I got my laptop back a few days ago! I'm fixing up a few things before I officially start back up on my previous business', but I just wanted to say to everyone I'm glad to be back ^.^ I've gone through alot of your submissions and glad to say I'm now down to just 9000 or so ^.^;;

I'll start drawing and adding more pics when I finish through the list, but for now, I'm really happy to be back online and to see all of your great works!

ok, so my brother fried another comp and I can't get online much anymore. I have over 100k pics to look at T_T my art has been getting better, but I can't post any of the pics yet. I'm just using a friends comp for now, so yeah, I won't be able to do anything for a while most likely until I can get my own comp.

This means I can't get on SL, FA, DA, or even Gaia... I can't look up my shows or comics or anything. so I'll have plenty to do when I come back to the online world. love ye all! all have fun and please, don't forget little ol' me >.<

I feel really embarrassed when I say, I joined Second Life.. and I have no idea how to do anything! can some one please help me? I would very much appreciate it. I don't know how to equip just about anything, I have problems with moving and other things... my friend got me to join and she won't help me. I'm completely lost so please can someone save me? T_T my name on SL is Cetra Demina.

hopefully that is. I got an internet connection on my brothers laptop, so that means I can finally return to my beautiful furry community! yay! also... sonuva! I have over 10k pics to look at! I better get started when I have some free time >.>
and sorry about this, but I'm just going to nuke the journals. I have over 30k. wow, it's going to take long to clear out this stuff. when I'm done I'm going to post plenty of new pics of my own! I'm so glad to be back, even if it's just partially.

It's been forever since I checked my account here, I miss looking at all your fabulous pieces of art! but I can't get on like I use to... *sigh* I miss having a computer. When I get on next time, hopefully I will have a compy to call my own, and I can look at all the submissions again!....
wow... over 10k already... T_T
that will take a while.. but at least I'll enjoy it. keep up the good work! I will return to comment on everything I'm missing!

Ok, my brother fried my computer. great, he was wearing fleace and he touched my computer trying to move something and it got fried, so I lost all my information (not to mention thousands of comics i loved and saved) and I'm now using a friends comp, he hates furry. so I can't really do anything here anymore until my comp is either fixed or I get a new one. I was gonna upload alot of pics too, oh well.
Ok, so I won't be on for a long while then. I'm going to get back with over 20k submissions, I know it >.<

ok, so I usually stay up at night to get things done. drawing, writing, homework, things like that. I always like watching anime or listening to something while I do so, so I was wondering if anyone had a show or some music I could listen to at night, since I don't know what else to watch.

My Birthday is December 20th! yay! I'm going to say now, I will be 18. >.> yay... >.< I don't want to get older >.<

Happy Non-Care day to me! My family has never celebrated my birthday, but makes sure to celebrate my sisters, dec. 24th. they blame it being Christmas time, they had no chance to get me or do anything for me. >.<

ok, I'm not one to be scared easily... but this is really getting to me...
Really creepy stuff has been happening to me. When I got home friday night, I had to wait for my brother to come home, he was at a birthday party with my sister. So I was home alone. I checked upstairs and the basement. Everything was locked, I left all the doors upstairs open and all the lights on except the hallway light. Due to my original paranoia. I called to get a delivery of chinese food, someone picked up on the line in my basement and started laughing. I went to check, everything was normal, the phone was still on the hook. Everything was shut. I went back upstairs and checked the top floor, all the doors were now shut and the lights off. I went back down, I got my chinese food, but the delivery guy was smiling and staring at me the whole time he left. I sat to eat, the lights upstairs went on, I checked, and my bedroom door was open, and my closet was closed. I quickly went back downstairs to phone my friend, and there was a guy outside my window wavng at me. I closed the blinds and I frantically talked to my friend. Then music started to play next to me, I looked around and it was coming from my room. Just then, my brother and sister got home. Everything stopped. the next day, a news report is syaing that an escpaed psycopath is around my area. Later on saturday night, I started to hear noise from my closet, and it sounded like
"Uuuuuuuuurrrrrrrrrggrrgrgrrrrrggg"
and my brother heard nothing, he then had the gauls to show me Ju-On. I nearly pissed myself when realization hit. I've either really gone insane, I'm to paranoid, or someone is watching me.... and I feel it each day.

other then this, I've been kept away from the online world... I have over 1500 submissions to look at and I guess I have all night considering I'm too scared to sleep.

please, just ignore this. I'm feeling really fragile right now, I'm crying and I don't know what to do. I just needed some place to write how I feel...
my heart hurts so much... I feel so much pain. so many things going on in my head. so much is gone now, I feel so much pain and I want the feelings ot go away...
it hurst so much..

I heard the sound of a toybox playing, it brought back some memories I cherished and I started to cry. I found myself on the computer looking up old things I haven't been to for ages, and people I haven't talked to for ages. The people I can no longer talk to... I feel so hurt, why did they leave? why did they never tell me how they felt? am I that unimportant? shit... I'm not trying to sound angsty emo teen garbarge... I really hurt, and I don't know why...
please, none of you know me well, so please, don't look at this the wrong way, please don't ridicule me for having feelings.

People = Stupid
Furry = People
people who draw anthro art and claim not to be a furry = stupid
I = stupid
debating of something because you have nothing better to do or because you have a strong hatred towards what soemone else likes = stupid
Lesson is:
all of humanity equals stupid, no one is safe from this stupidity, I don't care if you claim to be a "furry, demon, angel, anthropomorphic, robot, elf, dwarf, tauren, mage or human" or anything of the combined, you have stupidity in you, glad this whole debate is done. If you leave because you feel offended by the art, you're just stupid. get over it, eat a cookie that saids "I be an Idiot!"

*eats a cookie that saids "I be an retarded"*
-thank you they might be giants.

ok, I'm not one to get into the whole society buisness, but this is just too stupid, annoying, and quite troublesome.

People out there, talking about the whole "cub" issue, first I'd like to say: Shut The Fuck Up.
I don't care what side you're on; for it, against it, in the middle, or outcasted, if you start speaking of this issue, you put yourself in it, I didn't want to be in it, I just want people to shut up and get back to what this site is about, Art.

This fandom, I don't care what you want to call it; Furry, anthro, or what ever! If you're here, it's because you have some sort of fetish. be it with anthro's, underwear, vore, pissing, scat, gore, cub, pokemon, digimon, beastiality, insects, amphibians, or some new vegetable fetish. so shut up, continue drawing and creating new ideas of animations, not new ways to piss people off. Get over your fucking teen angst and get along. if you want to get back your fucking moral code, fine, don't look at cub art, or what ever, just don't push your ideals on anyone else. Fuck, and you complain about humans.

to dance among the nigthengales on an old Hallows Eve,
to liberate the content of ones sweet relieve.
to knock upon each door,
for candy, nothing more,
would be a tasteful treat,
something neat,
and cavities galore!

But beware the toll of night,
when everyone shuts off their light
for a ghostly figure hunts with most delight.
Rattle does his chains go,
you'll notice just a glow,
before he bites
on this his favorite of nights.
avoid all trouble,
make it home in a hustle,
to your parents reprieve
and have yourself a nice Hallows Eve.

I don't believe it... I was out for a while and I came back to at least 2500 images, and I cleared it all up in a small amount of time! woot! now I need sleep >.<

Well, I would be posting more pics up, but I've been going through plenty of school work and I usually find myself dead tired when I get back home. When I do get a chance to go on FA, I have so many submissions I need to look at, well over a thousand if I miss about two days. >.<
I'm not saying stop posting the pics, gods know I love them all, I'm just saying I rarely have enough time to actually go through everything in one sitting.

I've been trying to draw more muscley pics, and figure out what I'm doing wrong when I draw canines. If anyone can help with some type of set up showing the different ways of drawing a canines head, can you please help? ^.^

"The next part is Filler"

also, I've been thinking more and more about the fact of Fear. Fear is something that bothers me each day, I seem to come up with so many ideas of dangerous situations and creatures that I think my mind is starting to believe that they exist.
I would love to just say "they're not real, it's just a figmant of my imagination!", if only that could solve the problem, but more and more as the days go by, I see these creatures gather and watch me, some have hit me, and I've literaly felt an after effect of the hit. my mind is actually believeing the existance of these creatures that if they touch me, my mind will relay the information as a reality. So I grow a bit more cautious each day, but I keep seeing the Gridoris ( a creature with low intelligence, that all it's good for is to watch things, it actually may be really intelligent, just hiding it, it relays information through telepathy, which throws me completely off on how stupid it really is...) following me... they don't do any harm, if I walk behind a wall they just fly or walk right into it. They do creep the hell out of me though.

My art skills up and left me again. They jumped from my hands and bitch smacked me with a wry smile telling me "I'm going on vacation bitch! and when I come back your hands better be good and clean for me to stay in."

I've been feeling realy dirty lately, my hands have been getting sticky and sweaty and I have been stinking up the place even after a couple of showers. My body has been acheing and it just ruins the mood to try and draw. I know School is starting back up for me, I shouldn't feel bad about it, but everyone I knew has left. I know I was the one who chose to stay behind for my own good, but I feel so lonely... I've been having strange mood swings recenty, from pain, to depression to just plain laughing for no reason. My art has been put on delay until I can get my skills back... again.
there's no actual point of this, I just wanted somewhere to write. thanks for who ever actually read this ^.^
*goes to watch Red VS Blue season 3*

Never ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever EVEEEEEERRRRR will I ever go through another persons favorite on this site! >.< it took me three hours to go through one persons favs, and I still haven't finished looking @___@ I will never do that again.....





hey look I know that artist! *goes through more favs*

I had to delete some certain pics due to my mates request. He asked me a while ago to keep any sexual pics of me and him out of this site. sorry for those who fav'ed them ^.^ I will try and bring up something new soon. It's pretty rare for me to draw yiffy art, but I'll try if I get enough requests for them.

My computer is finally fixxed! WOOT! thanks to a very special lion to me, Kaze Lionpawz. I wouldn't be able to fully come back to the online world.

well, I just got finished checking my e-mail, which I had well over 3k from the last several months. >.< and now I can return to drawing and other things I loved to do. I'll try and post up some new work soon, once I finish hooking my scanner back up.

also as the title of my journal entry states, while going through some old e-mail I came across a letter a friend sent a while back about the new Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles movie coming out in 2k7. I watched the trailer and I loved it! it also made me laugh. this might be old news to anyone who actually reads this, but I just got my internet back! ^.^