anyone know some free art programs to useee
i honestly dont have any clue anymore xD

what i use to shade and such has been having a few issues lately and i been thinking 'hmmm, are there other programs'

i have tried in the past to get other programs but to no avail, they wouldnt download etc. so i cant promise i can actually get the programs suggested, but i am willing to tryyy
also i will still use paint for stuff as well, that isnt going anywhere, i just been wondering lately. so no worries.

so if you got any programs, do tell! ^^ i'd appreciate it :D
try to keep nice~

sorry about that, i had gotten to the point i was just like 'just post em'
posted and now i have much cleaner posts folder :D to start the new year without so much 'to be posted' pics xD

but ye, once new year comes here, i have a pic for it and that is all for posts for now ^^
but as for the flood, the old art for what i know is all posted! :D (other than certain exceptions but mree!)

Family member has been taken to hospital, won't disclose what is going on but mrewww
in a bit of panic mode and kinda mrew rn, so a headsup for messaging!

Happy Holidays to ya all! :D <3
Wishing you all well for the time of the year, wish you all have a lovely and safe holiday season! C: <333

Also, here is a lil something for you all, from me~
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Kym-ALAZT5U

okay, so i just went looking at my previous giftmas pics, and wow, just pics i made last year, wow it feel so long ago.
this has been one looong year.

but yeah, to update, i am still in a bit of pain, slight sickness, mrow. kinda feeling no pain but tons of pain at the same time, it's hard to describe now. (also having baaad headaches, but at least my heart is doing a work!)
a fair bit busy, figuring out steam and how to stream (got obs & streamlabs now). i did a stream for like 7 minutes on picarto the other day to give a test, was neat! (no one showed up, but mrew, i was primarily testing x3)
gonna stream to my twitch as well eventually, once i can figure out (or am taught) how to stream games properly x3
so mew, a bit of positive news to go with the negatives, mew!

this has been a very long year, things that happened in just december 2017 feel so long ago now. usually i feel a year as fast, this one however just doesnt wanna end. it's like living in a nightmare, a neverending one at that.

so uh, i cant think what else i was gonna say... uh, update over for now then, mew?

bork, just got steam, mreee (feel free to add me if ya wish ^^)
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in other news, immense back pain for over a day now.
verrry hard to move around and walking is AAAA
i would describe with more words, but i am exhausted, so little sleep with the back being so rawr

also a bit sick, so mew, all the fun

Hello! The last few years it's essentially become a tradition for me to do, Giftmas. It's where I make a pic for a special friend/person in my life each day up until December 25th, all December long.
Well, the problem with doing that is I am worn out very much each year doing it, so much so I still havent fully recovered from last year's. So this year I have decided to make the decision to only make 12 images '12 Days of Giftmas' if you will. the twelve days leading up to the 25th are when I plan to do em!

My apologies for those who won't like the idea, but I felt I should do it this way instead for a while now. I become far too overwhlemed to do daily art in general, let alone the high detail I do for much of Giftmas. Keep in mind, I am still in an art block as is AND i am quite busy already with my videos and MUCH more... Ah well, hope all is understood! Have a great month everyone! :)

responses slow for a day or two, being away!
will try to respond to whatever i can when i can! *no guarantee of internet so mew, but i will try!*

sorry, didnt think plans be so sudden o-o

A very happy birthday to my two older sisters! :D (Ye, they be twins ^w^)

The rains have already begun to touch upon my area, thus day 1 begins... joy.
Not even a month since Florence and another is coming right for my area. (in the next few days it'll move over my area, direct path's are just grand xP)

It's not a direct hit on the Carolinas this time (as in it isn't making first landfall in them), but considering the weakened infrastructure already and the state is still recovering, this won't help.
Even the gentle rains the other day were enough to bring the road back to flooded, we had that much water in the area still xP
Now we're getting the rains (and winds) off of whatever Michael has to throw at us.

I very much hope the hurricane weakens fast and doesnt sit around like Florence did.
Florence was terrifying, this I hope doesnt get as bad, even if it's the same category.

To all my friends who are in the area affected or to be affected, do stay safe! I will try to as well.
Sucks it made a complete turnaround and is coming up our way, but I hope all you stay safe! Remember to heed the warnings, they're very important!
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I also make this journal to let people know why I would be silent, i do suppose the power to go out again. (Even in gentler storms it goes out, sooo yeah)
Likely won't be able to communicate but I will try to respond and update whenever I can!
Sorry for any inconveniences!

Me and quite a few people in my area have already prepped up, it's astonishing seeing how fast people have done so this time around! Shows people have learned for sure.

Just felt to let you all know ahead of time as to what's going on, like last time.
Take care everyone, love ya all! *big hugs*

Well, I was going to make a journal or pic or something else, but i made a video about it instead, you can see here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Wt43DQXVTk4

but yeah, i made a video to explain things as i know some were wondering and concerned, so i made it to try helping out in explaining things
Hope it helps explain some things and some of my experiences!
just a warning, it has my voice, so, if you no like that, sorry ^^"

and cora, i hope this works :o you wanted me to update everyone on things, so here ya be :o
if ya wanna know anything else, do lemme know! (you all can comment, pm, anything)

It's begun to affect my area, so while I still have power, I say this: Love you all

It's been a year or maybe more now but I still wanna change hero's design. Been drawing her lately and i really think of it lots when drawing, but I wanna change up her design~ Something just don't feel right so far :o
I think she need a bit of a overhaul, kinda like how Shea did and Kuna and a few others.
Hero isn't my fursona, Nattie the lynx is, but I still wanna use hero in some art, but her design just doesnt feel right to me :o

I've got a page full of designs Cora did about a year ago (maybe more) of some potential design ideas (she even wrote she had a second page being made XD): http://www.furaffinity.net/view/24706913/
Not sure which tho to use o-o
Of course, if you wanna help and make a new design as well, I would very much appreciate it :)

I'm thinking something more natural in colours like more of a real poom colours, except maybe (just a maybe, not certain) keeping the rainbow tail and mood tripe to some extent. If the design works with it, may even add the purple/coloured hair in too :) I also may still add a flower, but it depends on if it works well with the design~
The difference between the brown of her fur and the underbelly colour really mess with me since getting the new computer. But I don't know what to do, I am not good at designing, like at all.

So, is there anyone who could help? :o
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Speaking of the mood stripe, i was thinking of a redesign on that too, I think i need help with it XD Can anyone go and make a mood stripe with colours that make more sense and cover emotions more properly?
When drawing Hero yesterday i noticed the lack of choices and lack of emotions :o So yeahh, the whole thing could be changed, all the colours and emotions and such.

Even if the design of her isnt decided on, maybe the mood stripe could be, could be a nice step~

Here is Hero's current ref and the current mood stripe colours: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/27262484/
If ya think you can help, I'd very much appreciate it! :)

okay, there be MANY issues really, but mew, here is just some.

1. currently my hand is still cut and i am trying NOT to overuse it to let it heal. (thus i am not drawing too much lately, plus art block)

2. been desiring to take a break from art for a few months now, i really just havent felt like going all out on art like i used to. been a problem and lately talked it out with some good friends and they told me i should take a break if i feel i need to, thus i am. (especially with all the emotional stuff i gotta do with now xP)

3. two of my cats are dying, i don't know why. it pains me to see them this way, they are now very thin and hardly moving. they were just fine the other day.

4. family issues (relates to #1)
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would elaborate but i am not in the mood currently. so for now i shall catch up posting old art i HAVE had in my folders for a while now, they mock me by sitting there xP

so yeah, all you who been wondering of my silence, here is a few reasons for it xP
it is much more detailed than this but i am not really in the mood for writing more, plus it's extremely hot

*UPDATE 25/6/2018* Both Snuffles and the other cat have both died now... (these being the cats i mentioned) It really, really hurts...

*UPDATE 29/6/2018* Now the brother of the one who died around the same time as Snuffles had is also dead. both brothers were children of Snuffles, it's awful...

*supreme title writer award goes to nattie*

but yes, odd day of lots of stuff for me.

woke up VERY early, it was like 4am (usual but still early compared to lately xP)
then i went online after obvious stuff of waking up etc.

Finished the final touches and editing of my video for the week, my review of Moana (thanks to Cora's suggestion!~) (you can see the video here if interested~ https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hHe6XSlV95o )
and also the speedpaint, which i tried to keep simpler for the sake of my sanity xP (currently am not too well personally, but mew!)

Went on FA soon after this to catch up on messages n such, faving whatever, theeeen found sad news in a journal of the three legged kitten Nemo dying :c
that made me quite sad to start the day

later because of my brother graduating and having that ceremony tonight, i had to go nap so i could actually stay awake for the ceremony.
What was odd for that (because i am used to sleeping odd times xP) is that i had a dream during that nap involving Annie of all people. Won't go much into it here, will only talk about it if she wishes to knowwww

Woke with Blue October's 'I Hope You're Happy' in my head again, odd how often that gets stuck in my headdd

but yeah, woke up, wrote that down (i write my dreams down sometimes because some are good pics and stories ideas C:), then got all dressed up for the event. it being 6pm by this point, got to eat half a pizza before being told to get in the car and off we went, remember i JUST woke back up at this point, i was slow xD So here i am, completely exhausted and having huge headaches etc, and now off i go to a crowded event :P

alright, so the ceremony happens and all, some names i actually recognise, despite not being in public school since like middle school (the first year of that btw, and only for like six months, but long story) Odd i knew some people who still were in school, apparently some were held back, but cool to see them again! :D (not that i spoke to em, i couldnt, they were amongst the crowd at the end XD but still cool!)

my little brother (who is the one graduating) actually got a big ovation from the graduates when he went up, who knew he was popular :P like 1/3rd the group cheered loud XD

but yeah, started raining once the diplomas went out and fireworks went off (LOUD BTW, i was standing not even thirty feet away at the time the first went off XD) but yeah, rainnnn. lots of inside jokes were told in the speeches even, like the infamous bat incident that closed the school for a day (bats practically took over the school :P)

Aside the injokes no one would know, the event finished, even got to hug my brother, kinda resembling when i hugged my older sister when she graduated eight (or so) years ago ^^ but yeh, mew! that be my day essentially, at least publicly.

sorry if i was quiet most the day xP had to prepare~
but mew, i back, now i need sleep, huge headache and SO sleep deprived, it's not even funny.

In the last news, I found out Anthony Bourdain died.... that really shocked me, i only just found out as i typed this :c

*guess you know who i stole this from ;P yes you, rainbow butted yet silent lioness in the corner ;P*

1. what’s your gender?
Female~ (Cora knows xP)

2. what are your pronouns?
She/her

3. is your family accepting?
Nope (my brother claims he is, then goes into homophobic talks later xP)

4. what do you wish you could tell your past self?
To be accepting of myself more often, I kept denying myself for years that what I was feeling was true about myself, I always kept denying that I could have ever been the way I am today.

5. what is your sexuality?
Asexual, panromtanic tho.

6. favorite color?
Purpleeee :3 Rainbows too ^-^

7. sun gay or moon gay?
(i honestly have no idea what this means XP)

8. when did you find out your sexuality?
I always noticed for years that i liked certain things and even noticed my asexuality years before finding out what 'asexual' was, i even invented my own word for it because i didn't know if it had a name XD soooo, sometime before 2013 I would say (that's the earliest year I remember many things)

9. how was your day?
Sleeeeepy, been up before the sun even got up :P

10. do you have any gay friends?
Allllot, most my friends seem to be lgbtq+ of some sort :o
Of course, there be the non-gays too, but seemingly many of mine are the gay xD

11. what’s your favorite hobby?
Art and video making :3 (also writing, but that's been incorporated into my videos nowwww~ so i blend it innnn)

12. who’s the best gay icon in your opinion?
I would say many because i dont do specific 'this one person is best' thing

13. which pride flags do you like the most design/color wise?
The Rainbow Flag is a clear and obvious first choice for me XD Asexuallll (and ones centering around asexuality in general fyi), the pan one i like too, and the bi one is very nice (i would say all the flags, but mew xD)

14. are you openly out?
Sortaaaaa, not to the vast majority in my public life, but mew (southern living 'ya'll' xP)

15. are you comfortable with yourself?
Eh, for the most partttt

16. bottom or top?
I am a switch bby ;P I am usually a sub, but I dont mind being top x3 <3

17. femme or butch?
Depends~

18. do you bind?
nu

19. do you shave?
i WANT to, but got no razors currently xP

20. if you could date anyone you wanted, who would it be?
*coughcough*

21. do you have a partner (s)?
*COUGHCOUGH*

22. describe your partner (s)?
*C O U G H C O U G H*

23. have you ever dated anyone of the same sex?
Mrewwwww, complicated

24. anyone of another sex?
mewwwwww

25. pastel gay or goth gay?
Can be either~

26. favorite dad in dream daddies?
The goth one~

27. tell me a random fact about yourself?
I like history and architecture and learning of mythology? (you said random XD)

28. do you own any pride flags/merch?
Nu :c I got one tie-dye shirt that is all rainbowy, but nothing like DIRECTLY pride related.

29. have you ever been to a pride parade?
I WANT TO! D:

30. any advice to someone who isn’t out or who are exploring themselves?
Many of my closest friends that I've known for yearssss have come out as some form of gay, especially lately. Even when they came out, I never treated them differently, in fact MANY of the times, i was the FIRST to know and FIRST to support them and give them advice. I don't turn my friends away due to how they love. So please, if you think your friends will hate you or something, please don't think ALL your friends will, there will be some of us that really do care for you and want to help you. We are here for you <3 The ones who don't aren't true friends, a true friend would stick by your side, especially during such a major life moment such as coming out, they would be there to help you <333

Yeah, wanting to add a flower to Hero's design still~
stuck on what flower she should have, so if you got suggestions, lemme know! :3

if you wish, you could even draw hero with a flower (or if you wanna give the option of multiple) flowers in her hair! :D

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/27406243/
this person is selling bases to help their three-legged kitten live a good long life.

please see if there is some way you can help, doesnt gotta be buying the bases, you can always donate.

(yes, i found out of this from Emie)
also, i dont normally do journals like this, but this is a very special cause that does mean a lot to me, especially after recent events with some of my own kittens.
so this really hit close to home for me.

Stolen from my usual rainbow-butted feline friend

About

Name: Natasha
Nickname: Nat or Nattie
Location: In a world of pure imagination
Age: 19
Height: idek
Zodiac sign: Scorpio
Any pets: Many kitters
Fun fact: I love ramen

Identity, Sexuality & Personality

Gender identity: Female (trans, mtf)
Sexuality: Panromantic Asexual
Romantic/Sexual preference: Women mostly (of course, i AM panromantic, so all. but yeah)
Relationship Status: owo gay with Cora

Routine

"Early Bird" or "Night Owl": I sleep in the day and awake at night, idk
Bath or shower: Batheeee
First thought in the morning: What woke me up THIS time
Last thought before falling asleep at night: ughhh, can i fall asleep toniiiiight

School/Work

Do you work or are you a student: mrew
What do you do well: Art (i think), making videos, writing
Where do you see yourself in 5 years: Meow

Habits (Do You...?)

Drink: not legal age yet due to the stupidly high drinking age :P
Smoke: Never and wouldn't want to
Do drugs: :P
Exercise: eh, when i am able xP
Have a go-to comfort food: Pizza, Hot Dogs, Hot Pockets, White Castle, Spicy Nacho Doritos, Fish fillets
Have a nervous habit: Mrew?


What is your favorite…?

Physical quality (in yourself): my roundness
In Others: mewwww
Mental/emotional quality (in yourself): uh, mew?
Food: Same as my comfort foods xD
Drink: I mostly drink water but I cheat some days with Fanta ;P
Animal: Kitters of all sorts, wuffs, foxes
Artist/Band/Group: Nate Ruess, Imagine Dragons, Green Day, Blue October, X Ambassadors, Coldplay (among many more)
Author/Poet: uhhh, the ones who write the warriors books? o-o
TV Show/Anime Series: Adam Ruins Everything, Mythbusters, Cobra Kai (sort of counts), Top Gear, Taxi Brooklyn, When We Rise, Queers, The Real O'Neals, Doctor Who, The Crown, Vikings, Knightfall (and more)
Actor/Actress: I tend not to judge a movie/show by who was in them, but on the show/movie itself. But if i had to say one, Robin Williams.

Yeahhh, so i did a introduction thing for my channel, I felt like making one ^^
been long enough for me to make one anyway xD

But yeah, be warned, nattie voice!
also, i tried new editing tricks n such, i kinda like it for a first time thing xD

So yeah, in the end, there ya are! little introduction thing for my YouTube channel, or at least my main one :3
It was meant to be quick, so i apologise if i missed out on anything. You are always free to comment qith questions if you need any answers to stuff~
Hopefully with the video some things can be explained for you however :3

btw, videos on my main channel, no matter what the day, go up at 8am EST (my time zone) Unless i had to split in two parts, then i post an hour apart.
So yeah, convert that to your time zone if you wish~

oh and side note, i apologise for my voice, one it's so hard for me to listen to myself and edit (and time editing to images etc), and two lately i have been having this issue with my throat the last few days? Not sure what it is but it's rather painful and hurts to talk too much, so i apologise for that xP
but i voiced anyway since i felt it'd be a quick and easy thing to do xD (plus it seems some like hearing my voice, by what one of my polls found)
I am trying to rest my throat, kinda hard though when my neck has been having these odd but sharp pains lately for over a week now. but yeah, no worries, i am resting up how i can :3

You can watch it here :) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vZKIwERW1tI
You can also see the speedpaint for the art included here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BzPgEbhXRo4

Yeah, this week I finish what I had started with the Brother Bear reviews last week, and this week I review the music.
I wasn't able to do voicing for it this week but I may try in the future to do voicing again for it. So no worries, you dont gotta be warned, there is no nattie voice this week xD

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Also, been becoming more comfortable with voicing in videos lately, and I was wondering if you all approve that I should voice more often in videos or not.
Because I may like it increasingly lately, but I don't know what you all think. So lemme know!
There may be a poll on twitter/fb or wherever has a poll feature, and you can also just lemme know via comment/note/etc regardless xD

may be having a slight issue real soon and may be without power for a month or two unless this thing goes through xP
so if it goes out i leave this message now so everyone knows!

Cora, remember me cares for you, i know when i vanish you worry so i wanna say this now ^^
Take care please, you know me dont want you hurt <3 *huggles*
Me very much care for you and love you ^w^ <333 You a very good kitter, you do me proud :) <3

same with other friends, take careee ^-^
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me will hopefully return when able.

otherwise i do hope this doesnt happen XP but in case it do, i give headsup on things~
Also, even if this doesnt go down, it is still good to make sure your friends take care and stay safe <3
so ye, that part be special message to all you lovelies ^w^ <3

Saw this in a journal by Myshanti and felt like doing it myself :P

N = Cool person
A = French kisser
T = Easy to fall in love with
A = French kisser
S = Damn sexy
H = Freaking hot
A = French kisser

Hm, i saw a pattern there, anyone up for some French kissing? :P (jk, idk if i do that XD)
Now the other letters, ehh maybe cool? like if i get a air conditioner i am one cool kitter. Easy to fall in love with? maaaybe? idk from my perspective xD. Damn sexy? well if you like mah sexeh bodeh, then sure xD Freaking hot? oh definitely! It's so hot here! without ac or a fridge/freezer, definitely!

A = French Kisser
B = Good Kisser
C = Will kick your ass
D = Very very easy for people to like you
E = Crazy as hell
F = Loves it hard
G = Can kick your ass
H = Freaking hot
I = Everyone's best friend
J = Hot
K = Crazy
L = Beautiful eyes
M = Very good kisser
N = Cool person
O = Different
P = The best at all sports
Q = An animal lover
R = Beautiful/handsome
S = Damn sexy
T = Easy to fall in love with
U = Will make you laugh till your sides burst
V = Most amazing kisser EVAR!
W = Makes people laugh
X = Never lets people tell you what to do
Y = Can be funny and dumb at the same time
Z = Loved by everyone

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i tag Lindsey, Cora, and Ree (maybe servus or cas too) ~but only do it if you wish toooo~

I reviewed Brother Bear, which is one of my chilhood movies, one of my faves too, let's see how it holds up xD
It is split up into two parts because youtube's fifteen minute time limit :P

but yeah, here they are: (beware, they include Nattie voice!)
Part 1: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mhux-tsxQIE
Part 2: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mbQfyAXgBP0
(you can still mute the videos and read along if you prefer that more~)

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Here is also the speedpaint that I made that complies many days and hours of footage down into the fastest my computer could handle XD
Speedpaint: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BzPgEbhXRo4

(i was busy making the speedpaint in time yesterday that i forgot about making a journal, sorry xP)

yes, i like to participate in the silly sometimes :P
btw, it's may, hows your may's coming along?