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Sony I Hate and Love You
Posted 15 years agoOk so I bought a Sony Bravia 55 inch LCD tv (x810 series) and adore it, but fucking Sony for the love of god please explain shit better in the tv menu. Wtf is "picture" and why the hell would I EVER want to turn it down and get less clarity?
EDiot
Posted 15 years agoEncyclopedia Dramatica's Furfaggotry portal is pure gold. The FA drama about its users is especially funny.
"IM FREEZING TO DETH GUIEZ OMFG GIVE ME MONEY!"
"IM FREEZING TO DETH GUIEZ OMFG GIVE ME MONEY!"
Stupid login
Posted 15 years agoI've been inactive for far too long, as for about the last 2 months I forgot my password and FA's "reset password" thing doesn't work at all.
Sheesh.
Anyways, Kresnorf (http://www.furaffinity.net/user/kresnorf/) moved in earlier this year. He keeps encouraging me to write more, but everytime I try he distracts me with his amazingness. :P
So, yeah.
Sheesh.
Anyways, Kresnorf (http://www.furaffinity.net/user/kresnorf/) moved in earlier this year. He keeps encouraging me to write more, but everytime I try he distracts me with his amazingness. :P
So, yeah.
Finally Got Inspired Again
Posted 16 years agoI'm finally writing again. Tonight I churned out about 3-4 pages of setup for a psychodrama/supernatural horror story.
So far it's about a failed reporter who lives in a small town in Washington and a wave of random and violent crimes are sweeping the city for the first time. On the horizon the worst winter storm in 30 years is coming which will seal the town in the mountains far away from outside help. Newspaper reporters are rabidly covering the story in an attempt to get their big break and interfering with police investigation as victim by victim ends up dead. The main character, overworked and stressed begins to see a mismatched trail of clues that his fellow reporters follow without any second thoughts in their wish to become famous and he launches his own investigation as the needle of suspicion turns to him.
I can only hope it goes somewhere. =P
So far it's about a failed reporter who lives in a small town in Washington and a wave of random and violent crimes are sweeping the city for the first time. On the horizon the worst winter storm in 30 years is coming which will seal the town in the mountains far away from outside help. Newspaper reporters are rabidly covering the story in an attempt to get their big break and interfering with police investigation as victim by victim ends up dead. The main character, overworked and stressed begins to see a mismatched trail of clues that his fellow reporters follow without any second thoughts in their wish to become famous and he launches his own investigation as the needle of suspicion turns to him.
I can only hope it goes somewhere. =P
Mass We Pray
Posted 16 years agoWhat.........the.......fuck?
http://masswepray.com/
And what's even more sad is that unlike the "Flute/Accordion/Harmonica Hero" parody for 360/PS3 that G4 ran for a while (which was easily dismissed), with all the shit on the Wii there's a real possibility that this could turn into a real product. The only thing that gives it away is the terrible pre-rendered screenshots, but still someone is going to make a game like this someday.
http://masswepray.com/
And what's even more sad is that unlike the "Flute/Accordion/Harmonica Hero" parody for 360/PS3 that G4 ran for a while (which was easily dismissed), with all the shit on the Wii there's a real possibility that this could turn into a real product. The only thing that gives it away is the terrible pre-rendered screenshots, but still someone is going to make a game like this someday.
Moved into my new apartment
Posted 16 years agoJust moved into my new apartment about 2 weeks or so ago. Loving it and just got the net last week (and just now remembered that I forgot all about FA since then) :p
I have nothing else to add at this current time except this:
http://i86.photobucket.com/albums/k.....91113-2107.jpg
Fuck yes. =D Anyone who wants to play online (which I do have XBL) can add me: TalkingToaster (I used to be amazing at CoD4 but haven't played it in over a year so I was terrible going into MW2).
Oh and I didn't pay for my XBL (I got it for free,ah the perks of once working at Gamestop and having first dibs to the strange shit you find fallen out of the cabinets there). I've gotten like 4 DS games and a full year of XBL that way.
I have nothing else to add at this current time except this:
http://i86.photobucket.com/albums/k.....91113-2107.jpg
Fuck yes. =D Anyone who wants to play online (which I do have XBL) can add me: TalkingToaster (I used to be amazing at CoD4 but haven't played it in over a year so I was terrible going into MW2).
Oh and I didn't pay for my XBL (I got it for free,ah the perks of once working at Gamestop and having first dibs to the strange shit you find fallen out of the cabinets there). I've gotten like 4 DS games and a full year of XBL that way.
Visit to Kres
Posted 16 years agoSo I'm boarding the plane back home from visiting my mate Kresnorf. I was there for five glorious days (probably the best of my life). We had a ridiculous amount of fun. We went to Six Flags, the beach, a couple of bars... I had the time of my life. But now I have to go back home to the daily grind and no mate to cuddle at night and to wake up with a kiss. =( Gotta board the plane now and I hope to be back for a permanent stay sooner than later.
To Whom It May Concern...
Posted 16 years agoI've been busy. No I'm not dead (though I know certain people in this fandom who may wish otherwise). I just bought a new car: 2000 Toyota Echo. I've been developing my life and buying the things i've always wanted. I'm posting this entry from my Blackberry Storm touch screen phone I bought a 32 inch HDTV and I'm in the process of ordering another commission by one of my favorite artists. I know most will see this entry in one of two ways: 1) I am being arrogant or 2) The reader has better things. However the only reason I post this is to laugh at a certain ex of mine and let him know i've never been better than I am without him.
A Homosexual's Musings on Queers
Posted 17 years agoOk, so tonight my brother and his girlfriend decided that it would be good for me to go on a double date with them to try and hook me up with a friend of their's. I agreed and everyone showed up. Initially I was excited. The guy who showed up (named Trevor) was very cute. However all of that was shattered the minute he started talking. Everything I loathed about the homosexual lifestyle came crashing down on my head. The subject turned to Las Vegas and he did just as every cliche queer before him did: "Oh I love the shopping in Vegas! I also went to a Madonna concert there!"
Ugh. I felt like punching him in the face.
Now, I am gay. I crossdress in the bedroom, I love bottoming, love being cum on, etc etc, insert more dirty stories here. However, I feel no obligation to suddenly have the desire to go into interior design or criticize someone's fashion decisions. It shocks and embarrasses me to see a guy stripped down to a limp-wristed queer who's only goal in life is to get laid with as many guys as possible and buy a bunch of clothes before dying at age 30.
I could feel the hate bubbling in my chest for him by the 10 minute mark and by the time we were all getting coffee less than an hour later I was in hell. I was thrilled when we finally left and I headed back to my brother's house to watch Tropic Thunder. I've never been more relieved in my life. I hated Trevor with every bone in my body. He was superficial, annoying, and so full of himself that I didn't want to be within 200 feet of him, much less sharing a table with him for dinner.
My point in all this is that being gay doesn't mean you have to conform to stereotypes. I see so many guys fall into certain roles when they discover they're gay. They raise their voice to sound girly, they dress girly, they try to adopt girly attitudes, it's sickening. When I discovered I was gay I went through a similar phase, but dropped it when I realized what a douchebag I could become.
So please, pass this on to all your gay friends and tell them to stop being such douchebags. Thank you.
Ugh. I felt like punching him in the face.
Now, I am gay. I crossdress in the bedroom, I love bottoming, love being cum on, etc etc, insert more dirty stories here. However, I feel no obligation to suddenly have the desire to go into interior design or criticize someone's fashion decisions. It shocks and embarrasses me to see a guy stripped down to a limp-wristed queer who's only goal in life is to get laid with as many guys as possible and buy a bunch of clothes before dying at age 30.
I could feel the hate bubbling in my chest for him by the 10 minute mark and by the time we were all getting coffee less than an hour later I was in hell. I was thrilled when we finally left and I headed back to my brother's house to watch Tropic Thunder. I've never been more relieved in my life. I hated Trevor with every bone in my body. He was superficial, annoying, and so full of himself that I didn't want to be within 200 feet of him, much less sharing a table with him for dinner.
My point in all this is that being gay doesn't mean you have to conform to stereotypes. I see so many guys fall into certain roles when they discover they're gay. They raise their voice to sound girly, they dress girly, they try to adopt girly attitudes, it's sickening. When I discovered I was gay I went through a similar phase, but dropped it when I realized what a douchebag I could become.
So please, pass this on to all your gay friends and tell them to stop being such douchebags. Thank you.
Story has been lost
Posted 17 years agoGoddamn Mac saved my story somewhere and I have no idea where. I'm more pissed than anything, especially since it doesn't show up in the history of Textedit. *sigh* So until i figure out where those 3-5 pages of work went I can't continue the suicide story. If they're in fact, lost, I may put the story aside and cannibalize it later for another story (which is where all my old, unused ideas go, as side-stories in other works).
What if...
Posted 17 years agoSuicide is a subject I often think about. I'm fascinated by the idea of someone taking their own life and the mystery of why they did so. So, the story I just started tonight revolves around that. I am mixing in a few other popular subjects in my style, like the hint of the supernatural, the threat of insanity and viewpoints changing our interpretation of a scene.
This new story is about a young wolf named Ral (his identity may change, as Ral is just a temporary character while I iron out the details of the story). Ral is a young troubled male. He is wracked by a terrible seizure when he's 12, he has mild delusions and hallucinations (either due to his seizures or an outside force) and deep-seated psychological problems, inborn due to unbalanced brain chemistry. This all leads to him calmly putting a bullet in his head at the age of 17 (which is not a spoiler, since that fact is revealed at the beginning of the story). This story is not about the end result, it's about how he got there, which I think is a more fascinating trip than the abrupt ending. It's like a drive next to a car pileup. The set up of the wrecks is more interesting than the wrecks themselves, and we look at the wrecks because we want to know what happened, the story behind the deaths.
I hope to have a full chapter written by tomorrow night and posted in the scraps area.
This new story is about a young wolf named Ral (his identity may change, as Ral is just a temporary character while I iron out the details of the story). Ral is a young troubled male. He is wracked by a terrible seizure when he's 12, he has mild delusions and hallucinations (either due to his seizures or an outside force) and deep-seated psychological problems, inborn due to unbalanced brain chemistry. This all leads to him calmly putting a bullet in his head at the age of 17 (which is not a spoiler, since that fact is revealed at the beginning of the story). This story is not about the end result, it's about how he got there, which I think is a more fascinating trip than the abrupt ending. It's like a drive next to a car pileup. The set up of the wrecks is more interesting than the wrecks themselves, and we look at the wrecks because we want to know what happened, the story behind the deaths.
I hope to have a full chapter written by tomorrow night and posted in the scraps area.
A Musing On The Furry Lifestyle
Posted 17 years agoOk, so I'm back on the net and therefore FA. I have a few thoughts to mull over though, and thought I'd do it via a journal.
I read a journal a long while back about an artist I was watching falling out of the furry lifestyle, becoming disinterested and disheartened in the fantasy. I thought that would be my fate about a month ago, as one of the pillars of my furry identity was torn down violently.
I became active in the furry lifestyle in 2001 (when I was 16). I met a dragon back then who I really liked and we remained good friends for the next 4-5 years, though his tumultuous relationships and mine. Then, one day, I decided I loved him. We became mates and about a year later I moved almost completely across the country to be with him.
Mistake number 1.
I thought I was happy, I thought I would never need anything else, but a lot of shit happened. My truck broke down, money became increasingly tighter for me to manage, I couldn't go back to school at all...then the one thing that I value in a healthy relationship began to wane. His sexual interest in me waned until it became nothing. I couldn't get him in the mood or beg him to play with me.
I went for a year and a half without any kind of sexual contact from him. Now I won't lie to make myself look better (even though he probably won't read this journal at all), but I did cheat on him at this moment in time. I won't waste my breath rationalizing it. It wasn't a good enough reason. He of course was furious and treated me worse than dirt.
Mistake number 2.
Then, after an argument involving his truck and his overreaction to a mildly irritating situation, he physically attacked me. At that moment in time, I knew whatever small flame I had burning hoping that our relationship could be mended was snuffed out. I left the house as quickly as I could and severed all ties with him. I should feel bad but I won't. Seven years down the tubes like that.
It was at this moment that I realized just how much time I had wasted in the furry lifestyle. Sure it's a fun fantasy, but I need to distance myself from it and take a look at the big picture. I thought I'd need a furry mate in order to be happy, but now I realize that I just need a normal guy first. If he's into furries, all the better, but I don't need to restrict myself to the stagnation that the furry fandom brings upon itself. Most people in the fandom looking for mates are anti-social loners who usually fail in a real dating situation.
Where exactly am I going with this? I just want to point out that some hobbies in life don't need as much attention as we think they do, and the furry fandom (much like my videogame hobbies) need to be aired out and shelved once in a while. This is the first contact I've had with the furry fandom in about 3 weeks. I want to keep it that way for a while, at least until I've found my footing again in real life. I want to satiate my need for sex, satiate my need for a little self-indulgence by buying myself a new laptop (my old one broke BTW), and a few other goals like going back to school.
Thank you all for watching my profile and reading my stories, but it's going to be a long while before you see another work from me. Have fun you guys, I appreciate how much you've enjoyed my stories and music.
~Nar
I read a journal a long while back about an artist I was watching falling out of the furry lifestyle, becoming disinterested and disheartened in the fantasy. I thought that would be my fate about a month ago, as one of the pillars of my furry identity was torn down violently.
I became active in the furry lifestyle in 2001 (when I was 16). I met a dragon back then who I really liked and we remained good friends for the next 4-5 years, though his tumultuous relationships and mine. Then, one day, I decided I loved him. We became mates and about a year later I moved almost completely across the country to be with him.
Mistake number 1.
I thought I was happy, I thought I would never need anything else, but a lot of shit happened. My truck broke down, money became increasingly tighter for me to manage, I couldn't go back to school at all...then the one thing that I value in a healthy relationship began to wane. His sexual interest in me waned until it became nothing. I couldn't get him in the mood or beg him to play with me.
I went for a year and a half without any kind of sexual contact from him. Now I won't lie to make myself look better (even though he probably won't read this journal at all), but I did cheat on him at this moment in time. I won't waste my breath rationalizing it. It wasn't a good enough reason. He of course was furious and treated me worse than dirt.
Mistake number 2.
Then, after an argument involving his truck and his overreaction to a mildly irritating situation, he physically attacked me. At that moment in time, I knew whatever small flame I had burning hoping that our relationship could be mended was snuffed out. I left the house as quickly as I could and severed all ties with him. I should feel bad but I won't. Seven years down the tubes like that.
It was at this moment that I realized just how much time I had wasted in the furry lifestyle. Sure it's a fun fantasy, but I need to distance myself from it and take a look at the big picture. I thought I'd need a furry mate in order to be happy, but now I realize that I just need a normal guy first. If he's into furries, all the better, but I don't need to restrict myself to the stagnation that the furry fandom brings upon itself. Most people in the fandom looking for mates are anti-social loners who usually fail in a real dating situation.
Where exactly am I going with this? I just want to point out that some hobbies in life don't need as much attention as we think they do, and the furry fandom (much like my videogame hobbies) need to be aired out and shelved once in a while. This is the first contact I've had with the furry fandom in about 3 weeks. I want to keep it that way for a while, at least until I've found my footing again in real life. I want to satiate my need for sex, satiate my need for a little self-indulgence by buying myself a new laptop (my old one broke BTW), and a few other goals like going back to school.
Thank you all for watching my profile and reading my stories, but it's going to be a long while before you see another work from me. Have fun you guys, I appreciate how much you've enjoyed my stories and music.
~Nar
Going Away for a While
Posted 17 years agoI don't like to air my problems publicly, especially on a damn furry website where no more drama is needed. I will say this: it's not your typical furry drama. No bitching about how unfair life is, no complaining about fake depressions or lost e-love.
Anyways, I've been trying to come up with something to say about this situation for a couple of days now. So I'll say this: things are going to change in my life. Dramatically. If I come back to the furry world anytime soon, it will be as a different person. I'm sick and tired of the way I've handled things. I want change. And I want things to be different.
To those who watch my name here for either my smut, my music or my horror stories, I want to thank you all for reading and listening. It's meant the world to me when someone enjoys one of my works, and one day I will come back to continue my work here.
To my friends who watch this space, we'll keep in touch on my phone. Don't be afraid to send me a text or call while I take time to think things over. I'll always respond and be happy for the company.
Anyways, I've been trying to come up with something to say about this situation for a couple of days now. So I'll say this: things are going to change in my life. Dramatically. If I come back to the furry world anytime soon, it will be as a different person. I'm sick and tired of the way I've handled things. I want change. And I want things to be different.
To those who watch my name here for either my smut, my music or my horror stories, I want to thank you all for reading and listening. It's meant the world to me when someone enjoys one of my works, and one day I will come back to continue my work here.
To my friends who watch this space, we'll keep in touch on my phone. Don't be afraid to send me a text or call while I take time to think things over. I'll always respond and be happy for the company.
Car update
Posted 17 years agoOk, so my car is finally fixed and insured, but due to Florida's crappy laws, I can't get it tagged until I come up with almost $230, then I have to spend another $214 on tires, then my second payment for insurance comes around which is another $140 or so, which I will have to space out over 3 paychecks, so it's going to be about 6 weeks before I can even drive my own car.
However, I am writing again. "Test Drive" has been uploaded for your fapping pleasure, with a sequel already planned between me and Kresnorf. I also hope to finish my untitled project about the fishing boat sometime by the end of this month.
Also, my thanks to XBL for being idiots and banning me twice for the same offense. :P
However, I am writing again. "Test Drive" has been uploaded for your fapping pleasure, with a sequel already planned between me and Kresnorf. I also hope to finish my untitled project about the fishing boat sometime by the end of this month.
Also, my thanks to XBL for being idiots and banning me twice for the same offense. :P
New Story in the Works
Posted 17 years agoStill not dead. What little time I get off nowadays is either spent trying to fix my new car, tidying up around the house or on marathon gaming sessions of Xbox Live, mainly Gears of War.
Anyways, I am working on a new story, and the way it's shaping up, I'm not sure if it takes place in the same universe as "03:02", but it definitely has similar themes. Basically, it's about the displacement of a central Atlantic boat while on a routine fishing run. The boat and seven crew members vanish into the what appears to be the Antarctic instantly, their boat frozen solid in the ice. Our protagonist is being watched by some kind of entity for reasons unknown as he staves off frostbite, hunger, and something worse that is loose on the ship.
I believe I've written four pages already and just barely scratched the surface of what this story is capable of. I can't wait to get some time to finish it.
Also, if you'd like, you can send me a friend request at Xbox Live. My Gamertag is "TalkingToaster".
Anyways, I am working on a new story, and the way it's shaping up, I'm not sure if it takes place in the same universe as "03:02", but it definitely has similar themes. Basically, it's about the displacement of a central Atlantic boat while on a routine fishing run. The boat and seven crew members vanish into the what appears to be the Antarctic instantly, their boat frozen solid in the ice. Our protagonist is being watched by some kind of entity for reasons unknown as he staves off frostbite, hunger, and something worse that is loose on the ship.
I believe I've written four pages already and just barely scratched the surface of what this story is capable of. I can't wait to get some time to finish it.
Also, if you'd like, you can send me a friend request at Xbox Live. My Gamertag is "TalkingToaster".
Not dead...
Posted 18 years agoJust...uninspired. Been either too distracted to write anything or busy with work or whatnot. I got promoted to manager at the Gamestop I work at, so I expect alot of my time to be spent there in the coming months. However, I've been itching to get back into writing music again, and hope I can come back sometime.
Ah, the fall lineup...
Posted 18 years agoAh, the first of August. That means that Bioshock, Stranglehold and dozens of other great games are only a few weeks away. Save up your pennies furs, for I need peoples to kill on Call of Duty 4. :P
Xbox Live Gamertag
Posted 18 years agoYes, I'm finally on Xbox Live:
Gamertag: TalkingToaster
I would have been on Live back in January, but I bought my 360 used from Gamestop and I was smart enough to buy the 1 year product replacement plan (PRP). When I hooked it up to my net connection, my 360 failed the Live tests and after two calls to customer support, I found out that the previous owner of my 360 had modded the box and got it banned from Live, so now I was to suffer.
Well after a few talks with my manager at Gamestop (where I'm currently employed), I got him to exchange my 360 for another one. Well, came home, plugged it in and it worked! I'm not on Halo 3 Beta though (don't currently own a HDD, so I'm quite limited to the games I can play), but if any of you have:
Crackdown
Gears of War
Ghost Recon Advanced Warfighter 2
I'm up for a game (I have a month of Gold then two 48 hour trials to use, starting tonight).
Even if you don't have these games, add me and I'll check out the games from my store so we can play a bit.
See you guys on Live!
Gamertag: TalkingToaster
I would have been on Live back in January, but I bought my 360 used from Gamestop and I was smart enough to buy the 1 year product replacement plan (PRP). When I hooked it up to my net connection, my 360 failed the Live tests and after two calls to customer support, I found out that the previous owner of my 360 had modded the box and got it banned from Live, so now I was to suffer.
Well after a few talks with my manager at Gamestop (where I'm currently employed), I got him to exchange my 360 for another one. Well, came home, plugged it in and it worked! I'm not on Halo 3 Beta though (don't currently own a HDD, so I'm quite limited to the games I can play), but if any of you have:
Crackdown
Gears of War
Ghost Recon Advanced Warfighter 2
I'm up for a game (I have a month of Gold then two 48 hour trials to use, starting tonight).
Even if you don't have these games, add me and I'll check out the games from my store so we can play a bit.
See you guys on Live!
Hard Candy
Posted 18 years agoOn IMDB
Um...yeah. I just saw this fucked up movie. It seriously pissed me off and disgusted me for the first 20 minutes or so (pedophile dating is all I'll say about that), but after that I wasn't sure whether to be shocked or happy at what was happening. It's very confusing trying to think about what the director wants you to think about the characters, flawed as they both are. The script was a little weak near the end (too many coincidences and convenient plot turns).
However as interesting as the movie is, I don't ever want to see it again simply because of the pedophile theme that runs through the movie. I was almost physically sick during the first twenty minutes, then I just got pissed off for the rest of the film.
Um...yeah. I just saw this fucked up movie. It seriously pissed me off and disgusted me for the first 20 minutes or so (pedophile dating is all I'll say about that), but after that I wasn't sure whether to be shocked or happy at what was happening. It's very confusing trying to think about what the director wants you to think about the characters, flawed as they both are. The script was a little weak near the end (too many coincidences and convenient plot turns).
However as interesting as the movie is, I don't ever want to see it again simply because of the pedophile theme that runs through the movie. I was almost physically sick during the first twenty minutes, then I just got pissed off for the rest of the film.
It's fucking hot here...
Posted 18 years agoYeah first entry is me bitching: it's hot here in my house so I'm going to go downstairs and play some 360. Have fun reading my fabulous journal.
I should be working on new music or stories since I haven't written anything in almost 5 months, but I don't feel like it right now.
Thanks to all of you who have already found my work. I have about 130 other songs that I've written so far, but I'll post them when I feel like sitting down for a couple hours to do it all.
Thanks to everyone who posts a comment or favorites a piece, you will get a complimentary comment back plus a watch. ;)
~Nar
I should be working on new music or stories since I haven't written anything in almost 5 months, but I don't feel like it right now.
Thanks to all of you who have already found my work. I have about 130 other songs that I've written so far, but I'll post them when I feel like sitting down for a couple hours to do it all.
Thanks to everyone who posts a comment or favorites a piece, you will get a complimentary comment back plus a watch. ;)
~Nar
