crap. I'm FED UP!!
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FUCK MY LIFE FFS
Posted 11 years agoOMFG Have I ever had just such a rotten week, night, ugh. Starting Monday, I was sick. Like, SICK sick, to the point where it hurt to move. If I sat up, I had headaches. I became friends with the toilet a few times as well. I felt better Tuesday, with slight headaches, but I could move, etc. Wednesday, I dealt with my stomach actin up, but I felt much better. Seems all good, right?? Well, I found out that Mom and Dad had started SMOKING again, and boy am I livid. Granted, that's their decision, but yanno, that's money I simply don't have for them to use. I'm working 2 jobs, and trying help them pay bills... It's rough. It irritates me...
Then I find out that people are blaming me for MANY different things (some I laugh at, some not so much) and it just adds to my stress. Thursday, I worked, fighting a raw sore throat. I had to deal with coworkers, which wasn't too bad. I worked into the weekend, dealt with coworkers, and came HOME HOME yesterday (Sunday). I had JUST dozed off a bit ago, only to get woken up by my mother, asking me to help walk dogs. That's all fine, I can help, finish, climb back into bed. Well, we're outside, and the dog SHE'S walking is acting fine, the one I'M walking spotted a rabbit... I tried to warn mom, but before I could finish the word 'spotted', the dog she had BOLTED, popped from her grip, and vanished into the night. So what happened? I rushed to mom, handed her my dog, found the weakest ass flashlight we own (UGH) and go looking, only for her to have already gone INSIDE, screamed at dad, and he's screaming at me. He gets into the truck, and FLOOOOORS it out of the driveway...
He yells at me to get into the truck, get out of the truck, get into the truck. Then makes me get out to get flashlights, and we go back in the truck. I get back in, he floors it so hard that the wheels are squealing, practically loud enough to wake up everybody, and screams at me about the dog. I found the dog, got him in the house, and I'm wide awake now, WITH AN EXTREMELY RAW THROAT ... Why can't things go my way for once? Why can't I get more money? Why can't I do anything right, can't see my best friend, why can't my coworkers understand my situation?? I just want to say fuck it all...Have YOU had CREATIVE BLOCK lately???
Posted 11 years ago Well, maybe this will help you out too!!
Jazza/Josiah has made some real interesting points about Creative Block, and these may help you out too!! I sat here watching, and was like woah, maybe that WILL help! Check it out here!!!
I've found myself having these issues once in a while, so maybe I should try some of these too. Five Nights At Freddy's 2............
Posted 11 years agoSTILL HAS STUFF PUMPING OUT!!! I just went onto Scott's site, only to find that FOXY was next to be revealed!!
WOW, it seems Foxy's a girl now? LIPSTICK?? Makes me curious... Here's the link!! GO LOOK!!!!!!
http://www.scottgames.com/fnaf2.jpgTo-Do List/Commissions
Posted 11 years agoRequests
Personal-Ref Sheet for a friend (OVERDUE)
BrianHanson- Fruit-bat Buster
Commissions
ASK ME BEFORE YOU HAND IT TO ME, AND I'LL DISCUSS!!!
I love you all, but working 2 jobs as it is isn't easy, LOL!
However, I do have $3 Headshot sketches, that I can do fairly quickly, and could be featured as one of my day sketches! :D
