Pure and simple my lil bro Ray needs money and is doing emergency commissions. Please help spread the word!

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4736374/

Ok i am officialy SICK and fucking tired of this horse shit. All this moping around i've been doing. hiding from draco and hanu. Hiding from my friends. I didn't fix my paypal account just to leave it unused.

yes i am going to re-open for commissions and actually try. Currently i don't want to do object renders like peoples stuff. I am however in the mood to try and do scenery work and such. I have a commissions tab in my commissions page put up that explains pricing. Pure and short its $10-$40 depending on several factors. Mainly on just how detailed you really want the image to be. By detail i don't mean lots of objects and shit but actually by how creative you want me to be.


Also another thing i wanted to discuss.
This has been on my mind for freaking ages and ages and ages. I have been getting into a urge of doing a massive and i mean massive collaborative commission involving a lot of peoples characters. Mainly female characters. The idea is simple. All the females are in one image of their own chatting it up moving about while shopping. The other shows the respective male characters related to the fems holding and lugging around all their purchases dreading it immensely. Sound interesting? My only problem is...funding. I was hoping for something as immense as this i would try to fund it myself. My other issue is who the glorious eff would i commission for such a endeavor? GAHHH...anyway opinions on this is greatly appreciated.

Again...i cannot even remotely apologize hard enough to those that i keep leaving in the freaking dirt... All i ask is be patient.

Yeah i don't know what the hell i caught. but its been making me more and more not want to leave the house. whats worse is when i do leave the house and come to the coffee shop i find messages from my mate asking me where i am.....that makes me even more upset and ..yes even sicker. God never been this sick since my Appendix ruptured. Also love dun worry i'm still here. Your punishment for stealing my cookie jar will come shortly! I think i will enlist the aid of hanu as well on this! COUNT ON IT!!

Basically in a nutshell. Nausea, Dizziness, Low grade fever spikes, Abdominal pressure. Yeah seems i'm in for a hell of a party.

Who took my mutha fooking gigaton cookie jar!! because when i find the culprit and catch them. I will shatter their ass into so many languages. Not even the worlds best translator could understand it! mwaahahahha I shall teach this thief not to steal mah cookies! MWEEEEEHAHAHAHAHAHAH

Hmm lets see

 dnamadness 3/3/13 who is now...honestly Haraki you never did tell me your age man! SHAME!

 hanugumo 3/7/12 who is now 24. Another wave of galactic spanks have been sent.

 sparkythechu 3/7/13 who is 25. He became a snack instead of receiving spanks.

 rixxthelarvitar 3/9/13 A recent addition to my friends list. Nice "lil" guy. he is now 18.

 wolfiecanem 3/11/13 Its his BD today. I shall deliver onto him spankings while eating his cucumbers!

 keyblademaster08 A charmeleon pal of mine. Which strangely shares a BD with me on the 13th. 23 he shall be. ohhh goody i get to deliver 23 spanks to him!

 nanakisan Yers truly. mine is the 13th. All spankings must be made privately in the saunas while my love keeps count. Afterwards he is to double all counts on me.

 ryuakira 3/15/13 Oh jeese i have to dispense 24 planetary spanks to this bum. oh what a world this is. ...nah i keed i will gladly dispense them! muahahahah

 warmock 3/23/13 Lazy bunny who forgot to tell me his BD was 23rd. his spankings will be delivered soon.

Last but not least
 zeezy 3/29/13 who will be 23. he's a bit squirmy so i'll need help delivering 23 spanks to this one. Anyone willing to volunteer!


Now with that aside. I've recently decided to try and resurface on Facebook.
you can find me here. friend me whatever. hell poke me for fun. NO not in the fun spot area to. Also please do me one favor. If you add me and make comments. Try to not get "weird". My real family uses FB often and i have a young cousin who i don't want exposed to anything iffy. Shes a sweet girl. lets keep it that way.
https://www.facebook.com/donald.sargeant

Its seriously time i stop being such a fucking recluse... I now owe i think going into 2 years now a trade to  wolfiecanem I seriously gotta kick my ass into oblivion to get done (also don't you dare tell me to forget wolfie!!! hehehahaha). I have so much apologizing to do to everyone i know. :inflatodragoniconxd:Draco is no exception to this. Along with  hanugumo and  blackxuo also including Nate.


As some of you know. 2 years ago my grandmother passed away with me trying to save her only to have the EMTs arrive and pronounce her dead... Then almost 1 year after her passing. My granfather followed suit in the hospital and passed. Since his passing and hers. I've been in a deep relenting depression. I've been pushing people away from me. Even my family...I almost went on the verge of ruining my relationship with my aunt.

As things have come and gone. My grandparents now reside in a memorial wall at Hillsboro Valley Memorial. I've been slowly getting more active. Yet i keep restraining myself. Depression is so hard to get over... I've become obsessed with things on the internet to keep my mind busy. Mostly to help keep me from going insane.

So many bad choices i've made. So many consequences i have to live with. however i just want you all to know i am doing ok. If you wish to reach me. I can now be found at skype as the name nanakisan0. Add me if you wish. But make sure to include your name so i know who it is that is adding me.

What thought i was going to wish you a happy new year? BAH COME COME I'M TO MUCH OF A MAD GENIUS TO BE LOWERED TO SUCH THINGS!!

... happy New Years!

Merry Christmas ninny butts!

Now stop groping my freaking gallery with your freaking claws damn it!! I hate sanitizing after you guys!! SERIOUSLY!...NO CUTE!

My fur bro and dearest friend is in the toughest bind you could imagine right now.

His no good son of a bitch TWIN brother laid him i nthe dirt street with a massive fucking fine of 250 euros that he must have paid shortly or he will serve 1 week in jail. please i urge anyone that reads my journal to help him if you can. learn more here at

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3827742/

Anythign you can do can help. Spread the words. Send some cash. THIS IS NOT A GOD DAMN JOKE!!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x5KxhLmiPbA

enough said enjoy

i have been planning this comic idea in my head for over a month. going over details frame by frame. sadly i want someone with better skills then me to do it. I have no cash...I HATE THAT!!!!! It would be funny as sin!

so let me lay it out for you.
It basically involves me and my mate Draco is on the bench press lifting some weights. Now as per typical there is always some assholes at gyms. They decide to badger him about being small. now here is where i come in. I see out the corner of my eye my love is being pestered so i sneak up behind these guys. In one panel it will show me loming over them with this expression +.=.+ mixed with a bit of anger some sound effects of my knuckles popping with this dialog. "I'm sorry but is there a problem here you two" the next panel shows some sound effects and dialog of them getting their asses kicked the next one after that. It will show one of them trying to crawl away. then the next panel it shows the guy being grabbed back into the fray. on the final action panel this dialog is seen "*SSSSCRRACKK!!* GAHHH!! MY SPIIINE HE CRUSHED MY SPINE!!" when its all said and done the two of them walk out of the door bent and twisted up with me brushing my hands clean of dust and dirt.

blame  zero-shift for this journal. basically all you do is give me various lines in comments. I will say exactly what you write. No exceptions. One thing. I can't do that manly voice he did sooooo i'll just make it interesting for you. truuust me!

God...i've really fucked up..... I mean seriously fucked up... put it short a sweet.... I need 700$ fy the end of this month or i will not be moving to a new home. I want the home but i fucked up with my financials so badly i have nothing left.....

I hate to ask this..really i do but i have no choice. Is anyone out there willing to help?

Please understand this but I do not want you to even think of donating to me if you need that money for yourself or your family. Those two things are a higher priority then me. Know that and understand it. I would feel horrible if i learned that the money you gave me could have helped you or your family.

My paypal is charpoketron[at]gmx.com
Please PM me your name and paypal so i know who sent anything. Do not say anything related in the payment message about FA we all know what will happen....I'm already in paypals bad eye and last thing i need is for them to close my account and yours after you just donated me.

I mean it guys....I DON'T WANT YOU DONATING UNLESS YOU REALLY TRULY WANT TO! I know a lot of people read this and wonder why.... simply put I hate receiving this kind of charity. Its one thing when its a gift but money is hard enough to come by as it is.

DAAAATS RIIIIGHT! 25 now bow before me mortals! MUHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH I shall take the earth as my gift for the day! *looms in the horizon holding the earth* mm i wonder what i should do with my 1 day toy! Ohhh i know i'll call my macro friends and have a game of intergalactic ping pong!

DAAAATS RIIIGHT!!

1st up we have a lovely past HD from  hanugumo <3 which was on 3/7/12 who just turned 23. Spanks for him have already been delivered. But feel free to get this manly cutie over your knee if you can and deliver more!

next comes wait yes you guessed it! MINE! But wait guys theres another! My good charmeleon friend  keyblademaster08 he is celebrating his the same day as me. He will be 22! GO SPANK HIM GOOD! Fer me i shall be 25! EGADS I AM FRIGGEN OLD!!!!

finally we have  ryuakira on 3/15/2012! this guy right here will be 23!

wow why is it everyone i seem to meet seems to be within a week back and forth from my BD? WHY!! I love it!!! Now lets see GIFTS! We the HD's of march demand gifts NAO! So gift us up pleeeease!

""EMERGENCY EDIT""
Seems i learned we have 2 more!
we have  dnamadness who's HD was the 3rd so go hug him!
Then we have the upcoming  zeezy on the 29th! He shall be 22! I shall proceed to get him drunk!

I'm bored and i just learned that SL has gone open beta with mesh importing so i'm stupidly happy with that! I always hated SL's sculpty system. It was a real pain in the ass to use. if you know me. you already might have me on your friends list. If not i'm Almia Thaler

I will be now doing survival island madness with these two  maxcoyote and  dazencobalt

watch the madness. listen to our madness and above all enjoy the madness! FOR WE ARE MAD! MAD I TELL YOU MAD!

http://www.livestream.com/maxcoyotecraft

You know i don't think i ever really personified just how deep of a relation my sona and me have. When i originally made Nanaki he was my real partner in my pokemon games. but i wanted more. I never could reveal my mental state to my friends for fear of what they would think.... basically that story i told about nanaki's mother is in a sense based on the real life story of myself and how things have been for me prior to me living with my grand parents.


So out of boredom i'm going to try and put to words what its like for nanaki to have ikanan. Please keep in mind this is the feral nanaki. this is the real version of my sona. He is totally different in terms of his likes and dislikes to a minor degree....one such is that he is straight and has nothing towards men.


now then...ahem..


There are three sides to a coin.
the first side. My lighter more trusting side that is always seen. I rarely deviate from its path and guidance that comes with being the nice guy. A beacon of power that inspires others. I work for what i look forward to.

However there is the 2nd side. My inner most rage. My passion of chaos. My burning lust for control. That is where he resides. My other side of my face my 2nd face. A being without mercy or remorse. One who when angered will lash out at anyone.

the 3rd side. I am always in the middle teetering on the edge between two sides. I try to keep my balance but will tend to lose it at times. falling off this edge always lands me in a random spot. but i must..i must keep this coin rolling in my mind till it is no longer me that falls but rather the coin itself till it can't be rolled no more.


now to sum up
basically i purposely made nanaki have a very serious form of madness but he manages to keep it in check for the love he has for his trainer Don. If Don had not shown up in his life when he did nanaki wouldn't even be alive. he owes Don his life and works hard to make sure not to upset him....He even went so far as to have his own claws clipped off when he was a charmeleon because he lost his mental control and snapped in the middle of a Pokemon battle. He brutally beat up the poor pokemon forcing Don to lead into the path of his final attack. In that instant of bravery Don received a full on slash attack to his back. When nanaki saw this he snapped back to normal and got on his knees and began crying....he looked at the horrified trainer and the other pokemon he injured..he looked at them so deeply and sincerely as to say he was sorry. the trainer was not fully understanding but he helped nanaki and don to the pokemon center.

Nanaki at this time didn't have the complete ability to speak so his words would sometimes end in char language. He sat by Don's bedside crying over what he had done. He looked at his claws and then stepped out to go to nurse joy. She was aware of nanaki's ability to speak and greeted him with cheery hello. He smiled a little but tears still ran down his cheeks. Looking up at her he gave her a very serious look and then looked at his claws. He eventually tried to say something

"chaar you pleeaaarrse help me so chaarraa char happen again?" Nurse joy was shocked at this. she knew he could talk but never this well. She could partially understand what he was asking of her when he was looking at his claws. She nodded with a small frown and escorted him to the operating room.
Nanaki returns to Don's bedside and the trainer finally awakens looking over seeing his friend finally asleep but covered in tears. but what caught his attention the most was that his hands were wrapped up and then it clicked in his mind what his friend had done. It made him sad but he knew nanaki had his reasons.

From this time on nanaki did get his claws back however he took on a more brawler type style of fighting as he had to resort to punch attacks and such.

You all know me and how i feel about asking help when it comes to money.

I truly despise it...but this is serious. This month is what i call crunch month. I'll be moving from my home shortly and the bills are not gonna leave me enough to live on. my EBT card is spent and my rent is in. The other cash has been sent in leaving me only 20$ for the rest of the month....

I hate to ask this..really i do but i have no choice. Is anyone out there willing to help?

Please understand this but I do not want you to even think of donating to me if you need that money for yourself or your family. Those two things are a higher priority then me. Know that and understand it. I would feel horrible if i learned that the money you gave me could have helped you or your family.

My paypal is charpoketron[at]gmx.com
Please PM me your name and paypal so i know who sent anything. Do not say anything related in the payment message about FA we all know what will happen....I'm already in paypals bad eye and last thing i need is for them to close my account and yours after you just donated me.

NOW GET OFF MY LAWN YOU CAROL SINGERS!!!!!

Because i am such a evil person i hid these from you all for a few days! HATE ME FOR IT AND I SHALL HUNT YOU DOWN WITH MY SHARKS OF EVIL AWESOMENESS!

In this video i display the beer i have drank in the past days.
Reality wise Sapporo for as cheap as it is. is a damn good beer. Same to Kirin Ichiban. But i have fallen quite smitten with Smirnoff ICE. Tsingtao was quite tasty and was surprising that it had no after taste. for 2.19$ a bottle its well worth he value.

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Last but not least i challenge you all to a lovely staring contest! I SHALL WIN ROUND TWO IF IT KILL YOU!



Yes i know i'm creepy as fuck. But you want to know something. I choose to act like that for these videos in the name of comedic SCIENCE! YES SCIENCE THERE HAPPY! CAUSE I AM! NOW ENJOY OR ELSE!

Wow its funny. But i remember actually owning Pokemon red when it first came out. I choose charmander like a yutz because he is cool but also presented the most challenges in the game. Later on it evolved into charmeleon. Then became charizard before i had the badge to tame it so i got his attitude slapped at me several times. hahaha wow...good times.

Now i finally made him a part of me considering the past he and i sorta share. His story that i made for him resembles my own life story to a degree if not exactly only twisted to make sense in the pokemon world. I think i will go ahead and tell the original version of Nanaki's story here.




Many of you know the story of Nanaki the charizard in terms of him getting his growth powers and all. But there was a time i did not have him as a macro loving stud built like a rock. In fact he was and still is a very dear friend to me.
Nanaki: if this gets lovey dovey i'm gonna gag
Don: Just let me tell the story for once you ninny!
Nanaki: hmph *snorts smoke*

As i was saying Nanaki and I have been good friends for so many years. I remember finding him as a charmander that was badly hurt and weak. So weak that he could barely light me on fight when i approached him. I was worried for him. I took him onto my back in the rain and carried him to the nearest pokemon center. I could feel something as we walked. Something horrible happened to this pokemon. I could feel a powerful anger and sadness inside of him and it just made me cry. I wondered if he was abandoned by a trainer but nurse joy told me that this charmander had no records. He was a stray. I was shocked at this, who or what did this!

Later on i collapsed in the pokemon center after getting upset on the news Nurse Joy told me about him being a stray. Worried she had me taken to the guest room and laid to rest. I lay there sleeping dreaming something odd. All i could see was a cave but then suddenly i see a huge charizard. I couldn't tell but it appeared to be female. She pushed me back and yelled at me with roars but some how...I could understand her like it was english! "Nanaki! stay back there! I'll handle this!!" I was frightened to what was happening but then my stomach sank at what i saw. This powerful charizard was suddenly brought down and then carried away by these men in black suits with Red R's on their shirts.

I could feel a sense of emotion that was not mine and thats when i saw him! I saw the charmander i saved earlier! He was in distress. He saw the whole thing and followed the black ship. The dream suddenly fizzles and i end up in a dense forest with a large black building in it. I watched on as i saw the events unfold to me. To my horror i saw the same zard only this time she was different. Then i saw him. I saw that charmander again approaching her. Trying to get her attention only to get hit by her tail and slammed against the metal wall. I tryed to yell at hi mto run to get out of there. He just laid there and took another hit from her and then ultimately she came down on him and bit him in the shoulder....

The sound he made...the horror...the pain...it was to much...I suddenly wake up yelling my brains out only to see a slightly startled chancey bringing me breakfast.

Nurse Joy: my my what a bad dream you lad sir. I came up to tell you that the charmander you brought in is doing ok. However we have a problem. He seems to be very angry and is not letting anyone near him now. You managed to get close to him before it seems. Do you think you can help?

Don:...I..err..sure.."he was to weak to even attack me when i found him...now he is able to hold off Nurse Joy's medical staff?"

I quietly thought to myself a little scared on this situation. I get dressed quickly and rush downstairs to see the commotion. There he was standing shooting flames at everyone that tried to get close to him. I thought to myself again about that weird dream. Then something went off in my head. That name! The name that female zard said. what was it....n..na...nanaki! yeah thats it! Maybe if i call him that it might slow him down. I started to approach the charmander. He sees me and his eyes open up a bit but then they go to the look of anger. I stopped where i was when he fired a flame thrower attack at my shoulder just barely missing it. I look at him with a big smile and talk to him "Is everything alright Nanaki?". The charmander suddenly stops and looks at me in shock giving nurse joy enough time to hit him with a sedative. He goes out like a light on the floor but i stop nurse joy from sending in her team. I take out a pokeball and throw it at him. Nurse Joy was stunned at this! It didn't take long for the pokeball to stop moving. The red light shut off and was proof he was now caught. I pick it up and hand it to nurse joy and say "Nurse Joy please register this pokemon to my name. Also thank you for healing him, I think i can handle him from here on" She just smiles and nods entering the data for nanaki into the system.


Later that day i leave and go to some place secluded and let nanaki out. The charmander comes out of his ball with a loud yawn only to stop and look at me with a very serious glare. I just laugh at him and talk to him "I can tlel you don't trust humans. I can tell from that dream i had. But know this Nanaki you can leave now or you can stay with me and get strong enough to get your mother back. What will it be?" The charmander looks at me awkwardly but he nods as if he understood me and smiles for the first time only to end in a tearful cry as he embraced me and i hug around him.

From there our story began. I had my partner. He had a new friend. It took him another 2 months before he finally trusted me enough to really enjoy my company. But heh its worth it. I got my big lug of a zard now and i couldn't be happier!

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Nanaki:..................<33 *small tears in his eyes*
Don: awww go ahead say it.
Nanaki: NOT IF YOUR LIFE DEPENDED ON IT!
Don: saaaaay it >3>
Nanaki:...don't make me hurt you boy!
Don: aww i love you to! <3 *hugs and then kisses nanaki on the cheek*
Nanaki: !!!!!!!!!!!!!! *profusely blushes*....damn it....<3

This is a special announcement!



















































































I AM NOT CUTE DAMN IT!!!

THAT IS ALL!

nuff said i killed my tenderizer. WHAT WHAT YOU GONNA DO ABOUT IT HUH!